Raptorsin7

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  1. @MarkKol To visit my buddy @zeroISinfinity
  2. Okay cool, thanks. The thing is if I needed more money I could get more, but I'm trying to set a budget where I will be reasonably comfortable and I won't need to ask for more money. My mom is giving me the money so there is room for flexibility. I was thinking i'll have a budget of $3500 per month, plus I already have 10k in a savings account I can pull from. I think I would limit my time in expensive cities like Paris, and then plan to spend 2-3 weeks in cheaper cities.
  3. I think the issue is Leo has his feet in two ponds. On the one hand he plays the role of the teacher/guru, but on the other hand he plays the role of the wildcard psychonaut walking a dangerous path that he doesn't recommend for his followers. Some people watching him are viewing him as an authority on spirituality and personal development so when he talks about he's held a gun to his head while taking psychidelics, there is some % of his audience that is viewing that through a lens of a teacher- disciple relationship and will likely try something equally irresponsible. If 1 person contemplates suicide with a gun while under psychidelics that is risky, but if X% of an audience attempts the same thing then you get a suicide cult. I think this has to end with Leo shifting the branding of actualized.org away from representing himself as an authority/teacher, and instead portraying himself as an explorer with serious disclaimers about irresponsible and reckless nature of his path. But as long as he continues profit off the masses who view him as a teacher/role model, while thinking that a quick disclaimer absolves himself of responsibility for how his videos will influence people, then he will continue to get massive backlash from these types of videos.
  4. @AlterEgo That's not abuse. That girl is giggling when she is showing her bruises. Some woman like rough sex and being man handled. The outrage shown in Hasan's and JRE's reddit's is pretty telling haha
  5. @Socrates What makes him weak? And idk how anyone can think Hasan came out looking good after that debate. Hasan was the one acting like a child imo.
  6. @herghly What gives you the impression I don't watch Leo's content.
  7. Yeah, the people criticizing Tate are reacting against their own medicine.
  8. @KH2 These guys would speak completely different if they were face to face. Keyboard warriors.
  9. Tate is more developed. Tate has 10x the mental and emotional strength that JP has.
  10. Here's a breakdown of what woman find attractive in men. This guy is probably the best PUA coach in the world, and if you're interested in pickup it's worth understanding his approach. https://johnelite.com/my-concepts/
  11. @Leo Gura He said he has a 3 phase plan. Phase 1 just ended
  12. Sweet story man. Good luck with finding your next step
  13. @Scholar It's pretty incredible to see how 99% of the woman who go on that show expect to a find man that is in the top 1%. The dating dynamics make no sense, and I guess that's why you see such a break down in relationships in modern countries. Most of these woman are just getting ran through by 1%ers and then there standards and expectations get warped because drake invited them to a party one night. It's tough because it seems the biological instinct for women is to seek out the best man they can find, and so high value men ending up with harems is biologically reasonable, but for society it seems like a disaster.
  14. @Michael569 @Cat_eyes @soos_mite_ah What do you think about a 3k Canadian per month budget? Ideally i'd like to stay in single room airbnb's, but I'm also open to staying hostels in some places depending on how expensive the city is.
  15. @DrugsBunny My posts are gold. Thank you. Maybe in the next 15 years you can overcome your compulsions and finish a meditation retreat, then you can appreciate them.
  16. “No tree, it is said, can grow to heaven unless its roots reach down to hell.” ― Carl Jung This quote is why it's worth learning and understanding Andrew Tate/
  17. @axiom He's already started one. There just isn't an opportunity for violence yet. "If you do not accept my trans-ideological world view then you are a threat to trans people everywhere. Now i'm justified in committing violence against you because your beliefs and world view are harmful to trans people everywhere!"
  18. You can learn a lot from Tate, he has a lot of admirable qualities
  19. @Scholar You're not the only one who holds that view.
  20. Okay so i'm going to share my experience going on my first Vipassana retreat. Overall it was an incredible and challenging experience. It was my first retreat, and it really makes me appreciate the value of getting out of your normal routine and spending prolonged time in isolation with a spiritual intent. Day 0: So the first day was just orientation and registration, followed by a meditation and discourse video at night. I came in ready to go and was really eager to throw myself into the meditation and just get as many hours meditating as I could because this was my first ever retreat. The first night was the hardest for me by far. I had 2 roommates and I am the kind of person who likes their privacy so I was disappointed that I had to share a room. I went into the retreat saying no matter what I would not quit, but the first night I literally mentally quit. I had such a bad migraine and nothing could relieve it, and i couldn't sleep because my roommates were snoring and breathing loudly. I made the decision mentally that I was going to call my parents in the morning to pick me up, it was a shock that I folded so easily but I still figured I learned something and maybe I'll come back in the future. I realized during the first night how much my mom loves me, and I felt that a lot of my issues in life were related to not feeling in lovAfe with my mom anymore. I know as a kid I did love her, but then something shifted and that was on my mind. When I thought of this I would feel like crying, but I didn't want to disturb my roomates so I couldn't let it out, but the tears actually did help my headache a lot which was interesting. Day 1-3 Okay, so I woke up on day 1 feeling a lot better. I managed a few hours of sleep, and I resolved not to quit while I was feeling better. I immediately went outside to get some fresh air and I found just walking in nature was good for my mood. I was pretty lazy the first day meditating, I spent a lot of the optional meditation times just sleeping in my room instead of meditating, but I was mainly focused on surviving and not aggrovating my head ache or anything. The main issue I was facing the first few days was an upset stomach. I kept feeling the urge to fart, and I was worried I'd like shit my pants during the meditations sometimes, so I was in this constant battle with myself during the meditations. By day 2 I realized I wasn't going to quit, so I began to dedicate myself to the meditation. We were just focusing on the breathe and I could feel my concentration growing and I was beginning to settle into the retreat. Over these first few days I felt incredible purging happening. I was having all sorts of insane and crazy thoughts in my head all day, but I was also beginning to feel much more peaceful and equanimious. I was actually feeling a stronger urge to cry at night which was huge for me, and I began to develop more peace with my stomach sensations and I wasn't as concerned about farting or anything. The whole practice of equanimity was really helping here and I could feel the benefit. Day 4-6 So day 4 we learend Vipassana. The first sit was so excruciating. I couldn't believe how slow he wanted use to scan our bodies, and I could feel so much energy building as my body was shaking as I did it. But after that first sit I felt incredible going outside. I had a psychidelic glow to me perception, and I was so ecstatic with how the retreat was going. At this point I was way more dedicated to the meditations and I could see the fruit of my growth. I almost achieved a perfect sync of energy flow in the body on day 4 and at this point I thought I was going to be enlightened or something by the 10th day. I had an incredible insight into relationships on day 4 as well. I could feel a burning in the tip of my penis, and I was a bit anxious about it lol. But as I felt into the tip of the penis pain I just sat with it with equanimty and I could feel it start to heal and feel better. Then i got a huge flood of insight into relationships, about how I am too attached to the idea of monogamy, and that there is truth in polyamory. I also realized that what's an acceptable relationship is based on societal standards and so I should not be so attached to any one type. I felt my mind open and become much more tolerant, and I am now much more open to the idea of polyamory and being with many partners. I was also thinking of Alexander the great. He had many wives and lovers, and I think he had a lover relationship with one of his male friends. I don't know if I want to be homosexual, but I definitely see the value of having loving male friends in your life, and before I would have considered that gay and unacceptable. At this point I was on a complete high. I had all these quotes about me being a god going through my head, and this was the peak of the retreat for me. There's a quote: When Alexander travelled the desert auricle of siwa, the priests welcomed him as son of Amuim king of the gods. I had that thought running in my head, I felt like a demi god and it was awesome. From day 4-6 I was practicing a lot and making some progress, but I began to get frustrated too. I found myself striving for the experience I had on day 4, and so my meditations began to get worse. Day 7-9 Oh I forgot to mention my retreat got covid. So we lost about half the people to covid. By this point my two roommates had already quit, so I was lucky that I had the full room to myself. I also developed a crush on a girl in the female side of the meditation hall. She was glowing and it was the first time I had seen a high conscious woman in person like that and it was really captivating for me. I think I gave off a strong energy while there because I had a few woman who kept looking at me, and I was pretty good during the strong determination sits so maybe that helped make me look better idk. But when covid hit I saw her leaving and I was pretty crushed. Then i saw she left with a guy form the retreat haha so maybe it was her boyfriend. It was a good lesson in attachment and it was a cool sobering reality check, because at that point I was on a pretty big high. By day 7 I had stopped making progress with my meditations. I had hit a wall, but I still felt that the retreat was such a win for me that I didn't mind. At this point I eased up a lot with my focus during the sits and I began to make plans for when I came home. I was thinking of travelling a lot and how much I wanted a relationship. And I was thinking about how I want to ask my parents to give me part of my inheritance now as a trust fund so I can travel and have more freedom and autonomy. By day 7 I was so comfortable on the retreat. There was no chance of me leaving and I began to appreciate the time I had left, but was also looking forward to going home. Day 10 Day 10 we could finally talk. It was amazing how fast the energy changed once we could talk. I met some incredible people on the retreat, it was so fully of laughter and joy speaking with everyone. I felt a real connection with a bunch the guys I met there, and it was so awesome to just talk, listen to people's stories and learn from everyone. My group had a great bond between everyone so it made the last day very fun and awesome to experience. Okay so that was pretty long. I have so much to say, and there's definitely some stuff I left out. If you have any questions feel free to ask and I can go into depth about any part of my retreat.
  21. @Razard86 What did you learn
  22. I'm two weeks off the course, and in most ways i've regressed to my poor habits. But I also did not continue with the 1 hour in the morning/night so i'm sure that's a big part of it. But it's had a lasting impact on me in other ways. I'm going to do another retreat in the next few months, and I've already made some moves in my life in a positive direction. I'm going to Sadhguru's ashram in Tenessee to learn shambhavi mudra and then i'm going to be travelling to Europe for a few months to just wander, explore, contemplate.