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I've grown in a lot in my compassion and tolerance towards black people. This video makes me tear up about how unjust these kids are treated

But seek ye first the kingdom of God, and his righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you.

It hurts to read the posts by people on the forum. There's virtually no one here with genuine love and compassion in their hearts. Read the recent posts by a guy like @Michael Jackson who is genuine and speaks with love compared to any mod and it's night and day. But I've been good at not engaging with others on the forum. I think it would be great to just post on my journal and it can be a way to express myself and then vent a bit when stuff on the forum triggers me.

Oof. It's a been a stressful few days getting everything ready for my trip. I basically booked my flight and got everything sorted in the few days before I'm leaving. Within a week i'll be at the Ards Friary in Ireland and then within the month I'll be in a state of ecstasy and surrender to god.

@Ulax Nice sounds good

Lol that video is hilarious. I have a lot of trauma around sexuality and human connection so that's the stuff that will trigger me most. On this retreat facebook page there's a lot of talk about sexual desire and part of me wonders if i'm wandering into some kinda yeshua sex cult lol. But funny enough it's exactly what I need, to heal my relationship with sexuality. How are things going with you

Yeah that's a great point. To seek out stuff that triggers you and then use that technique, I never thought about that. And yeah you're right, I think the fear of being shamed and being shamed take up a huge part of my emotional bandwidth so those are hot button issues. I think this retreat will bring up a bunch of uncomfortable emotions it's pretty far out of my comfort zone so i'll try to keep in mind the principle of being aware of the emotions without judgment or the urge to get rid of them

Okay i got that. What do you do when it seems like the emotional doesn't change? I think one issue I had with this a while back was it felt like the emotions wouldn't shift so I was stuck just being aware of this blank emotional state that never shifted.

Hey, yeah i remember listening to Hawkin's audio book on it a while ago but it never really stuck with me. I've heard good things about the Sedona method too. Can you share your understanding of the technique in a way that I can apply it? Maybe now it will resonate more. That's a good place to be when you start to enjoy seeing your triggers. I think anything that triggers us is just an invitation to accept and integrate that part of ourselves.

Hey thanks man. I think our parents are very similar, I guess it makes sense that we would be friends. My mom is also in a perpetual state of stress and always feels the need to be doing something, and my dad is an emotionally unavailable workaholic. What i've realized is that when you are present and surrender to the moment there's an energetic unwinding that begins and the key is just to allow the unwinding to occur. I think the issue is most of us have too much going on in life and so we have limited opportunities for genuine surrender and allowing, instead we wear masks and engage inauthentically with the world, which is what we learned to do as children. I really love yoga too, i learned an isha suriya kriya practice, and even though I only do it for like 15 minutes I still feel so much more balanced after I finish. I think a key is turn the process of surrender into something that can be done as often as possible, if you surrender for 1 hour with yoga but then spend 15 hours in a state of stress doership then you will progress slowly. If you have the option to do some kind of yoga or meditation retreat that could really accelerate the process. This video is really good at pointing to an aspect of surrender. See if you can notice the subtle difference that happens when you take a moment to notice what state your currently in and then relax any sense of effort stress and just sink into what is. It feels like going from that state of constant worry and need to do something like our moms live in to a more relaxed and present state of being. I think the key is once you are able to understand what it means to surrender and let go then it's a matter of realigning your whole life in this direction, so all aspects of life are moving towards surrendering and easing into the flow of reality.

The major blindspot of this forum is most, if not all, people are introverts and isolate themselves socially (myself included). They use this forum as a substitute for genuine social interaction. Human-human connection is another ball game and if you are able to be with another in a loving embrace that in itself is a profound spiritual practice. Everyone's trauma stems from interpersonal interactions. Our mothers and fathers were our first love and because 99% of people carry intergenerational trauma they will withhold love from their children for whatever reason and that sets a model for the child to withhold love in the future. To heal this pattern we can form healthy loving relationships with other human beings, but this requires a deep vulnerability and willingness to expose yourself. https://wayofmastery.com/blog/choosing-peace The way of mastery has an ashram in Bali that I would love to spend time at, depending on how this retreat goes. My main goal is a healing of the brain and body, in a way that I experienced on my LSD trips a few years back, and with that healthy "state" I would be better positioned to find a passion project and break my dependence on my parents for money. This year i'm really going to take advantage of my privilege and attend as many retreats and different healing modalities as possible. For the past 2 years i've been growing slowly but it's time to take the training wheels off and throw myself into the world of healing and see where it leads me. I've already experienced the goal so I know what I want, but embodiment is the only true currency on the path and until I am pure energy and bliss there is work to do. The next place i'm going to go after the Ireland retreat is Sadhguru's ashram in India. I'm also going to do an aryuveda detox in India while i'm there. I spoke with my aryvueda doctor and she said there's a clinic in Coimbatore India, the same location as the Isha Ashram, so I will spend some time there to see what it feels like to have a full cleanse. I'm also going to try a pranayama program to learn a formal breathing practice. This has been a huge revelation i've come across recently, the power of deep and conscious breathing. The breathe is healing. Breathing is like drinking water it has healing effects on the being. I've realized how powerful it is to take good supplements and drink lots of water

Love isn't all sun shine and rainbows. Many people project onto love what they think should be love. Love is love and all we can do is surrender to it and allow it to transform us.

I really gotta check myself so i don't get dragged into the forum arguments. There's a collective triggered/maddening energy to the forum that will suck you in. It's very rare for two people to disagree or present alternative views while being in harmony with each other. It's funny because I know i've been a toxic asshole to people on here, and then when it happens to you it's like oh yeah i guess i kinda deserve that lol.

I love this song. Women with angelic voices are next level. Maybe i'll meet an angel while i'm travelling (:

I'm also going to be travelling through Europe for a few months after the retreat. I still have to do a lot to prepare lol, I'm very last minute but hey as long as I get there that's what matters. I'm hoping to go to at least France, Germany, Spain and maybe Italy. I'm also going to reach out to some friends from the forum to see if they want to get together, that would be a fun experience for sure. I'll post some pictures here of my trip which will be fun. The air port, hotels/rooms/, retreat etc.

Okay so I know Andrew Tate has been a big source of controversy around here. I just signed up for his hustler's university course because i'm at a point in life where I want to make money, and as long as it's somewhat ethical i'm down to what it takes. So we can see if this guy is a scammer or if there is a genuine path to financial freedom through him. I'll keep this updated so we can all see.

I'm just going to record some thoughts about how my life is going. 3 days of procrastinating meditating, basically 0 hours. I know this is it. Right here right now. But i just keep putting off meditating. Going to do an hour tonight and an hour in the morning. I want to start making money and getting my shit together. I got like 50k in savings but idk how to leverage it. I make 17 dollars at my job but it's taking me nowhere. Only good thing is I can listen to podcasts etc while I work. Maybe I can learn some valuable skill through podcasts that can aid in making money. Dream board I want 1 million dollars. Doesn't work like that, whole premise is off and missing key steps

This forum has a bunch of Destiny fans, but not any Nick Fuentes fans, and from the responses i've gathered so far it seems like everyone is cool with guys like Destiny and Vaush, but with Fuentes it's not okay. As someone who has recently gotten into Fuentes i'm curious if anyone can answer this question. In your minds, why are figures like Destiny and Vaush okay, but Nick Fuentes is not okay.

I decided to make another journal where I post all the Nick Fuentes videos i've been watching lately. This way I can maintain my other journal for more just general life stuff. Hopefully I don't get banned for this, but i've seen my banning as inevitable for a while so if it happens so be it. I may be the only Fuentes fan on the forum, but love or him or hate him he has energy and wisdom behind his movement. He's 10x smarter and more integrated than Destiny. But shout out to Destiny for introducing me to his content.

Well it's finally happened, i'm getting banned. It's funny because I've felt like this is a long time coming so not exactly a shocker.

Because you're the only one in here who's so self entitled and narcissistic that you feel the need to come into my journal. I'm sure other people disagree yet you're the only special snowflake who feels the need to say something. It's a mute point now i'm getting banned. Have fun with your degeneracy, make sure to be very vocal and critical of the segreation of men and woman at buddhist retreats and make em more progressive

@Epikur Haha. "I do not fear the dark side as you do..."

@DrugsBunny He thinks race mixing is degenerate, but even that view is probably one of his most extreme. He said there's nothing morally against interracial marriage. And Jews have disproportionate impact on society and cultural sway, and there is something shady about why they get so much hatred for so long. My point is you are a degenerate and yet you keep coming in here and trying to argue with me or whatever you're doing. Go be healthy and stop worrying about what i'm doing and who i'm into