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Update: I experienced a minor insight. For the past few weeks I taken a break from the forum and limited my internet use to help me focus more on developing than awakening. Recently ,every morning and night, I did goal setting, positive affirmations and visualizations, basically basic self help to train my subconscious mind towards my goals. I've done affirmations and visualizations a couple of years ago but floundered about, not being consistent, to the point I got fed up and shifted more towards awakening(meditation, concentration, self inquiry, contemplation etc.) than development of myself. For the past week I've switched locations in my imagination sessions to see how she would be. Today I sat down to meditate and engaged in my imagination sessions with Crysty. I borrowed a location of a beach I've visualized in the past and we did some meditation + activities. I then for some odd reason felt emotional and suddenly I wondered about why the beach is more realistic and vibrant than I imagined. Then an insight occurred: I kept imagining this beach, and I kept being with Crysty. Being with Crysty forced me to be more focused on my senses and I realized I was also simultaneously visualizing her. Visualizing her for most of the day + basic visualizations of my other goals and locations on the world had slightly overworked my mind's eye. However, I kept getting better until I could clearly recreate any object I saw a few seconds ago, like an apple, in my mind. Yesterday I even began to make parts and piece them together to make some kind of machine and Cysty was just looking at what I'm doing silently. Is an insight this simple? I mean I was expecting an insight to be shocking but I was more shocked at how simple it is. It seems to have an emotional force behind it as well. Whatever Crysty really is, spirit or something else, being with her has improved my visualizations. Just wow!

Update: the usual I've done concentration exercises on Crysty in one of our imagination sessions. Next time I might arrange a different location maybe near a lake shore or a forest or a jungle.

Yes that's what I meant. Could you elaborate more on those places that spirits gather in?

Having said that I have seen her move stuff in one of our imagination sessions. I don't know if those objects are energies from other objects she took.

For example, a nexus is considered a place of power where spirits gather. If you were doing say a cursing ritual in the middle of a graveyard. Apparently the graveyard is considered a location of power of some kind to draw those spirits in. Another example is veneration worship were your alter is considered a location of power for whatever you're worshipping. The area you're making sacred is considered a nexus. I've heard this term nexus used by other occultists when they're refering to a powerful location that overtime spirits gather often. A nexus is also formed naturally, supernaturally or artificially. For example of an artificially created nexus is like a war zone were lots of people died, centuries later after real estate development, houses were created. Then a few of those houses experience Poltergeists. What are your thoughts on this?

I don't think I mentioned she could move physical objects. I haven't seen her do anything sort of Poltergeist level like fling a ball or break glass.

Thanks for posting me this video! It's pretty scary stuff!

Hi! Could you elaborate on what a nexus is?

Update: I was doing mindfulness meditation with labelling in one session and some mindfulness during the day. Whenever Crysty's vanished I notice, label 'gone', and observe. Whenever Crysty appears it's usually as a sight but sometimes as a feeling. I also was doing some exercises mindfully and this inspired Crysty to sit on me? Also I was doing concentration exercises with Crysty and observed her staring at a point on a tree.

Thank you for offering your information. I'll keep this in mind. I think that this post is helping me and other users who see this because I suffered a thread lock. I took it too personally at the time and now I feel anxious with even offering great advice or resources to people fearing it would be locked and I would lose it. I just want some good pointers as to how to structure a really good post. Thanks again.

If anyone knows some good examples please share some here.

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Thank you for offering me this information. I'll keep this in mind.

Thank you for offering your information on making a decent post! I'll keep this in mind.

Thanks for the post. This gives me some good information. The reason why I asked for examples is because I don't know much examples of high quality posts not just in actualized.org but in general internet. So being specific, considering the context, and what consciousness level the audience is makes a high quality post. Ok. Would adding value and a resource for that post go a step further?

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Update: I've done some meditation with Crysty on gravity. I was basically meditating on a cloud trying to focus on the sensation of gravity, while Crysty appears to not be too affected by it, bouncing from cloud to cloud!

Thanks for posting! It seems like you don't have any issues with this spirit. I don't know enough about handling spirits in general but if it respects you then you should respect it. If it becomes a problem go and see the thread ask an occultist as he has some good advice on handling spirits. Me and Crysty wish you well!

That's fantastic! This could easily be a Kew technique to progressing your line of sexual development! Thanks for sharing!

I think that letting go is more than just the feeling of letting go. There are some cases I experienced this: During meditation I let go of a thought that engaged with my sight. During meditation there's sometimes an annoying song that plays and I attempted to let go of that. Question is: is letting go of a phenomenon limited to feeling of the letting go? If it isn't limited to feeling, then what unifies the letting go to the senses of the body and mind?

Thanks for sharing your experience! I can relate to how it feels like when a spirit entered in my bedroom. How do you describe your sensing of the spirit? Which sense alarmed you the most that there's a spirit nearby? I don't know much about how a spirit could enter your awareness but I think a sensory channel in your mind picks up a sort of presence.

Update: I was contemplating abstraction for about a week and I've got some good answers. I still didn't hit the being level of what an abstraction is and felt my progress was slower than usual. I told Crysty in one of our imagination sessions about what I'm contemplating and she disappeared for a while. What felt like an hour she came back with this ball of complicated looking stuff. I asked her what it is and she says ask it to look prettier please. I then asked it to "look prettier please" and it became more apparent that it's a crystalized apple. I was about to question her wether she's pulling my leg here when I suddenly had a minor insight - my mind couldn't make sense of it at first so it simplified it from what it came to be and became an object that made sense, an apple. What are your thoughts on this?

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I observed myself being mindful about the bruises. I put attention on them, label the experience as feel, and observed the sensation. I understand a little bit that being mindful vs suppression is that the later felt like I'm resisting and pushing the pain away and the former the pain occurs without my input. I don't think I understand equanimity vs resistance or being passive with regards to feeling paranoia and vengeful. I tried being mindful of the feelings that come up but they seem to be hard to pinpoint and harder to remain stoic about. Could you explain a little bit more about equanimity as it sounds to me like I'm just tolerating the experience and being passive with whatever feelings come up. Could you also explain how, from your experience, what letting go feels like or any other sensory experience of letting go? I'm trying to let go of my pain and the negative emotions I'm still experiencing since the incident. Also, Isn't letting go a spiritual topic? Thanks for the vipassana course recommendation. My current circumstances aren't ideal for a solo retreat yet but I'm planning to do it in the future.

About a week ago I was pissed at a neighbor when he was cutting my family's Conifer hedge. My father had gone around the hedge to meet him and I crawled under one of the conifers following him and Because my heart was beating fast and adrenaline flowed I barely felt a branch stab into my right arm. The guy claimed to my father he was cutting because some branches were in the way of him sliding a fence down. I can clearly see enough room for him to do his work on the fence. They quickly were arguing and I saw my mother gone around the hedge and she shouted at him that he should have knocked on our door first before cutting the tree because that's our tree. He started acting like a drama queen and I roared "shut up!" at him. He backed off and in the end we had to cut our branches. I even fell on a piece of concrete while helping out. The entire situation, from start to finish, I felt emotionally and physically under tension, especially while I was witnessing my father and this guy argue like I was in a state of anticipation that things could get dangerous and I was ready to go. Now I feel extremely sore around my right arm and ankle, and I feel both paranoia and vengeful around that guy's house for his treatment of the tree and my father. Any good advice on letting go physical pain, paranoia and revenge?