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Good video, relevant to this thread.

Still working on daily habits. They are hard to upkeep, especially sleeping. I need to make sacrifices in order to follow the same sleep schedule every day. I am hesitating to make this commitment, but I know that proper sleep is vital. Maybe I'll figure something out...

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lqr98O8QT3M

Cleaned the kitchen. Good. Now the real challenge is to keep it clean.

@Nahm Not everyone has your best interest in mind. Some people want to take advantage of you in various ways. Salesmen want to sell you BS you don't need. Marketers wants to influence your mind in many ways. Politicians/news/political commentators/etc want to influence your thoughts. Your personal relationships might contain some of this toxicity as well. You need to be able to make correct judgements about people's motives. I think I actually want to improve my ability to judge people instead of not judging them at all. I think I understand what you were saying and I want to get to the point where I am not concerned with what people around me think or do. I want to just stay focused on my life and self actualization. Maybe I just haven't reached a level where I have full clarity of purpose, where no one can influence or sidetrack me. I think this might be the issue. But even if I reach such a point, I know there are people who are suffering from envy and who look outside themselves for feelings of self worth, who do not like seeing someone doing better than them or being happier than them. I would be a fool to think that these people don't exist, and it is my past that taught me this reality. Edit: Some people have the ability to make you feel so bad about yourself that it puts you into a state of depression and passivity.

@Nahm How do I reach a point where I am not judging people? Also, I think it is important to judge people...

I made a calendar for my self. It is a piece of paper. I want to keep it with me .

I think I am just lacking direction/motivation right now. What seemed to motivate me before doesn't as much anymore. I think I am struggling to find a reason to get my life in order right now. Basic things like house chores are a mountain climb atm.

Still struggling with developing a sleeping routine. I'm spending too much time worrying about life and not taking any action. I feel time slipping away day by day. I feel heartbroken because I feel like I can't catch up. I need to focus on the things I need to do in order to progress. There is something I am trying to get past, an emotional hump perhaps. The feeling of stagnation and acceptance of where I am in life scares me. I need to run while I am comfortable sitting and don't want to get up.

@Angelite I'm in US

Went for a brief walk outside today and bought lunch - helped me get out of my head for a bit. Did some people watching, some of them were interesting. I walked by a homeless man -- he smelled really bad, I felt a mix of disgust and pity. I need to move.

@Aquarius I am curious - what was it about the guy that made you decide to meet him IRL? Did you have other options to choose from?

@Angelite I like your plant. What is it??

Thank you.

@Freedomesong That post was deep.

Oh man.... I think I can write a book about the things that people do to sabotage/stifle your personal growth/success. Mostly it seems that these behaviors are caused by envy or people comparing themselves to you and using you as a measuring tool for their success. Currently, I am more concerned with work/biz environments where people tend to compete for things like promotions/sales/clients/etc. I've worked in toxic places before and prefer to remove myself from such environments but most parts of the business world are competitive and it is hard to maintain the "creative" paradigm sometimes. The same thing applies to dating. I can think back to past friends who would unconsciously try to hinder my success because they did not want to see me get more girls or better girls than them. I am conscious enough to get rid of such people now, but that was not always the case. What some of the answers provided here made me consider is my own part in these relationships I am complaining about and how I end up in them, though sometimes I do not have a choice (ex:family). The idea of how our environment is a reflection of our own selves rings a bell a bit -- I also have an ego that has worldly desires and possibly have had a similar effect on other people without even realizing it. And, perhaps, blaming other people for lack of personal success is also something I am doing. Maybe these are all life lessons for me to learn from, but we have finite time on earth and these lessons are costly. Thanks for all of your answer BTW.

Poor sleeping habits is a problem. I plan to do some research in the next couple of days regarding this issue. I am suffering because of lack of structure right now. It is causing me financial strain as well. Man, in the past several month I've slipped into a dark place. I know why, but it is something I need to get over and accept. Time is of the essence.

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Wow. @Leo Gura, it feels cool that you read and answered my question. Thank you. Yes, the inner resistance to change is a factor I need to consider as well. It seems that many of us are fighting change inside and out. This is some fruit for thought. Good point. Keeping focus on what needs to be done, regardless of circumstance, is crucial.

Hi, Thanks. Right now I am just trying to get the basics handled. I am struggling in most areas of my life at the moment. Recently, I had a bout with depression and I am just starting to get out of it.

Well, I did take out the trash and bought some cleaning supplies but not a full clean up. Taking out all the cluttered trash was a major move though. I am not sure if I will get a chance during the week. Most likely I will have to wait till next weekend to continue with clean up. Tomorrow my plan is to work a full 8 hour day, as well as for the rest of the week. The problem is that I am on a messed up sleep schedule which might hinder my plan. I am wide awake right now and its almost 12 am... I need to get a bit more resources so that I can hire a therapist to help me deal with my situation. I am making a decision to give it a try as I feel a bit stuck trying to resolve everything by myself.

Okay, What do I want to work on/get in order first? I will have some time on Sunday to clean my place. Let's start slow. I will try to report back on Sunday hopefully after having completed this task. I am trying to get out of a serious slump that seems to have been lasting for like half a year now. Man, time flies so fast...

Well, I haven't posted on here since May. Things are not going good right now. I need to get my sh*t together.