Porphyry Fedotov

Hey everyone. I’m currently in Cusco, Peru, where San Pedro cactus is legal, you can buy it at the market, which is exactly what I did. A few days ago I brewed a decoction and drank it at night. At the peak, I felt like I transcended into some kind of energetic being made of pure energy. I perceived other energetic entities as blob‑like forms of flowing energy, somewhat similar to TV static. The energy flowed like liquid mercury. Just perceiving that plane of reality felt like it reassembled me from the inside. I found myself on a strange level of existence populated by jellyfish‑like beings. It felt as my interest in them was what pulled me into that plane, the more I focused my awareness at them with curiosity, the more clearly that realm manifested itself. At some point, I myself became a blob of pure energy - that I literally wove myself into the structure of their world. It even felt like I was replicating there in the form of energetic constructs. It was weriedly easy - as simple as having a thought. Fractals were pushing in from all sides chaotic and relentless. So intense that I couldn’t focus my eyes on anything; reality shattered into endless patterns, everything flowing and breaking apart. I also saw shimmering energetic snakes crawling along the corners of objects. I drank the brew around 4am, and by 3pm the effects were still going strong. Time behaved strangely. At one moment, around 11am, it felt like time had completely frozen. I started shivering violently, as if I were turning into ice. At times it felt like linear time had broken down and multiple things were happening simultaneously. I put on Kali kirtans, and I began to dissolve into dust. It felt as though parts of me were being erased, page by page, from the book of existence and carried away. I seemed to spend eons in this cycle, slowly moving along the dial of some cosmic clockwork mechanism. Moment by moment, particles of me crumbled like decaying pages of ancient papyrus and drifted off into cosmic space. It felt like a slow death of the ego, not harsh like with mushrooms, but softer and more gradual. There was also a moment when I felt as if I had ascended to the top of the world, to a place where the creator or the source of everything was present. Some kind of ritual mystery was unfolding there, and then light began to burst outward in all directions. Overall, the cactus feels like this: it’s a very slow but unstoppable truck. At first you think nah, this is weak. But at the peak, the fractal energy presses through you completely, and there’s nowhere to escape. What’s interesting, though, is that throughout all of this there was still an observer present. I clearly and distinctly realized during the trip that there was me as the observer and the observed - all this psychedelic madness. There was no total collapse of subject and object like I was hoping for. There was a brief moment when I saw an unopened lotus flower and felt as if I were rushing toward the observed like a train, trying to merge into an embrace - but I barely remember it, and it doesn’t feel like any real union actually happened. So, guys what do you think, is reaching a truly non‑dual state is more about dosage, or more about mindset and intention? I’ve had dozens of mushroom trips behind me, with doses starting from 5gr of dried Cubensis and up, and I’ve experimented with many different psychedelics. Yet genuinely non‑dual experiences are still very rare visitors for me....

You're welcome. Tell me more about your San-Pedro expirience, im curious

What is really mindblowing, but kinda predictable, that all those powerfull people who are clearly and without a shade of a doubt incriminated by this info, especially Trump, arent prosecuted

So America just had a special military operation of their own basically. Same as Russia. Unfourtunately, nobody is gonna sunction or judge them for the aggressive regime change. At least this time they are clear that it's all about oil Well China hasn't invaded anyone and is building it's empire strictly by economic measures (building infrastructure and stuff all over the world) while the USA is actively destibilizing the world with endless wars

Bro, he meant that you can't base the source your happiness on anything external, even with a shitload of money, you would feel dissatisfaction. Instead, we should look inside.

It makes sense if English is your second language. For the record, I was learning English the same way. Each time I would stumble upon a new word, I would memorise its spelling as well. Like Kanji. But is it sustainable for the native English speakers? It makes more sense to change the spelling system and make it simpler and more similar to the Russian or Spanish ones

You can just say that you don't have any social media accounts; there's no way to prove it wrong

Sufism is a legitimate working path to awakening...

There are legit problems with immigration, but Europe has yet to experience them in the future. As of now, the point at which immigration would cause some problems hasn't been reached. All I read was some crazy conspiracy ramblings about the great replacement. In Russia, we also have right-wing dummies who get triggered at the sight of thousands of Muslims doing Namaz on the streets of Moscow around the Grand Mosque during Eid al-Fitr and Eid al-Adha. But then again, Russia is half an Asian country (at least geographically) and we've been living with Muslims side by side since medieval times, but still. Bro, cultural identity is a personal thing, similar to religion. All cultural identities are just bullshit painted in different colours. The state shouldn't protect it. It's up to people which cultural shenanigans they desire to participate in

Karma is a bitch

Hey everyone, like many of us who are currently at the Green stage, I encountered a significant lack of Red stage in me (about five years ago). I’m curious - what methods do you use to integrate Red into your life? I just went through the forum’s list on the Red stage and started including some of it in my life. I started boxing, which I really enjoyed. I also went to a sabong (cockfight, I’m in Manila and it has the biggest arena in the world). I really liked the masculine energy there. I didn’t really feel much of a gambling rush, even though I placed a small bet, but the whole vibe you soak in was definitely very Red, and I enjoyed it. Also some of red i guess I've been integrating subcounciesly. Like I'm into tattoo culture, but it's just an appearance of Red, which doesn't do you much Anyway, I’d love to hear how you guys integrate Red

Bro I'm trying to evolve here, not devolve

@koops Interesting, thanks

Yeah, that's what I'm working through. I used to be a mild people pleaser (but at the same time, I used to constantly get into arguments about politics with my libertarian right-wing friend, which was driving me nuts lol), but I slowly got it out of my system. Like these days, my priorities are only what matters Speaking of sports, it's a box for me. I always wanted to go into martial arts, but thought it was either too late or too much for me. Essentially, I'm trying to do things that cause me to feel fear, cringe or judgment Also, what do you mean by expressing anger constructively?

Hm, when I say integration, I’m talking about making myself more conscious of the layer of Red, instead of leaving it as something shadowy or reactive. Which it was, and I was avoiding it. And of course, I don't think that at I'm at pure green according to this model, which is impossible. Maybe if I were more green I'd have found different methods to express Red - but they aren't as fun as boxing, I think. However, I saw a lot of green folk learning Maui Tai in Thailand for similar reasons tho To work it through consciously, exhaust it, and move past instead of letting it sit in the shadow. That way, it gets integrated and transcended at the same time I was asking more not about how someone would express Red, but how one would integrate it. Integration is when you choose to do it consciously for self-development

You can't regress in spyral. Red takes a lot of form, finding commonalities, participating in ones you vibe with and absorbing non-toxic forms of it is integration. That's what I'm doing via different means. Such as boxing, for example What is your approach? I'd like to see what you do to integrate red

Well, I don't have any problems with pain tolerance, tho. Try getting a neck tattoo and then tell me about the pain Red stage isn't about pain tolerance, I think you're mistaken. The core of the red stage is about raw power, domination, impulse, ego assertion, “I want, I take.” It’s about breaking free of external control and proving strength in a direct, visceral way

Even the BBC started to change its narrative and compiling evidence of the IDF purposely shooting Palestinian kids in Gaza

That's a common misconception. In this regard, Buddhism isn't much different from any other religion. Take, for example, the Dzungars, who were Buddhists. Those mf's were far from peaceful. They waged fierce wars against the Qing Empire and the Kazakhs, seeking to expand their territory and influence across Central Asia I don't see how Buddhism would prevent Thais from waging full-scale war against Cambodia. After all, they did it in the past and were relatively successful

Overblown non-issue

So, that's how the Holocaust happened. Interestingly, many did not believe or grasp the full extent of it until after WWII ended. Nowadays, we also see that the world is divided. There are a lot of people who don't believe in Genocide in Gaza or think they deserve it because of the hostages of other bullcrup. Nazis claimed deportations were for “resettlement” or “labor”. Israel exterminates Palestinians and simply blames Hamas; calls civilian deaths “unintended” or “Hamas’ fault”. At least this time, during the Palestinian Holocaust, there are a lot of protests and some states do something like Ireland or Spain, which puts hope into the people...

I don't think Putin will be able to defeat Ukraine at this point. He doesn't have much of an endgame to speak of. Just a desire to project power across the former USSR. Also, the Ukrainian question didn't appear out of thin air in 2022 or even in 2014. If you look at the history of the Russian Empire, for example, you can already see that domestic policy was heavily anti-Ukrainian, like there were the Valuev Circulars, secret decrees issued in the Russian Empire in the 19th century to restrict the publication of religious and educational texts in the Ukrainian language. Then, Stalin in 30s ordered the mass starvation of Ukrainians in 30s aka the Holodomor. From a historical perspective, Putin's invasion wasn't a surprise. If you look at what is going on in the occupied territories, you would see heavy suppression of anything Ukrainian, Russification is everywhere, strict martial law with detentions, tortures and murders of anyone who opposes the regime. It's the wild west over there, brutal and unforgiving. I think at this point his endgame is to keep new territories and make them Russian through the displacement of the native Ukrainian population and forced Russification. He also tried to bolster his populist support through the invasion, echoing the logic of a "small victorious war" reminiscent of the Russo-Japanese War of 1905.

We need to address the root of this evil. Without Zionist ideology, there wouldn't be a conflict to speak of. Citizens of Poland, Germany, USSR etc who came to colonise Palestine and their descendants would've peacefully lived in their shtetls without colonising a distant foreign land and doing the Nakba

Bro. I'm not saying that Israel is the literal Third Reich. However, they share a lot in common. Israel has been more then a decade under the rule of ultranationalist leadership and it has shaped its internal and domestic affairs. And consequently, it's committing a genocide for all the world to witness. Speaking in terms of spiral dynamics, they're both deeply blue. Take polls, for example, they show that most Israelis are in support of the displacement of Gazans https://www.genocidewatch.com/single-post/poll-show-most-jewish-israelis-support-expelling-gazans

It depends on the context and nuance. Death to SS in 1940s sounded about right for the Allies and Jews, Slavs, Gypsies etc. in particular. Death to the IDF in 2025 has the same effect, because, objectively speaking, the IDF is the blind force perpetrating one of the bloodiest genocides of the 21st century right now. However, I understand that for a person living in Israel, it might sound shocking and barbaric. As 'Death to SS' would've sounded to the normal German citizen in the times of the Third Reich.