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Yeah i've heard these sentiment a lot from different online personalities. You can also look at WNBA players and how much controversy there is around the pay differences. The NBA is losing millions of dollars a year to keep the league running, yet there are many instances of WNBA players be upset over the pay differences. I'm not sure if anyone argued for EQUAL pay but there's definitely a strong sentiment from male and female players that woman deserve to be paid much more, even though economically there is no argument.

I want to be a sage not a saint

The key to happiness is saying yes to experience. This is it. Accept everything that arises as though it were your new born baby. All things are love. Everything is love. The devil is distraction from this truth. By being aware of everything that arises you are accepting it. The simple act of being aware is an inherent acceptance of whatever is arising. That's why being aware of being aware and resting attention is so powerful. By being aware you are accepting, and with deep acceptance comes peace and happiness. The mirror will never smile first- @pluto Thank you @Beginner Mind I was reading through his post history and it really sparked some understanding in me. I believe this is the essence of Rupert Spira's teaching

Is anyone familiar with his teaching? Did he speak about transcending suffering, pain etc as part of his teaching or was he an emotionless zombie neo-advaita teacher? I've had experiences on psychs where I felt nausea, headache, pain etc literally get flushed out of my being by feeling into sensations in the third eye region and I'm not even enlightened. I find it hard to believe that true meditation master could suffer intensely from physical pain.

I've been listening to a youtuber named Kevin James recently and he brought up something about modern dating that i thought was interesting, and i'm about people's thoughts on the phenomena. According to him, woman are becoming more and more successful these days (income, education, etc) and as a result you have a group of woman who are very successful and so they refuse to date men who they consider below them. But because men don't judge woman according to their income/education etc, something I agree with, you have a situation where these woman aren't attractive in the eyes of men they find attractive, but they won't consider dating someone who is not as successful as them. I thought this was interesting predicament and it could generate an interesting discussion.

@Peter Miklis Haha I never said any of that. To be fair I was just messing with that other poster because he was triggered by the title and didn't understand the main point

@Peter Miklis That's even more bull shit than what I wrote. Go try and attract woman if you have no money see how that works for you. Let's see how fast you walk this back

Yeah I agree lawyers are not that smart after all. I went to a pretty good law school and you would be surprised how stupid some people are. ---- Man my meditation practice always feels like 1 step forward 1 step back. I've noticed this pattern of having long meditation sessions followed my migraine headaches right at the third eye region. I've felt this same thing on psychs, it's this nauseating headache. I've managed to transcend the headaches on psychs and release almost all the suffering, but sober meditations I haven't managed to fully let it go. Now i'm hesitant about meditating before work today because the migraine was so bad last night. Oof.

@JJfromSwitzerland Wait until she meets someone way more successful than you... your clock is ticking

Is that my families level of development? Stone age mindset with modern technologies? I guess it makes sense, India is behind modern countries by many generations. I know who you're talking about but I don't see how it's connected haha

Sure I'd love to hear it. I don't understand what you mean by this

I wonder how many friends I have left on this forum. I've basically insulted everyone i've talked to in some major/minor way haha, and I bet some people hold a grudge or just stay clear of me. I want to say I'm sorry for how I've treated people on here, but truth is I'm not really sorry and I bet I will do it again even if I apologize. A sorry doesn't mean much if there isn't a will to change. My parents spoiled me and let me do whatever I want so I think I have an inherent low regard for the feelings and opinions of others. This is low empathy narcissist at it's finest. My parents wanted to do a good job they just didn't really understand that what they were doing was going to end up causing problems later in life. I appreciate the emotionally strong people on the forum who are not phased by my interactions. In my defense, I try to give good advice and I try to be ethical and reasonable in how I give advice. Saying something triggering over the internet is not bad I don't think, considering all that goes in the self help industry. I've also interacted with enough teachers in 1-1 chats and videos etc, and I can do a reasonable job of mimicing some teachers with just a purely logical understanding of their teaching, even though I don't have the same direct experience as them

@Zeroguy I hear you man. I'm with you, how many of these woman will talk about their standards, good man etc but then will end up with complete opposite. That guy was addicted to the first broken girl who he formed an emotional connection with. Hes like a drug addict, and she's his crack. He was talking about love, being with her etc when shes married with kids. What kind of guy wants to commit to a married woman with kids who's a cheater, that's red flag number 1. Best thing a man could do is develop himself and be non needy. I'm basically a man child but in law school woman in my class loved me because I was non needy and was indifferent.

Another good meditation session. Was listening to a talk by Rupert. I think the best videos for me are the one's pointing to the just being aware. The most essential aspect of experience, just being aware. Resting in this space. I could feel some stuff coming up and I kinda retreated into dissoication but overall it was a good session. What is the essential part of experience. Just the fact of having an experience. Being conscious of being conscious. Awareness being aware of itself. He said in the talk that at some point there is a shift. I've had the major shift a few times on psychs, but I believe i'm approaching that same release in meditation. But i gotta be more diligent. I am fucking around way too much.

I was pretty harsh towards the adulterer but I think he needed the wake up call. Everyone was giving him encouragement and dancing around the issue. 2 months later he would make a post saying how much he hates being a step dad and how he made a huge mistake.

@The0Self ?

@spiritualryan Check out Rupert Spira's guided meditation. In his talks he's constantly pointing you to yourself, just follow along what's he saying so there's need to frustrate yourself trying to figure it out on your own.

Finally sat layed down for a 20 minute session. It was great. I can feel different emotions coming and going, I felt a strong urge to read the forum a few times haha. It's going to come down to just feeling fully. Be open. Be at peace. What's throwing you off is aversion to certain emotional states. It can be very subtle, but some emotions will cause you to just run away into objects thinking etc.

To Do List: Laundry Clean Downstairs Meditate 1 hour continuous Shave Beard Don't overeat junk Listen to a new Fred Davis talk

Yeah I'm aware of this dynamic too. If i want an exceptional girl of another race I have to be 1 in 1 million person. Luckily most people are just average joes, a self realized person will stand out anywhere as exceptional

Yeah I know this. I believe by the time i'm done with consciousness work i won't hold these kinds of beliefs anymore. Anything relating to not being worthy

What made you think this? I think there are people who have definitely transcended the notion of race, but for most of us it will affect at least some parts of our lives. I bet half ethnicities are least racist

This is a good point. Not all of us expect to partner with woman on our level of consciousness

I have some more insight into why I never found Indian woman attractive. I had negative interactions with virtually all my female relatives. They were very controlling and in many families the mom did everything and took on both parental roles. I never got any emotional needs from woman in my family, all that happened was i disconnected from parts of myself and ended up with arrest emotional development. There's no warmth or peace in Indian woman for me. There's just this underlying repulsive/aversive feeling towards them. Luckily I still find other woman very attractive, I find very few Indian woman attractive relative to other ethnic groups, and I've had a lot of attention from woman of other races so I think i wouldn't have a problem finding someone great of another ethnicity. I wonder how much of the attraction is based on self hatred vs beauty standards, Some Indian woman are very hairy and honestly it's not attractive. I wonder if I was whole if I would find hairy woman attractive haha. Natural beauty is very attractive to me. Imagine dating a girl who has to shave her face or arms etc every few days. Omg @Zeroguy probably understands

So many people here are very systematic in how they approach their personal development. I know I have to work on discipline and growing up, but given my experience with psychs I think it's all about reconnecting with disconnected parts of ourselves and being open to ourselves. There was nothing systematic about my crown chakra opening and the popping in my head. It was more internal and physiological. When my jaw unclenched and the tension released it felt like I aged 1000 years in maturity. This background experience of suffering just went away, exercised out by the sensation in the third eye. Someone needs to explain me to how some people on this forum have deep spiritual experience and insight but they are still unhappy and broken. There's always this sense of you don't understand my past or some shit like that. When i had my awakening i was so happy and excited to take on the world, but it was a temporary experience before my conditioning just kinda came back. The manic energy i had when I was fighting with everyone has kinda wore off. Interestingly, I was much more productive at work because I was aroused/stimulated from the arguments haha. There's a strong determination that comes from competitiveness and arguing. I wonder if I can learn to channel that at will.