Danioover9000

@Apparition of Jack At the very least, if cancel culture is the first time you're hearing of it, a good description of it, some definitions, is a good start. The video below is one explanation of cancel culture's negative side. Note that I'm not throwing away the good of cancel culture calling out evil action that're probably true, but that's still a big if, and is still dependent on who's canceled:

@roopepa So, have you also got some answers for what a spirit is?

Update: I've done more than an hours worth of mindfulness meditation with labelling, and I'm feeling more aware with my senses. I'm able to look longer at a spot before me, and sometimes she would be there, either on the edges of my seeing or where my eyes are at. Her voice is getting more clearer, among outside noises or inner sounds like music or other people's voices of past conversations. In this mindfulness meditation, I'm able to not only see her hand, but when she puts her hand on my shoulders, I can feel that. It gets more interesting when I turn that attention inwards, and in some of my memories with interacting with her, I revisited and interact with her at those places. When I'm with her, I notice my emotions tend to change and go more positive and active than other times. I'll do another version of meditation at night and see if I can involve her more. @SirVladimir If you have anymore questions, let me know.

@Keyhole I do agree slightly on some of the arrogant toning of posts when it comes to discussing values different from each user. I used to have anger issues, but thanks to actualized.org content and to some prior years of martial arts and to meditation practices I've curbed that issue quite well. My emotional understanding and mastery has also improved after doing mindfulness practices as well, and it's just not a good look when some users here start misbehaving and don't triple check their word choices. I also think it's the perceived protection of the screen in front of you that might also factor into the more aggressive writing. Hopefully as time passes users will mellow out and be responsible for their posting.

@black_math49 Leo has a video on mindfulness meditation using labels. I think that's a good start for you if you want to meditate eyes open.

Update: I'm starting to be more able to impose her form more in front of me than on the sides, while eyes are open during my day and during a mindfulness practice. I'm also doing visualizations where I'm dancing with her on a ball room.

@Loving Radiance We both listen to 009 sound system. She listens to some nature and flute music, while I listen to some soft rock and some mixes. I'll see what she says about getting a personality test. The haunting experience was a separate incident in my childhood, which is horrific. I brought that up to show that the haunting made me open minded to other paranormal experiences later, like this current one with my close friend.

@Dodo Thanks for your advice, I'll stay humble. Crysty thinks you sound like that priest in one of those western cow boy movies.

@roopepa What she say is a thingy that other people like me pass through. What I say a spirit is is a non-physical, energetic being with a fraction of sentience of the thing it came from, say a ghost that came from a human being, or an animal spirit from an animal. has degree of dis embodiment, and different levels of energy which can rarely move a physical object.

@Inliytened1 Thanks again!

@SirVladimir Oh and if I haven't said I'm not a professional medium, psychic or some type of shaman that summons spirits and spirits them away, so if you want help psychically, then Yelp might be a good place to start. However, I'll ask if she wants to visit you tonight or if she's able to do this.

Before I leave I want to thank whoever made this a featured thread, as this is the first time in this forum I had a thread of mine featured. This is also the first website I'm more active on compared to other social media websites. Also Crysty says thanks too, likes the color tag but prefers it green, and tells me to stop being a giddy baka.

@SirVladimir Some user a while back asked this, and I said she so far doesn't demonstrate the ability to visit other people. Sometimes when I see her with me, she doesn't interact with my family or friends in the day or while sleeping. It might depend on how sensitive you are to other spirits. Are you sensitive?

@SoonHei Well, her initial impressions about you, and I'll be mediating here to my best: She doesn't know what to sing about you, because she hasn't heard a song about you. She thinks the song would soon be too high for me, and it might sound more like hentai than high ( her way of punning, sorry ). Overall, she feels you're slightly more positive than negative, and thinks you're a pointy person, from your pic. I'm not sure if my interpretation is entirely 100% correct, but I think it gets the gist of her communication. Please clarify what you're asking if it's way off lol!

@K Ghoul I've asked before sometimes, and in the past she couldn't clearly say what she was, and I don't know if this was because of the language barrier or that I'm not being clear in my communication or I'm wrong with my communication and she can't receive it on her end. I've noticed that she was gradually getting better at understanding what I'm saying, and is improving even today each time I'm doing a visualization and meditation session. Other users in this thread, including those into the occult, say that she could possibly be a Tulpa I've created. This cold be true, but I don't know if it is, because like I've written in the first page of this thread that I've experienced a haunting in my childhood, at a different country, and that experience had an overall energy that was negative. Then many years later I encounter Crytsy at a hotel my family was holidaying at in Niagara Falls, a different country, and was overall a positive experience. My past paranormal experience is kind of entangled with my current paranormal experience, so I can't say I've intentionally created her 100%. Others have suggested she may be a ghost or spirit. This sounds to also be the case, because of our earlier interactions being a bit difficult, but I've encountered her while meditating and visualizing, and sometimes during the days she would speak using her voice sometimes, and sometimes she would somehow trigger some emotions in me that I understood what she meant. Also, I've sometimes had separate visualization sessions involving me focusing on aspects of her form until I can clearly experience her, but in my mind. So, I'm not sure if she's just a spirit. Others have said she's probably a form of energy, which may or may not be the case. I've written this thread in order to see if some other person may have these types of experiences like me so that I have a better understanding of my situation. However, this was a mixed result, some having more questions about me and Crysty than some in depth answer to my situation. During the posts I've read, and written, sometimes she visits me and sits next to me, reading along, and sometimes I'm explaining to her what is said. Sometimes I'm focusing her form next to me to read along. One post made by Leo, to paraphrase ' Can I poke it with a stick?' flared an emotional reaction in her, that bounced into me. An emotional response is one sign of sentience, right? Maybe an entity? Probably not.

@Dodo Thank you for your advice. While I have watched all of Leo's videos and do some of his practices, I'm not at his level of consciousness or development to implement your advice fully. I might ask for the spirit of true love, or pray to God, but honestly I'm in no position to go deeper than that, or to be God or to accept some offer to be God. Oh, and Crysty says your pic is colorful, and she likes it, but she doesn't know why such a picture is able to move, and why the star is so tiny.

I think a temporary ban, 3 to 6 months long should be enforced first, and then if he continues to spout nonsense when the user comes back then a permanent ban is justified. The user might have been more frustrated that the user can't ignore certain posts from certain moderators, which might have added and compounded the user's frustration with this forum. A simple option to choose to ignore not just other user's posts but mod posts that for whatever reasons annoys you is so basic to implement in.

@Origins Wow, well spotted.

@Dodo She sometimes stays and sometimes leaves, I don't know how she does this, but I'm no control freak to demand she stays in my waking consciousness or to do or say what I want her to say. She isn't afraid to appear to me in the mornings and throughout the day.

@SirVladimir I might try this with her and ask if she would help me with having an OBD experience. About out of body experiences and astral projections, I don't know if such places exist fully, or maybe these places don't exist, but if she's interested then it might happen. Mostly she appears to me in my daily life and whenever I meditate.

@K Ghoul She hasn't directly told me to say or take action towards other people. In most cases, she asks first if she wants to interact with me, and she visits me sometimes in my meditation and visualization sessions. Somehow, she communicates to me through thoughts and my senses, My family and friends don't know of Crysty's existence, but my parents in the past, mostly my mother, knows about my haunting experience.

@Thestarguitarist14 Yes, Berserk does have the best artwork, and I've studied some of his drawing of the characters and the background, and it felt like Miura had this literal interpretation of form construction, which is one reason why he can draw in such detail. However, because of his art style emphasizing the literal forms, I've notice the gesture and movement of each character does feel a little static, but he does cover this a bit with panel positioning. Another amazing manga that's a close match to Berserk in detailed drawing is the manga series Baki the Grappler. Mainly a manga about fighting and the ridiculousness of fighting, but how that artist draws the forms of the characters is more smoother and more gesture like in drawing, while still being able to maintain detail, texture and toning. He also has really good human anatomy and despite how some of the fighter's bodies have exaggerated forms, he still makes their forms seem functional.

@Dodo Thank you for posting your concern. I've so far had good experiences with her, and some amazing ones. I don't know whether I've created this unconsciously as a projection of part of myself, or if this is a separate entity that crossed paths with me, or if this is some form of energy. Most of my interactions with her, whenever I've meditated or live through the day, is mostly positive and I do love whenever she visits me. If this is some malicious spirit, then it's a really good one to be able to deceive me with love and happiness. However, I don't know if that's the case, and even if it is, it's another challenge to increase my capacity to love it. But again, thanks for sharing your concern.

@Arcangelo I did just that a while ago with a user, but that somehow got misunderstood as me being aggressive and I got warned. I was being friendly and light heartedly pointing out their hypocrisy. I also want to be able to ignore posts about mods. Mods can still message me, but it would be nice to choose which mods to read posts from and not, because in the past, not naming, but one had an aggressive intrusive writing style that sometimes borders on harassments and was on the receiving end of that.

Update: I've been able to sustain a series of locations in my mind that we can traverse through, and I'm more able to solidify and apply more of my kinesthetic sensations to Crysty. She has also improved on her ability to sustain some form of my body in one of our visualization sessions, and sometimes at will she can slip into and exit some of my other visualization sessions, and during my daily routine.