Danioover9000

Update: I've forced myself to stop masturbating and rode out the symptoms. I'm feeling better, only my heart, throat, and feverish skin to go. Thank you all for posts. @Quantum Toad Thanks, I'm reminded of something important again that I've forgotten.

I just want to know from other people who've masturbated before if they experienced any of the following I've experienced after ejaculation; Phantom pains, shivering, heavy head, strange tingling around the throat, heart palpitations/irregular heartbeat, slight cramping around naval and solar plexus, fatigue, and dry itchy eyes. Let me know if it's something serious.

Oh boy...

Hello all. I hope you've done the exercises listed above and have some good experiences and made you motivated to continue visualizing. For me, I've done them and found them easy, especially exercises 1, 3, and 4. I made 1 more challenging by drawing the tree I remembered seeing a couple of years ago before the neighbor chopped it down, with pencil, and visualizing myself walking around this tree I've drawn in 3d, with the graphite texture, color and smell still on it instead of a real-life tree, inside the picture itself. With 3, I just walked around my Japanese back garden, while the radio in the garage playing 90\s songs, I replayed dreamscape songs like 'Trance', Born to be wasted', 'You can do anything', and some songs from Three Days Grace and Luna Remix within my mind. I've worked on my visualization skills for so long it seems I have nearly forgotten how hard it really is. I once really struggled to mentally listen to a song while a song from an outside source was playing, and sometimes had blurs or wonky forms of mental pictures. Let's move on to section 1 of developing your visualization: mind's eye. For some, this is also referred to as the third eye chakra or Ajna chakra. Others would say it's the occipital lobes in the brain responsible for processing visual perception. Regardless, it is my belief that without a strong mind's eye, or even the existence of the mind's eye, you would be severely limited in your ability to achieve goals in your life. Not just in general parts of your life, but also when you want to go deeper with it. Some spiritual traditions use some practices, like Yantras or complex Mandalas, that targets your ability to see an object in your mind. There are even paranormal abilities/supernatural aspects related to the mind's eye, like clairvoyance or perceiving spirits. And so much more I can't cover them all here, but I hope I've piqued your interest. If you're interested in developing a tulpa, an imaginary close companion, then a strong mind's eye is important when, if you want to, to be able to superimpose their form onto your visual perception and see it move around in reality. I'll further elaborate on this advanced form of visualization later in the next stage, developing your tulpa, once you've worked through stage 1of developing your visualizations. However, if you don't resonate, that's ok. Just stage 1 of developing visualization is still useful for life. There are lots of options to develop later with a strong mind's eye, but if you still struggle to see mental images, they're blurry or lose color or lose resolution, then it's crucial you still work on identifying each visual weakness and do isolation training on each one. Before I list some new exercises, I would recommend picking up a drawing activity and/or board game like chess or Chinese Go as a leisure hobby and supplementary training for mental images. Because of these activities, I've progressed further with mental images. I've written instructions on the original post, so here are some changes: if you can do 5-10 minutes, increase by 5 minutes for each exercise (or 1 if you're really struggling), and please feel free to add another exercise appropriate to what you're working on, in this case, it's relevant to vision. However, if you wish, go multi-sensory on some exercises, but beware that you won't progress slightly faster than another that uses deliberate practice on each element of visualization. Exercise 1: Rippling water. Begin this exercise after a meditation session is complete, and your in a meditative state. Imagine, within your eye lid's darkness, a pond. Now imagine drops of water, on at a time, impacting the pond's surface, and follow each ripple created. Then gradually increase the rate of speed, and increase the volume of drops until you can visualize rainfall and clearly see each ripple on the pond. Now gradually slow time, taking in the flow of the raindrops and ripples until all is paused in time. Now, rewind the process slowly, and gradually increase to a comfy speed, while noting every raindrop and ripple reversing. Repeat this cycle 2-3 times or more if you want. Exercise 2: Burning leaves. Begin after a meditation session. In a meditative state, begin imagining an ember. From the ember, imagine the burning rope below it, then the puddle of liquid wax, and finally the rest of the candle and candle holder. now imagine a plate with a leaf. Pick it, set it onto the ember so that it starts to burn, and place it on the plate. Observe it burning until ashes. Now rewind time, at the same speed, and watch it closely until it stops at the point you placed it on the plate. Repeat, gradually adding leaves until you need a barrel to burn the bundles of leaves and un-burn them. Exercise 3: Cooking a salad. Begin after a meditation session. Imagine a pan lined with a thin layer of oil, and already heated enough to start cooking. Now visualize an already chopped-to-pieces melon, apple, grapes, and kiwi. Notice each fruit's colors, and slid them off of the cutting board and into the frying pan. The main thing to visualize is the burning of the fruits as you stir them every now and then and the changes to their colors, how the pigments darken. This is optional, but feel free to use multiple senses, including the cackling of the oil and water, different sweet-smelling aromas, how each piece of fruit feel like, emotionally, undergoing this transformation process, maybe regretting passing judgments onto other fruits with a different sense of humor, or maybe the apple is relieved to change appearance, or what it's like for fruits to have emotions, etc. Take it until all are roasted, and, you guessed it, rewind the entire process backward and forwards. Notice how the pigments lighten up with color. If you took the multi-sensory path, notice especially how the reversal affects the emotions. Exercise 4: Orbiting orbitals. Begin after a meditation session. In a meditative state, bring to mind a colored ball of vibrating energy. Imagine it moving in a sort of circular motion around you and sometimes in front of you. Then imagine a different colored ball, sharing a similar orbiting pattern to the first ball. Increase until you have about 4 or so balls around you. Now imagine when one ball touches the other, it shares it's coloring briefly, giving birth to a smaller colored ball with both parent's colors, blended well on some spots, and some not. Keep going until you can't keep track of the balls, then reserve time to any point in the middle of these colors manifesting similar colors and freeze time. To conclude, I want to tell you that visualizing isn't always easy, regardless if you're born gifted. I've disclosed this before years ago elsewhere, but I'm not that gifted with picture-perfect mental imagery and had a small degree of mental blindness. Furthermore, a decade or so ago, I've been in a near-fatal accident that made me partially blind on each eye, further making things difficult to see. I persisted anyway, despite the limitation of the scars on my central vision, to work on my mind's eye until I can confidently say for myself that I can visually, near-perfectly see, the objects and situations in my mind with near realistic depictions, despite my eye's limitation. So, even if you feel you don't resonate with what I offer and move on, I strongly urge you to not leave behind your strong will, conviction, and persistence. And regardless of other's opinions of tulpas I've heard in real life and internet, it's still a blessing to have been affected by this in my life, and I want to share this blessing because I've felt some benefits from it that could have a similar effect on those that are open-minded, and for those that had experienced similar things I've been through, and to possibly experience a deeper sense of empathy. For people that resonate, don't stop and continue working on yourself. Have a good week, and destiny is all!

@Osaid Not only is it a one for me, but there's the feel, smell, taste, and crunchy sound of an apple pie topped with sugar shavings and cream on the side. And all of this I can do despite my partial blindness on both eyes, which my mind can remarkably construct around. Regarding thoughts, why could thoughts be emotionally charging...and tasty?

@remember It's an amazing feeling to be able to communicate with entities, not just the ones outside of yourself, or of higher or different vibrations, but also with a Tulpa. For other entities besides Tulpae, I think increasing your ability to focus longer and deeper and including methods of mind stabilization are necessary for that kind of communication. It gets better. Not only can you discuss ideas with tulpas, but also discuss alternatives and improvements to any product or service. You can have also conversations with them for half an hour or more, and there's usually a stronger connection that allows a deeper and empathetic understanding as well. I love it when one does give a surprising alternative that's very creative, regardless if it's a hit or miss.

@modmyth Thank you for your participation! Good to know I'm not the only one improving visualization skills hardcore as well. My anticipation, and hope, for honing these visualization skills is to help most people stick to their goals a bit longer and re-commit when times are tough, along with developing creative visualizations as well. At the moment a specific end- goal, like 10, 20, 30 or so years in my own life is not definable yet to me, but in context to this journal, it would be to set a foundation to allow other users a more stable and effective way of better visualization and to serve as a guide for those who had similar experiences like I had, along with the following; interaction with Tulpa(e), creating, developing and managing whatever types of relationships with them, creating hyper-realistic locations at a large scale in mind, and hyper-realistic beings you can practice effectively with on any subject manner (socializing, brain-storming, shadow-boxing, etc...). Also, for me, besides further visual improvements, I want to understand what's really going on with my unusual circumstance, to understand this interesting field that is Tulpa, and to experience what some people in this field refer to as 'wonderlands', 'switching with a Tulpa', 'merging'. Also, to really push my limits with visualization, to really see if I could get more and more realistic with my visualizations. that one day I'm in a whole other world. There's so much more, but that's so far my main motivation for now. I sometimes do get the occasional waning and flickering, not so with seeing, hearing, and feeling, but with tasting, smelling, and shifting balance. Sometimes if I'm moving too fast and there are lots of head movement or in general body-movements, I tend to fall flat to the ground, and sometimes through it. I'll also add fixing the wonkiness that happens in visualization as a source of motivation too.

@remember Your welcome, and thank you for your participation. Also, thanks for the suggestion for a self-help book. I've dabbled with writing in the past, so this might be worth considering while I'm organizing this journal.

@Osaid You too? I can also visualize things almost to a High Definition standard, although I admit some hard work was involved. Mind sharing what that's like for you and if any work was involved what it's like?

@Camerong @remember @Consilience @Osaid @electroBeam I just started a journal about visualization, feel free to try out the exercises and share your experiences.

Also, depending on your visualization skills, you can focus on an object you construct in your mind and achieve the same if not similar state.

I've remembered reading something about the yogic path having mainly two paths: Celibacy, and celebration. The idea with celibacy is to renounce material pleasures gradually, and eventually one attains enlightenment. The other path is the path of celebration, where you celebrate more of that desire and keep increasing that celebration to the point you gain enlightenment. Both approaches aren't newbie advice but are worth considering.

Nice! I've experienced similar while staring at a corner of a room until it became vivid.

I hope you get out of this rut your in. Been through worse, so hang in there.

@Rasheed Has porn ruined Leo's life?

@SoonHei (Deep inhale)...10.

@PlayTheGame Life is full of paradoxes. For you to even see an object, your mind had to invert an image that your eyeball captures from light. Anyways, how are you doing so far with your DP/DR?

@ilyas dolliazal Hi there! I'm doing fine so far. We've had some progress since that time.

The ego runs as deep as the run in Spider's Solitaire.

I wouldn't recommend Datura to my enemies. That's how dangerous it is. Either Psilocybin mushroom for the visual hallucinations, or Salvia for understanding deeper psychosis in those patients. Angel's trumpet tea is probably enough. Thanks for correction.

@pluto What you just described is almost true. Depending on the energetic fields around the ego, that field repels/attracts certain entities. Interactions with natural/artificial substances can complicate these interactions further, and some substances can allow invocations of entities when taken on high concentrations ( machine elves on DMT, insectiods on Saliva and sentient locations on Datura). I wouldn't be surprised that one day, a synthetic man made substance, delirium or otherwise, could act like the behelit from Berserk, forcefully ripping open a gateway for a variety of entities to invoke fully into you, across many dimensions. And the sacrifice is you and your surroundings, for that many Insights to happen.

@andyjohnsonman That's ok, let yourself explore other options. If contemplating is putting too much tension and headache, go do letting go/ do nothing meditation. It isn't a long journey for nothing.

@mp22 You've raised a good point. I didn't noticed that before...

I voted neutral, but actually it's been quite good for me. I'm introverted and mostly keep to myself, and this year I isolated myself a bit more from people so I don't really freak out over the lock down here. I also have some OCD over cleanliness so it's weirdly normal for me to isolate and explore myself all over.

@andyjohnsonman That's good! The LSD trip acted like a preview to what your journey looks like later. It took something like LSD to briefly untangle these mental strips this 'I' clouds all over the place to appreciate how your life or this world isn't just dualities, it's more than that.