Danioover9000

@AriSujan I might have seen the movie, and listened to the audio version of Napoleon Hill, although I can't recall exactly as it's been years since I wathed it. I'll check later. Crysty is telling me she likes your pick, and something about the design is familiar to her. I told her it's one about a character called Kurosaki Ichigo, from Bleach, and gave a mental picture of one of the manga I got years ago. She remembers, telling me when she sometimes sees me read that, she likes the comedy and art style.

Here's another thread I started a while back about my progress on visualization and tulpamancy. Mostly I record analogue nowadays, but I sometimes had some digital notes written down. Might be useful to check out and try out. "Visions and Entities Journal" https://www.actualized.org/forum/topic/48628-visions-and-entities-journal

@BenG I don't know much about spirit attraction, but I can give some pointers. One is in tulpamancy, if you just want an imaginary friend. There are some resources from some users in the occult, in the earlier pages about spirit discussed here earlier. That's about it.

@PurpleTree @FlyingLotus chill, or this thread would get locked down.

Here's also a related thread, but on Egregores and Enlightenment in that way:

@Panagos22 That tends to be true, I think that's called synchronicity.

@Yog Your welcome.

A basic explanation, from wkik, about Egregores. https://www.google.co.uk/url?sa=t&rct=j&q=&esrc=s&source=web&cd=&cad=rja&uact=8&ved=2ahUKEwi9hI_Q17jzAhXRoVwKHeyGB3gQFnoECAcQAQ&url=https%3A%2F%2Fen.wikipedia.org%2Fwiki%2FEgregore&usg=AOvVaw0j4dWv0dgt8MsotSQfbl0U

Oof that's tough.

I've recently went on the blog post, and came across the post you are avatar. Also, a wiki link for a basic explanation on what an avatar is: https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Avatar I find that post interesting, because it happens to be the case for me that I'm in an unusual position with the friendly entity called Crysty, and my older paranormal event in my childhood. Something about that post had a synchronicity with my current situation with Crysty, which is interesting, which opens possibilities about wether an avatar is one whole unit of consciousness, or an avatar could have jointed, episodic consciousness, shared by smaller units. Seems like in my case, if Crysty is a tulpa (an actively hallucinated projection with qualities of sentiance), then I mostly feel like I am one whole unit of consciousness, with some degree of seperation to allow the existence of a tulpa, although the active part is nowadays is passive to me. This possibility is still inconclusive to be certain for me. Another possibility, is if Crysty is actually a seperate spirit from me, then somewhere in the formation of my avatar, that she crossed paths with me, and either her essance became part of me which became a tulpa, or that the occasional visits to me had some effect. This possibility is much more unknown to me, and more prone to speculation due to the factor of karma and reincarnation as well. Also, still contemplating about sentience, so that post happens to contain some of the answers to my questions, which is nice, but I'm still wondering about that.

I sometimes use VPN or IPS.

@Leilani This thread deserves to be a featured thread on NDEs. I had no idea those experiences could go that deep.

They are illegal to make life convenient to live by.

@Lazertazer He is referring to the OP's post breaking one of the guidelines for sourcing drugs and psychedelics, which can lead to the user being banned.

I have to also agree with these users here. You do have some tendencies to derail some threads, and be defensive to all criticisms about you, including the constructive and gentler ones that are not probing aggressively at you, and deflect them away when a few of them are valid, and misinterpret their meanings. Other than that, there's no other problems other than projections. I also am considering a break from the forum, and an alternative use to the forum as well, for different reasons. So, good luck with your decision.

@Loba That's a really nice photo, a real piece of design.

@Yeah Yeah I was going for semi realism and opted out the backgrounds.

Feedback and insights into this problem is much appreciated. I've been struggling with finding some meaning to the kind of work I like to do currently. I have a mission statement I kept for about 5 years now, and it has changed a bit here and there, and I read this everyday and read it like a positive affirmation. So what is the problem between my mission statement and my lack of meaning to my art lately? If you read on, it gets interesting. Firstly, there's the generalised statement: Understanding life, to be a creator and world impact or world contribution. This one I noticed I was stuck on, because I don't identify as a philosopher or detective, and found that a analytical and logic, and some aspects of mathematics make me feel more tired. Understanding life has that feel of logic placed onto life, which doesn't attract to me. Combined with my life experiences of travelling to new places and people I had, I feel that although I'm in my mid twenties I've seen it all in my life, so I don't feel like it's worth the sacrifices for this one. With contributing to the world, it's not that bad, other than I still don't know exactly what contributions I can give yet. Plus, I'm still processing most of my past failures. Maybe it's a self esteem issue, that I can't see clearly the impact I want in the world? And the third statement, being a creator, that has a bit of a stronger feel, I could see myself do stuff and being in creator mode. Similarly to contributing, I don't know exactly what to make, but lately if it involved me drawing stuff, it starts to click with me, and when it gets me visualizing a story, or a location for that, ok. The bit that is confusing is if it's a service, or product, or both I'm creating. I know it's general statement, it's not meant to be specific. Secondly, the specific statement has got some changes. It used to be about me becoming a web developer. I managed to get into an IT course, and I got both level 1 and 2 certificates in 2 years, but I couldn't go to level 3, which would land me into a university which would have gotten me to study either web design specifically, or game development/design. I changed it to then becoming a chef. The idea being that I could start some kind of biz here cooking, but that was a bust. Now it's me being a illustrator, of some kind, working from home, drawing a piece of art to completion, and owning hundreds of sketchbooks filled with detailed studies...of stuff. Yeah, still fresh and needs more detail and specifics career and skills wise, but lately I've spent some time trying a new tool, practicing it, and I almost forgot to check the watch, which is some times a sign of me entering flow. Ten year mastery, drawing for me any day. I don't know in which order, but it will involve anatomy and perspective in there for sure. All the other art fundamentals will follow. Strange interest in manga and comic medium, and freelancing that. Feeling calm, happiness, excitement, confidence and creativity every day. Except it's actually not every day, at least this year. I currently processing some failures, and am a bit depressed and lazy, so I'll have to process those feels first. My ten vaules are still the same, though struggling with some: conpetency, understanding, consciousness, creativity, Independence, excellence, health, beauty and enlightenment. I'll have to re check again because I feel it's been too long that I'm struggling to get into alignment with 3, but not with all of them. My strengths, after I taken character quiz test, is: appreciation of beauties and excellence, curiosity, love, gratitude, hope and kindness. This part of the mission statement makes the most sense, but as to how it aligns with my interests, hobbies, and the career I'll have to figure out. This one was the most confusing: zone of genius. Zone of genius is apparently what is the most unique to you, that you could do effortlessly, unlike the zone of excellence, which takes you 5-10 years of training to get good at some specific, starting from zone of incompetence to zone of competence. It's confusing because a lot of my life has a lot of activities, habits and parts of my self associated with hobbies. Foe example, what I written was 'Imagination and video games' Why? Because imagining stuff isn't hard for me, and I did loads of video games for 20 years(technically a zone of excellence), along with some drawing and writting stories. I also do play chess, almost as much as video games, to the point of intuition, but that not unique to my being, because I still had to train, do puzzles, do calculations, map out variations in my mind, to get good to that point of enjoying a chess game. Is that zone of excellence or genius? My resolution goals is bonkers now. I accomplished some of them, but 80% I overhauled and replacing. If you want to know them you can ask me. So,

@Focus Congratulations on developing your visualization skills! It only gets better the more you train it. The only thing to observe for is random imagery that is negative. For those, mindfulness practices and letting go meditation works well.

@Arcangelo The original is amazing.

Technically speaking, I never had a clear life purpose before coming across your content, which is why the general statement was understanding life, being a creator and world contribution. So the general statement was way too general? So it's missing descriptions for my purpose? For example, a re worded general statement like this: To understand what life is, and how life entangles places, objects and people together, whilst having this richness to life. To be far more competent in living my life, that other people who are lost in life get inspired from seeing how I live life. To feel more alive today and tomorrow, and to deepen my subjective sense of life. To become so creative, that I could synergies any field of life together to create newer ways of living a life. To become so independent that I develop a detachment to the negatives and positives of life, that on the spot I could generate happiness inside me, independent of outer things. To have so much health and excellence that I live long enough to master three more fields. To have so much beauty, that I feel authentically beautiful inside me, and to deeply appreciate the beauty in life. Something like this, or more specific?

@BobbyK Thank you for the share. I checked them out, and they do really good cinematic scenery. Also based in Singapore too which is a beautiful place to do sime holidaying in. I also noticed they do mostly digital art rather than the analogue art I'm more used to, so this area will be where I'll be focusing next. Do you do digital art yourself? Any advice on how you develop skill in that area?

@Vido In the Curt Jaimungal video, part 2, he said he didn't make the thumbnails, but collected them overtime.

@WonderSeeker Very nice post. This should be a featured thread.