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@Daphnedenninghoff23 Seems like you guys have gone through some amazing growth together. The "risk" in being very honest is that, there might be a point where you decide it doesn't make sense to be together anymore. Just keep the communication going and see where it takes you. I think you're doing much better than you realise. Just be very honest with yourself. How do you feel about the fact that he's with other women? Is it ok for you? Do you still trust him? Do you still feel safe with him? If so, where's the problem? Just because its against the norm doesn't mean you can't become very happy going for it Just make it a regular practice to check in with yourself and communicate your feelings with him. Honesty will always find a way. @Preety_India What manipulation is going on when you're completely honest with each other and only doing things that are ok for both of you? Being open and honest about what you need and wish for is the highest good in any relationship and the only way it's gonna turn out well. Just because you couldn't deal with it doesn't mean it can't work for other couples. I don't like the way you use words like "cheating" and "low self esteem" to describe a perfectly healthy couple finding its way. So misleading.

Great! It's really always the combination of practices that do the trick. Definitely awesome to do things that lie outside of your comfort zone. I thought about that lately. It's not really that I'm not insecure anymore. Those feelings are still there. I just decided to do the things that are scary anyways now. And that's a way quicker road in my experiences. That's when you start realising that life is not against you. And the insecurity is unraveling on its own. I thought I have to fix my self esteem in order to do the things I really want. But actually, doing the things I really want is what's "fixing" my self esteem. Hope that makes sense. "I have found that you have only to take that one step toward the gods, and they will then take ten steps toward you. That step, the heroic first step of the journey, is out of, or over the edge of, your boundaries, and it often must be taken before you know that you will." Joseph Campbell

@Michael569 has a free e-book on dealing with fatigue. Maybe check it out and adapt it to your situation. Other than nutrition, check out "Why we sleep" by Matthew Walker. It'll convince you of the importance of a healthy sleep cycle and help you figure out what works for you. Sleep is just as much a foundation to health as nutrition is. To get out of the worrying mindset, adopt meditation. Start with 10 minutes every morning. I assure you it will be the best habit you'll have ever picked up and it will serve you greatly in your art business. It will snowball down the road if you invest a little bit of time into it on a daily basis. Best of luck!

MDMA. But get your foundation right. Have a friend there who knows your story and can guide you. Clean diet and clean state of mind before you do it. Don't take too much. Maybe write some things down during the trip or record it and set up a way to move on after the trip: Therapy, journaling, reading, meditation, etc.

It's actually impressive that you're still doing this. So cool. How are you feeling so far?

Cool! Keep them posts coming. It's such a relief to get things off your chest by journaling. So much clarity is found when externalising our inner world. I'm sure it will help you clear a lot of things up. Especially interested in reading those You go girl!

@h1001000 Where can I buy your art? Very cool!

Story time: Our first threesome Midnight. My boyfriend, one of my girlfriends and I have just spent the nicest evening together. We had a bit of wine and chilled on the floor of my living room. There was soft music playing in the background, some candles burning. Me and L. have planned on surprising my boyfriend with this threesome for months at this point. It started out as "wouldn't it be funny if..." and slowly turned into a real game plan on how to go about it in detail. So we both knew what would happen later tonight and we're both excited and in a bit of disbelief that the day has come. The wine was definitely needed. It would be the first threesome for both of us. We've always left the option open to not do it if it doesn't feel right for anyone but... Lucky us, we're both totally in the mood. I know L. likes my boyfriend in just the right way. She appreciates his character, feels safe around him, likes his humour, finds him attractive and just knows he's a great guy from everything I tell her about him. I know she likes him. Who wouldn't? And I can't wait to share his skills with her. Nothing inside of me worries about them falling in love though. What he and I have is on a different level and can't be touched so easily. And I trust her so much. So the setup is perfect. L. and I have also made out upfront just to see how it feels. Pretty cool to kiss and touch a girl, honestly. So soft and fragile and full of mysterious emotions. It made me realise that cuddling with guys feels like cuddling with chairs in comparison. I can get into it and really enjoy it, even though I'm not nearly as turned on as I get with guys. "I wanna go to bed now", I say, impatient for the whole thing to start. My boyfriend is a bit hesitant to go with me at first. I see how much he enjoys just having both of us around, laughing about his jokes with that light, flirty tension in the air. He just wants to bathe in that femininity some more. I also know he has at least thought about a threesome. I can feel how much he wants it. And, at this point, I'm beyond excited he's gonna get it. But he doesn't know anything yet. "Just trust me, come with me." is what I'm thinking. He gets up, gives me a kiss, we say goodnight to L. who is getting ready to sleep on the sofa, and happily jump into bed. I take a moment to just take in the love I feel for this man. The desire to make him feel good is pulsating through my body. I rub coconut oil on his belly and we have some intimate time. Kissing, talking,... I almost can't take the tension. I know L. is waiting on the sofa for me. I put a blindfold on him (hoping he wouldn't ask why) and make sure he's positioned in the middle of the bed. Perfect. Everything is going according to plan. At this point, I feel like a nervous teenager talking to his crush, constantly jumping back and forth, unable to relax. "I quickly have to go to the toilet. Just wait right here. Don't move." L. is waiting for me in the living room in her underwear and we look each other in the eyes, excited for it to begin, whatever it may be. We give each other a kiss and head to the bedroom. I open the door softly. He hasn't moved. Awesome. The atmosphere is beautiful. Candle lights, soft music with a tribal touch, each of us a little tipsy. Here's the music that played through the night: We both sneak in on our tip toes and lay down in his arms like two gifts who just dropped down from heaven. He has me in his right arm and her in his left and we just start rubbing his chest. I don't know what's going on inside of him right now. There's no talking. But I reckon he's in utter disbelief. It must feel so wonderful to have two soft feminine bodies rubbing against you from both sides. Somewhat symmetrically, we run our hands over his torso and start kissing his neck. When my hands run over his underwear for the first time i feel it: He's. Rock. Hard. Drops of precum on his belly. Makes me grin, look at L. and we kiss each other passionately. Still with his eyemask on, he can only guess what is happening. That's really how far our plan went. We said, if it's just cuddling and more doesn't feel right, we can just leave it at that. But we're all slowly really getting into it. So this is not it. By far. As things get a bit more heated, they started kissing passionately. It felt weird for a moment, but it was gone so quickly that I wasn't even sure there was anything there in the first place. But I kneeled over them for a few moments, watching them. Watching my boyfriend kiss another women. And I waited. I waited for the kick of jealousy to come in. In vein. Nothing happened. I almost couldn't believe it. What a weird experience. All I could think was how wonderful it is that everyone's having such a great time and how beautiful this looks. So much style, so much passion... I wish I could take snapshots through my eyes like a camera to keep some of the atmosphere for later. I proceed to sucking his dick. It's all a bit blurry from then on. I was so in the zone, loosing track of time, loosing track of what body part belongs to whom, which pleasure is mine and which is from another, and I just let myself go... We spent hours rolling around in bed, licking and sucking each other, making out in every way possible. One of the hottest moments that are really standing out to me was when me and L. went down to suck my boyfriends dick at the same time. Both kissing his waistline, both moaning softly, taking turns pleasuring him. He looked down on us with this crazy and intense look, keeping both our heads in his hands, feeling like the king he is. Mhhh. Another one was when me and L. were super lovingly kissing each other, checking in if everything is still ok. It looked something like this: My boyfriend came back from the bathroom with this look on his face, like he still couldn't quite believe this is happening. "This looks so incredibly beautiful", he says. We keep making out and he goes down to pleasure our pussies. Laying between our legs, he looks a little bit like a sex slave, who's only job is to make us happy. I like the picture. He licks L. and starts fingering me. Now he's got my attention again. I have no idea how he does what he does, but as soon as this man goes inside of me, I just dissolve and ripple out in endless waves of pleasure. I almost can't continue kissing L. because I'm moaning so hard. I also almost bursted out into tears when I was in the middle of them, both naked, both so close to me, both focused on me. Both of them know me so well, both of them I love so much, and i couldn't believe how cool all this is and how loved I felt. It made me so proud that I took the step and organised this evening to happen. For the entire evening, no one ever felt excluded or like he/she needs to overly perform. Nothing went on behind anyone's back. It was just a celebration of love. The overall vibe was so safe, respectful, slow and loving. Just perfect for a first threesome. We could have gone a lot harder, but that just didn't seem right for the first time. Maybe next time. My boyfriend and I locked eyes so many times. We had these extended moments of just looking at each other, and it was like something was communicating through our eyes so that we knew instinctively what to do next. I didn't think I would be ok with him actually having sex with L. But when the time came it was the most intimate and beautiful thing. He was fucking her while kissing me and looking me in the eyes, like we're carrying each other through this experience. It's also so beautiful to see him have sex with someone, to feel two bodies moving like that. To be on the outside, but somehow deeply involved. He's so skilled at what he does, which just makes me wanna watch and admire him all day. It also makes me proud to share my man with L. He's so good in bed, it would almost be a sin to keep it all to myself. It's crazy how turned on you can be just by watching someone else have sex. Even though watching is the wrong word; I was almost in between them when they had sex, lol. Towards the end, L. comes while touching herself because she sees how he and I have sex. It turned her on hard. How beautiful. She has a ton of respect for our relationship and I could feel that all the way through. Honestly, there's so much more I could still write about, but this post is getting looooong. It was slowly getting light outside when we decided to sleep. I needed to get out of the bedroom for a moment and was suddenly bugged by the fact that L. was falling asleep in our bed. I mean, it's our bed, right? She could make out with my boyfriend all she wants, but when it's over, we still need to be clear on our roles. And she just took my spot. All not on purpose of course, so I wasn't mad at anyone. But I was still a little hurt. That's not something I thought about up front and I had no idea it could be a problem. So I stay on the living room sofa, still blissed out of my mind but also a bit confused by my feelings. My boyfriend comes to me and we talk about what happened. I told him that I'm not sure what's going on and he reassures me that it's gonna be ok. We cuddle, laugh and chat about the awesome thing we've just done. How good it was. How turned on we were. We couldn't believe it. We're so high on love. He had no idea any of this would happen so the surprise was perfect. He said he can't believe his luck with a girlfriend like me and that he felt so loved and safe throughout the entire experience. I feel the same way. I love that man in ways I can't even describe. He stayed with me on that tiny sofa until the morning came, telling me I'm his queen, talking about all the amazing things we still want to do in our lives. With the strength of our love backing us up, suddenly nothing seems impossible. It's good to be alone with him again. I really needed to reconnect with him after the experience. Checking in if everything is still the same, you know? We have sex on the sofa until the sun is up and then fall asleep in each others arms from sheer exhaustion. The "next day", everything is fine. We have a good laugh about everything, L. is going home and it seems like nothing has changed. Except we're on experience richer. One that was beautiful for everyone involved. Who would have thought that was possible? Definitely not me a few years ago.

Stay tuned. It's very counter-intuitive

When I spent more time in vegan circles, someone made a point to exchange idioms like these into more animal-friendly ones. Since then, instead of "Kill two birds with one stone" I now say "Feed two birds with one scone". I think it's kinda cute

@flowboy

Anxiousness = Excitement without Breath.

I've found that, if you really look at functions, they’re structures in the human psyche. They don’t (have to) say anything about the content of the mind. So they’re neutral. I'd just go to the essence directly. We have enough silly personality typology content on youtube, which is just reinforcing peoples identities. I'd love to see a content switch from pigeonholing people ("If you have these 10 traits, you're probably an INFJ", which leads to people throwing their hands up in the air, declaring their type, never needing to change) to helping people look at the function of their mind from a distance and understanding how they can best use it for their unique endeavours. Again, in a structural sense, not in terms of content. Going on step prior if you will. I'm not sure if I'm making sense. Also: Transcend and include. If you go deep enough into the matter that will happen automatically. An “original insight” is seeing connections no one has seen before imo. And from what I’m reading, that’s what you want to do. No one has seen what you can see. Collecting information and bundling it up in new, concise and easy to understand ways is a great service to people. Just look at Leos videos. That's basically what he did/does and they're helping so many people. You're standing on the shoulders of giants. Many great people came before you and they've only gotten so far. They've done their work for you to use it. What a shame would it be if every human being had to figure everything out from the beginning again? We'd never get ahead. Think of it as a group effort :-) Beautiful purpose btw! Feels close to home.

Super cool! I love how alternative methods of therapy are becoming more normalised. Here in Austria, Art therapy will become officially recognised within the next years. Germany's one step ahead already. I have a friend of mine who'll start Art Therapy this year. I'm super excited to hear more about that and work with her. Another friend of mine did elementary music and dance education. Sweet stuff. I'm really getting into dancing lately and thought about maybe doing a degree in the future that combines dance and therapy such as "Authentic Movement". Man... There's just so much cool stuff out there. I had a few months of musical therapy in my education as well. It was mostly about trauma healing in abused children and teenagers. My teacher, who's been doing that for decades, was one of the most interesting people I've ever met. He has truly seen it all. And it made him passionate, devoted to help and so grounded. You're in for a deep ride, I think. Such a beautiful calling through. I wish you all the best from the bottom of my heart You rock! If you're ever in Austria, hit me up and let's make some music.

Nice! I work on an organic dynamic farm and our mission is providing people with the most nutritious food possible. We also figure out how to be as self sustained as possible throughout the year. Let's just say, it's a lot more work cooking with healthy ingredients than it is to buy perfectly shaped vegetables, pre-cut meat and things of that sort. My advice would be that, whatever you do, go in that direction as much as possible: Organic, seasonal ingredients that are locally sourced, prepared with healthy cooking methods and are mostly plant based. There are enough people who will appreciate it. The trend is going there majorly anyways. It's just a matter of time. An organic pizza place just opened up near me. They only have 6 different pizzas. It's super simple. Everybody loves it. All the organic restaurants ans stores are doing great here too. They pop up one after the other. And working with medicinal herbs and psychoactive ingredients could be an awesome niche.

Ok I'm intrigued. Has anyone done "How To Be An Entrepreneur" or "Turning Your Talent Into Income"? If so, hit me up! I'd like to know more. Also, 197$ doesn't seem too bad.

"With this ring, I set you free." Man, that was beautiful. I love how quirky, deep and multi-layered they are. Everything is said by the way they look at each other. Super inspiring to see. So much intimacy and independence, authenticity and vision going on in their relationship. Can't fake that. Also, how cool are their guests? Love it. Everything about this video is so unusual, a little strange, but somehow epic.

Here are all the problems I have with the video As a woman, if you’re going down the path of trying to “keep your man loyal”, you’ve already lost imo. A woman who knows her worth and has adequate self esteem wouldn’t spend her time worrying about being cheated on. Even less would she compensate by tweaking her appearance and behaviour in any way to prevent that from happening. And a good man wouldn’t want that from her either. You’re actually lowering your “value” (if you will; even though this term is horrible) by being so insecure. She would expect being worthy of love without having to constantly “prove herself” and jerking herself around. And if her man does something they have not agreed on, she’d move on. And with this attitude, only good men will make it to your door. “He cheats on you because you give him bad sex. Or no sex at all.” Damn. So backwards. Good sex is an outcome of openness and trust. Hearing this will close down woman so much more. It actually took me a lot of compassion and deep breathing to get through the video and I can see how it makes woman feel so terrible about themselves. Lumping together attraction and relationships like that is really mudding the waters. It’s true that he’s not choosing to get attracted, but he’s choosing what to do with it. A relationship is a commitment to support and grow with each other, which means you have to be in constant communication. If you can't talk to your partner about your desires, what's the point of the relationship? And if you can't control your dick enough to not hurt your girlfriend and do smth you haven't agreed upon, why be with her in the first place? It’s also not like cheating is only bad for the woman. It’s bad for men too. If a man doesn’t stand by his words it makes his weak and split. It stifles his integrity, grounding and flow. Why can’t we just look at the problem directly? Is something happens in a relationship that isn’t agreed upon, people get hurt. Why hurt people? This can only happen if there's one of those things going on imo: Incompatibility Trauma Low self esteem Lack of communication It’s not rocket science. Work these things out. There are plenty of tools available. But don't put the other sex in charge of fixing your problem. Leo has done a great job at making a video that is just feeding into the insecurities women already have without providing them a healthy way out of it. And it kinda makes me angry. Let’s hope my future daughter never sees this video. Stage orange elbow society to the max. Partial af. I’m disappointed this is still on youtube to be honest, I’d expect Leo to take such shit down already. Maybe you should have titled the video "Why weak men who can’t communicate what they need and don’t know what they want cheat." TLTR: Work on your self esteem, attraction =/= relationships, men are more than animals, partial video that is counterproductive for women watching it. Why not make a video that shows women how to develop adequate self esteem and men how to handle their urges responsibly instead?

*frantically puts together video outline*

The Concept Of Life Going Full Circle Everyone starts out as a sheep... Until certain experiences force them to evolve. The wolves inside us all emerge when the sheep you have been can't protect you anymore. And then... Just when you thought the world had conspired against you... It was conspiring with you the entire time. https://the-inward-morning.com/journal/the-concept-of-life-going-full-circle-dance-choreography

Am I the only one who doesn't know what that is? Well, as long as people are buying it... Can we really blame him?

New video A day in the life: Erik visiting me, cooking, visioning together, working on my website, some insecurities, dancing and a chill evening with Merle. https://the-inward-morning.com/journal/new-video-meet-erik-

Everything’s changing Some of the things going through my head and life atm: I might be changing jobs soon I just found out that my apartment situation might not be secure for a long time anymore My boyfriend and I will be moving in together I might be doing a retreat at the end of this month that could change many things I just had my first threesome Had a pretty intense LSD trip Published my website and have many ideas on expanding it already. Now cram all of this into one week. I have to say, I'm mostly excited but a bit overwhelmed at times. The rate at which things are changing is out of this world. I'm at a point where I can't really picture my life a few months from now. I just have no idea what will happen. It's impossible to hold all these events in my mind at the same time. The safest thing to do now is to just throw my hands up and let it all be. I'm here for it and it will work itself out, I'm sure. So damn much to write about though. Many blog posts in the making. https://the-inward-morning.com/journal/everythings-changing

Through the fields of scars and wounds, shining with dim light of non-existence. What tranquillity! What sweet peace! What inward serenity! What supreme felicity! An earnest of bliss! To reach beyond the web of spiritual deceit that mankind has been weaving for millennia and face the most horrible truth of all. Every single dream… shattered, trampled and lost. Every single word… silenced forever and evermore. Descent! Regress into prime, hideous, beautiful… Descent! Regress into prime, hideous, beautiful nothingness. Here, in fact, we may be in the presence of one of the most necessary of all Devils: the Ecumenical Unifier, champion of all efforts to remove invidious distinctions between nature and nurture, body and spirit, interdiction and impulse, time and eternity, individual and community, male and female, Hell and Heaven-and ultimately, of course, between man and God. While we may believe our world - our reality to be that is - is but one manifestation of the essence Other planes lie beyond the reach of normal sense and common roads But they are no less real than what we see or touch or feel Denied by the blind church 'cause these are not the words of God the same God that burnt the knowing I am nothing, I am no thing, I am not incessantly Not of the sun; nor the moon, nor of the stars... immesurably Not without me, nor within me, nothing sees... inwardly I will not sleep,I will not wake, I will not rest... impatiently Out of the many comes the One To lay waste the all and return to the None Without light The dark encloses all Our works would be but ash No knowledge of the time that crushes love to dust Or the life that's frozen deep within our veins Without dark The light burns out our eyes And turns each of us to ash Our hearts, too hard to ever learn to feel And mouths, laid open, deep in silent song Trapped within That which all collapses For fear of what may lay beyond When peace eludes And devastation happens A subtle glimpse of where we each belong

Great! Seems like you're very much in touch with what you want. Now all you need to do is communicate and see how compatible you two are Think about if it would really make you happy to stay where you are. Probably not, otherwise you wouldn't have written this post. It's quite sexy when a man has the confidence to stand by what he wants and isn't afraid to walk away if you're not on the same page. It's not easy to do, especially if you don't have a lot of experience with intimate relationships. But it will serve you greatly. Again, super hot. Stay true to who you are. Tell her about it. Then the decision is hers. Good luck! @NoSelfSelf You're behaving childish. A person should not be made fun of for a totally valid question that is a sign of healthy self-esteem. Check your bias. That this is coming from a moderator is not acceptable.