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Writing so little lately, even though it would do me so good. Really motivated to write and read more again. With autumn around the corner, the gloomy weather outside… How lovely :-) Getting back into training at the gym has been really tough the past months. I’ve been really fit in the past and it feels like now I have to start all over again. I love training though. I love getting stronger and more in tune with my body. I’m actually able to up my weights a lot quicker than I used to, since I was really thin back then. Some part of me doesn’t want to accept that I might never be this skinny ever again. Being borderline underweight just felt awesome for some reason… Like I barely exist and I don’t need to occupy space… But I (obviously) wasn’t in a good place mentally. But even now... My relationship with my body stays one of the most difficult things to deal with for me. I think my perception might be really off as well… I just wonder how much free mental energy I'd have if I wouldn't have to think about it so much all day.

Your post made me think of a book I was just reading. It’s “Letting Go” by David R. Hawkins, maybe you know it. Was a total game changer for me and I bet the technique would be super helpful in pick-up situations as well. He basically says the other person can tell your intentions and moods and is really just mirroring your thoughts and emotions back to you. I’ll post some pages here, maybe it speaks to you. Good luck!

It means to love reality

@Rilles Love it! Just subscribed on Spotify. Your music reminds me of Caribou and Ogris Debris, I'm sure you know them

“Watch carefully, the magic that occurs, when you give a person just enough comfort to be themselves.” (Atticus) “Your vision will become clear only when you look into your heart. Who looks outside dreams; who looks inside awakens.” (Carl Jung) “Nothing real can be threatened, nothing unreal exists. Herein lies the peace of God.” (A Course In Miracles) “Whatever you think you teach, you teach what you are.” (Nathaniel Brandon) “In proportion as he simplifies his life the laws of the universe will seem less complex; and solitude will not be solitude, nor poverty poverty, nor weakness weakness.” (Henry David Thoreau) “To be a philosopher is not merely to have subtle thoughts, nor even to found a school, but so to love wisdom as to live a life according to its dictates; a life of simplicity, independence, magnanimity and trust.” (Henry David Thoreau) “It’s the mark of an educated mind to be able to entertain an idea without accepting it.” (Socrates ) “Art is a personal act of courage. Something one person does that creates change in another.” (Seth Godin) “Science is organised knowledge. Wisdom is organised life.” (Will Durant) “The greatest question of our time is not communism vs. individualism, not Europe vs. Asia, not even East vs. West; it is whether men can bear to live without God.” (Will Durant) “The most profound experiences arise from questioning the obvious.” (Peter Ralston) “Genius, in truth, means little more than the faculty of perceiving in an unhabitual way.” (William James) “One does not become enlightened by imagining figures of light, but by making the darkness conscious.” (Carl Jung) “The next message you need is always right where you are.” (Ram Dass) “Everyone takes the limits of their own field of vision for the limits of the world.” (Arthur Schopenhauer) “When you awaken the truth within yourself, there’s no illusion to overcome, only truth to be recognised wherever you go.” (Matt Kahn) “We question not for an answer but to experience whatever is true.” (Peter Ralston) “It’s not that I’m so smart. It’s just that I stay with problems longer.” (Albert Eistein) “The answer to every question is loving yourself more, not less.” (Matt Kahn) “Stop working on yourself. Start relating to yourself.” (Matt Kahn)

After so many years of feeling lost, it seems like I've finally found my teacher. Matt, you've made all the difference in my life. It's like my entire 'traditional' spiritual journey was put on halt and I've found a much more helpful approach to doing all of this work. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you. Everything inside of me agrees with this energy and the shifts that have happened over the past months and ineffable. I'm having so many moments of being completely overwhelmed by the beauty of life, to a point where I feel like on MDMA. It's crazy. Feels like coming home. Finally. "Stop working on yourself. Start relating to yourself." @Natasha So happy to hear that it's gotten you some clarity. We always know best, we just have to dare to listen. Love you!

Matt Kahn all the way Just watch any video that speaks to you.

Good points, I liked the video! I felt bad about not keeping up with the news for some time. Like I should ‘do more’, if you know what I mean. But if you really look at it, it’s funny how people think that they ‘do more’ by reading the news. Actually, they’re just more angry, judgmental and in an overall worse mood. That won’t solve anyones problems either. Stoicism is perfect here. You do what you can, with what you have, in whatever situation you’re in. We need some serious solutions for this world. And sure, you have to get to know the problems for that. But then a shift in focus needs to happen towards solutions and betterment. People rarely ever make that jump. You can’t destroy evil, your only chance is to build alternatives. And no-one’s doing that while being lost in pointing fingers. “It’s difficult to keep track of the problem when you’re part of the solution” ;-)

The past month really has been a ride. It’s been so overwhelming that I had to let go completely of any kind of routine. And I did let go easily this time, because I know this game by now. When I’m holding on to the same routine for too long, life gets crazy so I’m forced to let it go. I then spend some time in a limbo until a new route emerges and everything begins anew. It’s scary to stop micromanaging myself and my days. Routines and “force” did help in the past to some extent and I think I’ve just consumed too much self - help content. Yet I feel the intense pull that letting go is exactly what I need to do. Instead of a habit tracker and a strickt to-do list I made a “feel-good-list” this month It’s meant as inspiration to take good care of myself. Feels so light compared to what I did before. Focussing on self love so much lately, I now live by the question “What do I need right now?”. The answer is always there immediately. Clear, simple, straight forward. A part of me is still scared that I won’t get things done this way. Yet here I am, still meditating, reading, taking care of things. But feeling so much better at the same time. I read this question the other day: “If you could tell your younger self of 5 years ago anything, what would you say?” And I’d just say “Relax. Trust life. There’s no need to overthink every decision. Life is taking care of things as well. You won’t do wrong.” Today has been the perfect example of what trust can do. I had no intention but to be kind to myself when I woke up. After my morning meditation I felt really inspired to do things that are good for me. Having a lot of energy and clarity, I exercised and went out to buy and organise things that I’ve been putting off for months. Checked so many things off my list effortlessly. I also met two really nice people that unexpectedly helped me with some questions I was having. Later I was at a Café reading and when I wanted to pay I found out that this super handsome man sitting on the table next to me already paid my coffee when he left… I mean, come on. What a day! I find it really difficult to learn how to trust these boosts of inspiration and energy. I still like to keep track of planning projects for example but that just seems impossible sometimes. That’s a difficult balance to strike. But I’ll figure it out. Trust love. Trust life. Trust myself.

Finally bought speakers today. My never ending dance parties just became THAT much more awesome

I might as well post my Me-Sheet here for reference: Life Purpose Leading people back to their connection with nature Zone Of Genius Finding similarities between nature and the human mind Domein Of Mastery Gardening, Writing, ? Top 10 Values Independence Uniqueness Truth Solitude Vulnerability Contribution Appreciation Humour Knowledge Nature Top 5 Strengths Enthusiasm And Energy Love Of Leaning Spirituality And Sense Of Purpose Optimism And Future-Mindedness Gratitude Long Term Goals Enlightenment Work Outside All Day Be Self-Employed Cure Eating Disorder Top 5 Questions Is it possible to find God through nature? What would a completely new form of therapy be? What does it mean to love something? What would happen if everyone dared to be more authentic? Why is there something rather than nothing?

I’m really inspired by how vulnerable people are in their journals so I decided to journal more here. It’s funny how my relationship to this forum has changed over the past year. I used to be so intimidated when people weren’t nice to each other, I’d think about mean comments for days and I never dared to really say what I’m thinking. Now I’m way more comfortable with who I am, so it’s easier to stand up for myself and not let negativity effect me so much. Being on this forum has been (an continues to be) a great leaning opportunity. There are a lot of incredibly nice and helpful people on here that inspire me very much :-) I reviewed my LPC-values the other day. I was really happy to see that I’m becoming more aligned with them over time (even though I haven’t actively been working on any project the past weeks). Anyways, one of thee values is vulnerability. Journaling publicly a big step in that direction for me. It does me good too. And I enjoy reading back on my old entries.

"Beauty is eternity gazing at itself in a mirror. But you are eternity and you are the mirror." KAHLIL GIBRAN

Oh lovely. Totally new to these things to be honest. But I'm open to learn about it for sure :-) Long threads are a bit overwhelming to me sometimes, so I probably won't be checking it all the time. @Galyna Hi! As I've said, no idea about these things but I'm an Aries with a Scorpio rising and a moon in Taurus. Whatever that is worth Do you need anything else? Oh and since you're into numerology here: 17, 3, 33 or any combination of 1-3-7 are returning constantly in my life, for example in house numbers, bills, etc. Maybe you have any thoughts on that. @zeroISinfinity I can already tell, you're a weird bunch

@Natasha thanks love! What is this all about?

@Preety_India He hasn't cheated nor has he ever said he would. Shaming people for their basic biology or feeling a certain way helps no one, makes them feel guilty and like there's something wrong with them. It creates all sorts of twisted behaviours. I'm being a bit sharp because I've experienced it on myself and I've created a problem where there really wasn't any. Seeing how honest he is with the whole situation is really the only way to go about this. Most people would never talk about these things so it just stays in the dark. He's just saying what so many people are thinking. It's not "justifying cheating". No offense meant!

I love how you worded this I used to think like your girlfriend some years ago so I can see where she’s coming from. I even thought that thinking about someone else is basically cheating. I wasn’t badly hurt but I thought “Something must obviously not be right in the relationship to this wouldn’t happen”. Now I see things more like you do. Here are some things that helped me shift my perspective: Working on my self esteem Getting more independent (It only ever happened when my life was overly based on one person) Getting a good inner guidance system through meditation and learning how ego works Therapy Learning about feminine and masculine dynamics (David Deida’s books for example) Learning to Distinguish attraction from commitment. I’ve been in relationships where I haven’t thought about other guys for years (Like maybe as a thought experiment but not emotionally or sexually charged). So it definitely exists. I think it’s especially difficult for woman because men are attracted in such obvious ways like by looks, so it hurts. For woman it’s more sneaky, I for example dream more about a mans strength, vision, support, presence, integrity, etc. not so much about his muscles ;-) But when a man provided that, I felt truly fulfilled in the relationship :-) Hope this helps. Don’t beat yourself up for getting aroused. It’s chemistry. Acknowledge it, let it work through you and when you have clarity on what you want in your life, make a decision. Do that every single day. I think you’re doing well being so honest with yourself and your girlfriend. The only thing you could ever owe her is truth. All the best!

“When you awaken the truth within yourself, there’s no illusion to overcome, there’s only truth to recognise wherever you go.” Matt Kahn

Lovely to have you here, thanks for leaving your thoughts @allislove Is a dream board the same thing as a vision board? That I have. Do you have one? How does it help you?

What's your measure of success? What's your objective? Getting laid? Then go to a night club and chat up drunk girls. You're smelling their inauthenticity too, right? (I love how your sentence already implies that)

The problem isn’t that you don’t know the right strategy, it’s that you’re trying to use a strategy to get girls. Woman are highly intuitive and can smell your inauthenticity from afar.

@allislove I have a journal as well if you want to take a look Not updating it so regularly though

I think you'd benefit from some variety. Seems like you know what healthy food looks like, now switch it up a bit. Energetically speaking, everything eaten too much of creates stagnation and inflammation in the body. Look at nature, it's teaching you to eat seasonally Make some oatmeal, soup, healthy pancakes, whole grain pasta or rice, etc. for a change. Also looks like very little protein, especially for being so active. I've been looking for the 'best diet' for a long time, thinking that one day I'll just optimise it and then keep eating like this for the rest of my life. That's not ever gonna happen though. You don't want to be rigid and narrow when it comes to your health. Work on developing body awareness and flexibility, they're key ime. Then throw away all the labels if you dare

Also didn't know I needed french pop in my life. But I do!!! What a total babe