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@mandyjw So right now I am conscious, but I feel sense a of dissatisfaction with experience. A slight headache, fatigue, low energy etc. Not blissful, not peaceful etc. What do you recommend I do?

This just doesn't resonate. This strikes me as preaching to the choir. If you said those peak Lsd trip then maybe it would resonate. But from where I'm at this is not helpful

@Moksha I want the pure state of being that facilitates those breakthroughs. The breakthroughs etc are just a byproduct. I do see the difference. There are very specific sources of suffering for me that i've managed to transcend so in some sense I am seeking specific states I guess, but ultimately I know that pure being/consciousness is the source of all these mystical experiences.

I want emotional and psychological breakthroughs. I've already had the kinds of breakthroughs that I want, but I'm trying to understand how they came about. I view what i'm doing now as an investment. I'm almost certain that if I stay on this path I will get what I want, I just want get clear on the specifics of what I can do to speed up the process

@roopepa It might be because there are certain uncomfortable feelings/emotions that come up. When put my attention on being conscious, It seems like I can rest here indefinitely but I can also feel some discomfort coming up. The thing is, I've had moments in meditation where it felt like I was on the verge of a mystical experience if I just follow my present momentum, but I always end up distracted and bamboozling myself.

@Terell Kirby So allow everything while simultaneously keeping consciousness at the center of attention? Was there a point where meditating on consciousness led to breakthroughs? I've only had mystical experiences with psychs, but in hindsite they always came from some kind of prolonged attention on my own consciousness

Not hating them and intellectually understanding their position/background is different than acceptance and love imo. I think you have to try to seem them and their positions as perfection and part of the greater good of reality. What's stopping you from being completely okay and accepting all those things that are causing you an issue? What if you just spent a few minutes and brought to mind whatever issue there is, and then simply accepted that thing fully without judgment

@soos_mite_ah I would say contemplate the issues that are causing you distress and notice your judgmental attitude and the character of your thoughts around those issues. The issue is coming because you are judging those issues as bad and so you are causing yourself to suffering your own judgment. Learn to accept and love all aspects of reality. The universe has no issue with what you wrote above, but you are judging it. Maybe go one issue at a time, and see if you can just love and accept every thing associated with the issue. Love the maga covid deniers, love the greedy billionaires if you demonize them, and so on and so forth

I understand. I was just thinking about what it would take to make a cool game after playing age of empires 4, I have 0 experience in any kind of development

@impulse9 How much would it cost to make a game like age of empires 4? Also, how come it's not as simple as meditating and simply visualizing what kind of game you want, and then the universe unfolds and gives it you

@Leo Gura Ahh interesting thanks

@Leo Gura Interesting, I always thought the problem with games nowadays was that developers were limited by technology so they have to cut corners and settle. Is it even possible for a single motivated person to make a game of the quality of something like age of empires or civ? What if you use psychidelics?

The end of the first season of avatar. It's such an awesome ending, zuko talks about building a new world based on a foundation of love and peace

@Leo Gura Do you still have any inside info on the gaming industry? Do you know what it would take tech wise to make a jump in the capacity in games. I was playing age of empires 4 recently, and I was thinking how awesome it would be to combine a game like age of empires, with elements of civ 6 and starcitizen. Maybe even have games where you can swap between RTS and first person mechanics. But idk what kind of technology is required for something like that?

I get violent vomiting as well. But fair enough

It's not an allergy. I have the same nausea response. I can't look at an LSD tab without gagging in my mouth, and I can't even consume full on shrooms because of the smell/taste. But if you go deep into the experience of nausea there's incredible relief. Inquire into those feelings of nausea.

Interestingly... I had a peak experience on LSD where I looked like the buddha. I even looked up pictures online and we had the same features and everything. And I'm indian lol

I can't remember his quote but it was something like... @zeroISinfinity "I used to be a materialist/atheist... now I just cry!" I love that guy

For the record I am actually am sorry about a lot of the stuff i've said/done on the forum. I have bad habits around empathy, callousness, racism, sexism, and a bunch more lol. I see no value in being mean spirited anymore. I just want to be the best I can be, and live from love. I'll probably make more mistakes in the future and people are justified in not wanting to deal with me on the forum I can understand that. But I won't let this stuff bring me down. I will rise above everything and live an awesome life.

Can't say I didn't expect someone to blow up at me given how i've acted on the forum

@Loving Radiance I've only had a complete crown opened once or twice so my perspective isn't complete. But when the crown opened it was a complete energetic shift for me. I felt incredibly blissful and energized, but I didn't feel the sensations of my body/being the same way after it opened. There was still other stuff going on after the opening, and I'm pretty sure it started to close again pretty quickly after opening, but once I felt deeply into the sensation of the crown it appeared like that sensation dissolved

@coca These kinds of posts are useless. How is anyone here supposed to engage with this? I understand that from your pov this is true, and it get reaffirmed by watching all these bimbos on fresh and fit or kevin samuels just prove your point over and over. But the reason you're getting so much push back is because the people here realize that this is a limited and distorted perspective and they don't want to keep retreading old ground, especially for someone who is dug in in their position. Following the red pill this dogmatically will let you nowhere. Show me a loving and happy red piller, they don't exist. These guys have serious emotional issues and no one on this forum wants to deal with the world view that is basically poison to the mind

I struggled with understanding how love relates to meditation and awareness for a long time but I finally realized that love is always here and available. You always have the option to just love what is. I was listening to a bunch of different teachers, and I had a clear understanding of resting as awareness and most techniques related to simply being aware but I always felt stuck and thought was something was missing from these teachings. Once I realized that love is here it really tied a lot of things together. Now when I practice being aware I do in sort of two steps, I notice that there I am aware and bring that to the forefront of my attention, and then I just love. It's like a warm, soft feeling and its always possible to just love. Just wanted to share because I struggled for so long not understanding how to love, even though I realized it was the most important step on the path for me. I'm still learning to love more parts of my self, but from here on i've realized that the answer to my problems is just to love everything and anything

Hahaha I was thinking about this the other day. This is so true. This is a game to these guys. They don't care about what's true.