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I felt stagnant today. I think I want to do another LSD trip this upcoming weekend and see how that affects my growth. I plan on doing more research on how to best use LSD for personal growth, but I know my life has improved dramatically since my last trip so there's definitely incredible value here. I want to reduce the time i spend on the forum. I want to increase the amount of time i spend meditating each day from about an hour to between 1-3 hours. Here's what I accomplished today: Woke up at 730 am Went to yoga class and had a good work out I meditated for about an hour, and felt pretty good during and after the session. I'm getting better at feeling the breathe and the feelings in my experience. I want to meditate longer and with more diligence moving forward. I've been slacking a bit with my diligence. I ate very healthy today. I did not order any take out. I went to a healthy restaurant and bought a teriyaki chicken brown rice bowl with vegetables which I really liked. I think I can make even more improvements to my diet and this will be another area of focus. I think i'm going to start drinking two kale smoothies per day rather than my typical 1 per day. I think I need to consume more food then i've been consuming typically. I think more healthy food will equal more energy. I watched another video's of Leo's life purpose course. I really like the course so far. My plan is to watch 1 video of the course at least per day, but I think i'll watch more on some days too. I think life purpose will be the path forward for me. I want to finish the course, complete it with effort and diligence and then reassess what my next step should be in life. I had an insight that i've been using thinking to avoid feelings of discomfort in the present moment. I think this habit has existed for a large part of my life but it was cool to notice it during my meditation. My mind feels the discomfort and then goes right into thinking as a way of avoiding of what's coming up. It makes sense as a survival strategy as a kid because I could avoid the bad feelings caused by my parents and just go right into thinking rather than processing the hurtful emotions that are there.

There was this trashy woman in my elevator today. She was dressed up very sexually, and she clearly has some sort of addiction or mental health issues by thy way she was acting. I actually felt aroused in the elevator and then she tried making small talk with me. I felt pretty sick/disturbed when i got back into my apartment. This is the path to hell. I haven't jerked off or watched porn in a few weeks so it makes sense i'd be horny, but this was a dangerous situation. I'm fortunate i am doing well with my development so i can resist this stuff, but if i was at a weaker state and i thought "hey i can do a 1 night stand or something" this could devastate my progress. Allowing this kind of toxicity into your life could set you back years in development. I'm so fortunate that i overcame this obstacle and all i got was a sick feeling when i got back to my apartment. A focus of mine right now is to find a high consciousness partner/girlfriend. There are many benefits to a relationship as a young man. And this example I think is another benefit i hadn't considered. Having someone to satisfy sexual urges so you don't have to go to porn or some disturbed person who is willing to have anonymous sex. I don't want that kind of toxicity in my life, and thank god for that.

@Farnaby I'm not actively going about confronting this type of anxiety but I notice when it arises. But I have read a lot about exposure therapy and the logic behind it makes sense to me. I also know the more we resist and when there is aversion to something it creates more anxiety. If we just relax and just confront the anxiety the fear is almost always greater than what is actually there. Trauma therapy is a great idea. I just started seeing a therapist and I think i might transition to a therapist with a trauma focus and work through some exercises. Most of our problems in this space are related to trauma we suffered as children which disrupted our psychies. So any form of therapy that goes inside and tries to root those out should be effective.

@Bno That's a good point. Just be careful with watching videos and thinking you're engaging in activism. I've fallen in the same trap.

@Bno No. They can keep doing whatever they're doing. I'm talking about you. You are already more woke then 99.9% of the population. You resonate with Bernie, Progressivsm. You're good. You've been reached. At this point every progressive video you watch is just mental masturbation. It's preaching to the choir. Focus on personal growth. At every level. That will naturally lead you to influencing systems once you have taken care of your basic human needs first.

All is the self. The dirty bricks outside my apartment are also the self. If i ignore the bricks i am also ignoring the Self. If you want to save the world. Save yourself first.

@Bno Politics is a game of lesser evils. Corporate dems are better than corporate republicans. Both suck but one is better. Ignore politics besides educating yourself on who to vote for. It's toxic and divisive. Focus on growth.

Everyone has major egoic blind spots. Leo's just get magnified because he's the one who started this whole sha bang. Don't focus so much on Leo. I fell into the same trap trust me. I was a big Sam Harris fan and Leo criticized him and i got triggered. Then i started getting triggered by his posts thinking, this guys not that developed blah. Be careful focusing too much attention to Leo's growth here. What matters is your growth and views not Leo's. Imagine if there was no forum for genuine self help. And so tomorrow you started one. But you are at your level of development. How would you feel when feel people started questioning your growth, calling out your blind spots etc. Leo is just like us, trying to improve. I've been a similar spot as you with projection onto Leo, and it's worth reflecting on.

I am also from Sikh family and I learned more from this video then I ever learned growing up haha. Thanks for the share.

@Fede83 There is a light at the end of the tunnel my friend it's going to be okay. I would recommend finding a good therapist first and going over some of these issues with them. The risk of going off the anti-depressants is you could end up feeling much worse after going off them, then you may be unmotivated to get back on them. Then you end up in a worse place then you are now which is the wrong way we want to go. How is every other part of your life besides meditation. How's the diet? How's your exercise regiment? What kind of media/content do you consume? What's your day to day like? Maybe start doing something besides meditating. For me yoga was a huge addition to my life and it helped me grow a lot.

@Average Investor How did you decide that reselling was the right thing to do? Thanks for the tips i appreciate it.

@Chumbimba I've done LSD a few times. I've done a low dose of mushrooms but it was at a music festival and I don't remember the sensation much so i can't speak to it. It's worth making a post just on that question. I don't know what the difference is tbh, especially with respect to personal development work.

@Chumbimba Okay. I think if you do it with the intention of growth and development, and the fact you've done LSD before, you should be fine even if you get a "bad" trip. Intention and setting are key. Plan ahead. Have food. Music etc. I just did a trip a few weeks ago and i've been growing rapidly ever since. Be sure to test the LSD too.

What was the setting last time you took it? Were you doing it with friends just for fun? Were you doing with the intention of improving yourself and growing?

Do you remember an example of a situation? What did the person do? What were you thinking? Has anything changed regarding your diet? Sleep schedule? Any recurrent thoughts?

@Thittato That's awesome man. I'm glad things are working out for you. Keep going!

@Farnaby I resonate with this. I get similar anxiety from situations you described. I'm sure there are multiple solutions here. But one i've heard of is exposure therapy. You put yourself into these anxiety provoking situations so much that you get used to it and your mind realizes it's not a big deal and the anxiety will dissipate. Think of guys who do pick up. The first few approaches are probably crazy anxiety inducing. But as you get used to them and keep doing them eventually the anxiety goes down and it's no longer a big deal. Try starting small, and just push yourself slowly to keep confronting these situations over and over again. Do it mindfully. Do it gently. Don't be hard on yourself if you get anxiety, or even just give up that day or something. Just keep pressing with it and it will pass.

@Fede83 Why do you feel the need to get off them so suddenly? I think you can improve your life while you're still on them. Anti-depressants aren't necessarily bad. They can work well for some people. How's your diet? How's your exercise? What's your routine like? I would focus on all these aspects of your life first. If you feel really good and think to yourself I feel so good I don't need the boost anymore then maybe get off them. But if you want to get off them in order to feel better then i'm not sure. Talk to your doctor about getting off them for a short period, see how you feel. Then if your mood gets worse you can get back on them and keep working on yourself until you no longer need them. Good luck

Another great day. I need to work on my discipline. This is a weakness of mine right now. I desire a girlfriend too. I am ready. I put it on my dream board and i'm going to keep thinking about this and making steps towards this goal. Here's what i accomplished today: Did yoga in the morning. Had a great session. My instructor really likes me haha. I played squash at my university. I had a fun time, and i'm getting better playing sports without thinking and just trying to have fun and be in the moment. I did a night time yoga class and it was really fun. Yoga is so much easier then it was before. I have so much more energy and i'm in such better shape then I was before. I meditated for around 30 minutes today. I nee d to schedule more meditation time throughout my day. I want to get to 2 hours but i'm only doing around 30-1 hr per day. I also messaged a class mate of mine who dropped out, I think for mental health reasons. I wasn't sure if i was going to send him a message but i decided to just message him and just do it. I think I can help him if he takes me up on my offer to hear his story. But if not it's okay and the universe will take care of him. I cooked burgers today. This will be the last time i'm cooking burgers for a while, but they tasted great. This is the unhealthiest thing i've eaten in a while but at least i cooked it on my own and I didn't add cheese.

Pharma Gaba is great. I also take L-theanine which seems to be pretty good. Thanks for posting i'll try some of that stuff.

I have done the same thing in my life. It's time to flip the script. Put feeling before thinking. Focus on how you feel that is the most important.

Another solid day. I want to improve to my discipline moving forward and I think making a list will be helpful in moving me in this direction. Here's what I accomplished today: Had a great convo with Nahm. Learning so much from him every time. I want to start preparing more questions in advance so i can ask more specific questions. I love the convos either way, but I think i will get more value from the convos if i come more prepared. I ate pretty healthy overall today. I ordered greek food which is the first take out i've ordered in a while. I really need to find a better way to spend my nights. I find myself not feeling good at night. I think addressing this feeling will be pay big dividends moving forward though I did like 70 minutes in the float tank. The float tank is incredible. I get such a good vibe from being there, and I can relax very easily in there. I want to up this time to about at least 2-3 times a week. I made a reiki massage appointment. I'm excited for this i've heard it's quite good but we will see. I'm going to try a deep massage after this session too just so i can compare the effects. I meditated for 30 minutes this morning before class. I have been slacking a bit on my meditation. I want to spend more hours just breathing and being present, but i'm getting distracted a lot lol. I did yoga in the morning. This is was a good session. I was like the only one there lol. I want to start going a bit later, like maybe at 7 am instead of 6 am. I read more of Abraham's Hick's book. Man she is good. The law of attraction makes complete sense to me, and i gotta start implementing these teachings. My habits of thinking are not being conducive to my dream life, and i need to address this. My friend @zeroISinfinity is making a big change in his life. I wish him well. I want to one day go to Serbia and visit him. I hope he's doing okay and he finds what he's looking for in his time of isolation and healing. Much love

@John Doe Why not lower your definition of progress to what you can do in the moment. Then you will always be progressing? High standards can work but if you aren't living up then change it up and adapt. It's not supposed to be so hard.

Today was another solid day. School was canceled which was a nice bonus. I made a list last night and i accomplished most stuff on the list so i think moving forward i'm going to take time to plan out what i want to do the night before or in the morning. Here's what I accomplished: I did yoga and had a great session. I started doing yoga with my shirt off now and it feels way better. I was a little self conscious at first but now I just do it no problem. Other guys do it in the class too so that gives me confidence too. I meditated for an hour in the morning. The meditation was session was not that great though. I have been lacking diligence in practicing the specific technique laid out in TMI. I want to focus on doing exactly what he recommends and progressing through the stages. I will monitor this moving forward. I'm thinking of doing 2 hours of meditation a day. 1 hr will be TMI breath meditation. 1 hr will be just feeling and being fully present and detached from thoughts. I watched the first 2 videos of Leo's life purpose course. So far it's excellent and i'm really excited to move forward. I really don't like school so it's great motivation to really work hard at Leo's course because i want to start a venture that will lead to financial independence and allow me to free myself from my parents and wage slavery. I'm a little confused on this topic. Do i just go all in on LP and ignore money and let it be? Do i focus on just making money first with a financial venture doing something I somewhat like then transition to a full on LP after i achieve financial freedom? Not sure here. Will get some more opinions and develop my self more so i can trust my intution better. I am already getting ideas about potential business' since i put it on my dream board which is awesome. I started reading Esther Hicks' book Ask and it is given and it's amazing. The wisdom in the book is high level, and i feel like abraham is speaking directly to my soul when he speaks. I used to believe that Abraham hicks was not legitimate and this was kinda a performance. I don't think this anymore. I think she is the real deal. Nahm recommends her so i bet she's legit. At this point it's basically me trusting intuitoin on how to proceed or listening to Nahm. I ate quite healthy again today. I'm starting to eat take out again, but its healthy salads from this healthy restaurant near me. I don't order it either i just walk over there and grab it. I don't like the idea of ordering food anymore to my apartment. I would rather just walk over and get it myself. I've basically cut my food expenses from like 40 dollars per day to about 12 dollars on a salad with chicken. Great improvement here. Moving forward a main focus of mine will be to find a partner/girlfriend. It's time i addressed this part of my life. I am ready. I am going to use my journal to describe my perfect mate at the advice of Nahm and this will be the ultimate test of how i create my reality. I'm going to follow what feels good when i'm going through this process but i'm also going to throw in some stuff that i want intellectually too. The only rule is not i'm not going to choose anything that feels bad. I am going to be patient with this process, i really care about finding a good partner. I will be an amazing boyfriend so i hope to find an amazing girlfriend. So excited to finally have love in my life. I've wanted a girlfriend for a while but I never felt ready and never found someone i really resonated with. Good times ahead

@zeroISinfinity Hey man it's going well today. My class got canceled today because of snow so I have a whole day off to myself. I'm not doing this. My parents have a lot of money so the money would be insignificant to them. My plan is to start a business and start earning income so I can just move on and completely detach financially from them. Right now I don't live with my parents, I'm in law school in a city only a few hours from my parents. But my parents give me all my money so they see what I spend and I have to run everything through them basically. Do you mind if i ask what you do for money? How does spirituality affect your views in this space? One the one hand I think so many of these concepts are so radical that it can't be that hard to just manifest a billion dollars or something lol . But I don't know, there isn't a lot of talk here about business/entrepreneurship except for a few users.