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@Ulax Thanks. I'm 26

Yeah I will, i'll keep updating my journal as I travel. And sweet man, i'm hoping that I travelling will help grow me, but I also feel like I've grown a lot in the past few years so now I'm ready to travel and learn from this. Yeah i'm really excited. So basically when I was on my Vipassana retreat I had a strong desire to travel. I wanted the freedom to just go and wander as I pleased after the retreat, and I had a strong sense that travelling freely would be incredibly powerful for me. I've basically lived like a hermit these past 2 years and I've always had a desire to travel, but I never felt ready or sure I could handle it. But finishing the 10 day retreat has given me some confidence, and I'll have enough money to live pretty comfortably travelling, so I think this is a perfect time. I talked to my mom and she said she's okay with me travelling for a year. The goal is to basically grow and see what the next step in my life should be. One of my goals while travelling is to meet people and network so I can become completely self sufficient from my parents, or at least find some kind of purpose/passion to pursue when I return.

@tedens I've done a lot of lsd and shrooms, but i haven't taken psychs in like 6 months.

@tedens Nah, i don't view mentorship the same way. I still have people I talk to, aryvueda doctor, therapist etc but I don't need any of them anymore. I'm still open to learning and speaking with people. But i'm at a point where I'm the only one who can truly walk the path. And I feel very content with my spiritual progress now.

@tedens What's that mean?

Great success today. I will be travelling the world these next few years. I'm going to go to America and then Europe, and then likely Asia.

@tedens Yeah I did. It was a few years ago.

A cool pointer i just found from a user here. Just quote our guru: "put Your consciousness on Your consciousness".

I'm going to try the practice of no condemnation. Seeing everyone as sinless Imagine entire world is not guilty of anything U may find your own release from judgement in that moment That's where love and bliss are If u want to experience that bliss again u'll have to come to this place of no condemnation

@Michael Jackson Nice post man.

@Breakingthewall I wish I could see it clearly, but I still don't really know what his deal is. But I definitely believe he has some kind of mental disorder, I know I have one. On my best LSD trip I could feel knots in my brain untangle and it completely changed me and my perception of the world. There's a screw loose in him that explains at least some of his erratic behavior. I always believed he was independently rich and so money didn't mean anything to him. But what you're saying makes sense. You know his nick name Nahm, I am almost 100% sure it means "Not A Happy Man". It's like when serial killers leave clues to their behavior. Someone once asked him what it means, but he said "honestly, nothing". He also lied a lot, or at least was misleading. He could never answer directly, and clearly.

. Just because a person is wounded and toxic, doesn't mean you can't learn valuable things from them. Do you even know what HU is? You said it yourself money is no issue for you. Why not just check it out yourself. Have fun merging with god. Don't forget your needles and drug supply though (:

@Breakingthewall @Inliytened1 Okay I just checked my paypl. I think it was like 5-6k total. My grievance about the money is his argument is that he said I never listened to what he said, so how could be held responsible if my life fell apart and I became suicidal. But my thought is why would you continue to accept donations from someone who doesn't listen to you, and why wouldn't you end the calls or refer the person to someone else who could help them.

Good for you. How many needles did it take up your ass to feel the bliss.

@BlessedLion Good for you. You have an incredible sense of perception if you think that my goal in life is to chase money and woman. Keep up the meditation and nature living, and spend time less being reactive to internet figures trying to help young men become financially self sufficient.

@Breakingthewall @Inliytened1 Yeah i've beat this drum a lot, at some point I'll have to bury the hatchet but not at this point. I'd have to go through my email because paypal stopped keeping track at the end of last year, even then I have 1k of recorded donations. I'd say it was between 6-10k but i'm not sure the exact number. And I would say he is very dangerous imo. I'm sure he believes his intentions are pure, but it's like when Michael Jackson had all those kids going to his ranch, I'm sure Michael Jackson never thought he was a bad guy either. I am biased against him so whatever I say is going to be skewed, but the way I see it he's a predator/vampire that comes with smiles and "loving" posts but deep down there's something very twisted going on with his psyche/approach. There's no genuine compassion and understanding for the person, hence his posts never seem to land but always seem profound. I was completely unhinged speaking with him, but he either didn't see that or didn't really care and was just happy to be "helping" in anyway he could. And when my life inevitably went to shit, he completely distanced himself from his role in what happened, and said I never listened to his advice so how could he be held responsible. We spoke for like 9 months and i don't think he ever addressed the fact that I wasn't applying his "advice". It was only when I stopped my cult like workship behavior that he pulled that card from his back pocket as if that somehow absolved him of any responsibility. He always exceptionally cautious about liability as well, it's like he approached the calls as a spiritual business, not from an authentic place of enhancing well being and love. There's just so much off about his approach that it begs the question of what must be going on behind the scenes to drive that kind of behavior. For me the sickening part was how he tried to dissavow and distance himself from me when things got bad and I got resentful. That was the moment the spell was broken, i felt sick reading his responses and then I was like wow so this is who I was talking too. There were also countless inconsistencies in his life story that I initially just dismissed, but now in hindsight those are an even bigger red flag. He did have many admirable qualities, and I did learn a lot about charlatans etc so all in all it was a very valuable learning experience. But i still don't fully understand the extent of his madness tbh.

@Danioover9000 My prediction is anyone with sense and wisdom can see Hasan's a fool and his arguments in the debate are worthless. As far as optics, yeah, I can see how Hasan thinks he came out looking good, and I'm sure many of his fan boys will consider this a clear debate bro victory. Show me a wise person with sense, and I'll either expose them as a fool or they will admit what's Tate's saying makes complete sense and Hasan is a fool.

I give credit to Hasan for having the balls to debate Tate. But he's retarded if he believes he came out looking intelligent in this debate. Anyone with 2 brain cells can understand the point Tate was making.

@Scholar I did LSD as my first psychidelic, but idk the specific type. I think the best approach is to do guided trips in a retreat context, like ayahausca ceremonies, or something along those lines. But outside of that doing it alone is the next best alternative. I've done a lot of lsd and mushrooms, but from what i've heard 5 meo malt is the best psychidelic out there right now. I have some but i've been hesitant to try it. I'd say if LSD does not give you the kind of experience you're looking for, then try MALT next. I would say try a normal meditation or wellness retreat too if you want something that breaks you out of your current routine.

@Tyler Robinson Maybe in the future.

You'll have to ask a specific question. I could write 10 pages on what i've learned. I'd say number 1 is that you're better off going on a retreat than spending prolonged time talking to someone while maintaining your current routines and habits. And I wish I picked a mentor that addressed my nutrition and health issues earlier. Working with an aryuveda doctor has been the most effective thing i've done myself.

Yes in hindsight I would have stopped talking to him after 1 or 2 sessions. I learned a lot about dealing with mentors from Nahm, so it did serve me well. My disdain for Nahm isn't rationale. It's a personal grudge.

@Tyler Robinson My issue with Nahm isn't the money. It's that he claimed enlightenment and gave shitty advice. I just use the money as evidence of him being a charlatan because it's not noble conduct. I agree with the other part of what you wrote.

@Tyler Robinson It's 50 dollars a month and you can cancel anytime.

Yeah I lost $50 dollars. What a brilliant scam. He's not teaching you how to be rich. It's basically a mini online university with surface/medium understanding of basic online industries, and you get what you put in. You can see people succeeding, questioning, etc. Keep your luck. You will need it more.