Soulbass

Summary of this journal : after 37 days of meditation, I've lost track and haven't meditated for a week. Tomorrow's monday, I'll be back on track until 60 days. Day 38 : Meditation went right.

Anyone have read the book yet ?

What, I've lost the count of days I haven't meditated, and it's not going to happen today, cause I said to friends I'll go to poker after work. So, I decided to make a list of (daily) things I'll definitely not do, after work : - To do not check emails, Facebook, Reddit... too much hooks in there. Even this forum (once a week is enough). - If I want to chill, I'll listen to some music, instead of watching the latest Pewdiepie. - Thinking twice before saying "yes" for hanging out... - Experiment more with 3x 20 minutes with guided audio (I haven't tried at day time). edit: just noticed the latest Leo's insight on meditation "What's The Best Time To Meditate?" it's cool.

How would you describe it ? Sometimes I feel like some parts of the brain are activated or not, depending work/consciousness I do. I've heard it's possible to control brainwaves.

Day 36 & 37 : Meditation went right. Few insights I had last night, while REM : 1) I was in a dream where few people with psychic/energetic abilities where helping me to figure out hidden part / dysfunctional parts of my psyche. At first, they thought it was all right. But then, something get noticed, a sort of demon where hidden down, and it was hard to notice it because it come from nowhere. It was a demon which is associated with "addiction" and which I named "rush" because it's like the rush to open an email, the rush to eat, the rush to go to work, the rush to do something quicker than necessary. I was first person view of the demon (for few seconds, then I woke-up). I also learned that this "demon" or "psyche" came from my grand-mother (mother's side). I don't know if these people in the dream where real, but it put light on something that I "felt" before, but haven't put words on it. 2) At the middle of the night, while not sleeping (short awoken state between sleep cycles) I felt asleep while thinking "What do I really want ?" & "Follow your bliss" sorts of mantra. The result where a dream where the answer was "Rediscover / Reconnect, with the beauty in ourselves" by beauty I mean the beauty in human being / life form, in general. I also remember Leo's video on 10 things we want but that we don't know that we want : it connected immediately with "existence to feel magical again" (while the previous insight was more about "slow down" or "slow life"). This dream almost shed tears to my eyes. 3) This one was more like a fictional story, like a movie, similar to Interstellar. Here is the plot : in 1972, a nasa team went to Mars. Once they are on the planet, the communication between Earth & Mars was about 4 minutes latency. Then an accident happen, they all died (on Mars). Then, nowadays, nasa receive message (radio frequency / video) from Mars again, the same team, exept that they say living in 1973, one year after the accident (we are in 2017 now). The strange thing is that the communication is in real time, it is because the guys from the 70' traveled through time/dimension, and they had seen this moment (the communication ha penning) before it happens, and it's a pre-recorded message (but it feel like a direct - real time communication for us, living in 2017, because we ask things, and they answer directly, all simply. Dunno if that's clear^^. A funny thing was that the guys from the 70, on Mars, after the accident, appeared in the message/video without equipment, and had the typical hippy look, like in this picture. Hey @Loreena I've seen this picture yesterday from thread "Al-lad Response" :

Have you checked the life purpose course ?

Yesterday : No meditation (fail). I was too sleepy after work, and I went to sleep early. - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - This night, I had some half lucid dreams, where I attempted to RC (reality check) with finger-palm push method. It didn’t worked, even if my hand was blurry and stretched + various dream signs in the scene, I wasn’t able to figure out the state of dream. I have to find another RC (I have an SQ8 camera that I’ll wear around my neck everyday, like this I could shot dream signs… capturing dream signs would help being aware). These last couples of days, I didn’t performed RC properly, but I was like “what’s the matter”. I have watched the first part of the holographic universe documentary (link bellow) and I just consider we everyday life experience as a dream, exept that we are “stuck” and “shaped” in ground/clay : I didn’t wanted to perform reality check because I was aware of the “natural” state of reality, which blurs frontier between dream & reality. I’d better call it “tonal” & “nagual” like shamans do. Last days, when I talked to someone about metaphysical/spiritual things, I took care of not being lost in thoughts, and actually experience this conversation as if it would be a dream, which totally changed my mind, sayings, and way to think about things. Complex discussions about metaphysics are pointless, I let place for “being” (the communication happen even if no words are spoken, directly about this topic). It’s common in lucid dreaming that a beginner try to talk, or convince other people about the nature of the dream. Dream characters often deny, it’s a dead-end. Sometimes it happen that someone more experienced come to talk to the dreamer and say “yeah, you are dreaming, wake-up” or help a little bit. I had this feeling few time, when people with “cosmic” abilities talked to me, like reading my thoughts, etc, etc. I asked to one of them (on dreamviews’s chat) “but, who are you in the end ?” he answered “we are helping each other” so I think it’s consciousness looking backward. Link to the holographic universe documentaries (5 parts) :

Day 35 : Meditation went right. 40 mins mid-day & 20 mins evening.

Day 33 : Meditation went right. I found a place at work where I can isolate myself for meditation, during mid-day lunch break. Day 34 : Meditation went right. 20 mins morning, 20 mins mid-day, 20 mins evening. It's totally different than 45 mins straight / day.

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Day 32 (I don't count the days I missed) : meditation went right. I felt more relaxed after few minutes, I had business ideas, then monkey mind. I notice that this session, like many other, were going very well at the beginning, and the more it goes, the more monkey mind appear.

I recently discovered on youtube : - Franck Lopvet (his video on the channel "Tistrya" is great) - Christophe Allain

http://www.holographicuniverseworkshops.com/ http://www.butterfliesfree.com/

@Gabriel Antonio I don't have smartphone, but one day maybe. My old B2710 run well, and have 2 weeks battery life. Thanks

I haven't meditated the past 2 days. Cause : busy schedule and lack of time management. Btw, I'm motivated. Maybe I start getting a little bit afraid of the power of meditation, and what it reveals. Tomorrow it's Sunday, I don't have excuses for not meditating.

Ouch... now that I'm back to my old favorite 9-5 work (cg animator) I wonder when I'll find time to meditate. The schedule is not that busy, and my apartment is near the work place, but I would like to spend the few hours I have @ the evening for working on my stuff (music production). I haven't meditated yet, so I'm going now for a 45 mins session. Day 31 : Meditation went right, I guess. I realize that the words "dream" or "reality" are just floating labels, and that I know nothing. Thanks @dude for sharing some shit, I liked a lot this song :

Days 28, 29, 30 : Went right. My watch have a count-down timer which can be paused, so that I can split my meditation practice across the day. I feel more "centered" as I'm going further into meditation practice, events in life seems more "peripheral" but also I'm very happy to enjoy them.

The forum rules says "conspiracy pointing is not allowed" but still, I thought this was worth a share Edit : damn, I realize after posting this, that I've been hooked by the emotional speech of this guy, and being about to post it here, shows that "strong emotions" convert people into a cult, the cult of Ra's Material for example... be careful ^^ Movies like "Jupiter Ascending" are probably inspired by Ra's Material, the distinction between reality and fiction is blurred... I just typo (accidentally) "reality is fiction" instead of "reality and fiction" [video deleted]

I have a folder with 3000+ pictures, but also musics and videos (pinterest is useful for pictures). All is divided in 3 main sub categories, and fit 3 aspects of my life purpose. I would have a separate vision board for my personal life, independent from life purpose, even if there are similarities. The whole thing is taking place over months, and evolve as time goes on, and eventually I figure out what is authentic to me.

Why 6 months ? It could be 1 day, or 75+ years, it doesn't matter. The thing is that most people have regrets about things they have not done, at the end of the journey.

it's royalty free banks, but sorry I don't know which one... Leo keep secrets (but I think it's from russian websites)

Day 26 : Meditation went right. Day 27 : Meditation went right. I found 2 exercises which are helpful for contemplating time & space : - While walking in the street, notice that there is no point A or point B, there is no distance to travel, but it's just the street moving relatively, it's subjective perceptions. Well, hard to explain since English is not my native language, but I think the one who perceive, is always the center, even if it seems like we came across the street. - Same thing for time : we don't went through times, over past life time, but time unfold on it's own, it's always changing (impermanence).

Does sleeping with a self-help book on my bedside table, would makes me having benefit from it ?

@Truth Did you known Madeon produced his first songs in fear and despair ? He has put a lot of pressure on himself, since he totally failed at school, music was his only salvation. I think his music is very inspiring and full of hope, energy, and a little bit of sadness/melancholy.