But she already told you that.
If she was attracted to you she would obviously want you to make some moves. She would even ask for it. But she's obviously doing the opposite. She's made you her gay friend.
You're failing in establishing man-woman frame with some sexual threat. For a girl to get attracted to you, you gotta present a sexual threat to her. She will feel that if she's ever gets alone in a room with you, you will undress her. This frame needs to be set immediately upon interacting with a girl.
Sounds like you're being too much of a nice guy and tucking your dick between your legs. This is a lesson for you to learn to be more of a man. FYI, when a man sees a girl he likes, he doesn't play games. He makes moves, he takes her. He doesn't hesitate or bides his time to befriend her. And any time she's around him he acts towards her with sexual charge. There is no option of being friends without sex.
A man cannot have girls as just friends unless he is already sleeping with other girls.
If you want to keep this girl strictly as your friend then you gotta go find yourself a girl who you're sleeping with elsewhere.

If her rape stories are true and she has BPD, then she's actually doing surprisingly well. Could be much worse.
You have to set your expectations based on someone's upbringing. She could have turned into a serial killer, you know. Someone with a really bad childhood needs to be cut some slack because their brain is forever wired differently.
I am very mentally stable because I had a really good childhood. But I can't really take credit for that. And that's not the kind of person who needs Teal's help.

It's just gonna make things awkward.

Stop thinking negative thoughts and just go out and talk to more girls. That's the simply solution. You can't think your way out of this situation.
Be very mindful of your negative thoughts. You need to learn to channel your mental energies towards productive action.
Move to a city which has lots of hot girls. Talk to them frequently. Problem solved. If you can't move now, start making plans to move and build the resources to move. This laying of plans will lift your depression.
The reason you're depressed is because you have no hope. And the reason you have no hope is because you're not thinking far enough outside the box and taking radical ownership of your life situation.
You are young and there are literally thousands of hot girls you can meet and sleep with if you really wanted to. But you don't really want to do the work for it. Hence you're depressed.

@Bridge to Infinity Right. That's very common for newbies. As you fail over and over again you'll start seeing patterns in how your needy and weak behavior turns them off.
It takes a lot of practice.
At this point you would benefit from learning a bit of the fundamental theory behind female attraction. Most important for you is correcting your sub-communication: your eye contact, your body posture, your tone of voice, your physical touching, your smile, your attitude, your presence, etc.
This is the most important part of game. It's not the things you say, its how and why you say them, and the things you don't say.
You can attract women just by looking at them in the right way.
If your interactions are dominated by fear, neediness, attachment, trying to impress her, trying to get her to like you, meekness, or being a dancing monkey -- you will lose a lot of girls.
It's important that your interactions carry a man-to-woman sexual charge/intent. When you look at her in the eyes, she should feel like if you are ever alone with her you will fuck her. This is very different from your typical friendly chit-chat. You don't need to say anything sexual, but your intent needs to be clear from the very beginning. Look at her like you're going to fuck her. You have to risk getting rejected. Those who don't reject you will hook hard.
When you are fearful, she can see it in your eyes and hear it in your tone of voice.
Work on your smile. Make sure you're able to smile a lot and on cue. Always open with a smile.
Learn to pump up your own emotional state so that you're in a good state when you're talking to her. State is huge. If you're in a bad emotional state she will sense it off you and react negatively.
The ideal state is playful, carefree, yet decisive.

@Swede Excellent points over there ! 
@RobinOntwikkeljezelf
Generally you want to fry as little as possible. Plant oils (especially nut and seed oils) are the worst for frying because they rancidify quickly and become free radicals (molecules that wreak havoc in your body, "steal" electrons, render other molecules uselesss and have potential to damage DNA cells). Frying produces acrylamides (in carbs) a known carcinogens. Frying meat also produces PAH's (polycyclic aromatic hydrocarbons) which when inhaled are again carcinogens  If you have to fry, use saturated oils (coconut, palm, animal fat). That being said you can use nut and seed oils but put them on top of your salads, don't fry on them. Bear in mind that 1 tbsp of oil has 120 of mostly empty calories give-or-take
EDIT: you'd be surprised that for most meals you don't need to fry on oil and can only use water. For meat products you probably do but for any plant foods, water is as good, it only takes a bit longer and you have to make sure to splash in some more every now and then to prevent burning
Wholegrains > processed grains. Gluten is only damaging if you have sensitivity to it or are Celiac, otherwise there is no evidence to suggest it being harmful although abuse of it may trigger some gene expression over years in those genetically predisposed and start causing problems. 
 
You are better of making granola yourself. Just mix (with hands) bunch of chopepd seeds, nuts, oats and some banana to keep it together and bake them for 25 minutes on 180 degrees and you got yourself sugar-free, chemical-free granola   Don't be afraid of seeds & nuts, your body does not use polyunsaturated fats from these foods to store in fat reserves (unless you significantly overeat), they are used to stabilise your cells and produce steroid hormones....saturated fats are more likely to make you fat .  Of course doesn't mean eating 200g of nuts every day, a handful is perfectly fine.  

Have you ever watched how Eskimos live and eat in Alaska, or in Siberia?
That puts a hole in your neat little theory very quick. Their diet is like 90%+ animals. And they have been living that way for 10,000 years at least.
Human beings are very diverse creatures. We have adapted to live and eat in radically diverse environments. We are omnivores, which gives us more flexibility than many other animals. We are more like bears than cats or cows. If you lived in the Arctic circle (as many people do, and have done), you simply couldn't survive there on fruits and vegetables.
Of course there are obvious no-no's when it comes to healthy diet, like no corn syrup, no trans fats, no deep fried food, no soda, no hormones, no antibiotics, no chemicals, no refined wheat, no ice cream, no McDonalds, no candy, etc. But there is a lot of variation as far as what a healthy diet looks like.
And on top of that, most people are addicted to decades of bad diets. So they cannot transition to an all-fruit diet overnight. They would require years of inner work to actually pull that off successfully.
Not to mention that most people probably couldn't afford an organic all-fruit diet. That would increase their grocery bill by at least x4. And if you don't do organic, it's not at all clear that all those pesticides won't eventually kill you faster than ice cream.
Human nutrition is a very complex field. The science on it just isn't good enough yet. We'll probably need another 100 years of research before we have a clear picture of all the good stuff vs all the bad stuff. But even so, it is still possible to eat a lot healthier right now, so don't let this be an excuse to eat ice cream.

But what kind of vegan is the question? It's easy to be a vegan while drinking Coke and eating potato chips.
Potatoes are mostly empty calories. They also bog down your body/mind and increase your sleep quota.
Health in food comes from concentration of LIVE nutrients and phytochemicals vs calories. Potatoes are mostly just starch & sugars. I do eat them though. They're better than wheat products.

@Max_V Drop your desire to gain muscle. Nature gave you exactly as much muscle as you need.
I haven't eaten wheat for years. You replace it with fruits and veggies and eating less calories overall.
Rice is a good source of calories. Or even potatoes are far superior to bread. Or bananas.

They don't care about your texting.
If a girl isn't attracted to you in the real world she will not respond to your clever texts. Text game is mostly BS sold to guys by coaches who want money.
If a girl is attracted to you she will tolerate very shitty text game. You'd have to say something awful to screw it up, like being sexually explicit or creepy.
The rules of good text game are simple:
Don't be sexually explicit or vulgar Don't insult or offend her Don't text too much or come off desperate or needy Don't be too gamey or try-hard Don't be too vague and ambiguous so she cannot misinterpret you Basically just be normal, chill, light-hearted, clear, and use texts to set up the date. Don't get too clever with it. That cleverness will backfire.

Well, that's a deep topic. But to me the therapist needs to have a deep grasp of consciousness and trans-personal psychology. They need to know how to think outside the box, not just blindly conform to some cookie-cutter psychoanalytical ideology. They need a metaphysical grasp of the ego, and some degree of personal transcendence of ego.
Without the above, the therapist is basically corrupt and deluded. It then becomes like the blind leading the blind.
Imagine if Jordan Peterson was your therapist. God help you.
Then again, it all depends on what your goals are. I am biased towards profound goals with this work. If your goals are more modest, like fixing some minor relationship problem or weight problem, then you don't need such a deeply grounded therapist. Some hack will do.
But if you're going to be doing psychedelics, you're gonna be more conscious than your therapist and your existential issues will be above the therapist's head. In this case the therapist will drag you down into her own delusional materialist "reality". For example, you might tell your therapist that death isn't real or that you are God, and she will tell you you're crazy. But really, she is projecting her own delusion onto you. Because in this case she is the crazy one pretending to be sane. She's just not conscious enough to understand psychological work at such deep levels.

I know I’m right about it. My eyes don’t deceive me. The mundane reality is much gentler and nicer than the falsehood.
People are people. And there’s literally no one out there who’s universally undesirable. 
And anyone who’s a 3 and above won’t even struggle to find someone, as long as they have reasonable expectations of finding a partner in their league… and enough self-esteem to put themselves out there.

If a man looks like Quasimodo, he will have issues attracting women no matter how high quality his personality is. Harsh but true. Looks can be a deal-breaker for women too. But priority-wise, looks are generally lower on the totem pole for women than they are for men. If a woman is given the choice between an average looking guy who has many great qualities and a super-hot guy who's a hot mess; chances are the average looking guy is more likely to catch her attention. I say chances are because attraction in never guaranteed because it is based on emotions, but more likely. But if Quasimodo with a heart of gold, pocket full of money, and all the best personality traits asked a girl out, she's going to say no unless she is equally physically unattractive, has very low self-esteem, or is only interested in money or social status. Biologically speaking, the drive is to carry on your genes through future generations. Unattractive father = unattractive sons and daughters = less options for them to reproduce (especially for daughters). Nature is harsh like that. The best thing a man can do is to make sure he's well-groomed, nicely dressed, and on top of his life. 

I have not done much chelation lately because it upsets my stomach issue.
Yeah, that's not gonna work if you have a serious medical condition.
Good, keep at it. Keep the hope.
Elimination diet is not that difficult, especially if you start to see rapid improvements to how you feel. Once you start feeling good, it will be easy to motivate yourself to do the diet rigorously because you will have so much more energy and focus. I saw a huge improvement within a week or two of strict elimination diet and carnivore diet. It worked better than any medication or any New Age treatment. Strict elimination dieting basically saved my life. I don't think I'd be alive now without it.
Do not underestimate how important diet is. It's the #1 cause of and solution to all health problems. Invest a few years nailing down your diet. You will be so glad you did.

That's exactly the solution.
Go be around people of various races and cultures until you stop seeing them as other or weird.
Racism is very simple: it happens because people get stuck in a small circle of those who look like them and think like them. If everyone traveled around the world and interacted with people of all races and cultures, racism would disappear in a few generations.
People deliberately segment themselves into like-minded enclaves in order to avoid expanding their sense of self and realizing their oneness with all beings.
This is why people in major cities are less racist than those who live in the countryside. Because in a big city you are forced to interact with those who are different than you, but in the countryside you're living among your own kind, living in a racial/ethnic bubble.
Basically, stopping wanting to cling to your own kind enough though that is what's more comfortable for your ego-mind.

I would never assign such a toxic label to myself. I certainly started out being totally clueless with attracting women. I still struggle to attract the kind of women I like because my standards are very high, but I understand the attraction process very well now.
My game is decent, it's not great. Game is not my strength.
You can grow massively within a few years of serious going out and approaching.

@Preety_India Personally I don't like the label narcissist and I rarely use it. Because to me narcissism is just a strong form of selfishness which is the human condition.
And yes, demonization of selfishness is itself selfish and self-defeating.
It's actually pretty easy to empathize with a narcissist if you observe your own selfishness and self-bias. What is really the difference between him and you? It's a matter of degree.

Just realize that women alone will ultimately not make you happy. Took me 10 long years to figure that out. (I learned about pickup back in 2006.)
It is kind of like putting a band-aid on a sucking flesh wound.
I still find myself very much dependent on the approval of women and a few strong swigs of wine.
Just be careful is all I'm saying...

She's into you, but on a surface level. As she gets to know your personality better incompatibilities can naturally arise. Don't take it personal, this just means you two are not suitable for each other. Compatibility is crucial and you can't know compatibility within 1 hour of talking to a person. It takes time to unfold.
I've had cases where our personalities just clash and grate. She might be hot but her personality might be very lacking.

To be a serious philosopher you have to be super interested in contemplating the nature of everything. It's not about getting famous, it's about understanding reality. And if you happen to do that long enough maybe one day you will understand reality so deeply that you will generate some unique insights and that could make you a bit famous.
It's the same advice as if you asked how to become a world-famous weightlifter: go to the gym every day for many hours per day and lift those weights. If you do it seriously enough, long enough, one day you might become well-known. But don't do it for that reason. Do it only if you enjoy lifting and there's nothing else you'd rather be doing.
Philosophy isn't about reading books, it's about understanding reality accurately. Do you even care about understanding reality accurately? If not, philosophy isn't for you.

@Leo Gura
how do you define "amazing"? what are the key factors?
for me, compatible jungian personality type ... physical looks ... ego development ... no mental health issues

Most women will not overlook average guys. Most women will be interested in average guys. If you’re an average guy, your dating prospects are pretty great.
If a woman is attuned to her emotions and not her rational mind when seeking a relationship, she will likely become attracted to her match.
And since most women are average, average men will have lots of women attracted to them. In fact, most average women will auto-sort men who look like male models. Women seek their match.
And an emotionally intelligent man who’s oriented towards relationship, will be quite happy to be in a relationship with his match.
Now a guy who’s only interested in perfect 10s will be in a situation with women who are status seekers…. As both are just looking to trade status for beauty and beauty for status.
But this is not an enviable place to be. There’s not much love to be had there.

In general with any supplement or nootropic, I think it is good to take breaks. I never experienced a lowering return with maca root myself. Expect your sex drive to be high and consistent with this. I recall having sex 3 times a day sometimes on maca root. I would recommend only taking it if you want to up your sex drive. short spurts of a few days would probably give you what you are looking for. I found consistent use for myself to be to much. You will likely have a different effect from me though. 
If you are looking for a more mild testosterone boost, then ashwaganda ksm-66 might be a good choice to check out. 

I don't know what the heck is wrong with me. I do not at all consider myself unconfident and un-masculine in most areas of my life. I stay in good shape. I am aggressively pursuing an amazing career. My friends and family view me as a very wise and mature 23 year old. I have plenty of goals and aspirations. Yet, when it comes to dating and sexuality, I have absolutely 0 experience and my psychology in this area is a total disaster.
 
As the title says, I just totally lack belief in myself. The idea of ever being able to be romantic and intimate with a woman who I find attractive literally seems almost impossible to imagine. I'm being serious here. I REALLY don't want to sound like a hopeless and desperate incel because typically when I recognize that I'm operating from a victim mindset I can quickly tell myself self to shut the f*%$ up, man up, and deal with what I have to deal with. But I am struggling so bad in this domain of life. My biggest obstacle is that I am nearing my mid 20s and feel that my window of sexual learning and experimentation has passed. I feel that any woman I would try to connect with at this point is not looking to hold my hand and guide me through this. A 23 or 24 year old woman wants a man who knows what he is doing. I cannot offer that. And I am so paralyzed with fear in this area of my life that I can't even get myself to try. Why did I not experience these things in my teens like most of my peers? I truly do not know, it is a mystery to me as to how I even ended up in this situation. I feel so ashamed and embarrassed. But at the same time I know I am not a weak man. I may struggle in certain areas of my life but I will never stop aiming for something in this life and trying to become my best version.
 
I believe I am a product of a negative self-fulfilling prophecy. Years and years of wondering, self-doubt, shame, and very little action. I feel quite defeated. Like my mind has beat me, at least when it comes to dating. I don't know how to go about changing my mindset, and I'm running out of time. How can I ever find a partner if I can't even envision it?  It's now come to the point where certain family members, especially my mother, are starting to worry and become concerned. I'm sure my friends think it's quite weird too. This added pressure makes me feel worse about myself. I feel I am strong and independent enough to be fine and content on my own, but I'm not going to fool myself into thinking that I'm not missing out on one of the most beautiful and worthwhile aspects of life, like many weird ass incel and red pill guys do.

This point actually goes against you. If you seriously investigate the families of spiritual people you will find members in their family lineage who were spiritually gifted.
Genetics is not some simplistic thing.
Enlightenment is so rare that it's like expecting Michael Jordan's children to also be world-famous basketball players. That's not likely to happen. But there is no doubt Michael Jordan was perfectly genetically suited to play basketball and his children will get some of those genes.
And it's not like two enlightened people ever fuck. This is extremely rare.
It's obvious that spirituality is genetic because you cannot do spirituality as a dog. The only reason you can meditate is because you have the right genes for it. And if you didn't have the right genes no amount of meditation would ever help you.