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The whole world is an ego structure. David Icke has talked about how humanity is controlled by a principle he calls bah-bah and fear, that we are like sheep controlled by sheep dogs. My interpretation of that is that prominent "sheep dogs" are: politicians, media, law enforcement, criminals and homeless people. The purpose of these sheep dogs is to keep us within a 24/7 9-to-5 sheep pen. A derogatory term for us as regular people is sheeple. The media causes fear in sheeple. Criminals, psychopaths and sadists cause fear in sheeple. Homeless people cause fear in sheeple. Law enforcement causes fear in people. Those are all examples of sheep dogs herding us the masses. So in society the wish to remove for example criminals is a lie. Because society depends on criminals along with the other sheep dogs to keep the sheeple in line. We have even been conditioned to police each other, Icke has said. And also things like hate speech and political correctness are forms of sheep dogs.

In psychology there is the term super-ego: One can then think of the superego as cultural history and the ego as personal history. Those ego structures have certain structures. The tensions in body and mind on the other are much more structureless. ACIM uses the term special relationships to describe the ego's interactions with the world. I think of ego tensions as undifferentiated special relationships and the ego plus the superego as differentiated special relationships. Notice that ACIM defines special relationships as lacking love. This means in ACIM terms that all special relationships are fear-based. And my take on fear is that it's a result of escaping confusion. And the root confusion of the ego is the belief in total separation. Healing means to make whole. And the ego, the superego and the ego tensions are unholy. It's the whole packade of the person that needs to be resolved. Using mindfulness to dissolve the ego structures is useful I think, when it's recognized that it's the ego itself that is a part of doing the practice. And dissolving the death drive is included in removing the ego structures since the death drive is merely a shadow cast by the ego structures.

Hmm... I got an idea that I want to document for future investigation. There are fundamental fears that all egos share such as fear of death. And there are also many fears that are different from one ego to another. And anger is usually personal or confined to collective egos where different people can belong to different collective egos than other people, such as Democrat vs Republican, Christian vs atheist, American vs Chinese and so on. And the idea I got is that, yes the ego tensions in body and mind are related to fear and anger, but the tensions are collective! As ACIM says, all minds are connected, and everything is mind (interconnected information plus consciousness) and the ego tensions are shared between all people in ego consciousness, regardless of whether they belong to different separate collective egos or not.

My initial impression of examining anger is that it's a form of attack. And the attack in turn is a form of protection. And the perceived need for protection is caused by fear. And fear is a result of escaping confusion. ACIM says: If we are in ego consciousness, is it then really true that we don't wish anyone well? From a wholeness perspective it's true since the ego cannot make the whole well, nor does it have any idea of how to achieve that. And without wishing the wholeness well, the ego wishes from a nonduality perspective no one well, not even itself.

Ouch, this was horrible and also interesting. I tried letting go of my belief in inevitable death. And it resulted in anger! What a stupid f*cking retarded belief, I thought. And I can feel anger in my face even now. I must have touched something deep. Is my subconscious anger related to the death drive? That's an interesting idea to examine further. My current guess is that the death drive is deeply related to the ego which in turn is a collective structure at its foundation with different individual secondary expressions in each person.

Leo mentioned that he has a video about letting go. That gave me a really radical idea, to use the letting go practice to let go of the death drive. That's a complete shift compared to the usual suggestion to accept physical death. Acceptance is not the same as letting go! That's actually the opposite. That's keep on clinging on to the belief in inevitable physical death. What if instead that belief is let go of? That's what I will experiment with.

When it comes to healing I came to think of another potential root cause .... the death drive! So I will work on not only inner peace but also practice dissolving my death drive. Of course that's an enormous task, but as ACIM says miracles can significantly speed up things and there is no order of difficulty when it comes to miracles. And the method I mainly still use is inner body awareness practice and with attention on tensions in body and mind. It can be heavy sometimes because the mindfulness practice awakens previously hidden aches, pains, stiffness and tensions. The reason for why it feels so heavy I believe is because it's a collective ego field of conflict and friction within the body and mind.

I posted about dry fasting in another thread. That's for me a proven efficient method for healing. So in case of recommendation for others I would go with dry fasting with a caution that experts say that it should done under professional healthcare supervision. I do it without any supervision, but for other people medical supervision may very well be necessary. The more advanced method of healing I'm doing now is to change my belief system so that when my body and mind become peaceful then my idea is that this will automatically result in healing. A Course in Miracles says: The ACIM recommendation is extreme! But I like it. And it's possible that illness is caused by defensiveness.

@Unemployed Yes, my experience is that fasting is very efficient for healing. Especially dry fasting, which allows the digestive system to rest. Drinking water is actually a burden for the body, and drinking lots of water can even be toxic. During dry fasting the body produces its own water by breaking down fat cells! And many people, including myself, say that dry fasting is actually easier to do than water fasting. Disclaimer: Experts say one should be cautious about dry fasting. I have done dry fasting a few times so for me I feel it's safe, but I don't know what effect it can have on other people. Here is a video about dry fasting that I like:

Leo has a new blog video about his health situation. I haven't watched the video yet, but I recently actually thought about healing. And the idea that came to me is that healing is a result of wholeness, that it's a natural state rather than something that we need to strive for. It's a shift of understanding. ACIM seems to be saying something similar:

A Course in Miracles says that all minds are connected. Even ego minds! So that made me think that the problem of transcending the ego is not the connection with spiritually enlightened people, because they are already one with the Holy Spirit. The problem instead is that our ego minds are connected in conflicting ways! The solution then is to be connected with all ego structures in the world as a single whole, a holon. Then the ego structures are transcended by being connected into a single whole which removes the seeming separations and the conflicts between separate egos.

I have been following The Wolfram Physics Project for a while, where they use a graph as their model, similar to my model, so I'm very excited about this new project. Stephen Wolfram said recently that the graph they use is finite, meaning reality according to their model is made of pixels (called voxels in 3D). Think of the screen on a computer or smartphone. The image on the screen is made of pixels. There is a finite number of pixels on the screen. If reality is not finite and instead continuous, then in the screen analogy there would be an infinite number of pixels on the screen in even the smallest area of the screen. With a finite model, reality behaves more like a computer simulation than something that has infinite resolution. In my model the information is always preserved and is indestructible, and the graph exists only in the present moment. I don't know yet whether the Wolfram model also is only in the now, but I think it's safe to say that a graph model makes entropy in reality complexity, which means order rather than disorder. Here are two videos with computer simulations that produce seeming disorder/entropy in the form of deformation, tearing and destruction of bread and other physical materials. But there is no actual destruction, randomness or disorder. It's all complexity/order.

I'm impressed by the knowledge Jason Reza Jorjani has about all kinds of topics. Here I found a video where I disagree with him though. He said that both scientific and religious people deny that they have free will. His argument is that both science and religions with an all-powerful God are incompatible with free will. I agree! But then he says that he thinks that it's profoundly problematic. The solution here I believe is to examine what the purpose of free will is. It seems to me that free will is a very high level of development, BUT that there is an even higher level of development possible which the nonduality teachers talk about. If we are One with all of reality, then it's that whole oneness that manifests as a single unit. And from that nondual perspective there cannot be any separate individuals and no free will. However, the actual experience of oneness transcends free will is my guess, because then we become the whole action of the universe, which is a much more powerful and free experience than ego consciousness and free will.

In this CNN video the reporter says that QAnon is a nonsense conspiracy theory, but then later he admits that Donald Trump has "fanned the flames, repeatedly retweeting QAnon supporting accounts, memes and hashtags." If QAnon was a real conspiracy theory nutcase, would Trump have dared to support QAnon in this way? No way! That would be incredibly dangerous for a President to do, if Q was just some random person or anonymous group. Especially with the 2020 election coming up soon. So what CNN indirectly is doing here is in my opinion confirming that QAnon is controlled by the U.S. government.

I have been ranting a lot about the heart chakra, how it needs to become activated to connect all the chakras. But what about the higher chakras? I believe Shunyamurti is correct in this satsang where he said that one cannot just directly jump into the seventh chakra. And notice the incredible complicated conditions he describes that need to be met in order to transcend the ego. Fortunately, I believe that most of that complicated stuff will sort itself out once the ego has reached a certain level of understanding and realization.

Vernor Vinge's scenario with interconnection of people resulting in an emergent system can be applied to the personal ego! Think of the ego as training wheels for the development of the individual. Then when the individual is developed enough, the ego is no longer needed and is transcended by the individualized consciousness connecting to the larger whole of reality. The connection to the larger whole results in transcending the ego and actually also of including the ego since the individuality and personality of the person still remains. The connection to the whole is the Holy Spirit in A Course in Miracles. And that explains why ACIM says that the ego is to be transcended. Shunyamurti talks about removing the ego in this video:

The phrase "order out of chaos" is actually a Freemasonic motto: That's the "old order of things" described in the Bible (Rev. 21). The new interconnected system is a higher order structure that is more stable than that. So the smashing of the nations like pottery is a slow process that will take decades. For example the New IP protocol proposed by Huawei will give governments more power and control, not less. The same with e-money such as CBDCs. Today corporations and the private banking sector have too much power and what will happen I predict is a move towards a more balanced power situation between governments and the private sector. And it's only much later, decades into the future, when global structures will replace national governments. Still, the order out of chaos principle may still be effective and it will be interesting to see what will happen with COVID-19.

Huawei as I mentioned in a previous post will play an important role in the emergent new global system, such as:

Jason Reza Jorjani said in the video about a technological singularity that Vernor Vinge I think it was, has written about difference possible scenarios towards a singularity. And one of those scenarios is about how humanity through becoming more interconnected through information technology will cause a higher order system to emerge. In such scenario a global control system can emerge without the need for any centralized organizations! Instead the global control system that will replace national governments then is a result of the overall complex and interconnected system of humanity as a whole. And this will be made possible through technological progress combined with breaking down the trust in separate national governments. To "serve the Lord with fear" I interpret as the dualistic system (fear) serving the new larger holon (love).

What kind of event can make people distrust nations, even their own nation? And why is such even needed? It's needed for the development of a global system of control. That's holon development with the whole world turning into a higher level of holon. I came to think of COVID-1984 .... eh, excuse me, I meant COVID-19, as a potential global scandal. If COVID-19 is exposed as a total hoax and that there isn't even any actual coronavirus, that will cause a huge distrust in governments and even distrust in the United Nations and the WHO. But then there needs to be a global system that can replace the trust in governments. And no such system exists yet. So COVID-19 could be exposed as a hoax, but in the future when the new global system has become established enough. Or, there will be some kind of order out of chaos situation where COVID-19 becomes known as a hoax very soon, such as already in 2020, without any global system able to replace governments of nations. And that will cause a chaotic situation that needs to be resolved and that's only possible to achieve on a global level.

I was surprised to find that a lawyer has been found as a suspect in the New Jersey incident. That will cause distrust of people working in the legal system! That's a double blow again persons. Corporations such as FedEx are persons in a legal sense. It makes sense if the goal is to make people trust the system as a whole rather than trusting individuals. From an even bigger picture, even nations are individual entities, collective egos. So it's about distrust of ego structures. My prediction therefore is that some event will happen that makes people distrust nations, even their own nation! QAnon is about patriotism, but notice that Q is talking patriotism in all countries, not only in the U.S. so it's actually a message of global unity rather than nations as collective egos. Even governments of nations are sometimes defined as persons:

Peter Ralston has this new short video where he makes a distinction between practice to achieve a goal and practicing direct consciousness. That's an interesting point. So the mindfulness practice I'm doing can be useful for achieving skills, but not for reaching direct consciousness. That made me wonder: is inner peace a skill? Maybe it is! And then inner peace can be practiced just like learning how to play the violin.

Isn't the question about stepping into a river twice just semantics in the form of a meaningless word game? No, actually not. It's profoundly significant. Let's look at a contrived yet valid example. Imagine a thief stealing a boat in a river. The thief is caught and during the trial she says that her husband helped her stealing the boat by signaling to her that the coast was clear. And her husband gave the signal by stepping into the river twice. And the judge asks the husband whether he stepped into the river twice or not. In that example, stepping into the river twice has a significant meaning. If the husband would have claimed that it's impossible to step into the same river twice, that would have been semantics in the form of a word game. The judge would unlikely be impressed.

Can you step into the same river twice? Of course you can. Step into for example the Mississippi River twice. Perfectly doable. Notice that "Mississippi River" is just a label, a concept, yet it points to the actual river. It's very difficult to define exactly in each moment which water molecules belong to the river. Some water molecules evaporate into the air and others are soaked into the river banks. And at the bottom of the river, where to draw the boundary between river and not river? Yet, even without being able to precisely define the river, we can know when we step into the river or not. And that knowing is absolute. That's direct experience. It's trickier when it comes to memories since there can be false memories, but even memories in many cases can be true. So, then why do philosophers claim that we can't step into the same river twice? Because they believe that reality is always changing and is impermanent. The truth as I see it is that reality is permanent. It's similar to how a movie appears impermanent when played while in reality the movie is permanent.

Why is there evil in the world? My answer is that's because conflict has been necessary throughout history. Without conflict progress would have been slim and also uniqueness far less, because when things go smoothly and peacefully it's the same fundamental groove traveled by civilizations. And also lies, deception and manipulation have been necessary "tools" in our human development. And even if those things aren't always evil, it still causes a lot of friction, separation and isolation. The good thing is that I believe we have reached a point in history where our civilization has become developed enough and instead of "the tree of the knowledge of good and evil" we will enter the state of advanced civilizations symbolized by "the tree of life". When our civilization is based on the tree of life, then good and evil can be added on top of that in a harmless way. Like in a video game. Also lies and manipulation and so on can be added on top of a foundation of truth and peace. The main problem today is that our very foundation of society is still based on lies! A foundation of lies is ridiculous and immature seen from a developed perspective. Evil is "merely" an undeveloped stage.