StarStruck

in the heart the male and female energies merge to create the hieros gamos so it is not weird a female was involved. I literally thought she was an angel. I was literally StarStruck. I really had to struggle tooth and nail to not lose myself in that moment (ego death).

I don’t know. I was too overwhelmed and embarrassed by the emotions to ask her anything. In that moment and right after that I didn’t even know what was happening.

But does this also mean one can feel better than an other because of higher level of consciousness(LOC)? When I see people who have bad eating habits, very unhealthy persons physically and metaphysically, I do feel compassion and I don't judge them because I understand them. But does open the door to the question, why would I sacrifice myself for them? They won't understand it anyway. For example Leo said in his latest video that he wouldn't be friends with traumatic people because he values his time. On the one hand spiritual people say all is one and on the other hand we should also be smart about it I think. I'm confused about this topic though.

Like all theory LOC is a map and not the territory. Trying to find or create an infinite map with a finite brain is not possible anyway so I do find the criticism placed on Hawkins a little bit silly. LOC is very useful to navigate the dense lower ego if you are stuck there. It has its uses.

Omg, this is insane. https://youtu.be/pN4LT_f86AU

So In the last few months I have been doing self help full throttle. Especially Darwin Hawkins teachings helped a lot. It helped me to gain construct awareness. This opened a can of worms. I discovers how I project my levels of cossciousness (LOC) onto people. This awareness triggers a lot of shame and guilt!!! I’m an empath I for example project my grief aka trauma (LOC 75) onto people and (for example) asking a girl for a dance becomes very awkward: because she feels compelled to dance with my out of pity(because she can feel my LOC75: grief of not being loved). I observed that empath girls dance with me out of pi try and egoïstisch girls feel that trauma energy (LOC75) and don’t want tot fuck with that. Projection is per definition unconscious so I do have compassion and I allow myself some slack: I need to project to became aware of the construct so it can deconstruct it). Because without projecting you can’t become aware of it and you can’t deconstruct it. So I either have the option to shut myself behind close doors out of empathy(empathy to not project onto others and make them uncomfortable or I can value myself (move toward egoism in the egoism-empathy spectrum) and Jair allow myself to project (be myself) It is good for my self development but not good for people around me who I make y comfortable with my projection so what I’m asking in this topic is basically how to deal with the shame/guilt of projecting. I don’t want others to feel I uncomfortable due to my projections. That being said I’m a very low LOC person. I had. A lot of unspeakable traumas and I’m working to heal those but in the mean time I’m also going t out and I feel so bad that I project my low level LOC: namely grief (my mother didn’t love so can you love me and Amrit hug a right). This is not a nice energy to bestow on people and I guess I opened this thread for advice. Because in notice there is an inner fight between my inner empath and egoist.

True. I’m just doing some egoistic challenges to break the barriers of ego identification.

Somebody with stuffed down trauma shouldn't do 5 Meo DMT. I think this is not said enough on this platform. Ease your way in with friendlier psychdelics before going for the heavy stuff.

A lot of people lack healthy stage blue, he helped a lot of people. I think he is not all bad. I found the video a little bit derogative. Like he is all up there and the muslims are all below and he is there literally on his armchair sofa telling how good the muslims are for a part, and naught for another part. Obviously he is projecting but we are all projecting unless you are fully enlightened which few of us are. The funny thing is that the OP shits on Peterson and calls him out for projecting while you are doing the same thing, by shaming him for shaming others.

How can low LOC people develop themselves so high pff

@Adodd so?

@puporing if you could go back to your own life would you do it?

Feel free to share your structure! Does it have a structure, or a system of processing information? What are the topics of the sections? How do you manage the content? Do you use a lot of pictures or just text? Do you back it up? How do you back it up? How often?

If you have a good personality, have taken care of you, go to the gym and no traumas, if it will easy to find a good man in your 30'ies. But a lot of women in their 30'ies don't do that and they still think they look as good as if they were 22. In dating, you get what you offer. This counts for men too.

By neutralizing your judgementalism against your victimizer: forgiving. By realising the trauma in your body through meditation, breath work, mantra: body work. Just forgiving is not enough imho.

@Devin it is an odds game too

No. That is the dating market. That everybody is sophisticated as you. Unfortunately.

You also have to be realistic on what you can attract as a 32 year old woman. It won’t be the same quality man you could attract when you were 22. This is painful and many people won’t tell you this but it is the truth: a lot of women have trouble accepting this and get bitter. They want the cake and eat it too. You could still compensate your age with personality and other things but that doesn’t change what I said. That is what hot girls don’t get. She will get the best deal in her younger fertile life. Guys also have to deal with realism but it is a different kind of realism.

Don’t focus on what you don’t want. Focus on what you want: self esteem.

Pop some MDMA to ease the LSD trip. I’m going to try it soon.

@Thought Art you are right. Chakras are where meridians cross each other but I’m still confused about which wider map you are talking about. How is this wider map called?

@Thought Art there are 12 dimensions in the chakra system and nothing outside of that.

Not knowing gets you to first order truth, not second order right? I understand the first order. I’m confused about second order: is second order just language or can second order also be truth without language(or symbolism)? Also Leo says we should merge epistemology and metaphysics in his "what is truth video". What does he mean with that?

So first order is basically when subject and object collapses aka the quantum field?

@Leo isn’t first order (absolute) truth sameness and second order (relative) truth separateness?