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@Scholar Vaush is heartless what do you expect

So i got into an argument on the dating section the other day and it got me thinking... how do I know if what I believe is right? People assume what they believe is right but how do you know? If someone said to me meditation is useless, I would think that statement is wrong/not right based on my direct experience but it still just seems based on my own belief and there's no definite way to determine if I am actually correct/right. How can you know if the position you hold is the right position?

@AtheisticNonduality He's a sex predator, and has no sense of what a good life means and what would be good for society. He has poor integrity and intellectual honesty. He's not a good person. He's a degenerate for being a sex predator. But hes just unwise low intelligence based on his assessment of the world.

Yes i have haha. Funny story. I've had a bunch of trips where I basically got stuck midway, because reality started to dissolve and transfigure so I thought I'd try visualizing an amazing real life orgy with hot angels and then contemplate/inquire further while having an orgy haha. But it never worked and I basically got bamboozled by my own horniness. I actually had one trip where it felt like I was being given a handjob by an astral being, I couldn't see anything but I could feel my sexual energy center getting massaged from sheer desire and will. Sexual repression is a big one for me i'm still working through this and my libidio is still largely repressed. I think a big thing for me is learning to accept any gay feelings I have buried. I still can't say I would be okay if I were gay because I think it's preferable to be straight and I really want a beautiful wife and family, but I definitely have some issues with being close to men because there's probably a subtle fear of being gay. Another interesting point related to sexuality. I've had many trips where masterbaring and orgasm served as a lubircant to feel into those buried energy centers/trauma points. Like when I would orgasm I would feel so good, and because I felt so good in that moment I had a reference point for that feeling and what the source of the pleasure was, so then even after orgasm I could still feel into the source of the pleasure

Called this a while back and got pushback. This guy is a degenerate

Haha. Your name just went to the top of the list.

So I started meditation about 5 years ago because Leo recommended in a video, I was doing a sam harris guided meditation for years but it was kind of mechanical and I didn't really understand the path. I got serious about the path in the fall of 2019, started posting on the forum and experimenting with psychedelics' and saw enlightenment as something achievable for myself. I managed to have a peak experience after only a few solo psychedelic trips and that's what really opened me up. I was basically laying in my bed, and after a few hours of just listening to music and trying to process the complex emotions from the trip, I repeated a zgochen teaching I learned from Sam Harris, Look for yourself/ Be aware of being aware, and from repeating this I was able to quiet the mind and I had a sort of energetic unwinding, culminating in my attention going to the center of my head/behind the eyes and then my head kind of popped open/crown opened and I had an incredibly blissful and energizing experience. I realized that reality is all good, and I had never felt so incredible in my life. I've done probably 20-30 trips of LSD/shrooms since then but It was always a mystery to me how I reached this place so I've been kind of tracing my steps and trying to understand how i got there. Following that trip It was very rough. I was doing trips, but I couldn't reach that same place and i ended up getting really depressed and suicidal because I felt so hopeless that I couldn't reach that same place again. I thought my life would be forever transformed, but even though I knew about how good life could be, i just wasn't living from that place and it was awful. A big insight i got from my psychedelics' trips was I noticed that I would always get very horny on my good trips, and a lot of my trips involved overcoming deep nausea and vomitting. I actually can't look at a tab of LSD without gagging, and when I take psyche now there's a good chance I'll vomitt or experience severe nausea. But i also realized that the nausea can be sort of cleansed from your system if you go the root of the sensation. I've had experiences where I felt super nasuea on shrooms, and because I went deeper into the nausea and the sensations of headache in the head, I found a sort of energetic hotspot and when I felt into the hot spot it felt like the suffering/nausea got completely wiped from my system. Almost like a computer getting debugged. I've had stomach issues my whole life and I never really understood them, but I knew they were related to suffering and unhappiness. I never really bought into materialist paradigms around what causes stomach issues. Right now I can literally feel a discomfort in my stomach, but I haven't given too much attention to just loving my stomach sensations, but I will moving forward. I also realized that uncovering my sexuality was a big way to relieve suffering for myself. On my trips when I'd get very nauseous, I realized that one of the only things that worked to help alleivate the suffering, aside from vomitting, was to feel into my horniness and let it out. It's like being horny was the cure for my headaches haha, so it felt better to watch porn or something then just sit here in agony from the headache. I have to work on this too, my family is entirely sexually represeed, I was thinking the other day that I actually have never seen any sign of horniess from my mom or dad, and I actually thought my parents never had sex until I was like 20 and realized they probably did it in secret. I think the key here is just to create space for sexual feelings, and thens tart to love accept them as they arise. I also realized that my nasal congestion was related to my spiritual blockage. I am someone who always has kind of a stuffed nose, and I never cry. But on my good trips it literally feels like somoene is breaking my nose, which is probably my sinuses getting cleared out, and the end result is feeling way better and a full perceptual shift in how I view reality. I also noticed that vomitting helped clear my nose but so far I haven't cleared it fully without psychidelics. Interestingly, during my best trips my nasal passage become so clear it felt like I was breathing bliss clearly into my being from the entire univerise. It was like I had tubes flowing into my being from everywhere, and when I would breathe it was fully of bliss haha. Sorry it's disorganized but I just wanted to lay out as much as I could. Feel free to ask for clarification on any point

@The0Self Haha i was just making a pornstar joke because of the photo but I hear you

@Alysssa No problem thank you! Yeah for me it's all about healing and integrating the emotional body at this point. I've known that i've had sexual repression and stomach issues for a while from my psychedelics' trips and those are the areas that need the most love. I like the charka map because it reflects what I feel in my meditations. Just last night I could feel almost a pulsing sensation moving from my lower back into my crown chakra. I actually don't feel anything in my heart center right now, but even when I put attention there I notice a instant sort of relaxation and an energetic unfolding start to occur. Thanks a lot!

@The0Self You might just be out of your element here tbh. You may be a sex god but this is a different animal entirely

@Breakingthewall Aren't you just replacing right and wrong with what is egotistical vs loving? It seems like you're saying what's right is what leads to greater love, and what's wrong leads to greater fear/separation etc. @Nahm @VeganAwake So if I decide to start hunting enlightened beings as some kind of earthly purge that is not wrong? I bet both of you would have a instinct against such a move, but where is that coming from if you don't believe in right or wrong?

Sorry for the lights haha, but I liked this picture

@The0Self @Vladimir I've seen comments from both of you and was impressed. But reading your back and forth it seems like one of you is deeply deluded, but idk who haha

@Matt23 So if I said I'm going to go declare my independence from Canada and start a gorilla war against the government, we can't say that's wrong/not good because it's relative? Intuitively i'd say this is not good or unwise, but if it's subjective than no one could honestly say that plan above is not good/not right.

Would you date a Trans Male as a female? If your answer is no, do you think there is something inherently transphobic in your preference or can you justify decision without being a transphobe?

@Michael569 You can close it

As part of my life purpose i'm going to start a blog. I'm curious has anyone here started a successful blog, as in it generates revenue and has high traffic, and does anyone have resources for how to start a blog. Stuff like website design, getting traffic, what makes for a good website design. I know what i'm going to do from a content stand point but getting the blog up and running is my main concern right now. Any insights would be appreciated. Any questions are welcome too.

That's not the reason for their unhappiness. They are unhappy because they reject parts of themselves and their experience, and they don't understand the true source of happiness in life. Well I am a soul trapped in a body haha, but the life long depression has been from not understanding the relationship between me, awareness, and love. I could blame my unhappiness on a bunch of things and go around seeking ways to fix it, in my view transitioning, hormone therapy etc is just another false door that people think will make them happy. I think if parents let their child transition it would be similar as letting a child get a tatoo, or decide on their own diet etc. I basically just view as parenting malpractice, but I am not against it in the sense I think it should be illegal. I just think it's not a wise move. But most human behavior is a bad move by my lights haha. But what if they change their mind? It's possible for a person to believe they are transgender at 11, but then for them to change their view when they are 16. I think there's a greater downside to transitioning young then as you age. This is a comment from Leo's video on gender, in response to another comment by a transgender woman claiming to have had the happiest years of her life since transitioning. Lovely. I was a trans woman, but my openness lead me to turn away from it and embrace that i am not binary, not either or. However, doing so has lead others to place me in their boxes of binary "man" or "woman", which is part of the consequences of my identity. I'm curious if you contemplated drtaching yourself from the trans woman label as I did, and if so what made you keep it and continue to participate in the game from that perspective? By my lights, this is what will happen to transgender people as they grow and integrate.

@Etherial Cat Meh I call bs. I could be wrong, given the path i'm on the truth will come to light at some point.

@Etherial Cat We can agree to disagree.

I think that transgender people are transitioning because they are unhappy/suffering and they think that transitioning will solve their existential issues. The true answer to existential suffering is understand the nature of who you are/the knowing but I bet 99.9% of people who have a position on transgenders don't actually understand this experientially. So show me a person who understands who they are at their essence, has that understanding impact their emotional range/maturity, and then choose to transition and I will change my position that it's normal/healthy to transition kids etc. Basically show me a happy healthy person who then chooses to transition

What I don't understand is why people feel the need to adjust their appearance with hormones/surgery if they believe they are the opposite gender? I will buy into your perspective when I see someone who knows the truth of who they are, integrates the understanding emotionally, and then chooses to transition. Until then I'm keeping a safe distance from this enterprise like I would if I lived through abrahamic times and people were sacraficing kids to appease god

@AdamR95 I'd say get into something competitive. Learn to compete and win. Also watching certain alpha figures and studying their manneurisms could work. Check out some videos of famous athletes like Michael Jordan, or learn about some great conquerors like Napolean or Alexander The Great