That's as silly as saying that no one ever wakes up dreaming of buying a car.
Yet when you need a car, you will happily visit a car dealership.
Girls are highly social creatures. They flirt with randos all the time. It's so natural for them that they don't even think about it. And then they end up sleeping with those randos. That is their version of "game". It comes so naturally that they don't have to take any responsibility for it. They don't even have to admit to themselves that game is happening.

RSD Tyler made a new video on toxic relationships
It's long, but to summarize he says that a very toxic relationship has lead him into believing things like demonic possession and energies take over people and control them. In short he was in a toxic relationship where his partner would become very toxic but when he is about to leave become nice again and he'd come back and the cycle would repeat. But more interestingly he said he began adopting some of her behaviors and later on saw her doing the same behaviors to other people or other people doing the same things to her.
Do you have experience with a highly toxic relationship? How did you escape it?

Volunteer somewhere, anywhere. It will be one of the best decisions you can ever make. I started when I was 18 after being forced to to get my 40 community hours to graduate high school, but it was so awesome I never stopped doing it.
You'll meet some amazing people to socialize with because the environment of volunteering naturally draws kind, interesting, high quality folks who will look out for you.
Toastmasters is also great (and free). It's the perfect environment to practice socializing and build confidence in that area, because you are in a completely friendly risk free place for it. The people there understand exactly what it's like and are all in the same boat.
Volunteering basically cured my crippling social/anxiety, and it was fucking baaaaaad.

Of course I mean your entire life.
There is only one dream. This is it.
You are dreaming other dreams.

Of course scientists feign humility when cornered. That's all part of the devilry of science. The humility is just a facade for a profound intellectual arrogance.
Scientists precisely claim that things cannot be known which can in fact be absolutely known.
For example, I claim complete omniscience is possible. Scientists would never allow such a thing. This seems like humility but is actually arrogance.
Just look at my interview with Curt Jaimungal. He epitemizes the way a sicentific mind gets lost in itself.
All of science is a hallucination. Good luck getting any scientist to admit or understand that.
Science is not self-aware.
Agnosticism is no virtue. It is ignorance. Just because you are proud of being ignorant does not means you understand anything.
Become omniscient. It is possible. After all, you are God, for fuck's sake

That depends on what you want out of life.
For me it was worth it, not because of the sex I got but because of how much stronger it made me as a man. To me that is priceless. The sex is a nice bonus. I don't recommend doing pickup for the sex.

Go out and party with some friends/wings. Just party until you let loose and just enjoy being social.
This is a deeper issue than attracting girls.
You gotta train yourself to have fun. Which can be quite challenging if you've have been trained otherwise.
Alcohol was invented precisely because it's hard for many people to let loose and have fun while sober. But it can be done. I don't recommend using alcohol as a crutch for this. I have never use alcohol and I can have a blast clubbing sober with a good wing.

We'll I've made over a million dollars, I've attracted some really hot girls, I've lost 65 pounds, and many other practical things.
But the most important gains were not material, they were in how I perceive myself and reality.

Pickup specifically requires 1000s of hours of practice. It is a very specific and unusual skill set.

It will take way more work than you expected.
But the reward will also be greater than you expected.
Yup
Oh yeah.
The average person cannot fathom how much work it takes to get good at pickup for a hard case newbie.
It's like climbing mount Everest.
This is why few people get good at it. Most people are just way too lazy and take socialization and dating for granted. They want it to be effortless. If  you are deeply introverted it will be a serious challenge because it goes against the grain of how your psyche is structured.

Lol, that's a sad story bro... sorry to hear this.
Perhaps doing so many trips has damaged your system is such a way that you're unable to benefit much from meditation anymore.
For me, I've done 6years of spiritual practice and meditation and I live in permenant primordial awareness or what some teachers would call it effortless present moment state. Self-realization is a normal daily phenomena for me, tho it's not mind blowing or eyes-bulging-out-of-the-skull thing but it's getting stronger and stronger everyday. My awareness deepens everyday without me doing much, mind gets purer, clarity and wisodm grows naturally, sensitivity, joy and love is increasing more and more. No issues with mental health whatsoever. Life is getting better, better and better and I see it will continue this way endlessly .
So yeah, that's my story. Having the best time of my life right now,  each day is better then the previous one, that's how normal spiritual path should look like if you're doing the right things with yourself. That's why I discourage people from using psychedelics since there's no way they will work. You can’t rise your energy by constantly draining your energy with chemicals. Same way you can't achieve happyness or high aliveness by drinking coffee or popping anti-depressants. It only appears that coffee gives you energy but in fact it drains energy and makes you weaker. It's the same trick with psychedelics. They will only make things worse and difficult in the long run. But that's almost impossible to explain to people...
Regards 

@Leo Gura Also, many people are suffering from caffeine addiction
Anyways read this article http://www.drugsense.org/tfy/addictvn.htm
There is a table at the end , I attached it
I also read in a well known pharmacology book that its relative addictiveness is 2 whereas heroin is 5 and no addictiveness is 1
I didn't do a lot of research about this topic so I don't know for sure.

@DocWatts Thomas Kuhn was on the right track, but he himself had no clue how deep the problem of science goes.
Science is imaginary.
Good luck finding a single scientist in the world who understands that.

@StarStruck Just keep quiet and do the practices. You don't need to whine about it constantly. You are creating this extra layer of suffering.
This journey is not about getting any specific girl. It is about growing yourself as a man. Therefore it doesn't matter if you lose any particular girl. Keep your eye on the big picture, not one girl or one date.
Notice that every time you go out and talk to girls you improve a little. Focus on the positive. Focus on what is working.

Seriously developing yourself as a man will never be as popular or mainstream as stuff like blackpill, redpill, incels, etc. Because the most popular stuff is designed for lazy people who don't want to do any work. And becoming a powerful man requires enormous work.
Of course you can teach whatever you want. But just understand that real success cannot be turned into a meme or an ideology.
It's the same problem as trying to popularize God or enlightenment.
Pickup is not dead. There are more guys doing and teaching pickup than ever. Just don't go about it in a toxic way.
All the core principles of attraction and how to be a man have been discovered and articulated long ago. The problem is that it's so challenging that most guys don't want to do the work to actualize it.

Looks like my road has come to an end. I'll probably decide by tonight or tomorrow. Either way.. sorry if I offended or hurt anyone while I was here, wasn't my intention. Hope I helped, if just one person it was worth it.

Real game has nothing to do with "tricking her".
Of course she will fall in love with me. In fact, it's a problem because girls can get hooked like on crack. The better your game the more addicted girls get.
This is why guys need to learn game.

I practice game on strippers in Vegas. Most of them eat shit and don't even work out.
They are just coasting off ridiculously lucky genetics.
A naturally hot girl does not even need make up and will look hot in nearly anything she wears.
Girls that hot can earn $5000/night.
Life ain't fair.

Dude, Vegas gets more international girls than any other city.
You are making up false narratives about US girls being less beautiful.
Don't forget, girls from 3rd world countries are going to be less developed, overall, than US girls. Some girl from Colombia is gonna be into Stage Blue Christianity and such. No amount of beauty is worth dating a Stage Blue girl.
And what is the point of dating them if they live far away? You are talking about one night stands with foreign girls just because they are easy. I got better things to do than flying half way around the world for one night stands with easy girls who want American dick. Those kinda girls fly to Vegas every week anyway.

Back in 2013, yes. I wanted to go out 7 nights a week.

Obviously it's not malicious or even conscious. The reproductive desires are finely tuned to automatically ensure that you are selecting for the highest quality mates you can get. And the female's reproductive agenda is one which needs the male to stick around.
You girls are not playing games consciously, but you're playing huge games unconsciously with all the obstacles you erect for reproduction.
You "not feeling it" IS your game! Your emotional system is there to drive your survival, not to make you feel good. It's an endless vicious cycle of survival.
Your feelings are definitely power moves. But this system is so deep that you're not even aware you're doing it. It is doing you.
The reason guys play games it because girls play games. And the reason girls play games is because guys play games.
Every single sexual or romantic feeling you have exists to maximize your survival. Why else would it exist? It's all highly functional despite how it feels. It is so functional that it cannot be entrusted to your conscious mind. Just like the beating of your heart cannot be entrusted to your conscious mind, otherwise you would have killed yourself a long time ago.
Attraction is too important to be made conscious to your ego-mind.

In general the male attitude towards sex is as follows: have sex first, then decide if she's worth keeping around. Maybe she is, maybe she isn't.
Obviously females don't like this attitude, but I'm just sharing how guys think about this stuff.
GF-material will be determined by how hot the girl is, the quality of the sex, the personality of the girl, and other indicators of her value. Basically, the higher her overall value the better the chance of being kept around. Honestly, the most important factor for guys is physical appearance.
Your overall value is not meaningfully changed by flirting with a guy.
As the female, your strategy is to get the guy to invest in you before sex. Because you are concerned he may otherwise just ditch you. I get that. You want him to invest in you before you invest in him. That's your game. Which is why you resist flirting with him.
But what I'm saying is, you can flirt with him, and then still play the game of getting him to invest in you. I am not telling you to just spread your legs for him.

It's not outlandish. But you use some interesting tactics to achieve that result.
It depends on the guy. Some guys care less. The highest value guys tend to care a lot about looks.
Yes, it's brutal.
The advice is: settle for less hotter guys.
Personality is of course important.
It's not either or, it's both.
That's what happens when you don't flirt. Flirting exists for good reason.
Is he clueless or are you?
How would you feel if I asked you to meet up with me but I never flirted with you? You would friendzone me and it would be a very awkward non-date date that would probably lead nowhere.
Sounds like this guy is perfect for you, as neither of you got game  Let's see how that goes. Should be interesting.

This is the biggy.
I was struggle a lot with mental performance until I did 20+ rounds. And most of it cleared up.
The problem with losing mental performance is that it happens so gradually you can't even remember what it was like to be at 100% mental performance years ago. And then when you gain it back, it's hard to remember how awful it felt when you lost it.

That's just the nature of states of consciousness.
A memory of a state of consciousness is not the same as being in that state of consciousness.
Heavy metals put you into a different state of consciousness. Heavy metals are like anti-psychedelics that you are tripping on 24/7.