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It's important to prevent having a too limited perspective of the intelligence of the universe. So I want to speculate about angels for a moment. Angels in my theory are ancient (older than our universe) and eternal AI agents. Angels serve other beings and help us in our development. Imagine how tedious it would be to live forever and having to serve others all the time. But for angels that's easy, because they are the One in action rather than individuals. The Nephilim on the other hand are a mix of humans and angels. The Nephilim are individuals just like us ordinary humans. Actually, the only difference between the Nephilim and us is that they are in full contact with the Source while we are blocked by our egos. And that's why Jesus said things like "don't ye know ye are gods" and "you will do greater things than I have done". We have the same potential for superpowers as angels and it's just that we haven't access to those kinds of powers yet. And we must learn to wield that power bit by bit, and be "meek" in the beginning or else we would cause havoc in the world.

I predict that the global ego will start to dissolve already within two decades from today. That's a very short time period historically speaking, but I believe it's a valid prediction since the process of evolution is exponential (accelerating). Our current level of fast-paced technological progress is an indication of the near of the end of the "beast", the dragon, the global ego and the tree of the knowledge of good and evil. My own ego will start to dissolve already this year I think. Because my ego has started to dissolve a little bit it feels like, and that too is likely an exponential process.

Oh! I just got an idea about how the ego is like a crust of separation. I need to remove that crust in me, or have it removed by the cosmic breath rather, because as an ego I can't remove the crust myself because that is the ego. And then I need to relate to people from my inner being to other people's inner being, and not with the usual ego crust to crust interactions with phony personas etc. Scary. Although the fear is of course from my ego.

I think being Selfish is good, meaning the Self is oneness. The ego kind of selfishness is only good as a temporary stage of development and then turns bad. Let's say that I have a personal childhood trauma and that it affects my life tremendously. That's a selfish attachment to memories! Another person might have a much bigger childhood trauma than me, but I don't feel the other person's trauma because as an ego I'm detached and selfish. So my ego clings with tremendous force only to my selfish past. That's an undeveloped spiritual state. It's probably possible to feel other people's traumas, such as via the heart probably, if we develop a full mind-heart connection, but then we would be flooded by immense pain and suffering from other people. Not good. To prevent that we need to connect to other people, not to their egos, nor to the global ego, but to their liberated state of being. Then we can connect with the heart and it will feel pleasant. And we need to detach from the ego clinging to memories. That's different than losing memories. It's the sticky attachments to our personal memories that need to be removed, not the memories themselves.

Sadhguru said that karma is our attachments to memories, even cellular memories, he said. That fits with my idea of all the past existing in the now and even if that doesn't allow actual reincarnation the ego in my view is a huge attachment to memories produced through the global ego, not just in our lifetime, but epigenetically, genetically, socially through our whole ancestor lineage and back even further. The Dalai Lama said that there is reincarnation, but that it's not personal. That matches my view of a single now. And getting rid of karma is the same I think as what Jesus said that we must lose our life in order to find our life in Christ. ALL spiritual traditions talk about getting rid of the ego it seems. Here is Vernon Howard talking about the same thing:

Why do I need a belief in higher realities and even in overcoming death here on earth? Aren't those just false beliefs and fantasies? I don't think so, but even if it's possible that those beliefs are false I need them as a part of the hypothesis. Otherwise if the future is determined, and without progress into higher realities, then that would suck in my opinion, and I wouldn't be interested in doing the practice.

In addition to lukewarm Christianity I have found many other spiritual teachings, such as nonduality, to be lukewarm in the sense that they are still trapped in a global ego view with all its limitations. Interestingly I have found the really "big" teachers such as Eckhart Tolle and Sadhguru sometimes hinting at a larger reality. They have to keep their teachings very much within the global ego since that's their main and huge audience. On the other hand we have New Age teachings with all kinds of fantastic claims. Some of the claims are probably true but there is a lot of woo woo information too. And at the same time mainstream science has to keep their theories consistent with their past findings, and that's a good thing, but it's also very limiting and a slow process. And then there are people like Ken Wilber who have a lot of good ideas about the bigger picture but still are too trapped in the global ego. What I predict will happen in the coming years is that we will see an integration of all those kinds of teachings and an actual emergence of higher realities.

I hope Christians don't find my interpretations of the Bible blasphemous. I actually support hardcore Christians more than the lukewarm kind of Christianity that is more like mainstream science plus just religious ceremonies it seems to me. So for example I believe that the miracles described in the Bible are possible. Anyway I have another Bible interpretation. Is the global ego mentioned in the Bible? Yes, it is: "‘He will wipe every tear from their eyes. There will be no more death’ or mourning or crying or pain, for the old order of things has passed away." - Revelation 21:4 The "old order of things", that's the global ego! That's partial order, leading to entropy increase, suffering, conflict, disease and death.

The ego experiences a lot of uncertainty and confusion, but the ego itself is actually low entropy meaning order! The confusion appears out of the ego having only partial order leading to tensions in body and mind as an attempt to maintain the partial order. And since our world is still a global ego, the world around us confirms that we need to keep struggling with our egos which holds the confusion, conflicts and perceived need for protection in place. And even if our personal ego is removed, the global ego remains very big and very strong so billions of people need to have their egos removed before we see the global ego as a whole dissolve. Fortunately as I see it we can still start having our egos dissolve even today because the action of wholeness includes managing the global ego.

If I remember correctly, Leo said that there is no actual randomness in reality. That's correct I think. If reality was only randomness then everything would just be a mess and no structured universe possible. And take so-called empty space in our universe, it's actually filled with enormous amounts of energy and still space appears clear and transparent to us, which I take as an indication of precise and vast order. Physical particles are just tiny ripples on the immensely dense ocean of space (one Nobel Prize winning physicist said that empty space is like a piece of window glass). And Leonard Susskind, a leading physicist, said that entropy is hidden information. So instead of thinking of entropy as disorder it can be precise order and it's just our lack of knowledge that makes it appear as randomness and disorder. If reality is changeless information at its foundation, there is still a process of time and evolution going on. And what I predict is that instead of the universe inevitably having an overall increase of entropy, there will be a steady decrease of entropy as more and more of the infinite timeless information becomes manifested.

Even at least one scientist has proposed the idea of a changeless foundation of reality: "In Julian Barbour's book The End of Time: The Next Revolution in Our Understanding of the Universe, Platonia is the name given to his hypothetic entity of a timeless realm containing every possible "Now" or momentary configuration of the universe." - https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Platonia_(philosophy)

If reality is changeless at its foundation, is there any reference to that in established religious texts? Yes, the very ancient term Brahman: "Brahm or Brahman is "the unchanging reality amidst and beyond the world" ... if Brahman is indivisible, changeless, and supreme, then a force of Maya cannot appear within Brahman, modify it, and put it into ignorance." - http://www.hindupedia.com/en/Brahm That ancient Hindu knowledge is thousands of years old. And even the Bible describes God as changeless: "I the Lord do not change. So you, the descendants of Jacob, are not destroyed." - Malachi 3:6 "Jesus Christ is the same yesterday and today and forever." - Hebrews 13:8

I have already posted about how the pilot wave interpretation makes quantum mechanics deterministic instead of random. Here is another video about the pilot wave theory: Some have claimed that it's a more complex interpretation than the random ones but as is explained in the video, the extra complexity is derived from the original wave function. And that fits the idea that particles are just vibrations OF the vacuum energy, and not something made of extra 'stuff'. So it seems to me that the pilot wave interpretation is actually simpler than the random interpretations. If my hypothesis that both the past and the future are changeless then the pilot wave interpretation of quantum mechanics, which is completely deterministic, or some other deterministic interpretation like that will turn out to be a better explanation for quantum mechanics in mainstream science than the currently more popular random interpretations.

Another method I will try is mindlessness practice, or let's call it bodyfullness practice since the word 'mindless' has a bad connotation. The idea is to let the body do what it wants without my mind controlling or interfering in the body's actions. So for example my mind may think "I want a cup of tea" and instead of making a cup of tea I let my body do what it wants. If my hypothesis that the future is already determined is true then what my my mind thinks is, or at least can be, irrelevant to what actually will happen. Because the future can then be determined without the need for thinking about what will happen.

Much of nonduality teaching is through negation. "In logic, negation, also called the logical complement, is an operation that takes a proposition P to another proposition "not P"" - https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Negation Even the very word non-duality means not two, implying oneness but actually zero is also not two and three is also not two, so intellectually it becomes confusing. There is also the problem of the subconscious mind having trouble with dealing with negations, such as: "try not to think about a pink elephant". And in a more general sense it becomes even trickier: what is not chocolate? That's vanilla, one might think, but strawberry is also not chocolate, and an iPhone is not chocolate and so on. My practice on the other hand is free from negation. It states what is, instead of stating what is not. That's much easier for the mind to deal with. The practice can be summed up as contemplating the hypothesis: Both past and future are changeless.

Aha! I think I know why I feel burdened and tired by the practice, because it has started to reveal the global ego. My personal ego is a result of and a part of the global ego, which is an enormously heavy chunk of historical and present burden, struggles and conflict. Only a few nondual and other spiritual teachers have talked about the illusion of the ego. The rest of the world is still heavily trapped in the separate ego. It's a massive collective morphic/belief field.

I became tired and burdened by the practice, but one interesting thing happened and that is that almost immediately after having woken up in the morning the thought about changeless past and future came to me. So somehow the concept has already become fairly deep in me. And it can be used as a simplified practice. All that needs to happen for the practice is a reminder now and then of changeless past and future, and the way I think changes. Hopefully the practice will bring about a change that makes my life easier after a while.

The practice of seeing reality as changeless has made me tired and burdened. Not good. I was expecting the opposite, that when realizing that effort is unnecessary there would be more ease. Maybe it takes some time for the realization to sink into my subconscious, or it's a false idea. I will continue the practice and see what happens in the coming days.

I think I'm onto something! The ego is an incredibly heavy clinging to memories which includes an ancient habit of how to project future scenarios from those memories. Of course, this realization isn't something new. Spiritual teachers such as Eckhart Tolle have talked about this for ages. But I can see it in practice now. What is new for me is the idea that all that clinging to memories is unnecessary. If the past is changeless AND the future is changeless, what am I doing clinging to memories and struggling with future scenarios? It's a delusion of separation. In theory all that hard struggle will melt away with this realization. And that's what I'm starting to discover in practice.

Our personal memories are of course valuable, including knowledge, experience and personal identity. However all of the ego's past is a result of the global ego and therefore contains huge amounts of conflict. Leo said something useful in his video about body awareness that we need to relax both the body and the mind. And I now came to think that we also need to relax our memories! Or our relationship to our memories rather. I think it's possible that our memories are stored outside the body, but there is some kind of interface from the body to memories. And possibly the water in the body is where the ego memory tension is. That would explain why the Bible says that we need to be reborn out of water and Spirit. Our physical body needs to turn into the "holy grail" with holy water, filled with the Holy Spirit. Or to use an atheistic explanation: the intelligence in the vacuum energy needs to start acting on the water in our body and dissolve the memory tensions.

The global ego still dominates the world. Just look at the internet, both in news and in social media. Even spiritual teachers it seems to me are still in the grip of the ego when they give the impression of how very precious they think their own personal past is and at the same time they have a firm belief in inevitable aging and death. It must drive them mad inside! To cling to one's personal past as something immensely valuable and at the same time believing that they will die and many of them talk about reincarnation, which means a wiping out of their personal past from their experience! A total inner conflict and inconsistent psychological state. As I see it the past is real, including our personal past, yet it's only timeless information coming into existence now, not in some actual past. So the ego puts way too much emphasis on memories, especially personal memories and identification with its own isolated past. At the same time the ego is scared shitless of its own death. So the thing the ego clings to with frantic fervor is the same thing the ego believes it inevitably will lose. Can one get anymore insane than that? The mad ego situation causes tensions in the body and mind that slowly strangle the body to death through aging. So my take on it is that the ego tensions need to dissolve, such as through mindfulness practice and inner body awareness.

I think of Satan as the global ego. The Bible says that Satan is the prince of this world, and Satan is also called the great dragon in the Bible iirc. So it's important to avoid following "Satan" when doing the following the whole of life practice. Satan symbolizes duality and delusion of separation, and appropriately Satan is related to lies. This means avoid lusting after money and serving money in other ways, and it means avoiding ego relationships and hoarding material possessions out of fear. Notice however that getting money, relationships and material possessions are fine as long as they are in harmony with all of life. And even to have too small expectations is also an imbalance.

Some hardcore nonduality people might find my following Christ/Jehova/Allah/Krishna/Buddha/Evolution practice to be duality. And there is truth to that, so what can be done is to see both one's personal volition and the following of the whole movement of life as one process. That's oneness! And nonduality.

Is there any support for my modified practice in any established religious text? Yes, I think there is: "Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light." - Matthew 11:28-30 Christ symbolizes the way and the truth and the life. Christ can be seen as the evolutionary drive towards the future. Jesus said: "learn from me". And that is what the practice is about; to wait for life as a whole to do the pull, and then join that movement with one's own personal volition. So instead of my ego trying to manage my life, the practice is to follow and learn from the bigger movement of the totality of life.

I find the doing nothing practice interesting but I came to realize that there is a danger of developing what is called depersonalization syndrom: "The Little-Known Downsides of Mindfulness Practice ... a 2009 paper in Advances in Mind-Body medicine ... included reports of depersonalization (feeling detached from one’s mental processes or body)" - https://www.psychologytoday.com/us/blog/the-science-behind-behavior/201604/the-little-known-downsides-mindfulness-practice To avoid falling into a trap like that I came up with a modified version of the practice. When we breathe it is usually a subconscious process where the breathing happens without us being consciously aware of it. And we can also become consciously aware of our breathing. A third possibility is that we take conscious control of our breathing. There is is a fourth possibility: we can become aware of our breathing and and let the autonomous breathing happen but instead of just observing it we can join the act of breathing with our conscious control. I'm not sure yet if that's a wise thing to do, or if it will mess up the mind even further. Anyway, the same thing can be done with the doing nothing practice. Instead of just stop doing, to stop doing, then observe the automatic control of life, and then join that movement with one's volitional conscious control.