Too late.
It took you 9 months to find your balls?
Well, now you pay the price. And the price is, no pussy for you.
Use the pain of this situation to drill into your thick skull to never behave this way ever again with a girl. Set a sexual frame immediately.

@ivory Lol, Southern California is Green. Not Oregon Green, but still Green.

It is what it is. Work on developing yourself. It doesn't matter what is happening around you really.
Take extreme ownership of your development. Stop expecting other people or your community to build you a staircase to heaven. Build your own staircase.
With all the books, videos, and resources available so easily today via the internet you have no excuse not to be at Turquoise. If you don't achieve it it's only due to one reason: you're being lazy and irresponsible.
You already have all the information. Why aren't you taking action? Why aren't you building a million dollar business? Why aren't you meditating 3 hours per day? Why aren't you working on your life purpose? Why aren't you developing powerful relationships? Why aren't you eating healthy? Why aren't you doing yoga? Why aren't you doing solo retreats?
Laziness
There is no cure for laziness but to get to work.

@Revolutionary Think You know it's very interesting. If the woman gives birth to the baby in a totally dark environment with no artificial lights and noises, no hospital staff and doctors, no drugs, no surgical equipment, the baby will be born without crying. It will not cry for days until something spooks it, like a sudden loud noise or a knock on the head.
Our society is so fucked up that as soon as you are born, it's already a neurotic dysfunction in the making: doctors poking you, shining stadium lighting in your eyes, making stupid noises at you, putting you into plastic boxes. And people just assume that's the only way life can be.
Watch out what you assume. You just might get it.

@RedLine Your mind is just not open, so convincing you is pointless.
You will never understand until you drop everything you think you know about reality.
There is no difference between subjective and objective.
And there are no others.
And you cannot use Ken Wilber's AQAL model to grasp the Absolute.

Even death won't really save you because you'll just reincarnate, and probably in worse shape than you are today.
So enjoy whatever comfort you can while you can because things are gonna get hairy soon.

@ShugendoRa The issue is: What daily practices are you doing? For how long? How seriously are you doing them?
Nothing else really matters. That is the key. Without serious practices you will never get enlightened.
Which teacher you listen to doesn't really matter if you don't have your practices down. And once you have your practices down you hardly need a teacher at all. That is the paradox of spiritual work. No one can do it for you.

Of course, that's the buying yourself 1,000,000 lottery tickets part. You buy a lottery ticket each time you sit down and question, question, question yourself.

Good! Get phone numbers, not Instagrams. And set up your date on-the-spot as you get her number. Stop pussy-footing around. You want results not bullshit.

I don't know. I have in fact seen this happen a couple times.
But it's always the physically "ugly" guy with the physically "hot" girl. Never the other way around
But I will grant you that generally speaking there is a difference between "average looking" and "ugly looking."
It takes an exceptionally strong personality to dominate dating (as a man) despite the "ugly" look, and so you don't see it that often, for sure.

Survival is a brutal business.
Be happy you weren't born a rabbit.

Take psychedelic and let it show you how beautiful you are.
The delusion is thinking you are anything other than infinite beauty.
What you seek is Truth. Delusion is what causes your suffering. Truth is Love, and Love will set you free.
Your fundamental problem is that you lack connection to metaphysical Truth and Love.
This is an opportunity for you to discover profound Truth and Love.

Embodiment is the bitch, and I consider it distinct from realization/understanding.

It's not a matter of openmindedness. I am extremely openminded, but years of meditation had gotten me little closer to understanding God or Love. If only it was as easy as openmindedness. One's baseline state of consciousness and genetics have a lot to do with it.
There is no way my understanding of reality could be what it is today if all I did was meditation or Vipassana. No way in hell. Like not even 5% of the way. Maybe not even 1%. That's my experience after years of meditation. Your results may vary.
I think a hybrid approach of hardcore psychedelics and hardcore meditation will yield the best results. Of course that's double the work. Psychedelics will get you the highest understanding, but they will leave you unsatisfied with your embodiment of it.

Because it is more physiological and I think physiological rewiring of the nervous system is more powerful in shifting one's baseline level of consciousness.
It is also more foolproof than meditation. For meditation to be effective it must be done with extreme rigor and precision which is very difficult for most people to execute on. It's difficult to be that rigorous even for me.
And also, for meditation to be effective is really needs to be done in intense, long retreat settings. An hour every day will get the average person nowhere. You really need to meditate for weeks at a time to get somewhere interesting.

I agree that psychedelics alone will not produce the embodiment we ultimately want. Some kind of daily mindfulness practice is still necessary and I personally do that.
I think a hybrid approach is best. Or, in other words, find whatever produces the best results for you. You can't argue with results.

To realize you ain't human

A mind that functions in a manner that brings unhealth. That is a loose definition I would use for mental illness.
Not quite the same thing as an abnormal psychology.
And becoming more conscious does fix  "unhealthy" patterns of behavior.
It really depends as far as how effective this will be though. I used medication for a long time and it got me to a point where I was stable enough to get off of it with my practices. I would not have reached that point without medication. It is still possible for me to get triggered, but it happens much less frequently and doesn't usually happen at all. If something is emotionally stressful enough it can happen though.
I think a mix of both approaches is the most helpful in dealing with a mental illness. And however this looks will need to be tailored by/for the individual.

First of all credit to Leo aka GOAT of Life coaching for spilling yet another truth on his ever-flourishing technology that is Actualized.Org by introducing us to 5MEO MALT.
Most people(egos) if they have discovered such a powerful tool, would have kept it secret & would have contemplated using it for their own good. However, he chose to disclose it to millions of people. If we don't call that Love, then what are we going to call Love?
I am surprised that some of the renowned Psychonauts are not even aware of this and are not talking about this.
5 MEO DMT is the holy grail that gives you GOD consciousness every time you take it so there is no need to discuss the obvious here. However, 5MEO MALT has blown my mind beyond imagination. It is the twin brother of 5MEO DMT albeit with some differences. I have experimented with 5 MEO MiPT, 5 MEO DPT but 5ME0 MALT leaves both of them in the dust.
Since I have been directly conscious of the absolute truth, I was reluctant to take 5MEO MALT despite watching Leo’s video a long time ago. What an unforgivable mistake that would have been.
5 MEO MALT is the perceptual version of 5MEO DMT as far as I am concerned. Let that sink in. A perceptual version of 5MEO DMT.
5MEO DMT at times will sweep the hell out of you, it is no joke. People who had that experience will know exactly what I am talking about. 5MEO MALT does not have that, it is a peaceful existence. A Mount-Huei Monk level of awareness.
What I loved about the MALT experience is that you are in full control at all times. It has all the best features of 5MEO DMT.
It is potent,
it has no after effect.
It is ineffable
It is simply a majestic experience.
For people who want to be Enlighted with capital E, I think this is the answer besides 5MEO DMT.
Of course in conjunction with the countless other practices like meditation, Yoga, contemplation, self-inquiry, and all the good stuff on Actualized.
Thanks again Leo.

22 here, I feel that, especially the pressures of survival. 
 
Wasted my entire youth on the internet and playing Videogames. 
 
It's either rise to the occasion or wither away and become a bitter victim. Wes Watson has been a really good motivator for me personally. 
 
Force yourself to develop clarity on what you want to create, and cut out everything in your life that isn't integral to taking care of your survival. 
Easier said than done, yes, but have faith.
 
Figure out what practice routines you can create for yourself to become world class, and do them religiously. 
 
My biggest goal in this chapter in my life is to escape wage slavery. 

Completely fucking disagree. 
Day Game is beautiful I love it. 
I don't want to sacrifice building my lifestyle & losing sleep for pickup anymore. 
I enjoy day game way more, it's more sustainable for me, less draining, expensive time consuming. 
Obvisouly night game is amazing too but you must have logistics money live near the club ect.. otherwise it's too costly. So Ideally just do both if you got the freedom to do it. 
Day game requires more bools and courage, grows you way more.
It allows me to improve my game, gain charisma and even gain some quick energy (overcoming approach anxiety and approaching a pretty feminine woman that you're normally afraid of, even when it goes horribly just makes me feel like a  man afterwards and I can plough that energy back into becoming financially independent, creativity business ideas ... (That energy of initiative, that proactive decisive bold energy) ... 
P.s : here's an insight > Whatever you think of as "Taboo & unacceptable" is really just your fearful imagination playing tricks on you ... I almost didn't approach a woman at work because "she's working leave her alone", turns out she was bored & she even asked me for my details as I walked off. Yes I will approach on the train too, I'll do it anywhere because why fucking not. 
Why would you approach every girl that goes by? You're approaching every attractive girl that goes by, even then it's not like "every woman", if you're doing it right you'd practice day game in a big city like New York where there's fucking millions of people ... No one gives a shit that you approached 20 women in several hours ... you'll probably walk past like 20,000 people in that time span just on one street lol. 
I'll probably do a more in depth journal about this but Day Game is beautiful that's for sure. 
P.S several women will always love that you approached them & they'll smile and be so happy about it, I can confirm this even as a newbie with no game. Those micro moments of connection are 100X Worth all the rejections. 
Anyway, I have no intention to debate on this one or read many of the comments because I know that Day Game is vital part of my growth & obviously developing game ... I'm not gonna just give in to the social matrix and like a self - conscious polite little simp go along with all the mainstream views, day game is beautiful and I will do it way more because of this

Acquiring power requires desiring power. The most conscious people have no desire for power. The same applies to the highest levels of wealth and sex.

What brand of cigarettes were you smoking btw? fellow cigarette enjoyer here. I haven't smoked a pack in months, but my last pack was marlboro menthol golds.
 

In short: Learn to cut it out of your life, learn how to sit in silence.
I’m only posting this video as it seems so many people in this forum seem to be hooked on digital stimulation. There are people who seem to be addicted to using this very forum! As well as the instant gratification provided to them by their favorite websites.
 
The video above offers a nice solution.

That's a good way of putting it. It's got a sexy erotic vibe.
5-MeO-MIPT is also very erotic. But much stronger body high and tactile enhancement.