Raptorsin7

I was pretty harsh towards the adulterer but I think he needed the wake up call. Everyone was giving him encouragement and dancing around the issue. 2 months later he would make a post saying how much he hates being a step dad and how he made a huge mistake.

@The0Self ?

@spiritualryan Check out Rupert Spira's guided meditation. In his talks he's constantly pointing you to yourself, just follow along what's he saying so there's need to frustrate yourself trying to figure it out on your own.

Finally sat layed down for a 20 minute session. It was great. I can feel different emotions coming and going, I felt a strong urge to read the forum a few times haha. It's going to come down to just feeling fully. Be open. Be at peace. What's throwing you off is aversion to certain emotional states. It can be very subtle, but some emotions will cause you to just run away into objects thinking etc.

To Do List: Laundry Clean Downstairs Meditate 1 hour continuous Shave Beard Don't overeat junk Listen to a new Fred Davis talk

Yeah I'm aware of this dynamic too. If i want an exceptional girl of another race I have to be 1 in 1 million person. Luckily most people are just average joes, a self realized person will stand out anywhere as exceptional

Yeah I know this. I believe by the time i'm done with consciousness work i won't hold these kinds of beliefs anymore. Anything relating to not being worthy

What made you think this? I think there are people who have definitely transcended the notion of race, but for most of us it will affect at least some parts of our lives. I bet half ethnicities are least racist

This is a good point. Not all of us expect to partner with woman on our level of consciousness

I have some more insight into why I never found Indian woman attractive. I had negative interactions with virtually all my female relatives. They were very controlling and in many families the mom did everything and took on both parental roles. I never got any emotional needs from woman in my family, all that happened was i disconnected from parts of myself and ended up with arrest emotional development. There's no warmth or peace in Indian woman for me. There's just this underlying repulsive/aversive feeling towards them. Luckily I still find other woman very attractive, I find very few Indian woman attractive relative to other ethnic groups, and I've had a lot of attention from woman of other races so I think i wouldn't have a problem finding someone great of another ethnicity. I wonder how much of the attraction is based on self hatred vs beauty standards, Some Indian woman are very hairy and honestly it's not attractive. I wonder if I was whole if I would find hairy woman attractive haha. Natural beauty is very attractive to me. Imagine dating a girl who has to shave her face or arms etc every few days. Omg @Zeroguy probably understands

So many people here are very systematic in how they approach their personal development. I know I have to work on discipline and growing up, but given my experience with psychs I think it's all about reconnecting with disconnected parts of ourselves and being open to ourselves. There was nothing systematic about my crown chakra opening and the popping in my head. It was more internal and physiological. When my jaw unclenched and the tension released it felt like I aged 1000 years in maturity. This background experience of suffering just went away, exercised out by the sensation in the third eye. Someone needs to explain me to how some people on this forum have deep spiritual experience and insight but they are still unhappy and broken. There's always this sense of you don't understand my past or some shit like that. When i had my awakening i was so happy and excited to take on the world, but it was a temporary experience before my conditioning just kinda came back. The manic energy i had when I was fighting with everyone has kinda wore off. Interestingly, I was much more productive at work because I was aroused/stimulated from the arguments haha. There's a strong determination that comes from competitiveness and arguing. I wonder if I can learn to channel that at will.

I wonder what it will take to fix my character issues. I've felt my personality transform during psych trips and I believe i'm close to accessing those same parts of myself with just weed now, but i've been in this i'm close phase for a few months now and I have been procrastinating hard. I think it's time for another psych trip. It's long overdue. Also a good idea to get back into the float tank. The last time I went i tried to leave right after because they have my card on file and I thought they would just charge me. The front desk lady had a bitchy attitude and said I had to check out. I was pretty taken aback, i just want to pay for my float and go in and out without being bothered. I haven't been back since it left me with a bad taste in my mouth.

@soos_mite_ah Ahh okay thank you.

What is considered a high quality man for a relationship? How would you describe a high quality man? What is his financial situation, looks, character, values etc. I wonder how much it would change according to a person's SD values, i'm sure some stuff would be universal

@intotheblack

@Lyubov If a girl had a perfect body but had nothing else going on you would get bored and dissatisfied with time as you grew emotionally

Yeah I would have a low bar for toxicity, but beautiful woman have a certain magnetism i guess it could cause you to overlook stuff. Even just thinking now, I can see how woman could settle for a toxic man with a hope he would change. I could see myself falling for that if a girl was like a 10/10

This is a great point. The more beautiful a woman the more she can get away with

@WaveInTheOcean That's what I'm thinking

@intotheblack There's something that bothers with me articles like that. I have a sense that lots of woman who read that are either single or they are with men they resent who are lacking all those qualities

@Eternal Unity Haha

@Derek White What makes someone an ABCD?

Such great music. Too bad the Koreans look down on Indians.

@Shin Ha

@Etherial Cat I don't think you're right. Where is non-duality on spiral dynamics then? What is your definition of Turq? What is your definition of Non-duality? I don't think this is true. Ramana Maharshi had a spontaneous awakening in his teens and then lived his life as a mystic, I don't think he progressed through the stages in the way you're saying. And if he's not Turq then no one is