StarStruck

Having two girls in my rotation at the moment The girl I'm talking about I will be meeting at a party on friday. Another girl, who's phone number I got, I will be having a coffee date next week. To the outsider it sounds like I'm doing good. Trust me, I will fuck this up. I just care too much lol. For me results don't matter, I care about growth, and letting go of neediness, bad conditioning, to become whole (being). I just fucked up too much so I decided to focus on myself. It is not going as quick as I want, but I know I can't force this process. It is a matter of development of consciousness; and consciousness can't be pushed. I really have to accept so I can let go which is very counterintuitive to my nature. Perhaps I should stack up on meditation because I really don't feel good about my socialization: I can't enjoy the fruits of my labor because my inner game has a hard time catching up with my outer game. The bottom is... I do get the theory, it is just hard to live it, to be it. I'm a perfectionist so perhaps I expect too much from myself considering my problematic background, I have to be smart about it and baby step my transformation and paradigm shift.

Girls tell me I'm too much in my head, that I'm thinking too much. I guess it is so obvious I guess. I'm thinking about the theory of game I guess (thinking about not wanting to come off needy and such). My inner child is very needy and sabotages and ruins a lot interactions I have. Yesterday a girl was very interested in me and I just blew it by chasing her too much while she was chasing me from the start. I'm kind of sad about that. Currently doing my best to shift from having to doing to being. Being = just being my natural authentic self aka just being myself as they would say in popular culture. It really strikes at the heart of my problem: my bad childhood, bad conditioning I received in my life. Currently just trying to accept where I'm at (with all my deficiencies) and the (difficult) path I'm destined to tread. Just having trust in the process is key, but that is a huge issue for me: having trust.

I’m so much in my head. It is hard to get out of it.

These exercises really help to ground yourself in the body. It especially helpful when sexual tension has build up in the body. It is basically energy stuck in the body. Obviously sexuality is part of human nature but people who do no-fap do it for a reason which I don't have to explain here. I do it to fix my dopamine receptors. Transmuting sexual energy has given me immense energy in other parts of my life. Try it for yourself and see what happens. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=X_8AbARIXKE&t=635s

It gives me explosive power and sharpness. It is hard to wield but doable.

Update of the two courses I took After having finished Todd V's and Julien's program, I can clearly tell that Todd V is stage orange and Julien is green with some minor stage yellow. What Julien teaches really fits like a glove if you are stage yellow or have aspects of stage yellow. To put it frankly I find Todd V arrogant, nerdy, robotic and just a nuisance. His mannerisms are fake and he is not authentic. He is obviously autistic and the tragicomic part of all of this is that Todd V talks about the uncanny valley effect and how bad that is for your PUA endeavors but he clearly has that effect and he is not aware of it: My view of Julien has pleasantly changed. He really has the X factor in the RSD family. Tyler is just all stage green without much less yellow compared to Julien. Tyler is deep green (and obviously overcompensating) and it is sometimes hard to follow what he is saying because he is so chaotic and all over the place. Julien doesn't have this because of larger stake in stage yellow.

I don't understand why Leo hasn't covered the archetypes. It is at the center of his work but he never talks about it and thus is work becomes confusing for people who don't know about it. It is the elephant in the room.

It is a shit test, she is insecure so she wants to find out if you are secure and she is poking holes to how you react. How you react is key. You could flip the script and act like she is weird instead of you being weird. Or you could turn the situation into something funny or charm her and make her feel good when she is deep inside insecure. Defeat her with love.

In his latest video that was taken down he said he was busy socializing trying to enjoy it more.

@Mysterious Stranger that is really nice

Last couple of weeks I made a shift from "doing" to "being". I'm finally getting a little taste of what this means although I still haven't fully embodied it yet. I'm socializing with less effort, I got a phone number and she agreed to drink a coffee.

Because of Turkish electronic warfare and stealth capability. Russian air defense can’t detect them. Turkey making air to air drones too which it will introduce very shorty so it can take control of the skies.

If Russia wants to be understood he should try to understand others. He is poking his nose in other people's backyard like in Syria which is Turkish sphere of influence. He shouldn't be dumbstruck if others poke around his own backyard as a response. As we speak Russian soldiers are smashed by Turkish made drones operated by Ukraine, and rightfully so.

If you have an iphone you can program your phone so it only notifies you an x amount of times per day. I have it programmed that it only notifies me 3 times per day. You really have to be proactive with technology, otherwise it will dominate your mind.

I don't get why people are acting like solipsism is something cutting edge and that Leo says something new like pulling a rabid out of his ass. The holy spirit has been something that has been around for ages since Christianity. And that is a mainstream religion: yea, people don't understand the implications but that is a different topic; Leo just explains the implications and nothing more. If the holy spirit unites all, that means there are no empty suits. Holy spirit = archetype mother = mother nature = everything that is manifest across the board =/= no empty suites across the board

which psychedelic did you take?

@Javfly33 how did you manage to do that? I have taken lsd a lot times and I still had the urge after the psychedelics was over

Leo is bringing out a course? On what subject? And will be the price? Personally I don’t like courses. Just give me that damn book he suppose to finish. If you want something for nothing that is a huge issue. You need to stop doing spirituality and fix that issue because you are only hurting yourself. @machiavelli

Putin is a wreck loose and Russia is a declining power. This war was bound to happen. I’m just happy he chose a non NATO country instead of attacking my home country or a country in the Caucasus. Ukraine will be his graveyard. The price the Russian army and economy will pay will be huge, and after that a civil war or worse will unfold or even worse. George Friedman has a good book on this subject. With or without Ukraine, the Russian federation will disintegrate because of demographic and economic decline. We are not in WW3 but it is only a matter of time that Putin will have to be dealt with because this war in Ukraine will put Russia in crises and people will be at each other’s throat. NATO will have to push in Russia to stabilize it in case of a Russian civil war and disintegration of Russia but that will be at the end game. One of the reasons NATO will have to push into Russia in case of Russian disintegration will be because of nukes and the danger of it falling into the hands of fringe groups.

That is why I bought NC headphones. Yea they are expensive but they are so much worth it. Usually I put them on with chill vibes and very low volume. I never listened to music for that long since I don’t work or study 10 hours straight but it is definitely something to be aware of. If you have an iPhone it will warn you after couple of hours to dail your shit back a little or it will ask you to take a break. So buy an iPhone and buy NC headphones

Aren't all maps artificial? Maps are there for navigation and usefulness, not realness or non-artificialness, no? Personally I found the chakra system very useful but people tell me to not be too attached to it, but I'm guilty as charged, for now.

Tap into your animal insticts while unconditioning yourself (this is more difficult than is sounds and it needs practise) and you don't need any further advice. Things will solve itself. A lion doesn't need to read a book or open a topic on finding a mate. It knows what to do because that knowledge is in his INsticts.

If you are going through life as a victim of life, life will fuck you in the ass. It will be a self-fulling prophecy. A non-victim wouldn't ask things like "is this fair?". He would say "what can I do to make the most of it?". Get above LOC 200.

For me it is too hard to stop fully. I did it once a week. Then once every 2 weeks and soon I will dail it down to once per month and then once a year. Don’t shock your system. Just do it gradually. That is what worked for me. Also if you say I’m never going to watch porn again. It will be a hard hit on your inner animal. It won’t like it. But if you say I will do it once a month, it is easier to accept for your inner animal.

Loneliness is the result (effect), not the cause. If you want to solve this problem you will have to go to the cause. But looking at your story, you need to get more productive with your team, so you will have more free time to do fun stuff to meet people. This is not easy.