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One interesting practice I discovered is to think pleasant thoughts. Not the usual kind of positive thinking that still takes the thoughts seriously. Instead the practice is to examine if the thoughts themselves can become pleasant. So in this practice it's not about what the thoughts are about necessarily being pleasant or desirable. It's about examining the thinking process itself. Why do some thoughts produce pleasant feelings while others cause suffering? The obvious answer is from a personal perspective that a thought about winning a million dollars is more pleasant than a thought about losing a million dollars. The transpersonal stage is to even go beyond thinking into trans-conceptual awareness. The practice of pleasant thoughts is just a method I will test to explore the nature of thoughts and question their habitual and emotional content. As a step towards true trans-conceptual awareness.

One key observation Leo explained in the video about perspectives is that we tend to take on new perspectives still from a position of our current perspective. So for example when I try to see something from a Chinese perspective I add my own beliefs about that on top of my western perspective which colors the whole thing western. So I'm still actually looking at it from a western perspective. This is crucially important when it comes to the personal stage vs the transpersonal stage. I'm adding my beliefs about the transpersonal stage while still remaining in and experiencing from my personal perspective. That's valid I think because one has to start somewhere but it's useful to be aware of what one's perspective actually is. The whole foundational perspective needs to change from a personal to a transpersonal perspective. And it will result in a shift of the entire experience of oneself and of the world. One difference I came to speculate about is that from the personal perspective we experience things going wrong and from the transpersonal perspective we will experience everything as always perfect (be perfect therefore as your Father in heaven is perfect, as it says in the Bible).

I came up with an idea to think of the material view as correct but incomplete. So for example atoms are real objects. The problem with the material view appears when it's taken as a complete perspective. The basic problem is to believe that objects actually are separate while the correct view is that reality is an interconnected wholeness. Another idea I got is that there is only one infinity, and the different kinds of infinities they use in math are useful but that they lead to problems. For example take a real number and what is the next nearest larger number? The answer is: there is no such next number! That to me means that there is something false about the idea of real numbers. I will take another look at Leo's video about perspectives and compare it with my new ideas. The personal perspective is connected to the material view taken as being a complete perspective. And the transpersonal perspective is the recognition that separations are appearances within an interconnected whole.

My current view is that the physical body is already an information avatar even at the personal stage of development. The Wolfram Physics Project, which I believe is correct, shows that reality is made of only space which in turn is a web of nothingness! So what we perceive as atoms and molecules are merely shapes of space which in turn is a web of empty points connected to each other. And my idea is that when the level of consciousness increases enough it can start to modify the physical body by restructuring the vacuum energy of space.

I think that consciousness evolution is transcend and include, so for example we will still have bodies even in the very high levels of cosmic consciousness that Shunyamurti talked about. Basically like angels, or what in Christianity is called the glorified body. It may even be that the step from the personal stage to the first transpersonal stage involves a change of the physical body! Maybe just my fantasy, haha, but I believe it might be possible. To have a body like an angel that can shapeshift and do all kinds of stunts, that's something much later on at the more advanced levels of consciousness, but some form of simpler improvement of the physical body might happen already at the first transpersonal stage. One thing that makes me believe in the possibility of a transformation of the physical body is that when practicing inner body awareness it becomes really clear that the physical body at the personal stage of development is in a really limited and suffering form.

I like the cosmic explanation of the evolution of consciousness Shunyamurti presents in this new video. That's the really big picture that makes my idea of the initial transpersonal stage seem puny in comparison.

Dolan said that there are a lot of connections between the intelligence agencies and things related to the breakaway civilization. And I came to think of how the intel agencies are very good at keeping secrets. Probably most of the people working in the intelligence community are at the personal stage of development but they heavily use compartmentalization so that's probably how they can keep things secret. I heard Dolan talking about the intelligence community connection in this video. And also I think that one key interface between the breakaway civilization and the public society is via the intelligence community.

If there are many people who know about the breakaway civilization, then how come nobody has talked about it? Surely someone would would sooner or later deliberately or by mistake reveal its existence? The mistake made in that argument is to look at it from a personal stage perspective. At the transpersonal stage there is inherent integrity due to being above the conflicts of the personal stage. So the information is kept secret automatically if all the people who know about the existence of the breakaway civilization themselves are at the transpersonal stage.

Now I have an idea of what is going on. I think that our world is controlled by a breakaway civilization who has superior knowledge and technology, and they have been in control at least for several centuries. And they are already at the transpersonal stage while the public society still is at the personal stage of development. And those people who are "in on it" so to speak keep quiet and what we have in the public society is a facade civilization, not in the sense that it's fake, but that we are allowed to develop on our own while still being controlled by the breakaway civilization in the background without them being noticed. A kind of semi Prime Directive. Although direct information about the situation is deliberately lacking in the public society, there are hints here and there about the existence of a breakaway civilization. One has to sift through a lot of seemingly contradicting alternative information and connect it into a coherent, consistent and sensible picture. Here is one example of such alternative information: Richard Dolan seems to be a credible researcher and it was he who coined the term breakaway civilization, and he has mentioned the possibility of an ancient breakaway civilizations but most of his information is about more recent history and more at a public level than what I believe is the real situation. I will that another look at some of his information.

Solipsism seems to be a false perspective to me. Every time something is believed to be special it later turns out that it wasn't special at all. Centuries ago people believed that earth was the center of the entire universe. Talk about special! Solipsism is the idea that I am the only one that exists, which would be ridiculously special. But there is something I find suspicious and that is why essentially everybody is close-minded about the belief in inevitable physical death. I'm sure that there are some people who are open-minded about it other than me but I haven't seen or heard anybody talking about it! So there is something weird about our reality in my opinion. I will take a break again for a while to try to figure out what the heck is going on.

I noticed that it was almost scary to write about society as a death cult. Almost as if my own ego was scared to talk about it. At the personal stage we will subconsciously defend our belief in death. And almost everybody in society today will I suspect defend their belief in inevitable physical death, because we are a product of the death cult itself. Even the most radical New Age believers and fundamental Christians defend their belief in death and come up with stories about ascension and the Rapture instead. The Rapture is not about being taken to heaven, because that would be the same as physical death basically. The Rapture is about meeting Christ in the clouds, meaning the ability levitate here on earth, not about being transported to heaven as some place away from earth.

The biggest trauma inherited is of course death. The history of life on earth is an orgy of death and society today is a death cult that is the latest iteration of that hideous scenario. So what to do about death? My answer is: to overcome it. Not only spiritually whatever that means, I mean overcoming physical death and transforming our bodies to avatars. Anything less than that is just more of the horror show of the death cult.

On a second thought, maybe paternal lineages are not entirely silly, since evolution has several "dimensions" to it. So the personal stage then is inherited through both the maternal and paternal lineages and also from society and the environment. And since society is a holon we carry the whole personal stage in our bodies and minds. At first it may seem impossible to budge that kind of heavy conditioning and move from the personal stage to the transpersonal stage. The power necessary comes from accelerating evolutionary progress. Yes, the past is enormous and heavy but each moment is an explosion into massively more information and complexity so in theory the transformation into the transpersonal stage can happen in the twinkling of an eye.

This is deep. I haven't checked if any scientific research has been done about it but I'm pretty sure that traumas from past generations are stored in the body through epigenetic inheritance. And mainly through the maternal lineage. In the Bible and other texts like that huge importance is put on paternal lineages. I think that's silly because it's the mother's whole body that develops the fetus, including programming it with emotions and hormons and stuff. So the body not only stores traumans from our own life in it, also all the past generations' traumas are stored in it to lesser or greater extent. And all those past generations, what is that? That's the personal stage of development! And even the prepersonal stage before that if primates were our early ancestors. So the body is massively programmed and conditioned by the personal stage of development and even with earlier traumas throughout the history of life on earth.

One funny, or scary practice depending on how to look at it is to let the body control itself. Then the body including muscle movements is only observed by the mind without volitional control over it. Breathing is an example of a function that sits between volitional and autonomous control. Usually the breathing is automatic but we can also use willpower and breathe with volitional control. The automatic breathing is a subconscious activity which can also be made conscious by observing and being consciously aware of one's breathing happening automatically. The automatic body practice is like the mindful breathing where the breathing is just observed without controlling it. The difference is that in the automatic body practice all the muscle movements of the body are observed! Not just the breathing. So that's the scary part, because who knows what the body will do by itself, haha.

As a practical example of the automatic life practice, when we are at the personal stage a common notion is that we have to worry about paying our bills. We are then slaves to society and are "serving money" as Jesus said. First of all, why the need for worry? Worry about paying the bills? It's perhaps just a figure of speech but the word 'worry' is suspicious. And also 'have to', says who? Do we really have to worry or even pay our bills? The automatic life practice in this example is to do nothing about the bills. And then see what happens! Maybe the bills get payed, maybe they don't, in either case what we do we do as the Tao and not as slaves to society at the personal stage.

I just realized that my automatic sage practice is similar to the Matrix movie where the machine world was the evil artificial intelligence that had put humans into pods to be harvested like batteries. The difference, or maybe the deeper similarity is that the machine world is in my analogy how automatic life appears to us at the personal stage. That's the mechanical world in the Matrix ruled by the Architect. The transpersonal stage is represented by the Oracle, who also is from the machine world but who is intuitive rather than analytical. And our society is still at the personal stage so it's like a Matrix where our crystallized egos are programmed by society and used as "batteries" to fuel society. Unplugging from the personal stage Matrix can be done by recognizing that we are feeding it with our worry and uncertainty and instead start living as one with reality.

I found this older video where Leo talks about becoming a sage. That gave me the idea of becoming an automatic sage. The idea is based on the belief that reality is certain, determined and changeless at the unmanifested level. And my initial practice is to deliberately experiencing life including myself as mechanical. That's actually a false perspective because reality is an increase of novelty and not some mechanical machine, but it's the perspective that the crystallized ego has about automatic life so I will start at the personal stage and see if the experience starts to change into the transpersonal stage governed by the Tao rather than by mechanical laws.

The crystallized ego is always uncertain and is fueled by the confusion caused by the belief in separation. It believes that the past is certain and that the future is uncertain. I am challenging that belief and propose that both the past and the future are certain. With the future being certain, the thoughts of uncertainty are illusions. It's a necessary illusion for the purpose of developing unique individuals and a unique civilization. It's an illusion necessary only at the personal stage of development however. The era of uncertainty I argue is over. Historically we have been there, done that and got the bloody T-shirt.

Actually, I have started practicing the automatic life approach. It looks like I'm changing my practice every minute but the automatic life practice could be really effective. I can see intellectually how it would work so I will give it a try. How to do the automatic life practice? I use the method of assuming that life is automatic and then explore what happens. It's necessarily phony at the beginning since I still feel like I have free will and personal control. The idea is that after a while the sense of personal control will start to melt away.

If life is an automatic process and leading to higher consciousness, shouldn't we be able to just kick back and let the universe transport us into the transpersonal stage effortlessly? Absolutely! BUT, as long as we remain at the personal stage of development the idea of an automatic life seems horrible, mechanical, meaningless and like being a victim. Not good. So my guess at the moment is that we need to reach a high enough level of development at the personal stage where the automatic option becomes available and useful. And I think it will start to happen when we recognize that personal control is a delusional and phony stage of development.

I find it difficult to know for sure how reality works, but I think my current view might be accurate especially with the recent Wolfram Physics Project being similar. In this view what has happened in the past in inevitable. And that's useful for questioning regrets. And even for questioning evil things done in the past. And another consequence of that I realized is that the future is the same way! What will happen in the future is set in stone and is perfect order and even as I believe a structure of infinite intelligence, and I even think of God as being that intelligence, not some separate being or something like that.

Leo said in the toxic life video that what narcotics do is giving a simulated higher state of consciousness. That seems valid. And for example heroin gives the person temporarily a feeling of inner peace. So what Leo indirectly is saying is that a higher states of consciousness result in inner peace. But what if both inner peace and suffering are connected between people? If I focus on both, how do I know that the inner peace will increase instead of the suffering? My answer is that evolution leads to increased complexity and larger and more harmonious wholes. so the inner peace is actually a stronger force than the suffering in the long run. What this means if correct is that by focusing on all my feelings the inner peace will gradually and perhaps even suddenly increase while the suffering will dissolve. And my way of knowing if that's true is to actually do the practice which may take months, hopefully not years, yikes.

I think one needs to feel both the peace and the suffering at the same time. Because reality is one wholeness. I have started to feel both peace and suffering and focusing on only one side feels lopsided. Thoughts are different. The "me" is itself a thought form so even though separating thoughts from feelings is a split too it's a useful practice. The idea is that in the ordinary state of consciousness at the personal stage thoughts and feelings are glued together so it's useful to unglue that bondage to allow it to become sorted out.

Aha! This is powerful. Inner peace is a result of shared feelings. I started experiencing an increase of inner peace when I had the idea that feelings are connected between people. And I believe it's a real effect and not a form of autosuggestion. And the inner peace can be shared even with people in a very conflict-ridden personal stage, because if they resonate with the inner peace then their crystallized egos will start to dissolve too! And if they aren't ready for that it will have no effect. So the inner peace can safely be shared with everybody.