isabel

how do you know if you are "being aware of being aware"? I'm not experiencing no thoughts and I don't feel like I'm nothing, I don't get the sense that there is nobody there, like they say but sometimes my thoughts slow down and seem very tiny and far away and there is a feeling of being content in my body, is that it or no?

prior to, okay, thank you!

it's my favorite topic too, I will continue my effort, thank you!

when will I see the whole truth? what should I do to make money? what color shirt is nahm wearing?

I'm not that far yet, I'm still trying to know what awareness is I guess, I can only see other things, I can't see myself

right, we don't have awareness we are in awareness or our body is and the awareness is what we really are...but still I don't see myself

I am aware but I don't know who is aware - there is definitely something what is that feeling of peace in the body? that feeling comes and goes and they say awareness is always there, it does not come and go wait, is that feeling of peace always there? and I'm just not always noticing it? thank you!

yeah, I think I'm getting tangled up in the words, awareness has no qualities they say...yet I am definitely experiencing something it is not nothing but it is different from what I was before...thank you for your comment

I'd love to be a part of this, if we go outside our minds when we do it, will we be also outside of time? maybe the exact time doesn't matter so much...

who knows but I think guided meditations can really guide you to see things that may have taken a lot longer than they would have before, I love rupert spiras guided meditations and I also love doing short little meditations while I wait for water to boil or the bus to arrive or if I wake up in the middle of the night... and also eckhart tolle was on the verge of committing suicide when he became enlightened so maybe it's great to have your life in order first but maybe not

sabel You know because it is radically different than anything else you could ever imagine, so when it fades you are back to the point where you can't even describe it, the thing is that you as an ego can't even really know it, it only appears when the ego fades, so that's why it's not changing into something by "you" knowing it. It's not really you who gets to know it, but it gets to know itself through you and you kinda witness it. Obviously I'm kinda struggling here with the words again, not really possible to convey it fully. thank you!

@isabel Something is a concept, "it" is free of any concept, any constructs you could come up with. thanks, how do you know if you experience "it"? because even if you do, then the moment you know that it happened then you would already be changing into something so how do you ever know if what you are experiencing is the real "it" or not?

I love you, you are loved.

"you are it" but even if you are just pure being then aren't you still something?

eckhart tolle was repeatedly asked about psychedelics so he tried it in order to be able to answer the questions and you'll have to google around to find out exactly what he said but basically he said entering the now naturally was better and that he found psychedelics forceful or he might have even used the word violent idk.. who knows

I love him too, I try to listen to him daily, he's super legit try his meditations, he doesn't just speak words, he actually shows you how to see what he's talking about

yes, this! I'm doing the same and I have been supporting a family doing it for years and years I got rid of almost all my bills, my car, everything I could and I make art, and do other things to make as much money as I can like he says there are endless things you can do if you don't work you have all day to look for benefits and apply for them, we get free electricity, free phone, free medical, free food... I worry sometimes but it works for me even though I only "know" everything will be fine part of the time

that's so true for me, I used to think exercise didn't work because I was just going on little 30 minute walks but if I go on a long 2 hour walk up and down hills then I sleep

yes! thank you

that's beautiful, I want to live my life from that perspective

so beautiful, I love him, I read that he was an artist before this, he made pottery with writing on it, and he said something like that he wanted to eliminate the pottery all together and create just with words, I wonder what he meant by that, maybe he meant poetry? but I think all of his guided meditations are poetry, I just want to listen to him all day

I had a traumatic childhood and the memories of it kept going through my mind over and over again throughout every day, causing me to live in constant pain and fear, I was in both physical and mental pain I finally spoke out as an adult and my abuser, my own mother blamed me and was able to convince most everyone that I am actually the bad one and not them, so I was just constantly trying to explain myself and defend myself in my mind, planning how to explain and what to say to try and convince people including myself that I am not the wrong one, I was a child, just going over and over everything that she had done so that I was sure that it really was abuse, was horrific, I am not wrong about it and so on... so I started this path to try to find some relief and I found it! and I'm not enlightened so you don't even have to go all the way to start finding relief maybe a combination of therapy and/or medication and this path would be good? abraham hicks is really good with thoughts, if you ever listen to her, she showed me how to watch my thoughts and feelings and how to shift my thoughts and sort of rearrange the way my mind is going to go throughout the day (I'm still having some unwanted thoughts pop up pretty regularly but I am not just blindly going into them anymore or allowing them to rule my life, eventually you will be able to see that even the most painful thoughts are actually made from love)

I have personal experience with this, my mother constantly devalued every other person in the world or idolized them, no in between and the idolized ones I could count on one hand... I spent my whole life trying to figure out what the hell was going on with her she was never enough in her own mind and lived in a constant state of pain and fear that others would also see her that way if she could hurt someone, put them down, make them feel inferior to her - it gave her a temporary relief from that pain and fear she was abused as a child, it was bad, two of her siblings ended up in mental hospitals as children editing to add that she also did not see other people or animals as having real feelings, so when she hurt someone she assumed that their reaction was fake most people like her are very similar so maybe it helps to know that they are not trying to hurt you because they don't even see you as a person who can really be hurt - they are only trying to relieve their own pain

I also think it might be nice to just go, making your parents happy is so nice, I liked the feeling of being in a church sometimes and I also never understood anything in the bible until I started reading more about non-duality, it starts to make sense with that deeper understanding that said, when I was younger I just got a job that required me to work on sunday so there was no way I could go...

I meditate in front of people at the playground everyday when I'm picking my little guy up from school, I let him play then I just sit in a normal position and if I've been perfectly still and staring for a long time, I just look around a little and pretend to be normal...lol I noticed that pretty much all the other parents there are doing the same thing, they're either just sitting not really looking at anything or they are on their phones, I've even wondered if they're meditating too but what else do you do when you're alone at the park or on the bus, you just sit there anyway...