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What percent of men are we talking about that have integrated their shadow to the point where they are capable of strength and defending a woman, but are also loving, compassionate etc? I highly doubt there is any significant number of men that could compete with stage red narc like Michael Jordan. Push comes to shove deep down people know who would win and survive Men end up with bitchy woman because of a lack of options. Most men ain't shit and will be forced to settle based on what's available.

How much longer can I tolerate being a loser. That's the question. Surrender to oneness. Don't be afraid of your feelings and being

Michael Jordan is a sociopath. Would he ever have a problem attracting a woman?

@Leo Gura Sounds like this deserves it's own blog post haha

No-thing will bring you lasting happiness, you are happiness

@Someone here You are very dense. Wake up

LOL dude. Don't. Re-read that post 100 times until something clicks. That is the truth

Yup. I like to differentiate between awakening "in mind" and awakening "in heart". What I call "being enlightened" is when BOTH your mind AND heart is fully transcended, awakened. The "heart"-part is the 'hard part' (pun intended) for a lot of atheistic, rational, INTP, Enneagram Five, logical types of people (basically 75% of peeps following Leo). The heart part is hard because you can't become awakened in it: - without pushing your comfort zones to the max - without listening to and allowing ALL of your emotions to come up - without direct experience, actuality. The heart part is especially hard because all INTP/Enneagram Fives are most likely not 'real' introverts, or real logicians, or real nerds or real competition/mental-minded aloof people. Their soul is probably filled with a desire to - FEEL - CONNECT - LOVE - EXPRESS - DEEPLY BOND WITH OTHERS However, all their desire to withdraw from society, to think and rationalize everything, to observe (instead of participate in) life, to create firm boundaries with other people in fear of getting too close to someone etc etc.. is VERY LIKELY survival/defense-mechanism learned in childhood (3-18 years old) due to some pretty intense trauma, that they are NOT fully conscious of today. All fives, intps, go talk to a pyschotherapist, a good one who knows about trauma, and then be honest and open with her (or him) and cry your hearts out. Love <3 The trauma probably has to do with early experiences of getting exluded from the peers' community, and perhaps even bullying, or perhaps father-figures who were emotionally inept / detached. But lots of other possible causes out there. Being awakened in heart is equal to deep inner peace, almost no fear, free expression. Being awakened in mind is equal to deep knowledge of Oneness, Nothingness, the illusory nature of ego/thought, and basically the perspectival nature of reality. A deep knowledge of the mechanics of duality. A deep understanding of relativism/post-modernism, basically a full embodiment of both stage green & yellow thinking. Turquoise requires the 'heart' part + fully integration of stage yellow. Do know that some people are kind-of awakened in heart but pretty asleep in mind. Sociopaths for instance, we could say, zen devils, or some extreme hippies. Likewise a lot of people on this forum are very much awake in mind but seemingly kind of lack the heart part still ( @VeganAwake, @traveler, im looking at you xD). It is basically another more benevolent form of zen delivery, denying their own unconscious attachment to concepts by masking it with their hillarious/sad nihilistic "no-self / no-one / nothingness / nothing to understand / nothing to attain / nothing to realize / no one to realize / nothing to do / nothing to get to / nothing to become / no one to become" - jargon, which all INTPs/enneagram Fives, including me (i've been there) know all too well =D Also guys, now I tagged you for lolz, but you don't have to come in and tell me your repetitious (and often funnily obviously shadow-projective) lines of: "that's just a belief, narrative, story, conceptual-thinking, cute model" "that's just what appears there, and it's perfectly fine - for no one" I got it. You deny Love. But even though you deny it, that it still Love. Reality is fucking Love. How could it be otherwise? :-) <3 What an exceptional post @WaveInTheOcean

Wow a what a great post. This should be it's own thread

@Zion What do you plan on doing career wise?

Bingo

@James123 It can serve as a catalyst to take the path more seriously and learn as much as possible. I'm not enlightened but I've had a few peak experiences on LSD that caused me to turn all my attention to the path. Ending up finding teachers like Rupert Spira, Fred Davis etc and my practice has grown exponentially. You can delude yourself and the mind just claims all the insights etc but they can make the path real for a lot of people, especially intellectuals who can believe they know more than they understand.

I am insecure damaged person. Got no problem admitting it

I'm sat on the bus going to work. I'm frustrated, angry, tired, feeling heaviness, suffering ego backlash, drowning in fear and bugged out. I haven't slept for days am I'm trying to meditate. My meditation practice seems fruitless. Then suddenly there's space, presence. I'm not only aware of being aware of all this intensity but I'm feeling joy. I feel joy because it's no longer me. It's no longer my story. How, dear readers, do I retain this feeling??? Hey I was reading your posts and came across this. I think I'm a similar stage in my practice, when I listen to a good teacher I have moments where I think I really get it but then I distract myself and I just kinda go back and forth. Did you end up resolving this? I think the solution is just more diligence and practice but maybe i'm wrong

Haha guy who made penis thread and got all this sympathy is a covert narc. Beware of the victims with sob stories. We are all devils. Push comes to shove you will see their true colors Wow that same guy called me an ingrate because of my child thread. HAHAHAHA. That is only kind of person I want to hate. Hopefully I can retain a bit of my edge.

Yup people who claim i'm not worthy are emotional wrecks and can tell they have no sense of how to fix it. Shocker

Bitches be crazy

Time to find my own voice on this journal. Gotta stop writing like this. Always something funny to read in zero's journal.

At least I have a plan to heal my psychopathology. Will retain all the benefits of being a psycho but without giving off a sick vibe. I know I'm crazy. I also know that the mind has no answers. Keep typing paragraphs to yourselves

How can you write a book that changes the world when you can't even address your narcissism and grandiosity? This forum is full of sheep

Sadhguru claims his wife did because of mahasamadhi. I call bs. I bet that dude killed his wife

I got some random guy threatening me and saying to leave some girl alone. I don't messgae anyone on this forum outside of a few friendly messages, this is crazy. I feel like I have a stalker. I feel for people who had real stalkers that sent them messages and stuff this is weird.

I would have been a savage lawyer. Crazy how life works Maybe a law firm could make up a role for me, maybe a classmate would hire me. Top 5 % on the most important assignment of 1l. Might mean something to someone

Alright I gotta clean up my behavior here this getting out of hand, and it's not funny anymore, Or maybe it is it depends on who you ask