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Everyone has major egoic blind spots. Leo's just get magnified because he's the one who started this whole sha bang. Don't focus so much on Leo. I fell into the same trap trust me. I was a big Sam Harris fan and Leo criticized him and i got triggered. Then i started getting triggered by his posts thinking, this guys not that developed blah. Be careful focusing too much attention to Leo's growth here. What matters is your growth and views not Leo's. Imagine if there was no forum for genuine self help. And so tomorrow you started one. But you are at your level of development. How would you feel when feel people started questioning your growth, calling out your blind spots etc. Leo is just like us, trying to improve. I've been a similar spot as you with projection onto Leo, and it's worth reflecting on.

I am also from Sikh family and I learned more from this video then I ever learned growing up haha. Thanks for the share.

@Fede83 There is a light at the end of the tunnel my friend it's going to be okay. I would recommend finding a good therapist first and going over some of these issues with them. The risk of going off the anti-depressants is you could end up feeling much worse after going off them, then you may be unmotivated to get back on them. Then you end up in a worse place then you are now which is the wrong way we want to go. How is every other part of your life besides meditation. How's the diet? How's your exercise regiment? What kind of media/content do you consume? What's your day to day like? Maybe start doing something besides meditating. For me yoga was a huge addition to my life and it helped me grow a lot.

@Average Investor How did you decide that reselling was the right thing to do? Thanks for the tips i appreciate it.

@Chumbimba I've done LSD a few times. I've done a low dose of mushrooms but it was at a music festival and I don't remember the sensation much so i can't speak to it. It's worth making a post just on that question. I don't know what the difference is tbh, especially with respect to personal development work.

@Chumbimba Okay. I think if you do it with the intention of growth and development, and the fact you've done LSD before, you should be fine even if you get a "bad" trip. Intention and setting are key. Plan ahead. Have food. Music etc. I just did a trip a few weeks ago and i've been growing rapidly ever since. Be sure to test the LSD too.

What was the setting last time you took it? Were you doing it with friends just for fun? Were you doing with the intention of improving yourself and growing?

Do you remember an example of a situation? What did the person do? What were you thinking? Has anything changed regarding your diet? Sleep schedule? Any recurrent thoughts?

@Thittato That's awesome man. I'm glad things are working out for you. Keep going!

@Farnaby I resonate with this. I get similar anxiety from situations you described. I'm sure there are multiple solutions here. But one i've heard of is exposure therapy. You put yourself into these anxiety provoking situations so much that you get used to it and your mind realizes it's not a big deal and the anxiety will dissipate. Think of guys who do pick up. The first few approaches are probably crazy anxiety inducing. But as you get used to them and keep doing them eventually the anxiety goes down and it's no longer a big deal. Try starting small, and just push yourself slowly to keep confronting these situations over and over again. Do it mindfully. Do it gently. Don't be hard on yourself if you get anxiety, or even just give up that day or something. Just keep pressing with it and it will pass.

@Fede83 Why do you feel the need to get off them so suddenly? I think you can improve your life while you're still on them. Anti-depressants aren't necessarily bad. They can work well for some people. How's your diet? How's your exercise? What's your routine like? I would focus on all these aspects of your life first. If you feel really good and think to yourself I feel so good I don't need the boost anymore then maybe get off them. But if you want to get off them in order to feel better then i'm not sure. Talk to your doctor about getting off them for a short period, see how you feel. Then if your mood gets worse you can get back on them and keep working on yourself until you no longer need them. Good luck

Another great day. I need to work on my discipline. This is a weakness of mine right now. I desire a girlfriend too. I am ready. I put it on my dream board and i'm going to keep thinking about this and making steps towards this goal. Here's what i accomplished today: Did yoga in the morning. Had a great session. My instructor really likes me haha. I played squash at my university. I had a fun time, and i'm getting better playing sports without thinking and just trying to have fun and be in the moment. I did a night time yoga class and it was really fun. Yoga is so much easier then it was before. I have so much more energy and i'm in such better shape then I was before. I meditated for around 30 minutes today. I nee d to schedule more meditation time throughout my day. I want to get to 2 hours but i'm only doing around 30-1 hr per day. I also messaged a class mate of mine who dropped out, I think for mental health reasons. I wasn't sure if i was going to send him a message but i decided to just message him and just do it. I think I can help him if he takes me up on my offer to hear his story. But if not it's okay and the universe will take care of him. I cooked burgers today. This will be the last time i'm cooking burgers for a while, but they tasted great. This is the unhealthiest thing i've eaten in a while but at least i cooked it on my own and I didn't add cheese.

Pharma Gaba is great. I also take L-theanine which seems to be pretty good. Thanks for posting i'll try some of that stuff.

I have done the same thing in my life. It's time to flip the script. Put feeling before thinking. Focus on how you feel that is the most important.

Another solid day. I want to improve to my discipline moving forward and I think making a list will be helpful in moving me in this direction. Here's what I accomplished today: Had a great convo with Nahm. Learning so much from him every time. I want to start preparing more questions in advance so i can ask more specific questions. I love the convos either way, but I think i will get more value from the convos if i come more prepared. I ate pretty healthy overall today. I ordered greek food which is the first take out i've ordered in a while. I really need to find a better way to spend my nights. I find myself not feeling good at night. I think addressing this feeling will be pay big dividends moving forward though I did like 70 minutes in the float tank. The float tank is incredible. I get such a good vibe from being there, and I can relax very easily in there. I want to up this time to about at least 2-3 times a week. I made a reiki massage appointment. I'm excited for this i've heard it's quite good but we will see. I'm going to try a deep massage after this session too just so i can compare the effects. I meditated for 30 minutes this morning before class. I have been slacking a bit on my meditation. I want to spend more hours just breathing and being present, but i'm getting distracted a lot lol. I did yoga in the morning. This is was a good session. I was like the only one there lol. I want to start going a bit later, like maybe at 7 am instead of 6 am. I read more of Abraham's Hick's book. Man she is good. The law of attraction makes complete sense to me, and i gotta start implementing these teachings. My habits of thinking are not being conducive to my dream life, and i need to address this. My friend @zeroISinfinity is making a big change in his life. I wish him well. I want to one day go to Serbia and visit him. I hope he's doing okay and he finds what he's looking for in his time of isolation and healing. Much love

@John Doe Why not lower your definition of progress to what you can do in the moment. Then you will always be progressing? High standards can work but if you aren't living up then change it up and adapt. It's not supposed to be so hard.

Today was another solid day. School was canceled which was a nice bonus. I made a list last night and i accomplished most stuff on the list so i think moving forward i'm going to take time to plan out what i want to do the night before or in the morning. Here's what I accomplished: I did yoga and had a great session. I started doing yoga with my shirt off now and it feels way better. I was a little self conscious at first but now I just do it no problem. Other guys do it in the class too so that gives me confidence too. I meditated for an hour in the morning. The meditation was session was not that great though. I have been lacking diligence in practicing the specific technique laid out in TMI. I want to focus on doing exactly what he recommends and progressing through the stages. I will monitor this moving forward. I'm thinking of doing 2 hours of meditation a day. 1 hr will be TMI breath meditation. 1 hr will be just feeling and being fully present and detached from thoughts. I watched the first 2 videos of Leo's life purpose course. So far it's excellent and i'm really excited to move forward. I really don't like school so it's great motivation to really work hard at Leo's course because i want to start a venture that will lead to financial independence and allow me to free myself from my parents and wage slavery. I'm a little confused on this topic. Do i just go all in on LP and ignore money and let it be? Do i focus on just making money first with a financial venture doing something I somewhat like then transition to a full on LP after i achieve financial freedom? Not sure here. Will get some more opinions and develop my self more so i can trust my intution better. I am already getting ideas about potential business' since i put it on my dream board which is awesome. I started reading Esther Hicks' book Ask and it is given and it's amazing. The wisdom in the book is high level, and i feel like abraham is speaking directly to my soul when he speaks. I used to believe that Abraham hicks was not legitimate and this was kinda a performance. I don't think this anymore. I think she is the real deal. Nahm recommends her so i bet she's legit. At this point it's basically me trusting intuitoin on how to proceed or listening to Nahm. I ate quite healthy again today. I'm starting to eat take out again, but its healthy salads from this healthy restaurant near me. I don't order it either i just walk over there and grab it. I don't like the idea of ordering food anymore to my apartment. I would rather just walk over and get it myself. I've basically cut my food expenses from like 40 dollars per day to about 12 dollars on a salad with chicken. Great improvement here. Moving forward a main focus of mine will be to find a partner/girlfriend. It's time i addressed this part of my life. I am ready. I am going to use my journal to describe my perfect mate at the advice of Nahm and this will be the ultimate test of how i create my reality. I'm going to follow what feels good when i'm going through this process but i'm also going to throw in some stuff that i want intellectually too. The only rule is not i'm not going to choose anything that feels bad. I am going to be patient with this process, i really care about finding a good partner. I will be an amazing boyfriend so i hope to find an amazing girlfriend. So excited to finally have love in my life. I've wanted a girlfriend for a while but I never felt ready and never found someone i really resonated with. Good times ahead

@zeroISinfinity Hey man it's going well today. My class got canceled today because of snow so I have a whole day off to myself. I'm not doing this. My parents have a lot of money so the money would be insignificant to them. My plan is to start a business and start earning income so I can just move on and completely detach financially from them. Right now I don't live with my parents, I'm in law school in a city only a few hours from my parents. But my parents give me all my money so they see what I spend and I have to run everything through them basically. Do you mind if i ask what you do for money? How does spirituality affect your views in this space? One the one hand I think so many of these concepts are so radical that it can't be that hard to just manifest a billion dollars or something lol . But I don't know, there isn't a lot of talk here about business/entrepreneurship except for a few users.

@Raphael Haha yeah i bet we do. I live in Canada but my parents are still stage blue Indian so they have a very rigid worldview. They actually give me a ton of freedom and I wouldn't be where i'm at in this journey without all their support. But it's time to let them go. It's become limiting and I'm ready to start climbing higher.

Overall today was another solid day. But I hit a hiccup which is worth going over: The down: I was really frustrated in class today. I really hate late school and it makes me really unhappy being there. I just feel like i'm wasting valuable time learning something I have 0 interest in at all. On the plus side school is a joke and it's really easy to get average marks so i can skip most classes and devote my time to other things while I make my transition away from law school. I'm going to start Leo's life purpose course tmrw, and I think being at school will be a good motivator to do the course because I really just want to earn financial freedom and stop wasting my time doing stuff that has no value to me. I also had an interesting convo with my mom. I told her i'm not depressed anymore which should ease my parents worries about me. But i really need to detach from my parents. Me and my parents have a toxic relationship. There is co-dependence here and my parent's are too ignorant to realize that they have no clue what's going on regarding what's right for my future. They will continue to try and sway my life and try and making choices for me because they are funding my entire life. I need to earn my freedom from them and that will create much more space and clarity in my life. I'm excited to finally be free from my parents and be truly financially independent. Here's what I accomplished today: I woke up at 6 am I went to yoga and had a great session today I expressed myself honestly to my parents and my classmates today even though I came across in a bad light in some sense. I want to be as humble and practice humility in every moment possible because I prefer to not attract too much attention to myself and have to deal with other's, but i will learn as I go. I'm not going to be hard on myself if i have moments of being arrogant or difficult. I know where i'm going and I will self correct my behavior naturally. I meditated in the morning for about 40 minutes. This is one area I want to improve. I want to up my meditation hours to around 2 or more per day. I still waste a lot of time procrastinating on the forum and stuff but I think Leo's life purpose course will help address this issue. I sent a pretty heartfelt messages to my friends in our group chat about how much i've benefited from changing my diet after the LSD trip. My friends are a lot like me and trying to improve and be happy so I hope i inspired them with my honesty. One of my friends has done a bunch of LSD trips and gave me words of encouragement which felt really good. I took a warm bath after I was frustrated and worked up from talking to my mom. I actually almost had an enlightenment experience, i felt it coming on. But i told myself i'm not ready yet and then it went away. I really appreciated that from the universe. I am happy with my current rate of progress I don't know if i'm ready for enlightenment experiences yet. When i'm ready i will allow them but for now I think the universe will respect my wishes to keep my normal progress. I am guided my something moving forward right now and I will continue to honor that space within me. When i think good thoughts or just empty my mind I feel a wave of good feeling. I call it god's grace but i'm not sure what it is. But i know it feels good and I know it responds to me doing good and being good in the world. I am a good person. Even as an ego i'm a good person. I want to do good in the world, and I recognize the pitfalls of a lot of worldviews. I am have excellent role models for how to go from here as an ego in the world. Keira Yamato from Gundam Seed. And Aang from Avatar the last air bender. I love these guys and I learned a lot from them how to act morally in the world. At the request of Nahm i'm going to start learning about other religions so I have a more encompassing world view. He recommended Rumi, Buddha, Jesus, and Esther Hicks. I'm reading Esther Hicks book on LoA right now and so far it's excellent. I think I will learn about the Buddha Next.

@Nivsch The intention is important in whatever I do. The intention of this post was not to improve myself. It was just a thought I had when I was procrastinating meditation or some other work i had to do. Like i feel "better" now then i used to. And i wouldn't make this post now.

The first "down" point in a while for me. Feeling very frustrated, with pent up aggression, energy ,etc. I got in an argument with my mom over text. But i texted her and told her i'm not depressed anymore, and she said my dad couldn't sleep recently because i was depressed. So that's good that he will be happy now. I need to detach from my parents. Better for everyone. They fund everything for me right now so rightfully they feel like they have say in everything I do. I do not want any influence on my life. I trusted too many people in my life. People are so limited in what they think is possible. Need to be discerning with who i trust and who's thoughts I act on. If i go alone then so be it, fuck everyone if it has to be like this. People all live for themselves, i am that way too so i completely understand and i'm not mad. I just don't want to get sucked in to people's shit. I want to build my own life and live how I want to. Not how my deluded mind has led me to live. But to actually live good, happy, healthy life. I feel very confident that my best life, everything i want. Is what god/love wants to. This is not a caravan of despair. I have to be brave, and sacrifice my current life which would never work, it would never make me happy, never give me love. What a "sacrifice" LOL. Negative thoughts, bad outcomes, not feeling good, all that stuff is delusion. Life is meant to be enjoyed. My highest joy and love will be what god wants for me.

@dimitri Great share man that's awesome advice. I have been guilty of this in the past. Just telling people to do what i'm doing thinking everyone wants and needs what I want and need. I'll keep this in mind going forward.

I want to start a business and start working towards financial freedom. This is will be my next focus along with continuing to heal myself and improve my overall mental and bodily health. I feel like i'm ready to start getting more ambitious and adding more habits to my routine so working on a business will be a natural extension. Another great day: Here's what I accomplished I woke up at around 4:30 am. I am very proud of myself for waking up this early. I love waking up early and this is going to be a staple habit moving forward. I went to the gym early in the morning and got in a solid workout. I made oatmeal in the morning and had a vegetable/fruit smoothie before i went to class. Oatmeal is a solid meal choice, but i bought vanilla almond milk and I did not like the taste at all. I think I need a different kind of almond milk for the oat meal, and I need to add some other ingredients to improve the taste. I went to every class today, and i ended up getting a solid mark on my contracts mid term even though I thought I did poorly. I meditated for 45 minutes in the morning. Then another 30-40 minutes when I came home from school. My meditation practice is growing rapidly and i'm excited to see where it goes in the future. I'm expecting some major awakenings in the near future so i'm looking forward that. I feel clarity. My mood is stable, and I have a sense of stability and calm that I haven't felt before. I still have a lot of work to do, but this is major progress and it's quite amazing how much my life has improved since doing the LSD trip. LSD will be my safety valve moving forward. If i notice a dip to bad habits or i'm feeling stuck again then I'm going to do LSD again and get a reset. I'm going to do LSD when I feel it's right and right now I just don't feel a need to trip again. But this may change in the future we will see.

Whats cp? @zeroISinfinity I am feeling better and better thanks man. I'm a bit worried that I won't keep up my progress, but this week has been incredible. Best week in years tbh. One word to describe my state right now: Clarity Lot's of credit to @Nahm He is the real deal.