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@Zigzag Idiot The last air bender is one of my favorite series of all time. It's an awesome show

@m0hsen Have tried inquiring into the root of the pain/suffering?

Interesting thanks.

@FlyingLotus How did you combine psychidelics with parts work?

I don't understand how such a venerated meditation teacher ended up cheating on his wife with up to 10 woman

@Matt23 Good point

I've been inquiring into the source of consciousness and have some questions. When I become conscious of myself being conscious I can feel an energetic shift start to happen, but I'm constantly getting distracted and stop paying attention to just myself being conscious. I think this is the highest meditative practice but I can't really maintain attention on just myself being conscious for long enough to know if this enough to take me all the way. I'm constantly getting distracted, and even though i set an intention to just rest in that space of knowing myself as consciousness I just can't maintain it. Should I just keep returning my attention to consciousness? Any thoughts?

I love when Theoden calls for the reformation of the line. The original charge is also an incredible scene

I'm a complete psycho, I don't need a test to tell me that

Wow thank you very much. Do you have personal experience with IFS? And do you have thoughts on other kinds of effective therapies. I think I saw in another of your posts that parts work, works better for people who are emotionally open. The thing is I'm very emotionally closed off and narrow so I want to take that into account

Do you have any insight about finding a therapist who deals with this kind of stuff specifically? Do you think you can effectively do IFS solo? I'll check real swans video thanks a lot.

I think there's no reason to settle for either or. I'm sure there are many ways to incorporate artsy elements into psychology. Maybe you can study certain art forms and how they influence people. Or maybe you can become a psychologist/therapist and incorporate artsy elements into your practice. Or can you pursue the artsy stuff fully, and use the principles from pscyhology to become the best artist you can be

@Zeroguy Who took his place?

I guess I'm confused as to when I am actually resting as pure awareness, as opposed to being stuck in a loop of thinking i'm meditating but I'm just stuck in a loop of thoughts and suffering. It's starting to become clear that being conscious is the key to the path and making progress. Like right now I am conscious, and intellectually I see the significance, but at the same time... Right now I am aware but it doesn't do anything. What am I missing? Part of me thinks that if I just keep on this current trajectory then being conscious will start to become more and more profound. But at the same time, I've had moments in meditation where I thought I was a day away from finishing this entire seeking process, but I'm still pretty much stuck, and it's been almost a year of this mindset now

That's an interesting point. I definitely notice a general feeling of discomfort when I sit to meditate. And it's kind of haphazard when I can sort of overcome that general feeling in my meditation sessions. Maybe I'll try just loving the feeling of discomfort for a few minutes and see how I feel after that. What would be the difference between just being aware, and accepting whatever discomfort feelings are there first? Do you have any thoughts on sitting meditation vs laying down? I've only been dong laying down for the past few months, but I maybe sitting on a cushion will have better benefits for where i'm at

Recently I had an experience in meditation where I thought I understood love in a meaningful way. It feels like I can love at any moment, and I feel a bit of grief/tears when I do it. But it doesn't lead anywhere. It's like a tiny flame, but I can't get a giant fire going. But in general no I don't remember the last time I had a deep love for something.

@mandyjw How certain are you that what you're saying is actually good advice, vs you have to find a more effective way to help people?

@mandyjw Do you have anything add relating to what I said about meditating on being conscious?

So what should i do?

@mandyjw Okay I just listened to a video like that and I felt a wave of good feeling. But after it's over I don't feel good, i go back to baseline. And if I keep listening to the same video it doesn't feel good after a while.

@mandyjw So right now I am conscious, but I feel sense a of dissatisfaction with experience. A slight headache, fatigue, low energy etc. Not blissful, not peaceful etc. What do you recommend I do?

This just doesn't resonate. This strikes me as preaching to the choir. If you said those peak Lsd trip then maybe it would resonate. But from where I'm at this is not helpful

@Moksha I want the pure state of being that facilitates those breakthroughs. The breakthroughs etc are just a byproduct. I do see the difference. There are very specific sources of suffering for me that i've managed to transcend so in some sense I am seeking specific states I guess, but ultimately I know that pure being/consciousness is the source of all these mystical experiences.

I want emotional and psychological breakthroughs. I've already had the kinds of breakthroughs that I want, but I'm trying to understand how they came about. I view what i'm doing now as an investment. I'm almost certain that if I stay on this path I will get what I want, I just want get clear on the specifics of what I can do to speed up the process