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@Arcangelo No, because the only reason cheating would matter is if there was a committed relationship. There are probably more satisfying ways to get some kind of retribution then keep them around as a FWB

Maybe different psychidelics can have more or less nausea, but i've only done LSD and shrooms and both gave me nausea and headaches, although on some trips it wasn't nearly as bad as others. I vomit water and some flem stuff. I noticed that when I vomit it causes my body to convulse, and the convulsion is what brings relief. It's like my body is so clenched that it needs to just spasm to release, but I am so resistant to this kind of release. I feel like if I could just have a full on convulsion without resistance then I could get to the root sensation driving all this suffering, but I have some unconscious resistance. I think its related to repressed aspects of my sexuality, and a fear of shitting myself because i got shamed for that as a child. Maybe I have such strong resistances to those things that my mind/body refuses to fully let go and risk something come up that i've repressed. Yeah the headache is the worst part. It's a sharp, migraine type pain and I get some relief when I vomit so it's kinda nice. The headache is likely related to some hyper tension and control, and sinus issues. When I vomit and convulse my body, I can feel my sinuses clearing. Like if I were to vomit freely then my sinuses would clear up fully and I'd have a clear nose. Idk how long it will take to resolve this. I've been aware of a lot of this for about year or so now, but it's still there. I'm slowly growing more bodily awareness and addressing the issue from multiple angles, but I really wish I could meet someone who could clearly understand what I was going through and give me some kind of treatment plan.

I was wondering if anyone has direct insight into an issue i'm having. So last night I got a bit drunk and was vomiting with a bad headache. I noticed that when I would put my attention on my stomach and relax the headache would get worse, but it would also lead to me vomiting. The act of vomiting was really healing, I could feel my whole body convulse, and when I would feel into my stomach and vomit more I'd feel better. But the relief would only last a few moments and then the headache would come back and I'd be forced to deal with it until I could vomit again and get some release. The issue is I have such a strong aversion to vomiting so I spent most of the time laying in bed and avoiding my stomach sensations because it would make my headache worse. So I was just stuck with the pain. This is the same thing that happens when I take psychidelics which I thought was interesting. I also noticed that when I was vomiting my sinuses would clear up from the vomiting, not sure how that happened but the more I vomited and convulsed the more my nose would clear. Has anyone experienced this or does anyone have ideas about how I can resolve this stomach issue.

@Thought Art @Osaid I get the same issue when I take psychidelics. And I've had breakthroughs where I felt so deeply into my stomach that it resolved. But it's not consistent, and I want to resolve the issue completely if I can

@Zeroguy You too

@Zeroguy You're all narcissists. Everyone in here complaining about drama is mentally ill let's be honest.

My biggest issue is that all I want from these girls is sex and some companionship when i'm bored, but I have no desire to fulfill their emotional needs/wants. So I would feel dishonest approaching any of them. I am also afraid of everyone judging me in my work for approaching these girls or if we break up. I think another issue is I just don't want them that much. It's been a while since I really had a crush on a girl, so maybe if I was really into them then I would want to pursue them. But it's just like I think they are hot and would be down to have sex, but that's it. I am afraid of rejection I guess, but it's not that severe I don't think. I used to do cold approach at bars etc so I have some experience just going up to girls and getting rejected.

I have a question for Leo, but this question applies to everyone so feel free to share your thoughts. So from my understanding two of the biggest factors in determining spiritual progress are genetics and your state of being. The question is what are the most reliable ways to alter these two factors to enhance spiritual progress. For genetics, I'm pretty sure that we can change genetic expression but I don't know how to do this in a structured and targeted way. For example, if I go for a walk that will lead to change in my gene expression, but this is a crude understanding and I would need to know which activities are best to enhance spiritual gene expression, whatever that means. For state of being, there are a number of ways to change your state. Weed, exercise, psychidelics, yoga, etc. But in my experience these methods can be inconsistent, and there's no guarantee that taking mushrooms for example will alter your state enough to allow for breakthroughs and insights. @Leo Gura Do you have any plans on exploring these topics in more depth? Or have you found any teachings/teachers that effectively address these topics?

What are your thoughts on abortion The conventional conservative argument, I think, is that abortion is akin to murdering a small child. At 6 months the fetus basically looks like a small child, so I can see that argument. If you support abortion how do you think about the conservative argument that you are supporting murdering small babies? Should woman have the right to abort an 8 month fetus? And if you support late term abortions then is there any reason why woman should not be allowed to kill a baby at birth as long as the umbilical cord is attached? I support abortion but mainly because I don't think poor people having lots of children is good for society, and also because I don't think people should be forced into having children if they are not ready. But it seems clear to me that abortion in some form murder, and part of my argument is a eugenics argument.

Yeah it's tough for politicians, you have to be dishonest to get your point across. I'd say establish the truth and then find whichever political party is most in alignment with the truth. This topic isn't about advancing policy. It's an honest discussion about what's true.

@Matthew85 No problem, thank you. One more thing, if you can find videos/music/etc that really moves and inspires you can use it to super charge your practices. This really hit me when I started watching this Napoleon series on youtube. The intro of this video gives me a rush of energy. It doesn't last long, but I get this rush of epic energy that comes over me when I listen to it. Finding things like this that can act as triggers for deeper emotions and perceptions, and they can energize us. So maybe if you find some awesome videos you like, you can use those to gain momentum on new practices or sustain your expanded states longer.

@zurew Yeah my point is people can't hold both of those ideas without getting uncomfortable so they have to perform mental gymnastics. I think people should be allowed to have abortions, but it's also killing the baby. It's not the same as murdering your neighbor, so maybe we need a different word, but it's in the same ball park. I don't care about how pro lifers will attack my argument lol. I care about what's true

I think the moment you know you are pregnant that's when human life begins. In this case it's not potentiality of life, it's still just a human life. If you know you are pregnant then life is present, and whatever you do you are doing to a human life. Well if it was irrelevant you wouldn't have felt the need to say he isn't a sociopath.

What stands in the way of me making more money 1. lack of energy 2. lack of creativity 3. fear and shame 4. lack of discipline 5. pride 6. lack of opportunity 7. guilt 8. embarrassment 9. complacency 10. health 11. lack of ability 12. motivation

I think what needs to change is your life needs to replace the practice if you want to live like that more often. Like what if you had a job that required deliberate focus and yelling/chanting in a similar form. Have you had any breakthroughs with emotions? I remember on my trips I would feel certain sensations that felt like they were from birth or early childhood, maybe if you can in touch with these kinds of deep emotions you can get some more psychic resolution and your nervous system can be permanently changed. Yeah I get this too, and I'm not sure how to resolve it. If you haven't done an extended retreat that could be a good idea. It can be tough to make progress when you are constantly being pulled back into normal functioning. Those thought/emotional patterns can be especially enticing when combined with normal functioning. I think this is why they are there in the first place. We were socialized and taught to be a certain way, and not an enlightened version of ourself.

I'm pretty sure he's a sociopath, how are you assessing whether he is or not? It's about intentional murder compared to what is necessary to exist. I don't think you can exist without killing some insects at least accidentally, but we have the option to not perform abortions. I think people don't realize the full implications of their beliefs, and so when the rubber meets the road they get defensive and have to perform mental gymnastics. Well yeah there are. It's common sense that the life of a human being is more important than the life of a blade of grass. If you want to argue with me over whether a blade of grass is more important than the life of a human being then I don't see a point in having a discussion because we will never get anywhere. Maybe other people like that stuff, but for me I would see no point.

I think you have to change your entire life style. What is the distinction between your practice and "life". Imagine if you lived in a cabin on the lake in the middle of nowhere, then when would practice end and "life" begin? For me, part of entering into heightened states has involved getting in touch with strong sexual energy, but that same energy is repressed for me to function as my avatar in the world. So for me I'd have to either get very comfortable displaying and embodying incredible sexual energy with my family and work colleagues, or else I'm forced to suppress that side of me to function. So i'm kind of stuck between a rock and hard place. Also it's probably worth getting a very clear understanding of what is happening when you enter into expanded states vs when you start to lose it and revert to baseline. There has to be something that accounts for the difference. Maybe you reverting to an old behavioral pattern that you aren't aware of or something.

I think most people who are pro abortion would support abortion at around 6 months right? It's more about understanding the underlying ideology and what positions it commits people. Like if someone supports abortion at 6 months then I don't see why they wouldn't support late term abortions. Yeah, but there are common sense distinctions we can use. Technically we are all mass murderers of insects and microbes, but it wouldn't make any sense to then justify my murder of my family because well i'm already a mass murderer. I think with abortion the point of contention is around whether pro abortion people are pro baby murderers. I'd bet most people who are pro abortion think they have the moral high ground, so they would strongly disagree that they support murdering babies.

@zurew He's arguing that abortion before 6 weeks is okay because the fetus isn't conscious yet. But I don't think there's any good reason to assume that consciousness develops at that point of development. It's like a materialist technicality to justify abortion, but he's completely overlooking the possibility that consciousness does not depend on brain development. Destiny is a sociopath who doesn't have any genuine emotional concern for what happens. He could present a strong choice for why it's okay to give old people murder poison and you'd have people presenting it as profound and sound reasoning.

If I could snap my fingers and make her want have sex with me with 0 attachment then I would do it. But when I think of the girls at my work I don't think they would be satisfied with me using them for sex, and then moving onto other woman or just losing interest. If there was a girl who I was incredibly attracted too it would be different I think, but for the girls at my work basically there are a couple that are cute that I wouldn't mind having sex with, but there wouldn't be a deeper pull, and so I feel conflicted about the potential of just using them and dealing with ghosting etc. Yeah this is true. There's more going on than just my fear of using them and ghosting them. But still a part of me would see this as leading them on, because I have no intention of moving things forward. Sexually I still feel like a child, it's like my emotional development is at a point where I can't fully own and enjoy my own sexuality. There's so much anxiety, shame. fear etc even when I'm sexually involved with a girl. I think my ideal relationship right now would be getting used and essentially raped by a milf or something, but I'm not social enough to seek that out. I actually almost had a FWB with this open minded 40 year old, but she told me I gave off childish vibes on our date and said she wasn't attracted to that. But she told me there are cougars into that, so maybe that's an option idk. Also, I have some fundamental fears of intimacy with other people, and I also fear just comments and shaming from my co-workers if people found out.

It's funny how much my coworkers love me. I can't feel love, and yet everyone is so happy for all that I do for them. Freud would love this case study. I haven't seen an escort in like 6 months and i've been tempted to go back recently. There are a bunch of cute girls at my work, but I feel so much resistance towards pursuing anything. There's so much internal conflict. One of the main issues is that I know i'll get bored with these girls and at best they would be fun company and sex dolls, but I don't want to play with people's emotions like that so here I am.

@Raze The wisest person was the one who called out the girl for trying to publicly humiliate and bully the original tweeter. She could have handles it internally and expressed why its wrong etc, but instead she opted for a public execution and attack of the guy. We reap what we soe. Give it a few months this woman will get consumed by her own tactics.

@Matthew85 Good luck with this, I think its definitely possible. It's like peeling back the layers of how and why your reality is unfolding the way it is.

@Matthew85 No, right now all I feel is the surface tension but if I really surrender I can feel it start to dissolve. But without psychidelics I can't really go deal enligh to access heightened states of being. One my best trip ever the next day I felt a strong urge to cry and release, but that didn't last. My trips are also very inconsistent. I'd say out of 50 trips only 5 or 6 have led to knot releases and dramatic shifts