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Ego boost. People know who I am with weed? No mercy given to the ego, total surrender is the only way. The Real Ego has been trying to bring itself back to it's ego-awareness. Today it got 40 bullets inside it from and by God. The war was already lost once I first became conscious of God and that God is I. The Devil aka the Ego is of course God, that realization however won't stop it from trying to come back to it's falsehood with all the power it has. But I am not fighting it, God-awareness, the God-Self is fighting it. Fighting with itself. And I already know who is going to win.

You can do it bro, you know where to go ?

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This. ? There is no duality in God-Awareness or in God-Mind. The mind is emptied, ego-awarness is annihilated and replaced by God-awareness. To arrive to this realization is to transcend the ego-mind and the entire realm of imagination. All that remains is.... ?

All I know is that I'm absorbed and immersed in God-awareness 24/7. Everyday I die to God, to myself. I'm not denying the existence of the ego, I'm not being arrogant, I'm simply being honest by speaking from my personal direct experience. To be honest again, I know what the ego is and it is not permanently dead. It can still come up here and now, but by God's Light it's seen instantly and discarded. I'm dealing with another kind of ego, beyond the old ego and the spiritual ego.

Nothing can seperate you from God because you are already God. God is Here and Now, literally. You are the Apsolute Creator of all creations, but you will not understand this before you become conscious of the God. Anyway, you must do the work yourself. All my words are dualistic in nature, they are only pointers to something that cannot be spoken or writen about, it can only be made aware and conscious of by yourself in your direct aware and conscious experience. ??

There is no such thing as "my consciousness", there is One Consciousness. You are the God who created Everything and you are simultaneously all of your Creation. The angels, the jinns, shaitan. It is all You. You are everything, you are God. So who are you to pray to other than yourself? I'm conscious of God and that God is I. I can tell you that all scriptures are writen by man. Drop the false belief that you are separate from God. This requires that you go within. Consciousness must be raised.

Only I as Being which is identical to Awareness and God exists. I am the doer and creator of everything. All duality and relativity is I. Non-duality is I. I am Everything. There is only I. Those who are conscious of this will understand. Those who are unconscious of this, still identify with the ego which is really just a low frequency of consciousness. Thus, awareness of awarness as it truly is cannot happen. Consciousness must be raised.

@Angelite "There are good-natured, beautiful maidens. Dark-eyed sheltered in pavilions. Untouched beforehand by man or jinn." Only for me ? Now I know why my father prays 5 times a day ? Why I should too. I cannot deny that blessing from God. If only I could pray to something other than myself ??

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#nosuchthingasrandom ? This Surah is mostly about God's flawless design and creation. Describing it and then asking "Which, then, of your Lord's blessings do you deny?"

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??❤️ I recommend reading Ramana Maharshi's book "Who am I?" It's a very good book. If you have any questions regarding Self-inqury and stuff like that pm me and I will try to help as best as I can ?

All this forum is duality words. All words are only pointers to That which cannot be pointed at, that which is unspeakable, beyond and prior to the mind itself. Become conscious and aware of what you are. All questions will then vanish like thin air.

@Dylan Page This. Do the work bro, see where it takes you. All you have is direct experience. Find out what direct experience is and what is aware of it. ??

Rupert Spira is clearly God-realized. I have known this for a long time. I recommend watching: AH Almaas is great ?

Science and scientists are God, this is obvious if you conscious that God exists and is Everything. But science will never find God. God can only be found within the scientists, not outside of them. Philosophy is just mental mastrubation, delusion after delusion. Direct experience, self-inqury, meditation is the way to Actuality/Truth aka God. And some weed on top of that ?

The map is the ego-mind. The territory is God-awareness where awareness is aware of itself as Everything, the Only Existent, God. The ego-mind must be seen trough as the illusion that it is. The ego-mind includes all concepts, identification and beliefs about yourself. See if they hold ground in direct experience. They cannot. They are totally empty, nothing, meaningless, conditioned, simply false. You are God right now looking through ?.

True ?? One must go full circle and become conscious that the doubter aka the ego is also none but God playing hide and seek like @tedens said. The doubter will then die and the Self-knowing God-Self will shine, aware and conscious of itself as God.

From personal experience, doubt arises from the false conditioned "I, ego". Even due it was obviously clear, something in me would still doubt. What I did was to ignore it out of existence and focus on direct experience. All doubt vanished when God saw through my eyes that day, I will never forget it. Now I know what the doubter is. The only evidence of God is Yourself, your direct aware experience. It goes even beyond that, but now we are stepping at unspeakable ground.

God is not lonely. God is totally Alone as God is Everything. Emptiness and the void is included, not seperated from God.

Yes, it is. Nothing can be compared to it. I feel like the more I become aware of God, the more involved I am in life. Involved from a place of love. In between duality and non-duality, in between the world and God, Love is there. God-realization without Love is not yet complete. You are not yet complete. Only when Love is embodied are you complete.

Yes, it had colours. It had several different movement patterns.