Raptorsin7

@NahmI'm still not clear on this. Are you aware of what assumptions i'm holding that are limiting me? You mentioned something about believing i am a self that is seperate from reality, and that is "other" than other people. I do notice my self referential thinking, but just noticing it didn't do anything. Yeah, it'd be great if I could just stop thinking in ways that are creating suffering, but it seems difficult and confusing. This makes sense. I never viewed emotions as a guidance system until you told me about Abraham Hicks and explained the concept. So i guess there are more aha moments about different aspects of reality that I completely over looked. But even about the emotional scale i'm confused. I find sometimes I get stuck not feeling good, and I'm not sure what emotion I have like I'm not sure if it's depression/shame/guilt/fear or irritibality/frustration/pessimsm and then i try to reach for anger or boredom but I don't feel relief. There are times I just remain stuck with my current mood, and it sucks because I want to feel good. Can you give me a further explanation of moving up the scale. Like i'd say right now i'm at frustration, irritability, boredom, pessimism for most of the day. I'm pretty i'm not at the lowest tier because i try to get angry or start hating something but I get no relief from that. I know I want to move into optimism, hopefulness, positive expectation becasue if i get to those tier emotions that's a huge improvement for me. But I haven't learned how to use the scale fully yet. I just know there's so much value in it.

@Nahm So she had a certain type of belief/thought that was underlying a lot of other thoughts that caused her suffering? I have similar negative thinking patterns, but I don't see a core belief that is under pinning them? Even if i found the underlying belief, how do i transcend it? You're still talking kind of cryptic. If you were explaining the concept, no examples. How would you do it?

@Nahm I don't understand the example. What did she notice in thinking that made the difference? Is it a common theme to all thoughts that was seen through? Or was it individual beliefs that were dealt with? Can you explain it in simpler terms? Like very basic, straight and forward.

I haven't posted in a while, and I think it's time to resume my journal habit. I feel stagnant over the past few days. I got over confident from my awakening, and I started to neglect some of my practices. I am still making progress, and the micro dosing habit has been excellent. But I want to change things up. I may start adding DMT to my routine, and just use LSD for micro dose purposes. But I think i'm going to do a larger LSD trip next weekend and see how that goes. After my LSD trip a few weeks ago I had a strong urge to cry after my parents came over, I was hoping the crying phase would begin haha. But i haven't felt any desire to cry since then. @Nahm has been stressing inspecting my thoughts/beliefs as they come up, but i've been slacking with this. I'm not sure if it's because I don't know what to do with the descontruction, or if it's just egoic resistance. Here are a few things I want to focus on moving forward: Play more league of legends, and spend more practicing and learning to get into the zone while playing. At least 30 minutes of TMI meditation per day. Ideally 30 minutes of meditation before I play league of legends. Read Esther Hicks, and master the emotional scale. I feel my emotional state stuck around boredom, frustration, irritability. I want to move my default to optimism, positive expectation, and hopefulness. There are a number of great exercises in her book, and I think I want to spend more time with those practices. Go out and hike, and spend time in nature. I'm planning on moving out of the city center at the end of the semester, but I really want to just get out and spend a day in nature. I haven't been on a hike in a long time, and I imagine it'll be a great experience.

I do yoga, float tanks, life coaching @Nahm, and micro dose LSD. I'm 24, I live in Canada. I wouldn't rate my happiness on a scale like that, i'd rather describe my emotional set point. I'm around contentment, and hopefulness most of the day. But i've also been slacking on my practices since my first awakening experience. I know what's possible now for me feeling wise, so i'm trying to embody that feeling more. I'm infinitely happier now then when i first started my journey. I have clear directoin, I have purpose, and I have transcended my old limiting beliefs. I'm not done by any means, I still have a lot to do, so I wouldn't consider my self awakened or anything. But i'm definitely on a different level then when i first started posting. I'd rather be wealthy then poor. It's freed up my attention to pursue enlightenment basically full time. I have 0 concern about money, i never think twice about spending. The disadvantages are people can get trapped just chasing money. I know a lot of rich people, like my family, that don't know anything other than working and making money. Some people just get stuck in their nice life, and never know it's possible to experience more. There's definitely a downside to being handed everything, so I don't have the same work ethic as other's my age I think. But i have no complaints, my life is amazing and very conducive to growth and self actualization. I wouldn't trade with anyone.

@PenguinPablo I got a peak experience through a full LSD tab. Then what it meant to actually feel good. Now i do 1/4 tab micro dose every 4 days, and I can back to a similar high i got with the full tab. Eventually the drugs won't be needed but they are a boost on the path. Don't make the path harder then it needs to be due to your own close mindedness.

@Lento I am from a wealthy family and I was unhappy most of my life so I have some insight. Money is great because it shows you that money can't buy happiness. I realized a few years ago that there's nothing I want that I can't buy, and yet I wasn't happy. One of the advantages of being financially free on the path is that you have 0 money worries. I made incredible progress over the past 5 months, and one of the main reasons is because I have 0 worry about money and self actualizing is basically my full time job.

What is enlightenment?

The forum is a conscious community in my opinion. I would recommend going places where there are people suffering and seeking help. High consciousness wants to help, so many of them can be found in places where people are in need of help.

So far i've had positive results with micro dosing. I felt a vividness and clarity to my experience today that is unusual, but makes me feel very good. I am loving Abraham Hicks and her teachings about emotional regulation are excellent. I am going to spend more time mastering her teachings over the coming weeks so I can effectively get myself to high tier emotions like love, bliss, joy etc through my own conscious thinking and intention. No more relying on the outside world to make me feel good. I'm going to make myself feel good then go out into the world with that good feeling already in place.

@PenguinPablo This

@Raphael Excellent article I also resonated well with it.

@exhale What is the point of spirituality to you? Why does anyone do any of this?

@PenguinPablo This is nonsense. Might as well not do any spiritual practices because that's cheating and real men get enlightenment through just fucking doing it. By ignoring psycs you're literally making it so much harder on yourself to progress. You're free to do it the hard, stupid way. But don't say we didn't tell you so.

@Derek White @SOUL One of you speaks from direct experience. One of you speaks from pure intellect.

@Serotoninluv The purpose of this work is eventually stop doing the work. There is an end to all of this. That end is the beginning. Not sure if @SOUL is there yet, but I wouldn't discount him being done based solely on the way he types.

@Leo Gura He likely had an awakening and then used that as justification for all the crazy behavior since. But he always a crazy bullshitter even back in the WoW days.

@SOUL The feeling just is. People will have no conception unless they experience it. It was the kinda thing where once I felt it I knew it and everything made sense. But prior to that feeling, you couldn't describe it to me no description could map onto what I felt.

@Derek White enlightenment is a state of being. Once you get there, there's nothing else to do but play. I think this guy is in the play mode now.

@SOUL Dam sweet. I felt myself as god but now i'm disconnected. I could really go for some bliss right now lol

@SOUL What does that feel like? Not doing the work.

Today I began micro dosing LSD. I am not a doctor. Please speak to a medical professional if you are planning on introducing drugs into your life. I am not an authority drugs. I'm not sure how liability works with advice lol but DON'T FUCKING @ME if you try drugs and negatively affects your life. Ok disclaimer over. Micro dose LSD is an effective anti depressant from my current view. If you have tried anti depressants and found they don't really make you feel better then maybe try something else. But don't use these drugs willy nilly. They are powerful, and must be used with diligence and care. I am going to start micro dosing in the near future as I bring my life more into alignment with what I know to be true and right. Since my awakening experience i've realized a lot must change, but I also realized that I have been operating at 10% capacity of my true potential as a human being. I think LSD will help raise my energy levels up throughout the day so I can get more done, and get more out of existing practices. If anyone has questions about using micro dosing LSD feel free to ask me. But i don't want you to hurt yourself and I don't want to get sued. So please if you think there's a chance that these drugs will destabilize you then don't use them and don't listen to me. If you are an adult and want to discuss pros and cons of using these drugs then post here and we can discuss.

@Serotoninluv Makes sense. I feel like people come here because they dont feel good and want to feel better. Everything else is just how much are they hurting or helping themselves or others.

@AwakenedSoul444 Lol I think you're fine dude

@Leo Gura Makes sense. Devils never admit they're devils lol