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@pluto How does one surrender to source downloads? I've only had the download experience with bliss once on lsd. Not sure how to get there without psychs yet

Good luck

@Anna1 It is!

@pluto Why force the cycle on ourselves? If consciousness has the ability to reach those peaks, why go back into the suffering? Why the hell do we do this to ourselves?

First night back at my parents house, just went for a long walk. Feel pretty amazing lol. This is great, it's like a peaceful happiness. @Nahm what you think? Is it the time spent confronting my parents after my traumatic childhood? The past 2 months I was alone in my apartment at school, but first night back I feel way better.

@Anna1 It's a great movie, highly recommend it.

Back home in Vancouver. Feels good to be home. I am learning to be happy with my parents, and the key for me is to just be myself and be honest. I'm not hiding who I am, and if they aren't happy with it then so be it. I was always a spoiled brat anyway and my parents dealt with me. Now i'm a spoiled brat, but all I want is happiness and enlightenment lol. Lot's of panic over the virus, my grandma is in her 70s and I bet she is scared. Shes a bit psycho so maybe she can cope well, but this is god's will so we will see what happens. Self acceptance. Acceptance of who and what I am, no matter what or who I am is the next step on the path. Murdering and raping, I accept you. Spoiled brat who has everything handed to him and still finds a way to be unhappy, I still accept you. However I am, whoever I am, whatever I am, is completely and totally okay. Full acceptance. The suffering of trying to BE something other than what is, is a huge problem. But the problem is created by resistance to what IS. What is, is. And that is pure bliss and love.

@Inliytened1 For me it's higher dose pyshcs haha true. But you never know, maybe if I lick my lips 10 times and spin around 10 times that might produce bliss too haha. I'm open to anything, i'm at the "just give me bliss and absolute happiness already" stage of the path,

@supremeyingyang This is very true man. Thanks for the insight. I've been focusing hard on playing the game over the past month or so, but maybe I should switch focus to writing. There's a lot to write about, and the spreading conscious information about the virus could be important. I'll think about your suggestion. I have exams in the next few weeks so after exams i'll reassess how I want to approach my work over the summer.

@Leo Gura Let's go. Can't wait.

I recommend pursuing awakening before pursuing life purpose. Once I had an awakening my life purpose just sort of came to me in a 4 hour float tank session. I was already working on the life purpose course, but I didn't really know what life purpose was or how I was going to find it. After the awakening everything just clicked for me and it was clear what kind of work I want to do. I'm in the early stages so everything i'm doing is subject to change, but I think all the hardcore seeking I was doing made everything around life purpose easier, How's the path going for you? Do you have a meditation practice? Are you working with psycs?

@zeroISinfinity Last part I felt the humor

@zeroISinfinity Wow that's crazy. So how do you do the inversion? Do you have to be good person in devil land before God lets you wake up? So all people who commit suicide are ahead of me on the path because they are already with god.

@zeroISinfinity Then why is there suffering?

@zeroISinfinity What do you mean I am right? You have to just say I'm right about everything?

@zeroISinfinity Say what's true and in alignment with feeling, then you will feel good (god) ?

@zeroISinfinity Bring out the zen stick more often. Very good analysis

@mandyjw Do you have a reliable way to make yourself cry? I'm really looking for ways to make myself very but I'm stuck atm.

@Nahm That's my insight too. I'm not ready yet, but I'm close. I'll stick with more basic self help and writing my story on the path first. Then when in ready ill transition my content.

@Thewritersunion Thank you that was a good explanation. @VeganAwake Okay I already do that but I'll keep trying

@VeganAwake How do I fully accept what is?

Am I ready to teach enlightenment? I honestly don't feel I am. I feel like I'm deep on the path. I've had the god realization on LSD, I know reality is all good and I know I created it for the purpose of enjoyment and experience. But there's still parts of reality that don't make sense. What kind of life coach would I be haha, whenever someone asks me something I say idk. Because it's true there's so much I don't know yet. I'm still learning. Even if i'm not ready to do calls yet and coach people 1-1, I do think a blog about my life experiences and experience with gaming could be incredibly valuable and useful to people. Just being honest, explaining my history with depression, anxiety, suicidal thoughts, etc could be of great benefit to people. There just aren't that many people who speak honestly and candidly about themselves and how they view the world. @Nahm do you think i'm ready to teach? I don't think I am. but my website is about helping people but I still feel flawed as a person. I believe i'm not ready to teach enlightenment, but at the same time I think it's the most important thing in the world and I want my life to be about teaching and helping people. Perhaps just sharing my perspective will be enough to begin with. Just being honest may be enough idk. But I think it's important to just start. Put myself out there. Start releasing content and get the website going. Stand for something.

@Alex bAlex Thanks a lot man that really helped.

@VeganAwake What did you do to awaken to love?