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Is this stuff about arcturians real? I have a strong instinct that this entire enterprise is a bunch of nonsense, but i'm opened minded and I care about what's real and what works more than anything so I'm not sure. How do you assess the validity of stuff like this?

I'm not saying it's good for everyone to get vaccines. I just used it as an example. And the example you gave is exactly my point. A conscious dictator could rule however he wanted. Maybe some areas require institutions with little oversite, and some places require more hands on meddling. Take the US as an example. If you had someone who was truly at sd yellow or above, wouldn't they do a better job? Imagine reallocating 100's of billions from the military to better projects. The dictator could do that in a heart beat

@Leo Gura Use your imagination. The high conscious dictator could structure society In any way they choose, you could exercise power to exert as little tyranny as possible. Look at the Corona virus. If you think all these anti vaxxers are a real issue, a high conscious dictator could solve this with a snap of a finger

Hmm not sure what to write. Im looking forward to starting IFS therapy. I really like the parts model to explain my current suffering. I've always had the hunch that people had many different personalities, but after listening to some jeff schwartz it makes a lot of sense how our parts are the cause of a lot of suffering. I know I have an evil/hating part. I kinda realized over the past few days, I'm just always in a hateful mood. I'm just waiting for something to set me off, and I'll fucking go off. When I play video games I get so toxic. I literally want some of these guys fucking dead. If someone told me that one of these fucking guys actually killed themselves because of our argument in the moment I would want it, that's how deep my hatred flows. Luckily I am pretty aware of this part of myself. And I don't really interact with a lot of people so i am not traumatizing anyone, except maybe these guys i'm playing against online. Even now I just feel so agitated. I also my head heavily congested. Interestingly, tears actually reduce my headache and relieve some of the tension. I wonder what's the relationship between my deep hatred and my repressed crying. I think parts work can be very effective for me. I definitely am aware of some of the different personalities I have in my life. I have my hatred side, I have my teary eyed side, I have my quiet side, I have my know it all side, I have my anxious/fearful side, and I bet there's a bunch more. The question is what are the parts that are holding me back from living my best life. That's the key question. I had a great idea today when I was talking to a friend today. I might start doing a podcast and interviewing different people from the forum and positing it on here. I have already had a skype call with like 5+ people from the forum, and I really liked the conversations. I have listened to a bunch of podcasts in my life, and I really think I could be an awesome podcast host. I also think I could target a unique niche, so there's some upside. But at the same time, if I never made money pn the podcast I bet I would still enjoy it. I just like having conversations on non duality and meditation etc. I could interview a bunch of different people. I bet people on the forum would find it interesting too, because they can relate to the topics. This has been a nice journal post. This is probably the highest quality journal post i've made, that's pretty sweet

@Zigzag Idiot The last air bender is one of my favorite series of all time. It's an awesome show

@m0hsen Have tried inquiring into the root of the pain/suffering?

Interesting thanks.

@FlyingLotus How did you combine psychidelics with parts work?

I don't understand how such a venerated meditation teacher ended up cheating on his wife with up to 10 woman

@Matt23 Good point

I've been inquiring into the source of consciousness and have some questions. When I become conscious of myself being conscious I can feel an energetic shift start to happen, but I'm constantly getting distracted and stop paying attention to just myself being conscious. I think this is the highest meditative practice but I can't really maintain attention on just myself being conscious for long enough to know if this enough to take me all the way. I'm constantly getting distracted, and even though i set an intention to just rest in that space of knowing myself as consciousness I just can't maintain it. Should I just keep returning my attention to consciousness? Any thoughts?

I love when Theoden calls for the reformation of the line. The original charge is also an incredible scene

I'm a complete psycho, I don't need a test to tell me that

Wow thank you very much. Do you have personal experience with IFS? And do you have thoughts on other kinds of effective therapies. I think I saw in another of your posts that parts work, works better for people who are emotionally open. The thing is I'm very emotionally closed off and narrow so I want to take that into account

Do you have any insight about finding a therapist who deals with this kind of stuff specifically? Do you think you can effectively do IFS solo? I'll check real swans video thanks a lot.

I think there's no reason to settle for either or. I'm sure there are many ways to incorporate artsy elements into psychology. Maybe you can study certain art forms and how they influence people. Or maybe you can become a psychologist/therapist and incorporate artsy elements into your practice. Or can you pursue the artsy stuff fully, and use the principles from pscyhology to become the best artist you can be

@Zeroguy Who took his place?

I guess I'm confused as to when I am actually resting as pure awareness, as opposed to being stuck in a loop of thinking i'm meditating but I'm just stuck in a loop of thoughts and suffering. It's starting to become clear that being conscious is the key to the path and making progress. Like right now I am conscious, and intellectually I see the significance, but at the same time... Right now I am aware but it doesn't do anything. What am I missing? Part of me thinks that if I just keep on this current trajectory then being conscious will start to become more and more profound. But at the same time, I've had moments in meditation where I thought I was a day away from finishing this entire seeking process, but I'm still pretty much stuck, and it's been almost a year of this mindset now

That's an interesting point. I definitely notice a general feeling of discomfort when I sit to meditate. And it's kind of haphazard when I can sort of overcome that general feeling in my meditation sessions. Maybe I'll try just loving the feeling of discomfort for a few minutes and see how I feel after that. What would be the difference between just being aware, and accepting whatever discomfort feelings are there first? Do you have any thoughts on sitting meditation vs laying down? I've only been dong laying down for the past few months, but I maybe sitting on a cushion will have better benefits for where i'm at

Recently I had an experience in meditation where I thought I understood love in a meaningful way. It feels like I can love at any moment, and I feel a bit of grief/tears when I do it. But it doesn't lead anywhere. It's like a tiny flame, but I can't get a giant fire going. But in general no I don't remember the last time I had a deep love for something.

@mandyjw How certain are you that what you're saying is actually good advice, vs you have to find a more effective way to help people?

@mandyjw Do you have anything add relating to what I said about meditating on being conscious?

So what should i do?

@mandyjw Okay I just listened to a video like that and I felt a wave of good feeling. But after it's over I don't feel good, i go back to baseline. And if I keep listening to the same video it doesn't feel good after a while.