Reasons I believe I'm toxic AF : 
First of all, insidious gradual brain fog, trouble focusing for long periods of time, sloppy memory, leaky gut, lack of motivation and laziness & procrastination. Pretty bad sleep quality, dark circles under my eyes, similar nerve numbness on both forearms ( similar to what Leo described) and much more. 
I have a history of breathing in concrete dust ( near fatal hospitalization at the age of 3 ) , living close to main roads ( air pollution) life long passive smoker ( both parents and lots of friends smoke) . " [...] Smoking cigarettes is another common way cadmium enters our bodies. "
Seafood used to be my favorite meat throughout MY WHOLE LIFE ( too bad for me ? ) 
Teachers , friends and even parents made me drink tap water. 
Worst of all, for the last 4 years I've been eating at the restaurant I work at just to notice they cook the rice in tap water. And that's what I've been having for EVERY. SINGLE. DAY. 
That's a killing blow and the beginning of it all.

Go join the r/pickup discord server, and you'll be well rewarded.
Just be aware of the large amounts of toxicity from users on that server

Toad venom is at least 3x to 5x less potent per mg. So be sure to factor that into your calculus.
1 gram of synthetic is worth about 3-5 grams of toad venom.

@Shakazulu You want to satisfy women?
Work on becoming totally vulnerable. Be so vulnerable that you allow others to become vulnerable. 
A sex god is someone who inspires other people to let out their inner sex god. See? 
I've literally had girls cry of joy  after fucking me because they didn't know it was possible to feel so sexually open and unleashed. 
The greatest sex organ is an integrated, in-tune, in-the-present, open mind. You can make girls come without touching their genitals just because you are so at peace with yourself and them and the situation you find yourselves in. 
Non neediness + the ability to express sexual desire = the hottest thing in the planet. 
So your training should first and foremost be about becoming totally vulnerable with yourself here and now forever.
Get to a point where there is no "effort" involved whatsoever when it comes to opening up to women.
If you make an effort to please her, stop the effort immediately. If you  make an effort to pretend to ignore her, stop the effort immediately.  If you make an effort to keep up conversation, stop the effort immediately.
You will find this practice takes an incredible amount of effort. Weak people cannot do this practice.
Emotionally unintelligent (read: weak) people try to mask their weakness by faking strength. After some time, Emotionally unintelligent people unconsciously make themselves look weaker than ever. And the only people who don't see this pathetic show are Emotionally unintelligent themselves. So Emotionally unintelligent people end up with Emotionally unintelligent people. 
Only the strongest, most emotionally intelligent people consciously allow themselves the possibility of showing weakness. They are so strong that any weakness is no big deal.
And only the strongest people will recognize this nuance. So emotionally strong people end up with emotionally strong people. 
At the beginning, the only real concern should be whether you two are compatible. 
Not "how can I make myself fit her" 
Not "what can I say to make her like me"
Not "how should I present myself? What should I text her? When should I text her? etc." 
Compatibility should have no effort. 
The only questions should be:
"Are we compatible? Are we both self-aware? Are both able to help each other grow?" 
Learn to be so comfortable being you that people can't help but take notice. 
This begins before the bedroom. This begins before the approach. This begins before the training room. 
This begins every moment you take every action NOW.
The training is itself becoming totally fucking okay with everything NOW. Surrender NOW. Be vulnerable NOW. There is no other time!
@Leo Gura is right: you will one day realize that girls cannot satisfy you - the only question is when. That said, there are two ways this could go. One is that this is itself what's going to make it so that every single girl goes out of her way to satisfy you, ultimately satisfying you when you find the right one - the only question is when. 
It seems like a paradox, but you will get it when you go through it.
And you can't fake this realization. If you fake this realization, you will only delay the realization. 

You assume it's some act. But being icy isn't an act, you actually become icy. It's a shift in your being. You don't use it as some power game to keep her attracted. It's sorta the opposite of that: you don't even care about working to keep her attracted. And this makes you attractive.
I'm sorta tired of trying to explain game to you guys. You will never get it unless you go out and do it. These conversations are pointless mental masurbation that just rile people up who have no experience with it.
And explaining game to women is pointless. They will not get it. I am done explaining game to women. Waste of my time.

It's called game for a reason.
It has nothing to do with being authentic. It's about generating attraction by pretending to be someone you're not.

This overlooks two important points:
1) The degree of dysphoria can vary wildly. That's like saying, even George Clooney is insecure about his looks. Yeah, I'm sure he is a bit. But that's not the same as a guy born with a disfigured face. That's not going to be fixed just by George Clooney telling that guy, "Don't worry bro. Everyone's insecure. Even me. Just stop conforming to society's artificial standards." If MrGirl was born with a disfigured face, he would have a very different view of plastic surgery.
2) Physical appearance and sexual attraction is not merely social/cultural standards, they are core to one's survival as an animal. People are not just trying improve their appearance and sexual presentation in order to fit in. They do it because its wired into your genes to maximize your reproduction. And if those wires are crossed, it's not just a matter of fitting in.
And telling someone to love themselves is nice, but the issue here is about how this person will get love from others. Sure, you can love yourself, but who's gonna love you back? It is absurd to say in this case, "Don't worry about it bro, nobody loves you so just love yourself more." The issue transfolk face is not just self-love, but getting others to love them. And this is fundamentally why they kill themselves, because they find it very difficult to get the love they crave from others, and therefore they are unable to love themselves.
It's easy to love yourself when others love you because you fit their biological filters for what is attractive and desirable. But when you don't fit those filters you wanna kill yourself.

Socialize a lot more and build out your social circle to the point where you can't even handle any more friends.
This is a scarcity vs abundance problem. Build the abundance you want rather than retreating into a solitary corner.
As you do that you will stop caring about people who don't resonate with you. There are so many people in the world to socialize with that you don't need even 10% of them to love you.
Bottom line: stop brooding about this, move to a city with good socialization options, and go socialize a lot until you get this problem handled.

Most Incels never learn pickup. They don't have enough confidence to believe it will work.

I have been fooled before. But generally this is true.
Because my dad was a con artist. So I learned as kid how to spot such people.
Not true at all. I form deep emotional connections.
I definitely experience heartbreak.
You assume I am some kind of Terminator. I'm not.
I've been disappointed by girls before.
My natural tendency is to be vulnerable and soft. But I have learned to shut that off with women because it doesn't get good results with the attractive ones.
I'm definitely not foolish enough to put all my trust in a risky human. That's a recipe for a ruined life.
You have be a good judge of character. Don't just invest in random people. Only invest in people who deserve trust through demonstrations of high integrity.
I was talking about psychopathic guys. I don't know where you find em all.

If you do 20 minutes a day instead of 10, you will have meditated of an extra 10 minutes! Simple as that. For me personally, I like 2 back to back 30 minute sessions. I find 10 mins too short, 20 mins is probably "enough" for me, but 30 mins is just right. I don't meditate every day.
Sorry, I don't think there's a specific answer that you might be looking for. You really just have to experiment and find out for yourself!

BTW, even though I said above that I have a policy of not engaging with reactionaries, I will still always be open to constructive feedback. I rarely get good constructive feedback, usually it's trolling type stuff which I ignore. But if I see genuine constructive feedback I will read it and take it into consideration since I do make mistakes and my ways of teaching can be improved.

I would just mirror what users @Tetcher2 and @Derek White have openly said, and what many others have tried dancing around.
@Preety_India is a complete embarrassment to this community. When people like myself refer to the cult-like element within this forum, then honestly this is precisely what we are talking about - she is the gift that keeps on giving.
I must have received around 40 comments from her within the space of about two hours on my channel, and I see here that she was equally busy spinning that story over here, in the time between each of those. Of course she would paint that conversation as my immediate "calling her an idiot", but that's not quite what happened, and it took a good amount of attempted civility on my part before I could see I was pissing in the wind.
You have a problem here guys.  

The antidote is to go out and talk to lots of girls. You will become desensitized and stop caring.
You don't need to deliberately try to make anyone uncomfortable on purpose. It will happen by accident enough as you go out and approach. And you'll see it's not a big deal. You will also become cool and calibrated such that people enjoy your company more and girls appreciate your approaches.
Mostly you make people uncomfortable because you are uncomfortable with people. As you socialize a lot you will become a lot more comfortable and people will become a lot more comfortable with you.
A lot of times when I approach a girl these days, she and her friend will say, "Wait a minute, how do I know?" And I will say, "You don't." But it feels to her like I'm her long lost friend because the approach is so smooth.
If a girl's friend see's me approach her, she will often assume I am her long lost friend. Finally she will ask her girlfriend, "How do you know this guy?" and she will say, "I don't know him." And the friend is like, "What??!" Lol
You just gotta get smooth at this stuff.

I have not read a single book on climate change science.
However, I have spent 20 years contemplating epistemology.
What JP said is not how scientific modeling works. He was actually making an epistemic argument against climate change science which is fallacious.
If you want to argue the models are wrong on technical grounds, that's fine. But that's not what he argued. He basically argued that modeling nature is impossible. Which is silly for a scientist to say.

Low self-esteem people are still attracted to all the classic signs of high value. They just also tend to tolerate abusive people. But that's another matter.
Brad Pitt could be an abusive rapist, but low self-esteem girls would still be very attracted to him. In fact, even moreso. And Brad Pitt is a high value guy, even if he is an abusive rapist.
Being an asshole does not lower one's value, especially in the eyes of most women.

Adeptus is a good guy and has actually brought up some fair criticism of Leo. Y'all need to relax.
It's not like he's accusing him of being a child rapist or some crap about the old Actualized logo.

@Roy with you on this, quite shocked with the community and leos reaction and response to this. seems to me like its just been one big blow off and reduction of all adeptus's points. really not in line with what leo teaches honestly. dont like how nowone is taking what adeptus has to say seriously instead just telling him what he should do, making claims about him clickbaiting and generally avoiding the actual content of what hes saying. adeptus has a reason to be making the video hes making and just resorting to hollow claims and dismissing what hes actually saying and why hes saying it which he clearly fucking stated in the video is crap, were better than this.
 
imagine if leo actually came out, stepped up, took some criticism, walked down off this pedestool of knowing everything and actually took this guy seriously. that would really represent what the work is about imo. not this pety crap, ridiculing and getting all defensive over honestly fair criticism. i feel like this whole thing has been telling as to whats really going on here and i dont know how i feel about things honestly.
 
i really fucking respect leo, he was very luminating for me and pieced so many things together for me as a young guy. the first teacher to tie eveyrthing together so well. got me into all this initially. seriously love the man, still think hes brilliant. got a totally extraordinary mind. he is still just a dude. leo seriously man, i think your creating a pedestool for yourself with your content. youve said it yourself in videos that you get criticism for being arrogant. you claim you know it, you see it etc... but this is literally it here man, this is clearly an example of it happening. your poisioning your fans and followers like me honestly by not addressing it and its creating some cult like dynamics in the audience. honestly just having some fucking humility here and there man, i think thats whats lacking. i aswell as others dont like the way you assume things about the audience. use statements like "you will never understand this" or similar ways of honestly just aggrandizing yourself. no man, thats bullshit. your smart, you see something not alot of people do, you need to be wiser with this and take a step down and humble yourself. the teachings are real, theres something to this. to the whole god thing. your turning off all kinds of fans and people interested in this with this corner and hole youve been boxing yourself into. i think its honestly why the amount of people interested in the teaching now is so stuck, its cause your making a bubble honestly. running from criticism, conversation, logically taking on what he has to say and taking what adeptus or anyone else is saying seriously. i feel like someone seriously interested in the truth wouldnt just be as dismissive and completely rule out any self deception or fairness or even truth kernels here and there in what hes saying! come on
adeptus's name calling on the forum isnt helping the matter. i understand though, dudes probably ticked. makes sense after i imagine yall are coming after him like a bucnh of angry bees and the response on here to his video has just been yucky and reactive. adeptus could be a hell of alot ruder imo. leos response on here was just as provocative and dismissing. seriously, the if you dare comment? ugh
Id honestly love to see more respect from Leo towards Adeptus and vice versa, yall are big boys, an actual conversation wouldnt be bad. i understand leos teachings are tricky to talk about, its easy to misconstrude. still though, i think none of these ideas are being challenged properly. we need more conversation just outside of the honestly dogmatic and leo centered nature of this place or just in leos multi hour long videos. yall dont need to go back and forth arguing, have a real fucking logical conversation about this. try your best to see each others side. take each other seriously. sotp just dismising adeptus as a clickbaiter, rationalist, etc.. hes not, hes a good guy with real valid reasons and intent to say the things he had to say. its really not like leo doesnt speak about others on his channel *cough cough multiple hour long video on jordan peterson*. you wouldnt call leo a clickbaiter or making the teaching about the person.  adepetus's point on him branching out his content more, sharing more ideas was spot on. adeptus is a fair guy and honestly perfectly allowed to share his opinions and call out shit as he sees it. same way leo does. period
I want leo to talk about the grandiosity and status hes creating for himself, its gotten especially bad since the whole awakening break thing last year. adeptus's point on leos talk about the same traits and experiecne he describes in the dangers of psychs vid and the delusional thinking was spot on. leo really shouldve said more "I" statements and not just said "you" its just talking down to the audience. adeptus's whole im right your wrong thing was a bit silly but leo was clearly describing himself and his own experience in those statements, even with the experiences he had on 5meo being real and insightful.  dont doubt that. but, cant say leo wasnt totally unhinged, ungrounded, a bit all over the place. own up to it man. theres some real fucking kernels here that your not taking.
 i dont like the lack of critical thinking about this and the reactionary honestly ideological thinking on here about this whole thing...

I frankly know very little about Leo or Actualized.org.  I came to this place from a Google search about 5MeO-DMT, and Leo seemed to have a good deal of experience with the substance and some intriguing ideas about the spiritual implications of the psychedelic experience.  I have watched a few of his videos, but I find that I quickly loose interest.  They seem more like ramblings and he his slow to get to a point, almost like he is working out his thoughts on the fly.  I'm a college professor and so it is my job to take complex issues and present them in ways for the average student to grasp relatively quickly.  It isn't easy, especially when dealing with a subject that is well beyond most peoples experience.  I get that.  But when you have to sit through an hour or more to get what could be explained in 15 minutes, eventually many people just check out.  Leo is of course free to do what ever he likes, and clearly his style resonates with lots of people.
Frankly, some of Leo's videos do raise a red flag in my mind.  There is a cult like feel to some of them.  I alone can.... I know things you can't possibly understand...  These are the statements of someone deluded, and certainly not what I would expect from someone who was genuinely a spiritual teacher.  Byron Katie doesn't talk like this.  Neither does Mooji, Adyashanti, Eckhart Tolle, Ram Dass or any other spiritual teacher I respect.  I don't get a sense of much grounding with Leo.  But then again, I honestly don't know him well enough to judge.  It is just an impression from the limited content I have seen.  From my own experience with psychedelics I know how ungrounding they can be.  It takes me days, to weeks to feel like I have my legs under me after a profound trip.  I know how easy it is to fall down the rabbit hole into delusional thinking if I'm not careful. 
The biggest insight from my one 5MeO-DMT trip was being a human being is the whole point of being a human being.  Trying to transcend is really just a veiled attempt to escape our problems and the real experience of ego, the difficulties of life and being human.  Nothing wrong with peeking behind the trappings of the ego and having profound psychedelic induced spiritual experiences.  They have been of great value in my life and spiritual journey.  But the point isn't to live in those states, but learn from them so we can apply the insights in the human level.

So from my perspective, as an outsider of this group, most of what I have seen from Adeptus Psychonautica's videos are legitimate critiques.  Maybe done in an dramatic or humorous way, but still largely valid.  We can respect and learn from those with more experience that we have.  But keep grounded and watch for delusional thinking and echo chambers.

Hi @Leo Gura
It certainly IS amusing, because all the exact things you said in your "I'm leaving" video you now describe as signs of delusion - or is this one of those situations where it only applies to anyone who isn't you? I guess if YOU say that YOU are the most awakened person on the planet who has mystical healing powers then that's OK, but if someone ELSE said it then it would be delusional - am I understanding this correctly?
One thing I will say is that if I misread this whole thing as your attempt to correct for last years absurd bullshit, when in actuality you are sticking to your guns, then I can only apologise, and don't worry I will soon correct the record and let my audience know that you are still in fact completely delusion. Again I would ask you to confirm exactly when you will begin to cure all human diseases, and instantaneously solve every problem for humanity. If you could do it by the end of this week that would be awesome.

I thought I had made it fairly clear that I don't study your "body of work" because I don't think it is anything beyond a YouTube channel by an inexperienced and sometimes delusional young man. You are not some wizened sage who is worth seriously studying mate, and so I choose to invest my energies into material of a higher caliber.
For all the points below I am happy to go and get the actual quotes if you deem it necessary - but do I really need to do this? its all in the first video straight from the horses mouth. I think this is a big part of your problem - I don't think you even know half the shit you have said. That is why your content is so contradictory, but anyway here is some rough counterpoints for you to chew on. 
No you haven't been promoting psychedelic safety since day one - don't be absurd. Day one of what? Your channel? Was it before or after you told everyone to take 5 MEO DMT or they were wasting decades of their life? Where is this public record you speak of? This wasn't a big criticism anyway so I'm not sure why you are banging on about it.
Yes you did claim to be the messiah. You know when you say you are greater than Jesus, greater than Buddha, the most enlightened awakened person who ever existed on the history of this planet. The guy who was chosen by the universe to spread its highest teachings and gifted with the power to heal mankind - those are messianic claims you chump! 
In regard to the cult leader thing - are you simple? I have said about 10 times now that I DO NOT THINK YOU ARE A CULT LEADER. You do understand that a "cult of personality" is not the same thing as you leading a cult? Surely I don't have to explain the difference to someone as learned as you? So please... tell me again whose vision is clouded
If you didn't want to correspond with me then just say so you big soft shit. You were the one who started it with the laughable bravado of "IF YOU DARE", so at least have the balls to say "I changed my mind". You are like the guy who challenges someone to a pistol duel but then comically runs off in the opposite direction when they say yes - its really lame, bordering on cowardice to be honest, and not what one would expect from a god-like being such as yourself.
As for my unhealthy fixation with you - what can I say, there is A LOT of material here with you and your followers that just writes itself, and I think the bizarre mindset of this group is worth commenting on. Surely you would agree because you yourself have commented on other such groups, even in your recent video addressing the Jordan Peterson phenomenon - or is this another one of those situations where you are exempt... because Leo? I Think of it kinda like when SNL pokes fun at the ridiculousness of Donald Trump and his zealots, it works precisely because its true - and I'm sure it stings him for the same reason. The pretentious tend and egotistical tend to be burned most by ridicule.

Finally mate, you don't have the last word on what spirituality is, nor god, nor anything - you are just a dude.

Take care buddy

@chakra_7654321
All you're saying is, "I don't got game."
The solution is simple.
Approach 5000 girls. Learn game. It will all auto-correct as you go out and fail thousands of times. Eventually you will become so good that you'll laugh that this was ever a problem.
Move to a city with lots of girls and good nightlife.
This is not an issue you solve by thinking or talking to someone.

@Edvard A hallmark of higher consciousness people is that they behave more authentically, truthfully, honestly. So they will not want to pretend to act less conscious. That's something only a low consciousness person would think of doing.
In many ways Obama was very pragmatic and Orange/Green. He wasn't super Yellow and nowhere near Turquoise.
No, just the opposite. The truly wise have no desire for power, glory, fame, or success. They have no desire to win or to rule.
If what you said was true, then all the emperors of Japan would have been Zen masters and all the presidents of the USA would have been Nobel prize winning scientists and humanitarians. But that's precisely the opposite of what happens. The people who rise to the heights of power are usually the most ego-maniacal, power-hungry, Machiavellian, ruthless, and evil. (There are a few exceptions).
You'd have to be insane to want to behave like Trump on purpose.
That sorta like asking, why doesn't a university professor behave like a mental-retard? He could, but why would he?
The whole point of achieving stage Turquoise is that you see the entire cosmos as one interconnected being. There is nothing left to be selfish about. The self is seen to be a gross delusion.
I explained why he is Red here: https://www.actualized.org/insights/trump-and-spiral-dynamics
As President, of course he is killing people. The number of innocent civilians killed under Trump from drone strikes alone has been more in 1 year than under Obama's entire term.
http://www.newsweek.com/trump-has-already-killed-more-civilians-obama-us-fight-against-isis-653564
And, BTW, the US military grossly under-counts civilian deaths (of course).
The greater the ego, the longer its trail of collateral damage. Trump isn't even aware of the collateral damage he is causing, which is precisely what makes him so dangerous. He has no self-reflection, unlike someone like Obama.

Haha! all of y'all need to go back and understand that the ego likes to think it is 2 stages above so for the guy saying he was yellow at his late teens: Come on man be real with yourself.
 
You are not lying to us you are lying to yourself.
 
 
Arc

Children are overrated. 

I haven't been doing it for years. I've only done game for about 2 years in total. I spent most of my time working on Actualized.org and my spirituality. I restarted game recently because I entered a new phase of my life.
I also spent years in a relationship. I have no problem with commitment. I don't cheat on my gf.