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Affirmations are game changers. Can't recommend them enough. Literally reprograms your mind.

@Chumbimba How are your basics? Diet. Exercise. Meditation practice. Relationship types(friends/Significant Other/Relatives) As far school's concerned. Focus on finding employment that pays enough to support loans. Don't go to school, for school's sake. Focus on minimizing your life. Save money like a Mother Fucker. You are in the right place to improve your life. You don't have to worry about wasting your life. If you follow advice from this forum properly won't have that problem.

@Sombra That's why i mentioned you lmao. Some people just have a mark of greatness/quality. You got it in bunches.

@LfcCharlie4 Lol sorry man I mean't he could give you more insight. Not me asking for insight

@LfcCharlie4 I recommend you message @Sombra He seems like he's mastered stage orange resource accumulation. Could you give you more insight.

@Raphael I have no experience. I've heard word press is very good. @Pallero Thanks for the insight. @LfcCharlie4 Eventually yes. At first it will just be a blog/website so I can write articles and do coaching. But eventually I'll start doing twitch, and then take content from twitch and put it on my youtube channel. @LfcCharlie4 Actually not sure about youtube/twitch. I prefer keeping a low profile. Fame is toxic. Website and playing should be enough to get attention and money etc. The content will speak for itself. The website and gaming are a must. But youtube/twitch and actually opening myself to the world like that is a maybe.

@Average Investor If you use the drugs with wisdom they can enhance your life in every aspect. So you can still get a benefit if you're not depressed. But you need to be smart and wise with the insights. They have tremendous potential for improvement. But they can also wreak havoc on your life if you're not smart.

@Average Investor I had a peak experience through LSD. Completely changed my outlook and the drugs have effectively killed my depression. Feel free to pm if you are planning on using them for self help reasons.

@VeganAwake You don't really know what you're talking about. You say the right words but you are deluded by spiritual concepts. Enlightenment will improve the individual condition. Spiritual practices work. They will make you a better a person, and make you feel good (god). But talking on forum at ego's is not spiritual practice. This is not giving back. For those seeking enlightenment, inspect beliefs and figure out why you want it. There is a real path, but delusion is difficult to overcome early on the path.

PSA: Get a dream board and put it in your living room. Then write what you want to have in the present tense. Anything you want, literally. You want good feeling. Write "I feel good" or "I am good" etc. You want to be high level gamer. Write "I am a challenger level league of legends player". Writing in the present tense our goals, with continual reminders is very effective.

@Proactive No sorry man. I'm playing with the sole intention of getting really good so I can advertise my website. Not playing for fun, or to make friends etc.

@VeganAwake What practices do you do? You are not done on the path, yet you act like you have hit max level. What exactly do you do all day?

I learned an important lesson. Yesterday i went on a tear. I had the energy and creative power of a manic depressive. But because of the meditation and work I do I was very grounded and did not do anything destructive. I had long conversations with my parents and my uncles. My uncle was very concerned that I was just manic, because i have been depressed before and he classified me as a manic depressive. It was an interesting conversation. I was feeling very good and elated so i sent him an honest list of my plans and what's going on. At first he was shocked, and I could tell by the tone of the texts he thought I was manic depressive. But over time in the conversation I was making so much sense that eventually he just admitted that he no longer thinks i'm manic and he's not concerned. This was an incredible feat. I trust his opinion, and i'm at a point in my life where I can only trust people who see my own greatness. My uncle sees it. It's a great resource because he's very reasonable, and he can help shine light on issues that i'm not considering. As for my parents, i need to just start lying to them and telling them what they want to hear. They think LSD is addictive and bad, even though these drugs have been the biggest reason for my growth. They are basically super strong anti-depressants that work well. But my parents equate all drugs, so it's like if i told them i'm doing pain killers and my life is way better. They don't like it or trust it. I am in full on survival mode now. I have found a new job, and i'm going to get as many shifts as I possibly can. I'm going to stay in law school for as long as possible because my parents will continue to support me in the meantime, and I can use this time to plan my next move and start saving money. My plan moving forward is to save money, start writing content for my website, and practice getting good at league of legends.

@Raphael Take a hot bath. It helped me a lot. I think dealing with ego backlashes with just full surrender, and stopping all unnecessary work to just unwind and relax can be super important.

@LessonsSavesLifes Life purpose is what you're going to do to serve the world. We only have so much time on earth, and so what we do with most of our time, our jobs, has to be meaningful to us. I was hardcore into spirituality right about the time i began the course, and through 2 LSD trips, I found god and I have a clear purpose now. Through purpose you will make money because your motivation will be different. Most people do jobs solely for money, they don't actually care. But when you have purpose your motivation is completely different. You are doing it to serve others. My purpose moving forward is to start a mental health/video game/performance website to help unhappy gamers find more happiness through gaming. I am going to play popular games, get really good and use the games to spread my website, and use high level streamers as free advertising. I was already naturally good at games and sports growing up, so the idea of doing something in line your with past experience made sense to me, and I think there is bliss in gaming, so the notion of following your bliss also makes sense. My purpose for playing is completely different from gamers. The only reason i'm playing games is because I know how miserable gamers are, because I was once a miserable gamer. I am going to shatter everyone and get really good fast because my drive is different. How many pro gamers/high level gamers are playing the game to help people and raise consciousness. I'm pretty sure close to none. That's why life purpose works. I have a life purpose. So i will out compete everyone in the gaming industry and there's no way I won't be successful.

I have spent a large amount of my life trying, mostly unsuccessfully, to be happy and enjoy my life. The pursuit of happiness and joy, turned into the pursuit of awakening and spirituality, so i ended up on actualized.org. I managed to resolve some issues that were causing the pursuit of awakening and enlightenment and now i'm more focused on basic self help and trying to feel better in my life in anyway I can. My current reasons for being on the forum are as follows: I want to learn more about how to feel better in life from people on the forum with experience in these areas. I want to try and help people who seem to be struggling with similar issues i've struggled on the path. I use the forum as an escape from taking action in my life, and use it as a form of procrastination when i have a task i'm trying to accomplish like studying, meditating, or working on the life purpose course. I'm curious for others users here. What your reasons for being here on the forum. Honestly, why are you here?

@VeganAwake I think he's delusional to be honest. But to each their own.

What stage is he in spiral dynamics?

@Pilgrimage of Self Pursue spiritual awakening while working first. Once you achieve some spiritual growth and have some awakenings the life purpose course will be a breeze and you will find your purpose quick. I did this and once i had an awakening i've been breezing through the course, and i'm like 10% into the course and I already found my purpose.

Major success in my life. I convinced my uncle i'm not manic and that I actually know what i'm talking about. My uncle has been a sort of mentor for me growing up. He's hard stage orange, but he's really intelligent so maybe stage orange/yellow. I have been manic in the past, and have had mental health issues so he's been very skeptical of my growth over the past few days. I talked to him over text for a few hours today, and at first he thought I was manic i could tell. But as the convo progressed he eventually came around and told me he thinks i'm all good, and he no longer thinks i'm manic. I've realized I can only associate with people in life who either think I am as great as I think I am, or they themselves are greater than I think I am. There is no in between. People who doubt me from a lower stage are going to be X'd immediately. Sadly, my parents doubt my progress a lot. They equate LSD with Oxycontin and when i told them i have made so much progress from the drugs, they told me that i'm addicted to drugs and the progress doesn't count because it's from the drugs lol. It's sad but its a wake up call. I'm going to start working, writing, and playing basically 24/7 now. I am going to finish the semester of law school and then reassess. I will hopefully try and convince my parents i know what i'm talking about, because I think what's best for me right now is a small allowance to support living expenses while i continue to grow. If they refuse then I will be going solo without parental support.

@ethanb121 Start focusing on the basics. Meditation, even just 5 minutes a day. Diet. Walking Outside. Get out of the house. Write down thoughts, or write anything. You're going to want to work up to psychedelics. They are valuable, but if you are not ready then they can destabilize you. You are in the right place. Asking the right questions. No need to rush. It will get better.

@zeroISinfinity @Nahm Lol I didn't get that at first read. Really is insane what's possible. PSA: Pay attention to what you think is possible for yourself in every activity you engage in. School. Sports. Video Games. Relationships. The truth is there are no limits as to how good life can be. The only limits are the one's we create with our minds.

Post by @Nahm about emotional regulation using the emotional scale. This covers similar topics as Abraham Hicks so anyone following her this is a good resource. If you continue to believe there are “negative feelings”....then you are continuing to believe thoughts which do not feel good to you...and blaming it on the feelings. Feeling is fine, no problem at all. Inspect the thoughts instead, in accordance with feeling. Listen to feeling. Realize the thoughts which don’t feel good, are thoughts which don’t feel good. Write down the thought which doesn’t feel good. Look at the emotional scale. Identify where that thought falls on the scale, how it feels. Then move up one, two, maybe three on the scale, and reconsider that same thought, in the light of the ‘higher on the scale’ feeling. On 1/23/2020 at 8:18 AM, Shroomdoctor said: I can’t deal with my emotions Using that thought as an example.... How does it feel, in reference to the scale? I’ll assume it feels like Pessimism. Then, consider Hopefulness. Can you feel some hope... ”I could learn, I could inspect...and I can see where more awareness, and understanding...could lead to feeling better.” Then, consider Positive Expectation. Can you feel some positive expectation... ”Other people have done this, and awareness & understanding have worked for them. Matter of fact, awareness & understanding have always worked for me. Always revealed insights, always led to understanding & feeling better”. Then, consider Enthusiasm / Eagerness / Happiness... ”This is going to be awesome. What I want most, is to feel good. It’s about time I gave this my full attention. I’ve noticed in the past that when I choose good feeling thoughts, and let go of thoughts that don’t feel good...great stuff happens....I know what enthusiasm feels like. I’m eager to continue feeling better and better” Then, consider passion.... “I know what I love. I recognize there’s some resistant thoughts that come up. I also know that doing what I love doing simply feels good to me. I can always let go of resistant thinking about what doesn’t feel good, and do something I enjoy. I can see how letting a thought go, and doing something I like, in and of itself, feels better. I know that when I do this, mind is cleared, without resistant thoughts and with a fresh approach, the passion in me always arises.” Then, consider Empowerment.... “I can do this. I can be patient, I can inspect each thought, and I can choose a better feeling thought, and I know feeling better is everything, and that everything I am wanting comes from feeling better. Thankfully, this up to me, and though it takes time, I can do this.“ Then, consider Love... “I know when I choose thoughts of appreciation, it just feels good. I know that at any time I want to, I can choose to appreciate, I can choose to do what I love, share love with others, and choose better feeling loving thoughts on my behalf as well. “

I just began the life purpose course and I have a question about how flexible the course can be based on my specific desires. I want to achieve financial independence and I want to find a field that interests me and I can see myself wanting to master and work hard at. However, I'm not necessarily interested in finding something here that I will do until I die like Leo has with self improvement and actualized.org. I want to find a business where it's possible to make real money, but at the same time I don't want to sell my soul and do something I hate just for a paycheck. My current thought process is to try and find a field where I can start earning income in a short manner, assuming I work hard and long hours, but at the same time I'm not looking for something I absolutely love or feel is my calling. I want to achieve financial independence first doing something I like, but not necessarily love, before moving onto something that I really love and would be willing to die for. Does anyone have experience using the course in this manner? Any insights would be appreciated. Also, if anyone has any ideas outside of the course about how to go about learning about different fields of business so one can find something that interests them? I am new to entrepreneurship and business so I'm basically starting at ground 0 here.

How I am thinking and feeling right now: Today my parents came over. I had a major awakening yesterday on LSD and I was excited to see them. But their visit was disheartening. I feel so much better now than I have in the past. But this comes with more emotional extremes, and I was basically fighting back tears in our conversations. As I grow more, I can see how deeply unconscious my parents are. It's even worse because I am completely dependent on them for my financial survival. My parents have difficulty with emotional extremes because they themselves had to learn to suppress their emotions to make their parents happy. My parents have a narrow emotional range, and very structured lives. They are sensitive to differences in my emotions and when they notice something off they get scared and try to guilt/shame/fear me into acting normal so they can feel emotionally secure again. It's a toxic relationship. I am making a commitment to pursuing financial security. I have already sent an email to the float house i go to, to try and get very early morning shifts because i heard the manager say that they don't have employees willing to take those shifts. I am going to start radically cutting my expenses and look for a part time job to get some savings going. I am much more sensitive to my time wasting habits. The world is changing rapidly for me. A lesson i got from my trip is to take more responsibility. I have more ability and power then I ever imagined is possible. It's time to start putting it to use.