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@ethanb121 Start focusing on the basics. Meditation, even just 5 minutes a day. Diet. Walking Outside. Get out of the house. Write down thoughts, or write anything. You're going to want to work up to psychedelics. They are valuable, but if you are not ready then they can destabilize you. You are in the right place. Asking the right questions. No need to rush. It will get better.

@zeroISinfinity @Nahm Lol I didn't get that at first read. Really is insane what's possible. PSA: Pay attention to what you think is possible for yourself in every activity you engage in. School. Sports. Video Games. Relationships. The truth is there are no limits as to how good life can be. The only limits are the one's we create with our minds.

Post by @Nahm about emotional regulation using the emotional scale. This covers similar topics as Abraham Hicks so anyone following her this is a good resource. If you continue to believe there are “negative feelings”....then you are continuing to believe thoughts which do not feel good to you...and blaming it on the feelings. Feeling is fine, no problem at all. Inspect the thoughts instead, in accordance with feeling. Listen to feeling. Realize the thoughts which don’t feel good, are thoughts which don’t feel good. Write down the thought which doesn’t feel good. Look at the emotional scale. Identify where that thought falls on the scale, how it feels. Then move up one, two, maybe three on the scale, and reconsider that same thought, in the light of the ‘higher on the scale’ feeling. On 1/23/2020 at 8:18 AM, Shroomdoctor said: I can’t deal with my emotions Using that thought as an example.... How does it feel, in reference to the scale? I’ll assume it feels like Pessimism. Then, consider Hopefulness. Can you feel some hope... ”I could learn, I could inspect...and I can see where more awareness, and understanding...could lead to feeling better.” Then, consider Positive Expectation. Can you feel some positive expectation... ”Other people have done this, and awareness & understanding have worked for them. Matter of fact, awareness & understanding have always worked for me. Always revealed insights, always led to understanding & feeling better”. Then, consider Enthusiasm / Eagerness / Happiness... ”This is going to be awesome. What I want most, is to feel good. It’s about time I gave this my full attention. I’ve noticed in the past that when I choose good feeling thoughts, and let go of thoughts that don’t feel good...great stuff happens....I know what enthusiasm feels like. I’m eager to continue feeling better and better” Then, consider passion.... “I know what I love. I recognize there’s some resistant thoughts that come up. I also know that doing what I love doing simply feels good to me. I can always let go of resistant thinking about what doesn’t feel good, and do something I enjoy. I can see how letting a thought go, and doing something I like, in and of itself, feels better. I know that when I do this, mind is cleared, without resistant thoughts and with a fresh approach, the passion in me always arises.” Then, consider Empowerment.... “I can do this. I can be patient, I can inspect each thought, and I can choose a better feeling thought, and I know feeling better is everything, and that everything I am wanting comes from feeling better. Thankfully, this up to me, and though it takes time, I can do this.“ Then, consider Love... “I know when I choose thoughts of appreciation, it just feels good. I know that at any time I want to, I can choose to appreciate, I can choose to do what I love, share love with others, and choose better feeling loving thoughts on my behalf as well. “

I just began the life purpose course and I have a question about how flexible the course can be based on my specific desires. I want to achieve financial independence and I want to find a field that interests me and I can see myself wanting to master and work hard at. However, I'm not necessarily interested in finding something here that I will do until I die like Leo has with self improvement and actualized.org. I want to find a business where it's possible to make real money, but at the same time I don't want to sell my soul and do something I hate just for a paycheck. My current thought process is to try and find a field where I can start earning income in a short manner, assuming I work hard and long hours, but at the same time I'm not looking for something I absolutely love or feel is my calling. I want to achieve financial independence first doing something I like, but not necessarily love, before moving onto something that I really love and would be willing to die for. Does anyone have experience using the course in this manner? Any insights would be appreciated. Also, if anyone has any ideas outside of the course about how to go about learning about different fields of business so one can find something that interests them? I am new to entrepreneurship and business so I'm basically starting at ground 0 here.

How I am thinking and feeling right now: Today my parents came over. I had a major awakening yesterday on LSD and I was excited to see them. But their visit was disheartening. I feel so much better now than I have in the past. But this comes with more emotional extremes, and I was basically fighting back tears in our conversations. As I grow more, I can see how deeply unconscious my parents are. It's even worse because I am completely dependent on them for my financial survival. My parents have difficulty with emotional extremes because they themselves had to learn to suppress their emotions to make their parents happy. My parents have a narrow emotional range, and very structured lives. They are sensitive to differences in my emotions and when they notice something off they get scared and try to guilt/shame/fear me into acting normal so they can feel emotionally secure again. It's a toxic relationship. I am making a commitment to pursuing financial security. I have already sent an email to the float house i go to, to try and get very early morning shifts because i heard the manager say that they don't have employees willing to take those shifts. I am going to start radically cutting my expenses and look for a part time job to get some savings going. I am much more sensitive to my time wasting habits. The world is changing rapidly for me. A lesson i got from my trip is to take more responsibility. I have more ability and power then I ever imagined is possible. It's time to start putting it to use.

I am about 10% through Leo's Life Purpose course and i found my purpose. At least for the near future. I have been a gamer for most of my life, both esports and physical sports. I have decided to start playing competitive video games with lots of viewers, like League Of Legends at the moment, and I plan on playing the game getting very good and starting a website about mental health/mindfulness/happiness/videogames to help gamers that suffered like I used to suffer. I plan on continuing with the life purpose course but I am also going to actively start working on this project during this time. I am accepting more responsibility in my life. My life has basically flipped inside out. I started as a spiritual seeker, looking for happiness for myself so I could finally enjoy my life. Now i've decided to dedicate my life to helping other people overcome the same issues that I have struggled with. I am planning to continue writing on this forum journal as i do more contemplation and writings for my website. But eventually I will stop posting and just start playing, and writing full time. Huge thanks to @Nahm and many others on this forum who assisted me on this path. I'm not done. But I don't think i'm the same seeker I was when i first posted here.

@VeganAwake Spiritual practices are necessary until they aren't. You cannot take an average person with no spiritual background/conceptual understanding tell them they are enlightened and expect anything good to come of it. The practices are important. The work is necessary.

@Joshi3 Go into the bull shit. The bull shit is where higher consciousness is.

What is meditation? Meditation is the practice of training the mind to focus on a single target for sustained periods of time. Many meditation schools begin by teaching practitioners to turn attention to the breathe or the body. The purpose of this task is to train the mind to go from an untrained state, where the mind is scattered, to a trained state where the mind can remain focused on a single target for a long duration. Once the mind is trained to a point where attention can remain on the object of meditation for long periods, then the practitioner has reached a major mile stone because the mind is no longer wild and untamed, but rather the mind can be directed in service of the goals of the practitioner. This is a major mile stone in one's meditation practice. The ability to control one's mind by setting a goal, recognizing when the mind is off the goal, and gently bringing the mind back to the goal is basically a super power in modern society. A trained mind can be effective at satisfying the desire's of each person, and as the person becomes wiser, there is more clarity on what goals are worthy for the mind to accomplish. A clear, trained mind with a clear goal is an unstoppable force. I am beginning to wake up to the power of the mind, and the limits of human imagination seem potentially limitless. But the beauty of the mind cannot be realized without the practice of controlling one's attention. So if you're reading this and do not currently have a meditation practice, I strongly advise to begin as soon as possible. Even just 5 minutes per day can transform your life.

This will be a journal where i contemplate aspects of my life to determine the truth of my current reality. I want to discover for myself what is actually going on. There are many questions and concepts that I assumed I understood but this understanding was the beliefs and knowledge of others that I have accepted as dogma without much questioning. I want to question the very nature of my own reality. What is meditation? What is a goal? What is love? I will try and address topics systemically as they arise in my mind. This journal should be very practical and illuminate so I have there is something to hear that others can learn from.

Be very clear on what you want. What is your goal for yourself in spirituality? Get clear on what you want, and then it will be easier to decide what kind of information to consume because it will be in service of your goal.

PSA: The "work" works. Commit yourself to what you want. And you will get what you want. Be clear on what you want. Meditation works because we train our minds to stay focused on a single goal. For example, my goal is to feel bliss, love etc. But mind gets lost in fear, worry, anxiety etc. But goal is clear i want love bliss etc. Keep bring mind back to goal. Use feelings as guide. When we feel good we are on the path to our goals. When we feel bad we are off the path. All is actually good. So when mind gets lost in fear, and worry etc because mind is scared that maybe not all is good. Truth is all is good. So bring mind back to goal, and use your feelings as a guide to your progress. Be smart with goals. Don't be like dummy who asks for 1 billion dollars. Be like smart person who sais, what does this guy really want? What would the 1 billion actually get him. When we look we realize he just wants to feel good, he wants the feeling associated the 1 billion dollars. He is bliss chasing. Nothing wrong with bliss chasing. Bliss chasing works its how i got so far on the path lol. But always remember why you are doing what you're doing.

@Bill W That's awesome man. It's amazing how well some of this stuff works when we stop questioning it and just let it happen.

@Ero Sounds good. Looking forward to it.

@NonDualism I recommend taking time to just sit down and watch him speak. I am about 10% through the course and I think I found my LP and it's fucking unbelievable how shit is unfolding for me right now in this space. Take your time with the course and be diligent and be true to the work and teachings. Don't treat this like any of Leo's videos where you consume it passively and give yourself a pad on the back for growing your consciousness.

I just had a profound insight into my life purpose during my float tank session. Video Games. Competition. Love. Bliss. Flow. Happiness. These are many of the main values and interests of life. But how to combine them? I'm going to start a mental health/performance/happiness/performance website and write about all these topics and how they relate to video games and performance in video games. I'm also going to start playing very popular video games and getting really good at them so I can get free advertising for my website in high level matches. This stuff is flowing me to like crazy. Ever since i put life purpose on dream board i've had continual thoughts about video games, mental health, performance, and starting a website to share these teachings to people in these communities. I'm not even 10% done the LP course and i've already got these insights lmao. I'm so motivated to finish the course now and get this shit going. Dream Board, Law Of Attraction, Positive affirmations. This stuff is incredible.

Sweet man. Can you give a TLDR of your path so far? What made you get into self actualization? Where have you been, where are you going? You always have good advice on the forum i'm very curious to see how you operate.

Rather than Spam everyone's journal, i'll just put this here for those who are following. Read the book Ask And It Is Given by esther Hicks it explains the law of attraction. Any skepticism or questions feel free to ask, I have a good understanding of the basics and the rationale for why it works. Read. This. Fucking. Book.

I actively follow others' journals on here. But i'm not sure if anyone follows mine lol. If i have any followers who want to ask questions about my path or where i'm at/going then feel free i'd be happy to engage.

@Leo Gura Do you have a plan for nuclear winter and nuclear war?

@Romer02 No problem. Follow the good feelings. If someone sais something to you and it doesn't feel good then fuck that advice and find something that feels good to you. Good luck

You must take 100% responsibility for everything in your life. You have control over the types of thoughts you think. You also have control in the types of emotions you feel. But it's no simple, and these topics have a lot of nuance. Empty your mind of all beliefs and ideas you have about how you think spirituality works. Be humble enough to admit you don't know shit, and everything you think you know how about spirituality is just dogma and beliefs passed on from others. Take time to learn about these topics for yourself. Learn about thoughts. Learn about emotions. Enter this place with a beginners mind. There's a lot to become conscious of here. Which thought feels better? "I have no control over my thoughts and emotions". "I am 100% responsible for all my thoughts and all my emotions"?

@fridjonk Yeah I think so. Throughout the day the types of thoughts we have are influencing how we live our lives. Our thoughts are the driving force behind what is actually playing out in our reality. Most people, myself included, spend a lot of time meditating but we are fluctuating between the object of meditation like the breathe and our typical thought patterns. The issue is most of our typical thought patterns are unhealthy because of societal conditioning and upbringing so we are thinking our selves into happiness with unconscious thinking patterns. Affirmations change the wiring so the default is positive thoughts. Basically brain wash ourselves into thinking healthy and happy thoughts. It works with meditation because rather than making the breathe the object of meditation, or the object of awareness. We turn our attention to positive affirmations as the object of meditation. The more frequently we do this, the more our typical thought patterns become positive rather than negative. And thus the more positive emotion and experience we get in life because we changed the core component of experience, our pattern of thinking.

I am about half way through "Ask And It Is Given" and OMG. Law of attraction makes so much sense. Can't wait to keep learning and master this topic!

@fridjonk Are there float tanks in your area. For the past 3 days i've done 3 hour floats each day. It's been really great. I find the tank allows for easier relaxation and depth compared to a normal sit. I also recommend using affirmations for at least some part of the meditation. Bringing attention to the present moment is great, but when you got lost in thinking it's better if you've conditioned yourself to think positively in the time you're lost in thought.