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Don’t ignore your feelings, don’t run, feelings need to be allowed, accepted, and felt. The important part is not to get lost in them, as in judging them in some way. So if you are doing a breathing meditation it is like you are channeling the feeling into your breath, into the present moment, where it will be felt and integrated back into oneself.

Just stop drinking for awhile? There could be feelings one is running away from, but you couldn’t know unless you stop and feel whatever feelings comes up. True happiness comes from being at peace with oneself.

Awesome, that is great that you are feeling at peace. What does the energy inside of you want to express/ create? Ask it, it is you after all. What is the first thing(s) that come to mind when you ask?

Because I love to, and it is fun.

Keep feeling into things, allow yourself to develop a taste for your practices, observe how you feel when you do meditate, observe how you feel when you don't. How about focus on getting the ego to love itself, rather then trying to transcend it, the resistance to self love is the stuff one needs to face, talk to, and understand. Whenever one notices resistance, turn your focus onto the resistance. In this case the resistance is the anxiety, sit and feel it, allow it to be there, accept it for what it is, don't run from it, see what comes up out of ones unconscious when one does this. Yes there can be a lot of pain that one needs to go threw with this stuff, but every time you face your fears you get stronger and stronger, and we don't know how strong our potentials can be, because it is limitless.

God cannot even know god exists without creating a division in itself, loneliness is a biological emotion that one needs to observe and allow ones ego to face.

What does one love?

I don’t have any info on the EEG, but I do know what it’s like being on adderall since 6 years old. As @pluto mentioned as well, cannabis helped me a lot with getting myself back on tract with my heath, I have since then let go of weed, but it will always be remembered as something that helped me start to better myself. Although what is way more important is high intensity exercises and proper diet, I started with martial art sparring. Then your body will start to adapt to what it was actually designed for, it will take patiences but there is 100% light at the end of this tunnel you are in right now, never give up and stay strong.

Dairy contains proteins casein and whey which have been show to negatively effect gut flora. Most dairy also contains hormones and antibiotics which you don’t want to be consuming as well.

Keep practicing the pose and your body will adapt, a minute or two isn't bad. I like to think of it as I am making a triangle with my body where I am trying to make my tailbone the tip of the triangle. If its your arm strength you are struggling with , do some planks, if it flexibility, practice touching your toes with straight legs.

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Feel into things, don't force things onto yourself otherwise you will completely sacrifice quality of the practice. When I first started meditating I didn't force myself to do it everyday, I just did it when I felt I needed/ wanted it until I got to the point where I do it 99% of days. This way the mind gets a contrast for how you feel without vs with doing the practice. I find the best thing to do to reprogram the mind from things your higher self really doesn't want to do is to, as soon as you observe oneself about to preform the habit, literally do nothing and feel/ observe non-judgmentally. Its all feelings that are being hidden under habits, feeling that are long waiting to be held close to your heart and felt. Observe your 'hedonistic obsessive perfectionist' attitude, bring as much awareness to it as you can again without judgement, this will snowball into this attitude/ habit slowly melting away.

Take in all perspectives, find the truths/ partial truths in them, absorb what is useful, integrate them into your total understanding, and let go of thinking you understand anything to keep your mind ever open.

Contemplate "What is fun?" "What is funny?", eventually you might find you don't need to watch cartoons to laugh more and you can just create your own fun! Life becomes a cartoon! Hahaha!

Sure you can still be upset about these things. Ego would be thinking you are better then them in some way. God would be seeing them as you suffering. 'Oh me what a particularly silly way you are coming on today!'

You could get a stool that is designed for meditation, or meditate lying with your back flat on the floor. When sitting for long periods of time you really wanna make sure your weight is going into muscles and not joints. I'm also not sure what you think is the 'classic meditation position' because there are many ways to sit.

A baseball bat.

Where does this boat want to row? Where does this love want to go? I don't know, I don't know. Is it so that it just wants to flow?

Yeah wheat pasta is very bad for the gut, but I love the stuff so much so I eat brown rice pasta sometimes, which is better for you. My main rules for eating are avoid: all wheat/ bread (Gluten), processed sugar (I only use cane sugar), dairy, alcohol, soy, corn, eggs. Then I eat a rainbow of different vegetables, fruits, nuts, seeds. You don't have to be as strict as I am (I have a autoimmune condition that causes a rash all over my entire body) but I do think one of the best rules you can follow for diet is "Eat the rainbow".

@karkaore It's all you baby!

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What I tell people I look like vs what I really look like

One doesn't have to have one passion, variety is the spice of life! What is it that one loves about music? Filming? You could certainly combine the two as well as you mentioned, making music for your films, or making music videos.

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