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I want to post about something that I agree with Leo about which probably is a controversial view. I wrote somewhere else that biological evolution is basically a cosmic trick. And Leo said in his new video that consciousness limits itself in order to take on different forms including evolution. The process of evolution is necessary in order to produce unique individuals. And the personal stage is the highest level it seems where the illusion of separation still works (and is necessary). As more and more people enter the transpersonal stage the view of the world will change.

I think that my conceptual view is basically the same as Leo's when it comes to consciousness (note that Leo points out that direct consciousness is not a concept). One difference is that I speculate that there might be only one infinity. And that our manifested universe/multiverse/omniverse is expanding yet always finite. But how to fit my idea with standard mathematics? For example there is an infinite number of positive numbers 1, 2, 3, 4, ... but there is also an infinite number of negative numbers -1, -2, -3, -4 ... so how to explain that? Notice that we can actually never list all numbers. So those are concepts about infinity. My idea of only one infinity is also a concept. But my idea is that consciousness is a result of the one infinity. Leo actually has the same concept, and it's also something used in mathematics which is called absolute infinity. Interestingly, in mathematics today they call it absolute infinity yet I notice here that Cantor called it the actual infinite! Yay, maybe Cantor was thinking of infinity in the same way as I that there is only one actual infinity.

Is consciousness one single thing? When I become aware of my own consciousness it's one experience. But it also contains all kinds of differents things. Can something finite be aware of other finite things? Maybe not! Maybe only something infinite can be aware of finite things, My definition of consciousness is that it's a state of being aware as a self. What is consciousness? My idea is that consciousness is the infinite unmanifested observing the always finite expansion of the manifestation of itself. Leo has this new video which I'm eager to check out and compare with:

I can see that loneliness at least indirectly is the root cause of suffering as Shunyamurti talked about. The crystallized ego is an isolated state. And that's why I believe that the transpersonal stage also means a collective consciousness. In a collective consciousness there is an actual joining together with other people so there isn't even the possibility for a state of loneliness. And I believe that the whole of humanity will evolve into a collective consciousness.

In this new video Shunyamurti says that the root of all suffering in the ego is loneliness. That's a new idea to me. It's true that the ego always feels lonely since it's a state of separation, even when the person is with other people, but I hadn't heard of it as the root cause of suffering before.

Oh! Teal Swan also suggested a practice of not taking responsibility for a while and to observe the consequences. Very interesting practice! She said that personal responsibility is a choice. I will modify the practice and remove the choice! It's similar to the conscious confusion practice I mentioned earlier. The idea is that choice is a personal stage trait. And at the transpersonal stage choice is transcended. Choice is replaced by immediate action. With immediate action there is no time to think or to choose. Immediate action requires a flow state. And also for immediate action to be harmonious it requires going above the personal stage. If there instead is a regress into lower stages of behavior there will be reckless and impulsive actions instead of harmonious action. So that's a litmus test for determining the stage of development.

Personal responsibility is a typical personal stage trait. Teal Swan says in her new video that some people avoid taking responsibility because it puts pressure on them while other people like taking responsibility since it gives them a sense of control. And of course it can depend on the situation. Some people like taking responsibility for some things but not for other things. The transpersonal stage transcends personal responsibility. And I think that the transpersonal stage also includes responsibility in an integral way. I haven't figured out yet how personal responsibility can be transcended other than the idea that it's caused by the crystallized ego and that the fluid ego is inherently responsible somehow without identifying with it.

The more mainstream nonduality teachers probably have the same message as Tony Parsons but delivered in ways more suitable for larger audiences. I found this new video with Mooji talking about how it takes a lot of energy to be a person and it takes no energy to be oneself, he said. My take on it is that the transpersonal stage removes the friction caused by the personal stage. And that removes the personal effort.

From a relative perspective there are things like acceptance and nonacceptance. But notice that from a nondual perspective even acceptance is impossible. The same with surrender. And of course the same with nonsurrender. At the personal stage this is horrible! The whole point of existence at the personal stage is to be able to do things. And the personal stage is a very high level of development compared to animals and plants on the evolutionary scale. The transpersonal stage as I see it must be some form of realization of the impossibility of doing anything. And at the same time the transpersonal stage is a higher level of development so there is more power, more harmony and more capacity for doing things. So the tricky shift necessary then is the realization of non-doership without becoming a victim or a helpless robot (depersonalization disorder). Nonduality teachers, especially the hardcore ones, talk about nobody doing anything. I will take a look at Tony Parsons' latest video to get a sense of what it means to be nothing, which usually sounds nihilistic to us at the personal stage of development.

I got an idea about why mindfulness practice is so difficult. The idea is that the reason for why mindfulness practice is so difficult is not because it's hard, not because lots of repetitions needed, not because the need for discipline or something like that. The true reason for why mindfulness practice is difficult is because it's impossible. Haha. There is no separate person able to do anything, so any practice, any doing, will only keep the delusion of separation going.

A morbid and somewhat funny observation is that members of the human species are not meant to die in the long run. Why? Because given enough time, in that case planet earth will become one giant graveyard. Unlike animals in nature we humans take up a small slice of land for each dead body, and over time all those small slices will eventually cover all the land on all continents. This, then, means that we humans are meant to transcend death, just as it says in the Bible. The transcendence of physical death in my opinion is what the transpersonal stage is about. It's a radical shift in how life is experienced. And I mean radically radical, not just some small or even big change for the isolated individual. The transpersonal stage is a collective development.

More woo woo! As a contrast to the crazy coronavirus situation here is a video with a New Age meditation. If COVID-19 represents the collective personal stage I think information like this video represents the collective transpersonal stage. Sure, I will probably have to "interpret" the video to make it fit with my ideas but I do believe that there is truth to a collective form of consciousness at the transpersonal stage.

The coronavirus crisis is starting to look as the most incredible thing in human history! For how long will it go on? It's starting to look scary. It could actually be the personal stage of humanity coming to an end. The CEO for United Airlines for example is now saying that business travel won't recover until 2024. Hopefully the crisis will quickly usher in the tsunami of automation that Marianne Williamson talked about. And then a universal basic income will make the situation safe for people. It's the cocoon made of technology that is forming around the world. My guess and hope is that the situation will remain fairly stable even though there seems to be a monumental and historical shift going on right now. It's easy to miss the significance of what is happening when we are right in the middle of the crisis.

One uncomfortable practice that I believe is very powerful is to feel the body throughout the day, even when doing things like practical everyday activities. I noticed that my mind tries to avoid that just because it feels uncomfortable. And I have done tons of inner body awareness practice! And still there is a huge resistance and a tendency to become trapped in the thinking mind. The crystallized ego isn't just the thinking mind, it's the whole body-mind that has the rigid structure of the personal stage. I will listen to Leo's video about body awareness again with focus on how to achieve that in ordinary daily living and not only as a separate practice.

Actually I now found an exception to my previous post. US Anderson wrote something like half a century ago that people in the past believed that disease was a result of wrong belief. That may be a correct theory! And it's just that the healthcare industry needs to sustain itself and keep making profit so it has caused the opposite belief in society today. Another thing Anderson wrote is that there is a universal mind governing things, change the universal mind and reality changes. Also a possible theory I think, especially when looking at the transpersonal stage of development.

Most of the information on the internet is old. And the new information tends to be focused on material things or current external events, such as iPhone 12 and the presidential election. A century ago, and even decades ago, the information didn't change much because the change in society was so slow. But as Ray Kurzweil has shown, evolution is an exponentially accelerating process, and today we have reached a point where this becomes significant. My solution to this is to come up with my own ideas in addition to learning from the existing information. And one such idea is a radical one which is to examine if the physical body can be made immortal through spirituality. Actually ancient spiritual scriptures have talked about that but few people take that information seriously.

I found this curious video where Brian Scott connects the eight circuit model of consciousness with the Law of One.

Hmm... The boring thing with the impossibility of speeding up evolution can also be seen as something good. It allows for relaxing into the flow of life which is a massive process, and things need to happen in precise coordination of zillions of events, moment by moment. So instead of frantically trying to improve oneself and to evolve, the better approach is to find inner peace in the process of life. The word surrender often has a bad connotation such as defeat and helplessness. But in this case it can be useful. Anna has this video about surrender: And also, surrender doesn't mean to be passive. Even activities like self-improvement can be included in surrender. It's just that the idea of striving is relaxed.

It's also possible to look at the apocalypse from an atheistic perspective. My model says that evolution is a process of increasing complexity. And when the complexity reaches a high enough level then the apocalypse occurs as an automatic consequence of reaching above the necessary level of complexity needed for that to happen. The boring thing with this view is that there is nothing we can do to speed up our own evolution and to reach the apocalypse faster. The good thing is that it's according to this model guaranteed that the apocalypse will happen. Evolution always progresses towards higher complexity when seen as the total process of reality.

To me ego "death" is simply an apocalypse, an unveiling, an uncovering of the finer structure of reality. What makes the ego at the personal stage "crystallized" is that it sees only the surface material structure of reality and experiences entropy as disorder and decay. To use Leo's analogy, think of Mario in the platform game Super Mario World. In my analogy here Mario represents the crystallized ego. Mario only experiences the objects in the Mario World, when in fact reality has a deeper layer which is the program code that runs the game. So when Mario experiences destruction of objects that's only an appearance on his level of perception.

I discovered an even easier way of looking at the energy body. There is ultimately no difference between the physical body and the energy body. If we take the Wolfram model then all of reality is a single graph (network of nothingness). So both the physical body and the energy body are appearances produced by that single graph. The difference is that the energy body is subtler, more fine-grained than the physical body. I think that's evident in how for example protein folding inside cells is a very clever process that I believe requires more fine-grained control over the atoms than the traditional forces in physics. So instead of making a distinction it's simpler to say that entropy is actually complexity and hence order and it's just that at the personal stage it's too fine-grained order which we can't control at that stage so it appears as disorder to us.

The crystallized ego often plays different roles depending on the situation. And the crystallized ego is itself a role I noticed, the inner self. The outward roles presented to the world can be seen as personas and the inner role is the "me" the sense of what the person experiences himself or herself to be. Leo has this older video about different roles. I will compare his explanation to my division of inner role vs outer roles. Dropping outer roles might be useful but in my opinion it's tricky, because the crystallized ego still has the inner role which needs to dissolve too in order to reach the transpersonal stage.

I don't think that consciousness is located in the physical body. In Indian spiritual traditions they talk about several layers of different bodies. And Rupert Sheldrake has proposed that the shape of the body is governed by a morphic field. I will make it simple and combine all that into an energy body. And consciousness interfaces with the energy body. And as a first guess I assume that at the personal stage our energy bodies are disconnected from each other and at the transpersonal stage the energy bodies are connected between each other and with the environment. And even in the HeartMath video they talked about the energy heart and not just the physical heart. And since the energy heart is a part of the energy body, I will examine the whole energy body and not just the heart. Is consciousness shared between all people, even at the personal stage? My answer is yes, because consciousness is an undivided whole which means it's connected to the infinite unmanifested which is the one reality. So only one consciousness, always. And the material world, including the energy body, is just duality forms experienced in consciousness.

I will experiment with heart to heart connections! But I don't want to post the results on the internet. Because first of all, it could be false results that will just be misleading and secondly, even if they are real results describing them using concepts might actually be counterproductive and just make myself and others blocked by a conceptual layer. I can however post about information that I find useful on the internet. For example the HeartMath Institute has done much research about heart connections.