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I was wondering what effect Deep chronic depressions have on one`s ability to stay mindfull. I am asking this because I suffer from the latter and have been meditating for almost two years on a regular Basis and I don`t see any improvements in my ability to stay mindfull. It feels almost like I got worse as compared to the time I started out. Nowadays, I starting to wonder whether I am doing sth wrong or if it just more difficult with being depressed and trying to Focus. I have been using different Meditation techniques, like do Nothing, Body scan, but most of the time shamata (which is the Focus on the breath) and I don`t see any improvements and it Always makes feel frustrated and seems like the Quality of my Meditation depends only my actual mood. Is there anyone, who deals or dealed also with the same issues and could offer some help?

Hello everyone, I finally decided to try 5-MeO-DMT. As it is difficult to purchase, I went for Yopo seeds and wanted to know if anybody ever tried both, which is pure 5-MeO-DMT in its HCl Version and in Yopo. Is there a huge difference in the experience, especially when it comes to Ego death? I know that Yopo contains Bufetinin and DMT aswell and since I am a chemist, I am capable of extracting and seperating all components of Yopo, but this would definetly take a whole day of work and I also don`t really know how much of each component is in this seeds. Is there anyone that tried both and could recommend if it would be worth the work to extract 5-MeO-DMT? Thanks in advance