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@LfcCharlie4 Isn't it fair to say that you are only able to appreciate the profundity of THIS moment given where you're at LOC wise? Like if we rewind a year and you are back as a seeker prior to RASA etc, would your own advice resonate or be meaningful? Curious about your thoughts on this. It seems to me so much mom duality advice is dependent on the state of the person receiving advice. But maybe some wisdom transcends states?

Still progressing league. Currently Plat 3, and the games don't feel too hard which is good. I expect to be diamond pretty soon, and from there it will be interesting to see how the level of competition jumps up. The way i'm playing is bad though. The idea of playing mindfully is not happening, I get tilted easily and I flame my teammates constantly. I'm climbing the ranks, but I don't feel like i'm improving noticeably or anything. It's more just a grind to improve and get games in. Well because I have noting else going on atm I will continue to climb and strive for my goal of challenger. When I hit my goal who knows what i'll do with it but at least i'll have something to show for the work I guess.

i'm trying to hit challenger in league of legends and I want to start a journal to track my progress. I'll track my progress, issues, goals etc on here. The goal is challenger, but the sub goal is to hit masters rank and then start writing content for my website. If anyone has experience in competitive gaming and can offer insights for my improvement I would appreciate it.

@Serotoninluv What do you think of the slippery slope arguments about how the current sentiment regarding Confederate statues will end up with removal of something like mount Rushmore? Confederate statues goes hand in hand with slavery. Tough to argue in favor of the Confederate history without showing some disregard for the legacy of slavery. But isn't that also true of the founding fathers. At the end of the day the mountain glorifies slave holders and racists.

@Arcangelo Yeah i get it. Idk, i don't think money can solve my problems. I think genuine financial freedom would be an improvement, but when i was in school i had unlimited money and didn't feel the slight shame of just living off my parents as a burn out, but it didn't make me happy at all.

@Arcangelo No i'm not. What is the relationship between financial independence and chakras? I'm not financially in trouble because my family has money, but i'm not free to do anything I want. I want to be financially independent, but my plan was to address my chronic unhappiness and seeking before beginning the next phase of my life, but it's not exactly working out like I hoped.

@mandyjw Maybe you're right, but where I'm at now what you're saying doesn't resonate. I still have some moves to make, like psychiatry/therapy, so I guess i'll exhaust my efforting before reassessing but we will see. If I don't see the love in the world, I don't see how seeing just see the love in the world is of any use. From my pov this the equation of my current suffering. Heat Chakra+ Crown Chakra+ Third Eye= Closed. So whatever the solution is will move me in the direction of opening those chakras. I've yet to get a clear answer from anyone on how to do this, but someone has to know.

@mandyjw I still feel like a self though. From my pov it seems like I'm looking out from behind the eyes. I understand intellectually what you wrote, but I don't experience it. How did you get the shift in pov to occur? I agree that I'm not giving a full effort, but I dont even know what teaching to do. I've done hours of self inquiry, but at this point it feels like I'm just waiting for a shift to happen.

Some major problems with myself that need to be addressed: I am mentally weak I am not disciplined I lack close relationships. Even though i have friend and family, i'm isolated and lonely I have a terrible diet, and i'm developing type 2 diabetes. I feel numbness and tingling in my feet after i eat high glucose meals. I want to be better and happy, but i either don't know what to do and/or i lack discipline/will power to change basic habits that are keeping me stuck Too much phone/internet/computer usage Lack of structure and routine No meaning I have no source of joy or well being in my life. My personal development is a complete roller coaster/yoyo. One day i'm feeling better and gaining momentum, then i eat wendy's and go to bed late and i lose the progress.

@VeganAwake Sweet video man. Takes a lot of courage to get in front of the camera and present.

@Leo Gura Sorry i think my comment came off wrong. I meant do you know if analysts who cover similar ranges of issues but are stage yellow. The guy above is obviously smart, but there's a lot of toxic green too. I'm just curious if you listen to people who don't come with the baggage of so many leftist commentators in the media.

@Arcangelo Good luck with class Arc

@Leo Gura Do you listen to any stage yellow political thinkers?

How do i expand my meditation practice? I've done various guided meditations and different practices at this point but i'm not getting much out of the practice these days. My goal for the practice is to find an elevated state of being in the practice, learning to embody feelings of joy, bliss etc. Just focusing on my breathing, or doing letting go gets me more relaxed and calm but it doesn't come with elevated feelings or any lasting change that sticks throughout my day. In my recent meditation session i decided to play some inspiring movie trailers, and i noticed that at certain points in the trailer, or with certain music, i get this wave of good feeling or inspired feeling that comes over me. That wave of good feeling that comes from the inspiring trailer is amazing and it's what i want out of my practice, but my meditation sessions never get me there. Any thoughts on my situation? Should i seek out more trailers or music that makes me feel good? But if i'm just listening to these videos is that even meditation anymore? Has anyone been able to cultivate a beautiful state of being in their meditation sessions that they managed to carry over in their everyday life?

Been pretty shitty past few days. 1 step forward, 2 steps back. But i'm done with victim mentality. God please open my chakras so I can experience an elevated state of being. Any being out there please help.

@Consilience Can you open any of the main chakras, like heart, third eye, and crown without psychs at this point?

@Roy Because it's a self help forum, and the vast majority of people here need more help than they are willing to admit to lol

@Koeke I mean stuff like finding a long term relationship, and career. Well are you enlightened yet? You don't think you need one but who knows how it will take you without one. I think there's levels to awakening so my perspective could change, but I've lived life with my current unhappy state and I'm not really in a rush to get out in the world until I make some progress with my state of being.

@Heaven Hey! Get your own thread buddy, now that you got value from the answer there's none left for me. So selfish...

@James123 Thanks, But i feel like i've already spent so much time in silence with meditation and it's not really working. I've had a breakthrough experience with psychs so i kind of know what a breakthrough looks like, but i just don't know if sitting in silence and being will get me there. I guess patience is key, i'll keep trying. When you say darkness, you mean like turn off all my lights? I usually close my eyes and lay down when i meditate.

@dimitri Thanks tips. That's like saying i need more good life, because i don't have a good life. Thanks for trying though.

@Koeke I'm in a similar boat as you in the sense i'm seeking enlightenment because of dissatisfaction with life and unhappniess. I'm going all in on enlightenment and dealing with this first before i deal with other parts of my life, i'm 24, but i'm also pretty privileged so i don't know if this option is available for everyone. I'd say find a teacher or guru to work with on a regular basis and go from there. Don't spin your wheels going the path alone. Apparently it's pretty rare to get enlightened without the aid of a teacher.

@hamedsf I understand, but do you honestly have no expectation from meditation? Seems unlikely that you sit with no expectation of anything and just keep showing up expecting nothing and getting nothing. What are your meditation sessions like, what do you experience? What changes from beginning to end?

@dimitri You must feel really good typing that, but i feel nothing from it and it's not helping at all haha. You would think if you typed something from love, that made you feel good, that it would resonate with love within me and i'd get something from it. But apparently good feeling and love isn't enough?

@Brahman Thanks. It's not confusing but i think there's an important gap that isn't being addressed. Acceptance, dropping expectations etc is for the purpose of achieving a better state, or addressing the lack or seeking in my current state. But is that all there is too it? Accept each coming moment and eventually through enough acceptance there will be an aha moment? There's nothing else to say on the topic? How did you stumble upon acceptance of sensations as a practice, and what kind of changes in direct experience do you get from your meditation sessions?