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How is everything done is the name of love? It makes sense when Leo said a terrorist kills people for the love of his God, country, or religion but what about trolls that leave mean comments for seemingly no reason or a bully picking on a kid at school, where is the love in that? I'm also interested in book recommendations for how everything is love, including hate, because I struggle to grasp this. Thanks

Can one expect a raise in consciousness and inner transformation from just staying present to the moment throughout daily life? I often forget to stay present when driving or doing mundane tasks and wonder how much different I would be as a person if I always took advantage of opportunities to stay present. I'll be testing this out more for myself but was wondering what other peoples experience has been when using presence as a tool for brain function, equanimity, peace of mind, consciousness, inner growth, happiness and other benefits. Thanks

I'm not sure which stage she is at but I'm usually pretty impressed with her insight and ability to go deep on unconventional topics.

Is it fair to say that there’s nothing to lose in this life except delusion? If so this seems to be a helpful pointer to get past irrational fears.

Do a 5 meo breakthrough change the subconscious mind? Does your self image and other subconscious beliefs change or do you basically feel the same the next day?

I’ll be seeing a psychologist tomorrow. This seems to be my best option based on the feedback here and my primary doctor. I’ll let you guys know what happens. I believe my body will heal it may just take longer than I hoped. Thanks

I’ve learned to just feel bad for the people who judge me. I have 3 reasons to feel bad for them 1. The more you judge others the more you judge yourself. People who judge others for saying something stupid will end up judging themselves the next time they say something stupid. 2. The more people judge the more they assume others are judging. When you make an effort to understand and have compassion for others you expect them to do the same. 3. Peoples judgement reinforce their insecurities. If I think your awkwardness is “bad” well now any awkwardness I have is bad and I feel insecure when I show signs of it. Kinda just another way of looking at #1 Peoples judgement is their problem not yours. Practicing non judgement is so important that I feel bad for those who don’t. Refrain yourself from judging anyone as much as possible and have compassion instead. I can look down on a homeless person for being a debt to society or I can feel that homeless persons pain and have compassion for them. I’ll always choose compassion over judgement because of how much better it makes me feel. Your insecurities will start to diminish, your self love will increase, you’ll assume people are more friendly and less critical. Compassion over judgement. If I judge you, it strengthens my ego and I got hell to pay, if I feel your pain then I have less ego which will serve me.. I think if you judge yourself less you will worry less about the judgement of others as well. You probably judge yourself too much and need more self compassion. They way I have self compassion is by realizing all I’ve ever wanted in life is to be happy and there’s plenty of times I’m not happy or even suffering. The same goes for everyone else, even the people who have it way better than I do, so I even extend my compassion to them. I keep saying this word but compassion allows you to acknowledge the same things from a different perspective that will actually serve you in life not hurt you

what do you mean exactly?

I actually think humor is an effective tool. The ego is very serious and a way to undo the ego is to laugh at it. Smiling at fearful thoughts, laughing a human fallibility instead of criticizing, laughing at your own insecurities, finding the humor in embarrassment and all the other shit that the ego takes seriously.

Thanks guys I liked the different viewpoints. I noticed that emotional stuff seems to come up when I fast for 18+ hours so I thought it might be healing, I’ll have to try a longer fast in the future as an experiment. I agree with one of the points above to not get too obsessed with the process, this is an easy trap to fall into because your emotional brakes want to pull you back in and tell you you’re not ready to move forward but this slows things down. Direct healing needs to be balanced with indirect healing which comes from acting as if you’re already healed. I’m starting to understand the importance of this balance and of all balance in life really...

What does it mean that physical objects are alive? Is it possible to wrap your mind around this without awakening? I'm assuming you have to be conscious of what consciousness is in order not to project unconsciousness onto the external world. I have no idea how self aware a coffee table is...

I was watching Leo’s video “how karma works” and it sounds like everything we do is selfish, even the selfless acts because we do them for the wrong reasons (to feel like a good person etc). How can I be selfless without being selfish in order to gain good karma? Should I just focus on benefiting the lives of others even if I’m motivated more or less by selfishness? Is enlightenment the only answer to not getting hammered with bad karma your whole life?

Does defending insecurities lead to shame and low self esteem? Would a counter intuitive move to higher self esteem be to admit and expose those aspects of yourself that you consider “bad”? If someone can’t admit that they lost their virginity at a later age than the average person then that must reinforce their shame. They believe it’s bad (shameful) instead of deploying an “it is what it is” attitude and being honest about it regardless of other people’s opinions. What do you think? I feel like my defensive behavior is damaging and I need to go way more on the offense. So many strengths masquerade as weaknesses and I think exposing insecurities is one of them

I went to an ayahuasca ceremony in Tulum Mexico. The trip was pretty intense, similar to some of my bad mushroom trips where a lot of unconscious fears come to the surface. I know DMT is an active ingredient in aya but I don't know why they are so much different. I doubt there are shamans in Toronto you probably have to go to Mexico or Peru.. I didn't really notice any lasting benefits from Aya, I was hoping to be transformed and all this stuff but I basically felt the same the very next day..

Is the fear of not being understood and insecurity the same thing? If you always felt understood could you feel insecure?

Has anyone here tried microdosing mushrooms? If so did you notice any of the following benefits after the trips? Enhanced creativity? More conscious/awareness? Healing in the brain/body? Happier? Less rigid personality/identity? Smarter? Something else?

I’m in the process of seeing medical professionals but I’d like to get an opinion here as well. I went through a very stressful loss years ago where I cried for a few days straight and the overwhelming stress seemed to cause some lingering effects. Too much cortisol could have damaged my brain and left behind chemicals in the body which seems to be causing brain fog years later. It’s almost like a mild form of PTSD that causes my brain to go into fight or flight sometimes during social situations and even just randomly. I’ve made a lot of progress over the last year from doing mediation yoga hologropic breathwork and psychedelics. Can you reverse the damage from stress? I’m getting an MRI scan to understand this better because I might have only suffered emotional damage and didn’t create a chemical imbalance. I had a pretty emotional trip on lsd the other day and I don’t know if that’s a good thing and I should do it again. MDMA and lsd are known to treat PTSD but one always makes me feel good the other can sometimes be emotional. I wonder if I heal more from suffering through an emotional lsd trip than just feeling good on mdma. Maybe a high dose of 5 meo would be best to purge as much crap as possible. This is probably one of those things I’ll have to keep testing to find out what works for me. What used to be really bad has gotten a lot better over the last year so I must be doing something right. If anyone can chime in on any of these questions or recommend a supplement to correct chemical imbalances in the brain/body I’d greatly appreciate it!

Is the Letting Go technique the most effective method for reaching higher states like David Hawkins suggests? He claims if you get present and feel your emotions eventually the emotion or feeling will run out and be replaced by a higher one. He didn’t say how long it takes to reach enlightenment through this process but if it worked as well as he makes it seem, then wouldn’t all monks and people disaplined in this practice be enlightened? Either the feelings take thousands of hours to run out or the monks are using less effective techniques lol. Im curious how effective it is because I’m considering doing a 7 day retreat where I spend 8 hours a day feeling into my body in hopes that some of my dense energy will “run out” putting me in a more loving state.. This technique resonates with me but maybe someone more experienced can recommend better ones for burning up the ego

I’ve always struggled with surrender and I believe I’ve found the answer I’ve been looking for. Before my version of surrender was to “let go” as much as possible in order to hopefully feel better but if I didn’t get the result of feeling better (more at peace) then I’d feel like I’m not doing something right and I would try to do it better. I’ve came to the conclusion that anytime I’m doing surrender then it’s not surrender, especially if I’m hoping to get a result, like feeling better, out of it because I’m actually trying to control something. (my state of being) The whole problem here seems to be the illusion of control. Isn’t the only way to surrender is by reminding yourself that you’re not actually in control of anything (thoughts feelings actions)? Without this awareness there always seems to be an element of control in the way of total surrender. It’s kinda like how compassion can only come as a consequence of understanding. Can total surrender only come from this awareness?

Anyone feel more neurotic because of shamanic breathing? I’m assuming the trauma and neuotism has to get worse before it gets better... I’ve been doing it once a day for a couple weeks and I can tell energy is shifting around and coming to the surface but man my head gets fucked up sometimes (hours later and the next day) and I’m not sure if that means I should do more and plow through the trauma or take things more slowly. If shamanic breathing is my ticket out of this crazy monkey mind then I’m thinking about doubling down to 2 hours a day and getting this healing stuff over with as quickly as possible

Good one. Short demonstrations for each exercise and how long to do them for would be super valuable. Maybe he should come out with a Krya yoga course because I know I would buy it..

Leo said smoking 5 meo is like getting hit by a freight train, but I'm curious about slowing puffing on this substance to gradually reach higher states all the way up to ego death if you have the balls to keep going... It seems like you would have total control over how high you want to go and a bad trip wouldn't last that long because you're smoking it. If your intention is to gain as many insights as possible then of course you want a longer duration but when you're starting out and just want to get a feel for near or total ego death then why not gradually smoke it?

It seems like taking ourselves and life less serious of one of the best perscriptions for more peace and joy and less depression and inhibition.. This could be just a personal issue that I’m projecting onto others but we all seem to take everything from our thoughts to our actions pretty seriously considering how much nothing really matters. Take a teenager with a pimple on their nose for example, chances are they will stress out over it even though a tiny red bump that no one will notice in an infinite universe is pretty insignificant. Isnt this why we struggle to be authentic because we take our “self” too seriously even though there isn’t an actual self to defend?

I've always had problems concerning my identity due to the fact that if I don't feel superior to others in some way then I feel inferior and my existence feels pointless and invalidated. The crutch that I've always reached for since grade school is to try to look better than everyone else because that identity would always make me feel so empowered but as soon as I reached middle school I started comparing myself to others that looked better than me and my self esteem would go from 100 to 0 instantly because in my mind I became inferior and my identity wasn't holding up. I'm 26 now and I'm still reaching for this illusive crutch of looking better than others and I can tell the universe wants me to change this about myself because this identity always eludes me in weird ways. My question is, how do you like and accept yourself if you don't feel superior to others in some way? Isn't that what self esteem is or is that a crutch to self esteem? The last question I have is should you drop identity all together and have no identity or try to construct some empowering identity based around character traits I have control over. Maybe my authentic self got shamed somewhere down the lines so I suppressed it and started reaching for superficial means to like myself. Something just doesn't seem right about all this, why can't I seem to like myself if I can't compare myself favorably? I don't even like the idea of people being better than or worse than because in reality we are all the same, maybe all I need to do is grasp this even though the ego tries to convince you otherwise..

Leo what would you say to someone who's afraid to awaken for the first time? It seems like you would freak out from all of the realizations hitting you at once. Simultaneously realizing you're God/Everything, you were never born, your family isn't real, and that there isn't even a me sounds like a little much to take in lol.