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Our memories are precious. The mistake however the ego makes is to believe in its sense of separation and therefore all our memories become contaminated by a false view. And our thoughts are related to our memories, even the sense of "me". In traditional mindfulness the practice is to observe one's thoughts nonjudgmentally. It's possible to take mindfulness one step further by recognizing that all thoughts from the ego are contaminated. And the goal of the more advanced practice is therefore to judge all our thoughts as a disease basically. And let the whole stream of thinking dissolve so that the mind can be healed.

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Every choice we make is the correct choice. Even our evil choices and deeds? Yes. See it from the bigger cosmic perspective. It's a wholeness evolving. Without the nasty choices, the whole would be screwed up, to the point of existence collapsing. Can't happen. So think of your bad choices as actually being good and necessary choices. Because they are. Still, there is as I see it a clear distinction between good and evil in the sense that evolution is a move towards more good.

Personal relationships are easy to manage. In theory. It's just ONE relationship from the individual point to the rest of existence. That means a relationship to everything in one's experience. And all parts are equally important. One's relationship with a blade of grass is as significant as the relationship with one's significant other. How can that be? A fricken blade of grass? Yes. Consider the amount of time and attention you spend on the blade of grass compared to your significant other. It's a huge difference! So even though your relationship to the grass is equal there is much more attention given to other relationships. In that sense they are not equal. And that's fine. Problems arise when the ego sorts out certain relationships as being more important than others in an ultimate sense. Then things get screwed up.

Is resurrection of dead people possible? In my view, yes. The past is timeless information in the now. So for example Michael Jackson exists as information now, but he is also an eternal soul which is simply a unique reference point, and in the future that soul may experience itself as a new body here on earth. That is similar to reincarnation, but resurrection happens without the need for biological birth. Actually, my theory allows, in theory, us to get resurrection (glorified) bodies right now! And it's just the habit of the global ego that prevents that from happening and forcing our bodies to age and die. My theory dismisses the (very commonly held belief even among spiritual teachers) idea that aging and death are inevitable.

Wow. Sadhguru described the individual soul of a person basically exactly the same as in my theory. From about 13 minutes into the video: "It [the soul of a person] is as small as it can be, as anything can be": https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vn0c6ya6w58&t=13m14s I defined each eternal individual soul as a unique point, and Sadhguru said as small as anything can be. That's a point! Essentially. And probably the same as The Point of Existence by A. H. Almaas that Zigzag posted earlier. And Sadhguru made an excellent description of what the person is (I think he meant ego) as a mass of accumulation. That's the actor, and if the actor has the limitations of the person, the act will also be limited, he said. "Is there any one place where we can locate this person?" Sadhguru asked. And he said: "There is no such person anywhere." and later: "You are already totally confused about your existence." Amazing, confusion is what I called the core of the ego. Of course it can be wrong to completely rely on external authorities, but when they describe things that match my own ideas I see that as a strength as they become aligned with the existing spiritual knowledge. Actually, what I call "my" ideas are most likely things I have picked up here and there from others, but anyway.

I just realized that it's possible to think of one's past memories and future in a my lighter and leaner way than with the usual and extremely heavy and clunky clinging to personal memories that the ego does. I also found that it's sort of possible to live without thinking when the personal memories become lighter. Especially with the idea that my personal memories may have false emotional content attached to them because of the belief in separation. Actually ALL my memories have false separation content in them. "Forget the former things; do not dwell on the past. See, I am doing a new thing! Now it springs up; do you not perceive it? I am making a way in the wilderness and streams in the wasteland." - Isaiah 43:18-19

I mentioned that Sadhguru said that he can use his mind as a hand and often isn't thinking at all! Eckhart Tolle has said the same thing, such as in the beginning of this video: And it fits my idea that in theory we should be able to live without having to think at all. I even have the idea that thinking isn't even necessary for practical purposes, and that a higher intelligence can deal with things like planning and managing life automatically.

My theory says that memories are indestructible. That's similar to what Nassim Haramein said, that all memories are stored in the vacuum structure, something like that. And even Leonard Susskind, one of the top mainstream physicists said that the deepest physical law he knows of is that information is indestructible. What makes memories come and go then depends on what consciousness is focusing on. That can be a great relief where the mind relaxes in relation to personal memories. And the future can be seen as memories not yet experienced. The future too is indestructible! All of reality is indestructible information being observed by consciousness. The mistake the ego makes is to believe that it is separate from the indestructible information, when in reality the ego is a part of the same one reality. I will experiment with shifting my attention to experience reality as one unit. If the theory is correct then the ego perspective can be recognized as being false.

The core of the ego is not the poised personal facade. Nor is the core of the ego the angry and hard protective wall. Nor is the core of the ego the vulnerable and fearful inner sense of self. The core of the ego is confusion! And the confusion is a result of the ego being a false sense of separation. And the separation is a belief. So we can use traditional mindfulness and observe the confusion in us until it vanishes.

I think it's fine to feel glee at non-serious hurt and defeat. That's for me free from feeling of shame and guilt. However there could be deep subconscious sadism in all egos! That's a scary possibility, but instead of investigating that, it will automatically be removed along with the ego. So I'm not trying to dissect my own ego too much.

@Zigzag Idiot Yes, it's pretty scary! I heard Vernon Howard talking about how all of us who still are trapped in our egos are devils, evil, monsters, insane and probably even worse descriptions than that, haha. At first I didn't really understand what Vernon meant but I'm starting to see it now. It seems to me that it's the ego's constant need for protection that causes the insane state and prevents real social interactions. And with false social relationships come manipulations, win-lose, lies and conflict, and a constant state of fear, frustration, uncertainty and anger. And so when other people are hurt, being diminished, humiliated and lose, the ego sees itself as winning (because the other is pushed down) and also elimination of threat (because to the ego everything is a threat). So it's easy to see how an instinctual emotion of pleasure has developed out of those situations.

It's easy for the ego to slip into the win-lose trap. Then an enemy or opponent is always needed, or the ego gets confused. Look at the news for example, haha. And the more the ego slips into that mindset, the more isolated it becomes, until the only social interaction the ego can have is a phony facade hiding an entity that is waiting for the other person to get hurt, which is the only enjoyment the deeply fallen ego understands. Talk about hideous monster interactions behind pretty and smiling faces. And the monsters come out during things like divorces with legal battles and all that mess. My new practice is to reject all those kinds of relationships. Except for example the news can be taken as entertainment with all the conflicts. But I will reject all serious kinds of ego relationships.

New Age believers often talk about the need for "opening our heart". That's probably true! BUT, the ego is a fragmented state so I suspect that if the heart would open in our separate ego state it would cause horrible pain. So then what is needed is to let one's heart open in a sensing of wholeness. I will experiment with this.

Tension might be a secondary effect and not a cause of the ego. For example if the ego seeks to protect itself all the time, then that likely causes a numbing out of the body, and not tensions, because Bruce Lipton said that cells wall themselves off, and that's a disconnect, more close to numbness than a tension. So a new practice I came to think of is to feel everything as a wholeness, including emotions, sense perceptions, feelings in the body and thoughts. The ego results in, and is, a fragmentation, so a wholeness sensing practice should lead to a liberated Self.

Hmm... As a speculation I came to think that when we become liberated then people who are still trapped in their ego will experience us as friendly because the liberated Self includes everybody, even people with separate egos. And then even the usually defensive and threatening people will change temporarily through resonance. Of course they will revert back to being nasty and fearful when the resonance disappears.

I have started notice feelings from other people, but it's basically only hatred! That must be some hatred in me vibrating with other people. The pain body as Eckhart Tolle calls it. I will see if it can be transformed into pleasant feelings instead when I work on removing more tensions in me. The tensions are what the anger resonates with I assume.

There are tensions in the body and tensions in the mind. Then what about emotional tensions? Are there any emotional tensions for the ego? Yes, very much so. For example anger is the agitation of emotional tension. And irritation, such as hearing a disturbing sound and very agitating emotions can be felt. And even for the lazy peace practice, it can be challenging to to do it fully because of mental, physical and even emotional tensions. When there is agitation that's neither a lazy nor a peaceful state but an inner struggle. Still, the mental intent to be lazy and the expectation of tensions to dissolve is useful for me. It gives my practice a direction and my hope is that it will produce actual and permanent results. I think that the practice has already produced some real results, but it's hard to tell yet since the mind can easily deceive itself.

Another thing with great expectations is that it's fine for the ego to have them, because with my hypothesis the future is determined and with accelerating evolution in the form of progress. So what the ego believes ultimately can't change the future, but theoretically having too limited expectations may cause limitations. And when having no expectations then the old subconscious expectations will kick in and they are very limiting.

@Zigzag Idiot I have heard several teachers, including Alan Watts, describing the ego as tensions in the body. That seems correct to me. Leo talked about the need for relaxing tensions both in the body and in the mind. That's another important insight I think. But I suspect that the tensions are deeper than one might first assume. They go back not only into one's personal past and into the development of the fetus, but also thousands of years of social conditioning of humanity and millions of years of biological evolution. Not only that, my guess is that the tensions even are scalar forces of vacuum energy. That's astronomical pressure. I think one should have great expectations, larger than the usual expectations. Or else the beliefs will set limits and risk blocking the progress.

One curious thing is that there are probably no truly liberated people on the internet. Because that's like an entirely new species! Sure, the liberated people will still look like humans, yet remarkably and noticeable different I think. And I mean fully liberated people, including their biology, and not just a mental liberation. Chiefly, the social behavior is different among liberated people I think, because they are one Self, not separate egos. We are unable to interact on that level when we are still trapped in our egos.

My lazy peace practice hasn't worked yet, but it has showed me more tensions such as in the guts. I will practice some more today of doing nothing and still expect to feel inner peace.

If we are an adult man we might want to sound tough to avoid sounding like a little girl. And if we are an adult woman we might want to sound like a little girl to avoid sounding like a harsh man. It's of course a completely ridiculous charade but it's fine as long as we recognize that the vulnerable inner self we try to protect is not a dragon egg but a phoenix about to rise from the ashes of our ego.

Then how to deal with personal relationships with both people we know and others when we are tense? Don't we need to lie and manipulate? Sometimes a huge lie; at other times small lies such as a phony smile. How can we protect ourselves if we drop all that tense ego defense? The answer is: just use autopilot mode! Ego relationships are what we want to transcend, so let life as a whole take care of them. And the automatic responses and reactions may sometimes even include lying if necessary. Without the need for ego self defense. Here is Vernon Howard describing ego relationships:

Sigh. Removing attachments to memories that's again like "no attachment", another negation. A better view is to think of our memories as having ice on them which needs to melt. Along with the physical tensions in the body.