Porphyry Fedotov

Stupid question, but how do you guys practice it with open eyes or closed eyes?

Hi everybody. I've recently read "The Mind of the Universe" by Christopher Bache. For those who is unfamiliar with his work - he did about 70 high dose LSD (500 and higher) trips. What I found out was revealing and confirmed and clarified my own experience. Basically, before every breakthrough and god realization he had to go through excruciatingly purifying suffering. It seems to me that taking the 'right dosage' of psychedelic isn't enough to have an awakening experience. The psychedelic has to clean up the The Augean Stables of your mind to make room for it. Leo rarely talks about it. At least it was for Christopher Bache and as I found for me as well. For example - even to get the tiny sample of blissful cosmic love I myself went through tons of trips filled with suffering. It's like in order to experience subtle states of consciousness, your own consciousness has to be pulverized to more subtle formation and attuned. And this process of refinement ain't easy. It's difficult as fuck. I feel like I'm moving very slowly in this direction fighting at every step and even when I surrender - I never do it fully because I still not fully understand how to do it properly. It goes like this - at the beginning of a trip I usually realize that I'm in the midst of internal struggle, and I'm like fuck here we go again. It takes time to get to the point when I surrender (or sometimes not). For me purification takes two form. First one is getting attacked by very coarse bass-like vibrations which grind and massage my consciousness. I call it cosmic coffee grinder. It takes slightly different forms. Sometimes it accompanied with visuals, sometimes not. Second one happens when you feel unpleasant feeling like fear until it gest absurdly intense and magnified so that it disappear. That's what happened to me yesterday. I drunk 3 gr mushroom tea. And most of the trip was suffering. At some point I felt relief when a blob blocking the flow peeled off. Then followed extreme fear which run it course and followed by impatience which run its course as well. Then a brief moment when I kind of surrendered and for a short time became breath and I was an energy flowing through myself peacefully. Then at the end of a trip were usual post effects, all these beautiful but vacuous bells and whistles like fractals and extreme mind-wandering. Do any of you have similar experience? Can it be somehow related to the particular type of psychedelic? Christopher Bache used LSD, I usually use mushrooms. I only used LSD once and from my experience it was extremely similar to shrooms. Also does it have to do with trauma? Because I definitely had a few traumatic experiences in my life (for example I even have a physical manifestation of I guess some trauma - constant ache on the left side of body below heart. There're moments when I don't feel it, but it never goes away) Any suggestions on to how to improve the quality of trips?

Maybe I should've used different words. I feel like any psychedelic opens you to conscious high frequency vibrations which transform and attune you to the level they are at. It's like there is a hidden intelligence to this process It's not that I attributing something specifically to a mushroom. I mostly use them only because I have an easy access to them. Otherwise I would have switched to 5 meo dmt or something like that long ago.

What is twin flame? Can you elaborate a bit on your broad approach? Do you suggest investigating avenues of spirituality I've never been to before? Also how do you discern when a method doesn't work for you? Sometimes it's confusing. Some authors like Pema Chodron in "the Wisdom of no escape" advice to just feel whatever you are feeling no matter how difficult the feeling. Isn't it pointless to start looking for a new method every time you hit a rough patch in your practice? Or when it's mostly rough? The climbing of Everest isn't supposed to be an easy task.

Great advice. I tend to do the same.

Sounds like a scarcity mindset to me...

If reincarnation exists it's most likely non-linear. Here is a pretty good video illustrating it:

Hardcore mode: How to find stage green people in Russia?

Interesting stuff.

Maybe because the collective ego of many Zen traditions is at Stage Blue. Like look how life is organized in any Zen monastery - it's strictly hierarchical and rigorously ritualized

I find all this recent development in the UFO story to be very intriguing. However it's suspicious that all of these disclosures are happening in only one country - the USA. Pentagon declassifies three UFO videos, Pentagon releases report on the UFO's, all the interviews with pilots. I understand why Russia and China are silent on the issue. Russia is notoriously secretive about its military information (even now there are classified archives from the Soviet Era), China is the same way. But what about the EU countries? They're supposed to be the most transparent in regard to this topic (considering how far are some of the EU countries on spiral) and yet they haven't put out much information I hope this isn't just a pretext for the US military to increase its budget spending for the United States Space Force or something like that.

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Sounds like initial signs of top-down Kundalini awakening. It's usually explained in terms of Cosmic Maha Kundalini descending into the human body and going down from the crown chakra to the Muladhara and below. Shri Aurobindo described his awakening experience as an extreme pressure that started at the top of his head and slowly went all they way down to his soles. “When the Peace is established, this higher or Divine Force from above can descend and work in us. It descends usually first into the head and liberates inner mind centres, then into the heart centre, then into the navel and other vital centres, them into the sacral region and below. It works at the same time for perfection as well as liberation. It takes up the whole nature part by part and deals with it, rejecting what has to be rejected, sublimating what has to be sublimated, creating what has to be created. It integrates, harmonizes, establishes a new rhythm in the nature.” I had similar experiences my lucid dreams, but it didn't go further than that for some reason.

Sounds like "The web of belief" by Willard Van Orman Quine

I tried plugging 50mg of N,N-DMT. It dissolved only after I added a drop of vinegar to the solution. Didn't feel anything, 50mg considered ok dosage for a breakthrough however it seems to me you'd need way more for a plugging. I think vaping DMT is a way to go, plugging it is kinda wasteful

Haven't tried it but apparently it's a legit working ROA for mushrooms. Interesting, gonna try it in the future coz I always feel some sort of discomfort and sometimes a stomachache after taking mushrooms, this ROA should eliminate it.

I have a few of Datura stories myself. Tried it several times when I was 18 after being inspired by Carlos Castaneda books. Obviously I didn't have any insights, however I didn't have any health issues or hospitalization either. I tripped on seeds of Datura Stramonium. As a responsible person I did a research about safety, that's why I didn't do crazy stuff or overdosed. All my datura trips can be boiled down to seeing tons of insects, talking to people that weren't in my room, seeing people climbing a tree near my window and seeing a crowd silently watching me etc. In my experience I left my room dozens of times while in actuality I stayed in it sitting on my couch. It's quite curious how my mind rationalized every weird thing I witnessed. It created a plausible story for everything. For example when I saw a couch crawling with ants I thought to myself - Oh, we have an ant problem again, just like that one time in my childhood (when we really had ants in our apartment). You basically forget about taking Datura seeds. At one moment of my trip I even though that I was having a lucid dream lol. I wouldn't call any of the stuff that I saw nightmarish, by no means it was frightening. It felt ridiculously normal. I think we normalize the stuff we see everyday (in the dream we call reality) in the exact same manner. I also experimented with small dosages of Datura seeds, there wasn't any visions but it produced strange audio hallucinations like real voices talking in your head like a radio. I guess that's what a person with schizophrenia has to struggle with every day.

Same here. 1 hour in the morning and 1 hour in the evening. Sometimes I do walking meditation, but not regularly.

Once I too had similar experience when I was doing self inquiry with open eyes - I started seeing changing fractal like patterns. Maybe it was an acid flashback though because I had an LSD trip a week prior.

I googled it and apparently it's only illegal Hungary so far. Interesting. Technically it's legal in Russia.

Great example of an outdated harmful tradition. They don't need these dolphins to survive and yet they slaughter them every year. For those who don't know - fish is the main export of Faroe Islands (like 90%). So basically they already catch so much fish that they have to export it somewhere

From my experience it's expected that you feel overwhelmed by emotions during trip, especially the first one. Basically psychedelics act like a scalpel opening your abscesses. After a while it gets easier

Wow I've never even heard that there is such a thing. Blackout contact lenses sound ideal for an improvised dark room retreat. It's weird that they are mostly used in a BDSM community lol. How come nobody uses them for a spiritual sensory deprivation?

As people evolve toward green everywhere in the world, the old outdated narratives get replaced by the new ones, more compassionate and nuanced. That's how it goes Of course there will be a public outcry because some people aren't ready for such development. If this information is legit, then the USA textbooks are indeed in dire need of a replacement: By the way, here in Russia our own history textbooks are full of one-sided bullshiterry as well.