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Nahm's thread on using a dream board. Total game changer for me so far. Only been using it a few days, already had manifested things from the board into reality. Crazy stuff.

@Surfingthewave I'm hoping meditation will bring me a mental state of peace and equanimity that i can access throughout my day. Then when I go to yoga or play basketball, I can use this acquired mental state to push myself to my absolute limits and try my absolute best, which will allow me to access the bliss and happiness available when we push through suffering. I don't believe it will take "years and years" that is a limiting belief imo. I have been practicing meditation for 2 hours in the morning, and an hour at night over the past few days and I feel like a different person already. I'm not "there" yet, but I am getting glimpses of what it will take to be happy. For example, last night in yoga for the first time I went as deep into the suffering and pain as I could go, rather than my usual aversion and mental chatter waiting for it to end. It was my best practice to date. It's not about living my life in this state. It's about increasing the amount of time in this state slowly but surely. I don't need to be in flow 1000% of the time, I just need a bit then it will grow. I am seeking advice right now from all of you guys lol (: @Nahm and @Synchronicity have been a huge help me to so far, and I will continue to post asking questions. But I also need to be mindful that some of my questions are just resistance to me doing the actual work, but I will continue asking questions until people tell me to fuck off. I have been depressed before. But my general unhappiness/ dissatisfaction with life is distinct from my episode of depression. I was raised very spoiled, and my parents just kinda let me do whatever I wanted. But not in a push my limits, be whatever I want to be kinda way. If i wanted junk food I got it. If i wanted a video game, I would throw tantrums until I got it. I never pushed myself out of my comfort zone, or pushed into the pain to find out who I am, because I had everything handed to me. I always felt like I wasn't living up to what I could be. I wasn't as happy as I felt I could be. I wasn't as good at sports as i felt i should be. My chemical balance has come from the way I live my life. And there a million ways I could have improved my life, but I always afraid of the pain and suffering (or resistance). I'm hoping meditation will give me a mental state to overcome pain and resistance in my life.

Read Nahm's thread on using a dream board. It will help you.

@Proactive I highly recommend yoga or long distance running. Something where this pain and suffering that you can go INTO to. Last night in my yoga class I went into the pain rather than my usual habit of avoiding and waiting for an easier position. It was my best class to date. Pain and suffering will lead to happiness. And when we learn we are immune to pain and suffering then flow will come easier because we know we are untouchable (I think, not sure about this but it sounds right). I am also looking for flow in my life.

@Proactive GREAT IDEA! Have you read Nahm's thread on using the dream board?

Have you seen Nahm's thread on using a dream board/holon?

This needs to be featured!

@d0ornokey I'm on a crazy trajectory with my spiritual growth since i started using the dream board. I'm definitely going to push the limits on how happy a person can be with a sub-par diet, but i'm already trending in the right direction for the past few days I just gotta keep it up.

@JustThinkingAloud (:

November 17th: First Meal: Large Coffee 2 cream 2 sugar + Banana Pecan Muffin- Take out Second Meal: Fish Tacos- Take out Third Meal: Kale + Spinach+ Peanut Butter + Banana + Almond Milk Smoothie- Homemade Fourth Meal: Individual Meat Lovers Pizza- Boston Pizza November 18th: First Meal: Large Coffee 2 cream 2 sugar + Banana Pecan Muffin- Take out Second Meal: Teriyaki Chicken rice bowl- Edo Japan Take out Third Meal: Kale + Spinach+ Peanut Butter + Banana + Almond Milk Smoothie- Homemade

There's not a problem per se. But there is a difference between relaxing in a bath and "meditating", and a more formal practice. Meditation is the most important thing you can do to improve your self. If that's why you're here, then take time, you can start with 5 minutes or whatever, and sit on your couch or sit in a chair and do it. Don't do it once in a while when it feels right etc etc. This is a practice that needs to be developed. If you knew how to meditate effectively then it wouldn't matter, and you can meditate any where really. The practice is limitless in it's application to your life. But you will get no where unless you establish a real practice where you are sitting consistently every day. Note, you don't actually have to sit EVERDAY. I remeber in one of Leo's videos he made such a big deal about how you have to do it EVERYDAY, and you can't miss a day etc etc. It doesn't matter if you miss a day here or there. Or even if you stop for a few months like I did. Just try your best to develop a real habit of doing it. It will have major impacts on your life, I promise.

Recently, my third eye has been at the fore front of my consciousness. When i meditate it feels like it's getting a deep tissue massage, and sometime it moves along my face and down toward my nose. What does this mean? How will this affect me moving forward? Should i do something to facilitate it's opening? Wtf does it even mean for the 3rd to open? Is my third eye already open? Thoughts?

I smoke pot when I meditate. I feel like it helps me with meditation.

@Nickyy Are you suggesting i'm asking too many questions?

@JustThinkingAloud Agreed. I need to get creative. It's funny i've been pretty unhappy my whole life so I've never really created anything. I used to think creative things were stupid. I think I need to spend some time with my board trying to create more life.

@JustThinkingAloud NOPE. lol sorry it just felt right to say it like that. From what i've read, and from what I understand from my dreams and my current reality. It doesn't matter what you do. The reason people love doing what they are doing is the way it makes them feel. For example, I love playing basketball when I'm playing well and I'm dominating. The most fun i've ever had has been when i'm in the zone, which has been rare because I've always been in my head. But WHY does it feel good. I thought the why would be addressed through meditation. Same thing with extreme sports. People do it for the flow, and the feeling of effortless and silence of mind. That is where their "happiness" comes from. It's not the thing. It's the way it makes you feel. Happiness should exist right fucking now. But it's not here. Which means i'm doing something wrong. Just not sure what.

@oMarcos It's not the place. It's you. You can move all around the world and live in the "best" places, and you can still be unhappy because happiness is internal not external. Find happiness first then make life decisions. Don't make major life decisions searching for happiness.

@erik8lrl Do you mean just be whatever exists in my direct experience right now. Like I have a major sensation coming from my third eye right now, and whenever I meditate it feels like it's being massaged by fingers. How do I be the sensation of the third eye? Just bring awareness there and let go?

The main reason I do meditation is because I want to be happy and live and amazing life. I want feel happy and I want to feel like my life is amazing, I have had some dreams throughout my life where I remember feeling something during my dream, the content of my dreams were basically little episodes of a tv show, and I know it's possible for my life to be infinitely better than it is now, so here i am. (Note, I have begun using a dream board for the past few days and I legit feel like it's working so I don't want to act like my life isn't trending in a profound direction). Right now in my meditation i am just trying to be. Whatever arises i just sit with it and be it, and i'll also throw in some I love you's once in a while too. In the short term i'm looking for genuine flow and joy from my meditation that I can carry into my normal life. So for example, I'm hoping to find a mental state through meditation that I can then use in my life. So, when I go to basketball and I think how can i play my best, I will go to that mental space I have cultivated through meditation. Or when put something on my dream board, and I think how can i manifest this, I am going to go to that mental space and let it guide me. But ultimately what i want is an amazing life, that makes me just smile with disbelief that I can actually be this happy and live this life.

@White Monk Currently a few days into using the board. It works. Crazy change in only a few days.

Wow. The dream board works. I feel better now than I have in a long time. I feel like i'm connected to my true nature. I don't know if I actually found the kingdom of heaven or if i deluded myself, but I feel like I may have scratched the surface to my true nature. I still feel like my life can be better, (maybe this thought is limiting my own happiness?), but i feel in credible momentum and it's only getting stronger. I'm going to try to act out of this place i found inside me. When I look for myself I can feel something at my core. This is the feeling I need to cultivate moving forward. Going to keep up with the early morning meditation and late night meditation. This is very exciting.

November 16th: First Meal: Large Coffee 2 cream 2 sugar + Banana Pecan Muffin- Take out Second Meal: Indian Butter chicken and Rice- Take out Third Meal: Chicken Teriyaki rice bowl- Take out Fourth Meal: Whopper with bacon + 2 pieces of cake Fifth Meal: Banana

Might be a sign to move on from pick up and look for other ways to grow. Have you watched Leo's critique of the pick up community?