My ex-gf had Asperger's. She was pretty chill and easy to get along with, although she had problems with people at work.
She was actually easier to get along with intimately than most girls, who are drama queens.
Asperger's tamps down the feminine chaos. At least that was my impression with her.

Just take a shit. It ain't complicated. But you better do it every time prior to plugging.

Any of the 15-40$ miligram scales are more or less the same. I have had the gemini20 which is the most common one in the "research" scene and right now I use the cheapest one I´ve found (15$) and I found it is the same accurate as the other ones. (All are made in Shenzen lol)
 
The most important thing you have to do is make sure you calibrate it well, and each time you are going to research substances, calibrate it again just in case. If you want total accuracy in miligram scales you would need to go into the laboratoy/proffesional stuff and those ones are ridiculously expensive. You´ll be allright with a cheap one if you remember about calibrating it, and of course do several allergy tests beforehand (doesn´t matter even if you have researched the substance beforehand, if its a new batch, always do allergy test)

I don't think an introvert can be in that state most of the time.
1) I completely turn off my mind. No thinking. No planning.
2) I consciously make myself very relaxed in my body and comfortable. Very present.
3) I force myself to approach lots of people and talk a lot.
4) Having fun friends around you helps A LOT. And then I talk shit with them.
5) Getting a few bad rejections helps build state by showing rejection doesn't matter.
6) I go to the dance floor and dance and enjoy the music.
7) Build momentum throughout the night by constantly approaching and talking.
8) DMT
It's much harder because you won't have enough interactions and there is no music, no friends, etc.
But during the day I find that state is much less important/needed. Just be chill and friendly and not anxious.
If you go out a lot for night game, you can easily carry some of that momentum/state over into day game from the previous night out. This is usually what I did.
Day game is actually a lot easier than night game because if the girl stops, you have her complete attention and you don't need to be some high-energy dancing monkey. You can just have a nice long calm conversation. You can't really have those kind of conversations in loud busy clubs. State is more important for loud, intimidating clubs where everyone but you is drinking and dancing with large groups of friends.

This isn't a humility issue.
I'm super introverted, but I have taught myself to go out to dumb clubs and just have fun with dumb friends on a dumb level.
Learn how to party. You can learn to put yourself into extroverted states. It's good for ya. Also good for getting girls and making friends.

Good. What you discovered is called STATE. State is the key to game. But now you need to learn how to enter state without drinking. It is more challenging but it can be learned. That's where the magic happens. Build up your state each night until you give 0 fucks. Then you will hook lots of girls, and the hottest girls.
You are basically learning how to enter extroversion, where you are completely out of your head. Extroverts can turn on state instantly. Introverts require lots of training.

Hehehe... the notion of "a reality" is a cultural bias. Not to mention: time, space, science, math, self, other, life, sentience, death, mind, brain, language, money, society, country, race, age, pain, good, bad, up, down, and intelligence.
You're grossly underestimating how deep the rabbit hole goes.

All depends on you.
For me waking up is the shit. You may feel otherwise.
It's too profound to speak.
If you understood it, your jaw would drop the floor.

Healthy suffering grows you, you learn the lesson from it and move on.
Unhealthy suffering you bask in and keep repeating without ever growing out of it.

There should be apps you can install that will limit how much time you can watch per day/week. Or only allow accessing YT during limited hours of the day, like 9pm-12am.

Absolutely horrible experiences. I did not fit in AT ALL. I'll definitely work to release that trauma, even though I think worked through it already somewhat, there's probably a lot to do. Thanks!
Yes, that's what I'm trying to accomplish here. I'm trying to make friends specifically to go out with them. The question is HOW! I mean I guess socializing and trying to make friends as much as possible will eventually get me there.
I've actually thought about volunteering in an association, yeah. Seems like a really great way to make friends, possibly for the LGBT association I went to. I'm very young, 26, so it's definitely up my sleeve. Workaway sounds great as an experience but I'm not really sure it's going to help me make friends here in this city.

You got really bad game. That's the problem.
Of course the girl was also probably boring, but that's less of a problem than your game.
YES!
Yup, classic bad game and simply inexperience. All this needs to be worked on and fixed.
Yup, this needs to be unlearned.
Yes, exactly.
And she felt all that too, because girls feel what you feel. So of course she was not going to sleep with you after that. Why would she? You make her feel unwanted.
The silver lining is that you are able to get so many dates in the first place with such bad inner game and poor social skills.
So the good news is, once your inner and outer game is dialed in, you will be getting laid a lot. You should be able to convert 70% of your dates once you are good.
You need outer game too. There is outer game technique to executing a successful date. So keep doing dates and learning from each failure. Failure is okay as long as you're learning from each one.
After each date sit down and write out how you will behave differently on the next one.
It's not enough to just blindly talk to girls. At the end of each night you must analyze what you did wrong and how you will act differently next time.
Yeah, you need to learn to let go of all that fear and truly enjoy the date in a relaxed state.
Teach yourself to relax and get out of your head. No thinking, just vibing and enjoying the moment.
Make your date enjoyable, so that YOU enjoy. Not for her sake but for yours. Go to date locations you enjoy being at. Talk about things you enjoy talking about. Why don't you talk about spirituality with her, or whatever topic you're most passionate about? Hell, you could talk about Runescape. Girls don't care what you talk about as long as you're passionate about it. You could talk about different kinds of cheese you like.
You literally need to just put yourself into a positive state. Practice it. Go out to a bar/club, then consciously relax and enter a happy mood. Start dancing to the music, start laughing, get comfortable, start talking to people, and get out of your logical head. Keep practicing this night after night until you get good at it. Then practice it on dates, before the date starts.
You can use visualization techniques at home to pre-visualize your dates and even putting yourself into a relaxed and positive emotional state. Do visualization every day for months until you got it locked down.
Stop getting frustrated and depressed, and start doing the inner and outer work. This isn't a matter of luck. You need to train in the proper ways to get the results you want. That's it. Once you are well trained you will get good results, and until then you won't.
You get out of negative thinking by doing constructive work towards your goal.

But she already told you that.
If she was attracted to you she would obviously want you to make some moves. She would even ask for it. But she's obviously doing the opposite. She's made you her gay friend.
You're failing in establishing man-woman frame with some sexual threat. For a girl to get attracted to you, you gotta present a sexual threat to her. She will feel that if she's ever gets alone in a room with you, you will undress her. This frame needs to be set immediately upon interacting with a girl.
Sounds like you're being too much of a nice guy and tucking your dick between your legs. This is a lesson for you to learn to be more of a man. FYI, when a man sees a girl he likes, he doesn't play games. He makes moves, he takes her. He doesn't hesitate or bides his time to befriend her. And any time she's around him he acts towards her with sexual charge. There is no option of being friends without sex.
A man cannot have girls as just friends unless he is already sleeping with other girls.
If you want to keep this girl strictly as your friend then you gotta go find yourself a girl who you're sleeping with elsewhere.

If her rape stories are true and she has BPD, then she's actually doing surprisingly well. Could be much worse.
You have to set your expectations based on someone's upbringing. She could have turned into a serial killer, you know. Someone with a really bad childhood needs to be cut some slack because their brain is forever wired differently.
I am very mentally stable because I had a really good childhood. But I can't really take credit for that. And that's not the kind of person who needs Teal's help.

It's just gonna make things awkward.

Stop thinking negative thoughts and just go out and talk to more girls. That's the simply solution. You can't think your way out of this situation.
Be very mindful of your negative thoughts. You need to learn to channel your mental energies towards productive action.
Move to a city which has lots of hot girls. Talk to them frequently. Problem solved. If you can't move now, start making plans to move and build the resources to move. This laying of plans will lift your depression.
The reason you're depressed is because you have no hope. And the reason you have no hope is because you're not thinking far enough outside the box and taking radical ownership of your life situation.
You are young and there are literally thousands of hot girls you can meet and sleep with if you really wanted to. But you don't really want to do the work for it. Hence you're depressed.

@Bridge to Infinity Right. That's very common for newbies. As you fail over and over again you'll start seeing patterns in how your needy and weak behavior turns them off.
It takes a lot of practice.
At this point you would benefit from learning a bit of the fundamental theory behind female attraction. Most important for you is correcting your sub-communication: your eye contact, your body posture, your tone of voice, your physical touching, your smile, your attitude, your presence, etc.
This is the most important part of game. It's not the things you say, its how and why you say them, and the things you don't say.
You can attract women just by looking at them in the right way.
If your interactions are dominated by fear, neediness, attachment, trying to impress her, trying to get her to like you, meekness, or being a dancing monkey -- you will lose a lot of girls.
It's important that your interactions carry a man-to-woman sexual charge/intent. When you look at her in the eyes, she should feel like if you are ever alone with her you will fuck her. This is very different from your typical friendly chit-chat. You don't need to say anything sexual, but your intent needs to be clear from the very beginning. Look at her like you're going to fuck her. You have to risk getting rejected. Those who don't reject you will hook hard.
When you are fearful, she can see it in your eyes and hear it in your tone of voice.
Work on your smile. Make sure you're able to smile a lot and on cue. Always open with a smile.
Learn to pump up your own emotional state so that you're in a good state when you're talking to her. State is huge. If you're in a bad emotional state she will sense it off you and react negatively.
The ideal state is playful, carefree, yet decisive.

@Swede Excellent points over there ! 
@RobinOntwikkeljezelf
Generally you want to fry as little as possible. Plant oils (especially nut and seed oils) are the worst for frying because they rancidify quickly and become free radicals (molecules that wreak havoc in your body, "steal" electrons, render other molecules uselesss and have potential to damage DNA cells). Frying produces acrylamides (in carbs) a known carcinogens. Frying meat also produces PAH's (polycyclic aromatic hydrocarbons) which when inhaled are again carcinogens  If you have to fry, use saturated oils (coconut, palm, animal fat). That being said you can use nut and seed oils but put them on top of your salads, don't fry on them. Bear in mind that 1 tbsp of oil has 120 of mostly empty calories give-or-take
EDIT: you'd be surprised that for most meals you don't need to fry on oil and can only use water. For meat products you probably do but for any plant foods, water is as good, it only takes a bit longer and you have to make sure to splash in some more every now and then to prevent burning
Wholegrains > processed grains. Gluten is only damaging if you have sensitivity to it or are Celiac, otherwise there is no evidence to suggest it being harmful although abuse of it may trigger some gene expression over years in those genetically predisposed and start causing problems. 
 
You are better of making granola yourself. Just mix (with hands) bunch of chopepd seeds, nuts, oats and some banana to keep it together and bake them for 25 minutes on 180 degrees and you got yourself sugar-free, chemical-free granola   Don't be afraid of seeds & nuts, your body does not use polyunsaturated fats from these foods to store in fat reserves (unless you significantly overeat), they are used to stabilise your cells and produce steroid hormones....saturated fats are more likely to make you fat .  Of course doesn't mean eating 200g of nuts every day, a handful is perfectly fine.  

Have you ever watched how Eskimos live and eat in Alaska, or in Siberia?
That puts a hole in your neat little theory very quick. Their diet is like 90%+ animals. And they have been living that way for 10,000 years at least.
Human beings are very diverse creatures. We have adapted to live and eat in radically diverse environments. We are omnivores, which gives us more flexibility than many other animals. We are more like bears than cats or cows. If you lived in the Arctic circle (as many people do, and have done), you simply couldn't survive there on fruits and vegetables.
Of course there are obvious no-no's when it comes to healthy diet, like no corn syrup, no trans fats, no deep fried food, no soda, no hormones, no antibiotics, no chemicals, no refined wheat, no ice cream, no McDonalds, no candy, etc. But there is a lot of variation as far as what a healthy diet looks like.
And on top of that, most people are addicted to decades of bad diets. So they cannot transition to an all-fruit diet overnight. They would require years of inner work to actually pull that off successfully.
Not to mention that most people probably couldn't afford an organic all-fruit diet. That would increase their grocery bill by at least x4. And if you don't do organic, it's not at all clear that all those pesticides won't eventually kill you faster than ice cream.
Human nutrition is a very complex field. The science on it just isn't good enough yet. We'll probably need another 100 years of research before we have a clear picture of all the good stuff vs all the bad stuff. But even so, it is still possible to eat a lot healthier right now, so don't let this be an excuse to eat ice cream.

But what kind of vegan is the question? It's easy to be a vegan while drinking Coke and eating potato chips.
Potatoes are mostly empty calories. They also bog down your body/mind and increase your sleep quota.
Health in food comes from concentration of LIVE nutrients and phytochemicals vs calories. Potatoes are mostly just starch & sugars. I do eat them though. They're better than wheat products.

@Max_V Drop your desire to gain muscle. Nature gave you exactly as much muscle as you need.
I haven't eaten wheat for years. You replace it with fruits and veggies and eating less calories overall.
Rice is a good source of calories. Or even potatoes are far superior to bread. Or bananas.

They don't care about your texting.
If a girl isn't attracted to you in the real world she will not respond to your clever texts. Text game is mostly BS sold to guys by coaches who want money.
If a girl is attracted to you she will tolerate very shitty text game. You'd have to say something awful to screw it up, like being sexually explicit or creepy.
The rules of good text game are simple:
Don't be sexually explicit or vulgar Don't insult or offend her Don't text too much or come off desperate or needy Don't be too gamey or try-hard Don't be too vague and ambiguous so she cannot misinterpret you Basically just be normal, chill, light-hearted, clear, and use texts to set up the date. Don't get too clever with it. That cleverness will backfire.

Well, that's a deep topic. But to me the therapist needs to have a deep grasp of consciousness and trans-personal psychology. They need to know how to think outside the box, not just blindly conform to some cookie-cutter psychoanalytical ideology. They need a metaphysical grasp of the ego, and some degree of personal transcendence of ego.
Without the above, the therapist is basically corrupt and deluded. It then becomes like the blind leading the blind.
Imagine if Jordan Peterson was your therapist. God help you.
Then again, it all depends on what your goals are. I am biased towards profound goals with this work. If your goals are more modest, like fixing some minor relationship problem or weight problem, then you don't need such a deeply grounded therapist. Some hack will do.
But if you're going to be doing psychedelics, you're gonna be more conscious than your therapist and your existential issues will be above the therapist's head. In this case the therapist will drag you down into her own delusional materialist "reality". For example, you might tell your therapist that death isn't real or that you are God, and she will tell you you're crazy. But really, she is projecting her own delusion onto you. Because in this case she is the crazy one pretending to be sane. She's just not conscious enough to understand psychological work at such deep levels.

I know I’m right about it. My eyes don’t deceive me. The mundane reality is much gentler and nicer than the falsehood.
People are people. And there’s literally no one out there who’s universally undesirable. 
And anyone who’s a 3 and above won’t even struggle to find someone, as long as they have reasonable expectations of finding a partner in their league… and enough self-esteem to put themselves out there.

If a man looks like Quasimodo, he will have issues attracting women no matter how high quality his personality is. Harsh but true. Looks can be a deal-breaker for women too. But priority-wise, looks are generally lower on the totem pole for women than they are for men. If a woman is given the choice between an average looking guy who has many great qualities and a super-hot guy who's a hot mess; chances are the average looking guy is more likely to catch her attention. I say chances are because attraction in never guaranteed because it is based on emotions, but more likely. But if Quasimodo with a heart of gold, pocket full of money, and all the best personality traits asked a girl out, she's going to say no unless she is equally physically unattractive, has very low self-esteem, or is only interested in money or social status. Biologically speaking, the drive is to carry on your genes through future generations. Unattractive father = unattractive sons and daughters = less options for them to reproduce (especially for daughters). Nature is harsh like that. The best thing a man can do is to make sure he's well-groomed, nicely dressed, and on top of his life.