arlin

who are you talking about?

No. I have to do this on my own, it's my journey. Why do you think im here for? As i said, you can't even understand. But thank you for asking.

@tsuki I was referring to spiritual teachings. I know that we are talking about something that is correlated. Don't act like i don't know this. But still, If you are a spiritual ugly incel does not mean that you will go and find a hot girlfriend now. You are so pathetic.

You are taking this too far

Stop giving simplistic answers to this. What you are demonstrating here, is your projection. It's how you want to impose your simplistic views on somebody else who has gone through something that you can't even imagine. Creamcat should not even reply anymore. Tsuki you are a little bit more open but still, you pretend to have answers to something that you have not gone through. You know how much i have suffered, you know what problem do i have, and how to solve it. You even know the amount of suffering i have to go through to solve the problem. It's nonsense. Stop that. Only way to know is to experience. Again, this forum is all about this. I can't even believe that you are into self-improvement and you keep ignoring this fact. Shame.

You don't know what you are talking about. This forum is all about being open-minded. And everybody here places a lot of importance to personal experience. Yet, you say that my experience is bullshit and you have the solution. How is that open minded? Don't answer when you don't want to have a debate. You just want to impose your views. Your answer is nonsense.

What the fuck are you saying? This is bullshit. It's easy for you to say, you don't have this kind of problems at all. You never were in the situation when you are shaking and you take the incredible courage to go talk to the girl, and she looks at you disgusted. And every fucking single one reacts like this. yes yes, just love yourself. Can you imagine how difficult it is to fucking "love yourself" when you know your dna is human garbage. Shut up.

I don't think that somebody that ugly can get love from the external. Im talking about incels. Yes many of them are bullshit. But some of them, are so ugly you can't even look at their face. They will never be satisfied with their love and sex life, never. It's complicated. But i don't think you can say that all they need is love. It's so simplistic. And even then: Where the fuck do they get if from? They are always been rejected, imagine in which reality they live in!

Allright, thank you for the answers! Im really exited about part 2!!!

It makes sense. Thank you ^^

Ok got it, thank you

Can you explain this part a little better please? ahaha

But then who will be free if there isn't a "me" to be free in the first place?

Are you saying that i am free to die? Leo

I have had a very emotional experience in the past, when i was in deep suffering, when i felt like another "thing" or "entity" was coming through me... I was doing meditation and emotional release, because i was in pain. Out of nowhere i started loughing without a reason. Initially i thought "ok, lets just observe the loughter and let it go". Problem is that it would not go. I realized and i thought that i was pathetic for suffering soo much, and that made me laugh incessently. More and more i realized that i wanted to suffer, and i enjoyed it. Out of nowhere i felt this aggression rising, i begin growling... I felt good for suffering. I begin saying to myself things out loud (i was alone at home) such as "Oh arlin you are so stupid... ". (While loughing) I realized that i was not talking to myself. I was completely taken over by this energy and i did not know what it was. This "thing" or "energy" or "entity" begin saying things to me like: - "How didn't you realize this? *laughs* and *growls* - I was always with you, looking at you suffering and enjoying it *laughing and growling*. - How could you believe that you were doing it to yourself? It's me arlin... Oh you are so stupid *laughs*" He claimed that the fact that i was trying to heal myself was pathetic. That he will always sabotage my attempts to love and being loved. That he wanted and enjoyed seeing me suffering, and i actually felt his aggression and satisfaction. Now i begin asking him things in my head, when he would answer i would speak out loud. I was clearly not speaking to myself, i was completely taken over. When i asked him what about the love that i had for my ex girlfriend (i was releasing emotions from breakup), he started loughing at me, and told me that i can't love, im unable to. I asked him about my best friend. Same responses, he was making fun of me. The more people i pointed out to, the more he laughed at me for being so delusional. When i finally told him that i love myself and i want to, thats when he begin laughing the most... He laughed through me for at least 15 minutes like this. Maybe 30 mins. I wanted to (or he wanted to) harm myself, i felt deep agression and satisfaction. I felt like i was becoming the devil... Eventually, that energy faded... Strangely i felt a little relief. I was confused but i thought that i was just supercharged emotionally, and maybe it was just an unusual release and never thought about it anymore... But just today i was watching a leo video when he was talking about the dark side of meditation, and how you can see demons and entities. I panicked...i am afraid that if i begin meditating seriously i will encounter strangy shit. I dont want to deal with that. No. If i start meditating seriously, shit will go insane here. I dont know if i want to do it knowing all of these side effects. Lets return back to the story : Was that thing really an entity? Or just a part of my subconscious mind??!?

Yes it s true... Its very subtle. Allright thank

Leo says that later on when you meditate, it is possible to see aliens and demons just as real as when you look at him... How can i ignore this and pretend that its all immagination and continue to meditate in peace? Its literally impossible to me... I panick just with the thought of such things

I was not speaking. When He would speak, i did not even know what the next word would be. I really felt like i was having a dialogue with something else... I did not even know what his reactions would be. Sometimes he would laugh, sometimes growl and make weird noises...

I understand now, thank you for the explanation

Im looking for a kind of book like that too...

Hi guys, next week will be my birthday. I have not smoked for 6 months now, i never do it regularly. But for my birthday my friend suggested that we smoke just for fun. My questions are: 1- Will marijuana somehow regress my meditation progresses? 2- Can i use it to pose some pretty deep questions about my life/spiritual journey? Will the answers be legit? Whats your experience with Marijuana? Can i use it for spiritual purposes? Thank you!

I never had anxiety or panic. But i want to know if i make a list of questions for self-inquiry will weed help me in this? Will the answers be legit? Or only effect of the weed?

Ok thank you, i will try! Very nice link, thank you!

There are really a lot of opinions out there... so what should i do? lol... If i use it 1 time i don't think it will destroy my results of meditation... i believe that if i don't smoke too much i won't get panic, in fact, i never did. But if i can't use it for spiritual purposes... i don't know. But even if i can't, smoking 1 time i don't think is such bad after all.

I think somebody should do a whole video about this