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If i go in the dictionary this is the meaning. To be fair, i feel like im going crazy and i don't know whats real or unreal anymore.

It has to split iself in the consciousness that observes, and the consciousness that is being observed but if there is no real separation (because any sort of separation is an illusion because reality is actually only ONE), any sort of consciousness realizing itself on any level must be an illusion. Im so confused too. Im leaning more and more towards it's impossible to know.

Thank you leo! @Leo Gura @Meta-Man

@Meta-Man thank you for the support

@Leo Gura leo are you talking about spiritual stuff here or you mean my beliefs and my attitude, etc? @Meta-Man why do you say that?

@Meta-Man i may be agreeing but still the question remains, what do i do about it on a practical level?

@Meta-Man nice, thanks.

To me looks is the primary obstacle in life. What would you say to someone like me to help him?

so, this doesnt change the fact that if i want to improve the situation it can be done because there is no free will about that either so saying nothing can be done is also contradictory. It can be positive for people seeking enlightenment but negative for me that i don't give a ffff about this because it's too advanced. i just want to live a normal life yet here i am dealing with this. so what do i do to improve the situation? Because it's like a paraoia for me...

@mandyjw Oh wow, this is actually helpfull in the sense that it's a valid point. thank you!

@Nahm Allright, thank you man.

I understand you don't want to sound offensive, in fact you are not. You are only wellcomed by trying to help me or putting a nice word. But yeah, it's not up to me how attractive i am, in fact it's up to all those girls who said im ugly including my EX, and all the others who loughed at me when i approached them normally.

@TDW1995 For me , im not even attractive , i mean, even if i want to get a girl is a lot harder. im stuck.

This is how i also feel...

OMG this is me. And you know what? Im pretty glad to forget about all of this. LOL.

@Danioover9000 thank you very much

@Nahm sorry i guess i just cant understand... I think you are trying to say again that im not separate from infinity so nothing to worry about. I guess i would need mystical experiences but im 21 and im not ready to do psychedelics and contemplate.

@Nahm ok dont worry, but i dont understand what you mean with "ignorance"

@Nahm@Nahm. I dont know man... Separation is the experience. Maybe this had nothing to do with non duality because non duality says reality is complete and whole

At first this sound good but then i realize that the fact that there is no choice in that implies that also it doesn't have meaning and i know meaning vs meaningless is another duality but that kinda makes me depressed

@kai0 i wonder this also

im really intrigued by now!@Psychventure

im very curious now ahaha

@DefinitelyNotARobot See, i think it could be usefull to interact with those beings because they tell us information about reality. I did a phone call with someone who had a spiritual guide. The guide talk to him when he needed, appeared in his dreams and helped him in his life. I haven't got further into this, but i know that ancient civilization had contact with those beings.

@Danioover9000 very interesting. But i enver encounter such entities . And i don't know if i should invest time in going further into this. Yes you are right. This is my thought process as well at this point but i still have to watch leo's video on dualities.