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@Zeroguy @Ulax ??? I just volunteered to stay here for two weeks, and then I'm going to serve at a 10 day course in Sweden. Things are unfolding. I'm nervous about staying here, but I will just throw myself in and let myself be forged by the fire ?

@Zeroguy I am 19 days no porn, no fap, and no orgasm. I didn't even intend to do no nut November but I started my streak nov 1. Because I'm travelling it had been pretty effortless. I feel very good, and I feel like I'm getting less consumes by lower chakra based drives. My intention now is to find a heart centered connection, and I find I have an extra motivation and vitality because I haven't fapped

@Ulax I'm going to stay for another week and during this time I will get some pics I love this place. Omg these hippies really found some magic with these kinds of communities. I'm going to stay for at least a week maybe longer. I've felt such warm and heart centered connections with the people here

@BlurryBoi Can you do a vipassana retreat or some kind of retreat where you can take time to rest and heal?

I am a stage green community in sweden attending a dance retreat. It's a really cool experience. this is the next step in my evolution. I am self conscious about very judgmental towards green ideals in the past, but I am approaching this place with humility and a willingness to learn

@catcat69123 Okay sweet this aligns well with my schedule. I could spend like 2 weeks there in December. Yeah i get you, I'm committed to do what's necessary to heal and tame myself.

@catcat69123 I am in Europe now for at least another month. So these places will not be open to me while I'm in Europe? Ideally I would go there in mid December, if not then there is an ashram in Canada that offers long term intensive retreats. I did a 10 day vipassana retreat a few months ago, and there I felt genuine purging and healing. But I reverted back to my old habits and addictions almost immediately and since then I lost the feeling of healing I felt after/during my retreat

@catcat69123 So have you returned back to your life or are you planning on staying longer? What is your next step? Are you concerned that by returning home you will slip back into the same unhealthy patterns of mind and lose the momentum? And what is the process by which you can apply to stay there? I'm from Canada, but currently travelling in Europe, and that sounds like something that I'd be interested in.

@Mahyar What do you think about using psychidelics for healing/trauma work? And what have you seen be effective people on the healing path

Just flew into Brussels now I'm waiting for my flight to Stockholm. Headed to a 3 day dance retreat/festival at an intentional community in Sweden. I'm going to start a private personal journal to flush out my mind and get out any lingering thoughts. Also feeling the call to spend long hours in meditation or simply sleeping. I think my trauma first began as a young child, and at that age it's necessary to get lots of sleep so I may up my sleep to 10-12 hours (maybe 8 hours plus naps). I also feel a call to begin psychidelics again. When I go back home I will likely rent an airbnb and try 5 meo Malt. I've felt the power of psychidelics and I believe they can really enhance healing. I may look into some kind of psychidelic therapy or something too

Hey I'm in London for the next few days and I wanted to see if anyone from the forum wanted to hang out and get lunch/dinner

Cool, maybe on my return flight I'll spend a day in Toronto. Yeah, Vancouver is awesome. It's a really developed area, and BC as a Provence is amazing

ahh very cool. I'm from Vancouver, Canada

Next time man. Are you from the London area? It's a cool city I like the vibe of the entire place

@thisintegrated I'm heading to Sweden tomorrow, we can link up in the Netherlands in December

I uses to believe I was tier 2 yellow, but now I believe I'm blue/orange and in the process of evolving green qualities.

Currently at the Dublin Airport enroute to London in a few hours. The next phase of my journey is about to unfold

Lol nice theory

432hz is the frequency of the heart. Highly recommend for meditation.

I'm going to be in London next. Right now I'm staying at the home of the women who helped organize the retreat. If anyone who reads my journal wants to meet up I'd love to

Are you a part of the members or any paid part? Shame has come up for me and I want to heal it. But I don't want to sink money into it because I've paid foe goo much stuff in the past I didn't use. Can I make significant progress with just the free videos Did you process your shame. If so, how?

Probably the most important skill I need to cultivate is honesty. I'm an incredibly dishonest person, even though I thought I was being honest

I'm going to have to work hard to cultivate more of this loving energy I tapped into on the retreat. I know there demons inside me and I can't feed them or I'm going to keep backsliding. All I can do is keep meditating and pushing myself to try new things and get out of my comfort zone

Hey does anyone know where I can find information about stage green festivals in Europe? Thanks