More precisely: Self-Love!
Why would a woman want to sleep with a man who doesn't love himself? That would be so stupid of her, since a man is made or broken by his level of confidence. A man without confidence is like a horse with 3 legs.

No, at this point I just follow my feelings. I do as I feel rather than following any kind of mechanical rules.
With that said, today I meditated for about 3 hours. Because that's what felt right.

That's actually the wrong framing.
A spiritual woman would have too much self-respect to sleep with a guy who doesn't have his shit together. It's not about materialism. It's about having your shit together.

I was doing the Keto diet, but my fat levels are super low.

Below I attach my heavy metal toxicity results. I also take psychiatric meds such as memantine, Ritalin, and Olanzapine. Should I start chelating?

That is an acceptable texture and color.
Texture and color of 5-Meo-DMT can vary quite a bit. Depends on which lab made it. Depends on freebase vs HCl vs oxalate. But don't assume that all freebase or all HCl looks the same. There is still a lot of variety in texture and color. Some is like a very dry fine powder. Some is almost sticky and clumpy. Some is more crystal-like.
None of that matters so long as it's 98%+ pure 5-MeO-DMT. Which it probably is if it's 5-MeO-DMT at all. If a lab is capable of making 5-MeO-DMT at all, it doesn't cost them anything to make it 98% pure. There is little point in cutting research chemicals with junk. It's not cocaine or heroin which gets cut with junk by a long chain of middlemen to drive down costs. The research chemical industry doesn't work that way.
The biggest risk with research chemicals is if they accidentally give you the wrong substance simply due to mislabeling it.
5-MeO has a subtle distinctive smell you can learn to distinguish. This makes for a nice easy sniff test. It's not fool proof, but a good way to make sure it's on the right track.

I've done the toad. It's just a gross version of synthetic. Trip is the same. Just tastes nasty.
There is no reason to use toads if you have synthetic.

10-15mg is a good start.

It's way more fucked up and twisted than you can fathom.
Remember, your entire visual field is imaginary, including your body. Imagination IS reality. So there is no fundamental distinction between you imagining your friends, you imagining the world, or you imagining yourself. It's all imaginary.
You are thinking of it like this: "Oh, well, if my friends are imaginary, that sucks. That means they aren't real."
But what you're not realizing is that EVERYTHING isn't real. Real is whatever you imagine hard enough. So your friends are real in the sense that you imagine they are. But as soon as you stop imagining them, they will disappear. As will your own body.
So it all boils down to how unconscious you are of your own imagination.
See, Leo is a fragment of your schizoid God-mind. But you don't like hearing that so you imagine Leo is real, and therefore Leo is real for you, as long as you keep denying that Leo is imaginary. So the entire game of life is imagining shit while denying that you imagined it. That's how "reality" is created. Ta-da!
The only question is, how deep do you want to see the Truth of what you -- as God -- are doing? How deep can you stomach it? Are you willing to realize that EVERYTHING is imaginary? Or are you gonna cry uncle and play denial games? Since you are God, if you decide to play denial, there is no one in the Universe who can stop you. Only you can stop yourself.
Do you dare become conscious that you are imagining Leo? Or... is that too unnerving?
See, the problem is that just by telling you this I'm already spoiling your fantasy. But don't worry, you will fall back into the fantasy very quickly. Just stop listening to me.

Yes they will, if you use them right.
 

Watch me do it.
You don't know anyone because this is cutting edge stuff that has only been possible in the last 20 years. Someone has to pioneer it despite all the closeminded naysayers.

Do 100 trips of 5-MeO-DMT and you will understand.
I gave you a simple, empirical method for testing my claims. If you don't want to do science, that's not my problem.
My empirical method is very clear and precise for anyone who is serious. Until other gurus, it requires no belief in me. That's the beauty of it. It's pure science.

Again, be cautious. I am not responsible for your health or death.
But the nice thing with 5-MeO-DMT is that you can plug a tiny amount of it and just feel minor effects and slowly ramp up from there. So you should be able to gently inch your way up very carefully and feel if there is any blood pressure problems or heart problems. You can even measure your blood pressure while you're on it.
5-MeO-DMT makes my body feel good. It actually temporarily frees me of all my health problems. You just have to learn to surrender to it and then it feels amazing. The come-up only lasts from 5 mins to 15 mins. After the 15 min mark you will be tripping hard but the bodily stuff is behind you. Of course this assumes you surrender to it. If you resist it, oh boy... that might be hell. I'm too scared to dare resisting 5-MeO-DMT. Once that thing is in you, you better surrender immediately.
I can foresee some serious heart issues if your dose goes 30mg+. That's when your consciousness will become so infinite that your heart will melt and explode out your chess in Love. There will be kundalini activation and all sorts of crazy shit can happen. But I never go that far. I keep my dose to 25mg max. Which is still crazy strong for me.

Except my claim is that awakening IS a state. Some states of consciousness are awake and other aren't.
I disagree. Satori is a state and you can only achieve it precisely because you lost it to begin with.
If satori was truly permanent, you could not have been born as a human ego. The whole point is that God can lose consciousness of itself. In fact, that's mostly what it's busy doing.
You can argue that you never lost it, that you've always been awake. But to me this is silly. You were not born God-realized. Of course you were not born at all, but nevertheless, you believed for most of your life that you were born. Thus you were asleep. If you were asleep, then you weren't awake. And if you weren't awake, then whatever "permanent" satori you get in this life, you will lose at some point.
God forgets itself, God remembers itself. This cycle has no beginning or end.
The only reason there are unenlightened beings is because some enlightened being lost his permanent state of enlightenment.
Same goes for with it.
Yes, I don't dispute this at all. By all means pursue a stable 24/7 satori. I am.
But also open your mind to something beyond that.
Like I said in my Outrageous video, it's not about me being more woke than others. It's about reaching the highest understanding of reality. If you don't question the wokeness levels of your teachers you will simply never reach the highest levels of understanding possible. You will settle for less.
My concern is understanding/consciousness, not comparing myself to other teachers. The comparison is only there in order to show you that there is a deeper level possible, not to put myself above others. Ralston is very masterful, much more so than I. So I don't hold him as some inferior person. I respect him a lot and value his work. But what he says about 5-MeO-DMT is simply incorrect. And you can easily verify it for yourself. 5-MeO-DMT will give you a deeper awakening than you will ever get at one of his workshops or enlightenment intensives. This much I would bet $100,000 on. With that said, I still enjoy his workshops. He has a lot to offer. But you won't understand most of it until you do 5-MeO-DMT.

The question is, to what degree?
5-MeO-DMT can give you a such a satori that you will not even be able to walk around.
Just because something is stable and functional doesn't make it the highest.

It's way deeper than merely talent.
It's more like I'm telling you that you cannot fly because you weren't born a bird. The bird isn't simply talented at flying. The bird has hardware that you don't have.
Likewise there are many things you are not conscious of because you don't have the hardware.

Yes.
But, they will not be enough to increase your baseline level of consciousness.

Peter Ralston is part of your dream. So is self-inquiry and contemplation. Watch your biases.
It's absurd that some of you guys with the anti-psychedelic position don't realize that your "natural" awakening is mediated by serotonin. No serotonin, no awakening. So really you are talking about serotonin awakening vs lets say DMT awakening. And you are foolishly claiming that serotinin awakening is real but DMT awakening is not.
There is no such thing as awakening without chemicals. Get that. And get that there is nothing special about your current set of chemicals.

You will never reach thru manual practices the levels of consciousness I have reached. No amount of meditation will get you there.
To think you have or will is delusional and misleading to students.

I am talking about Absolute Consciousness. Not anything relative.
Psychedelics produce absolute consciousness. End of story. You cannot weasle your way out of this with clever words and definitions.
Peter is wrong, wrong, wrong about all this.

Doesn't have to be, but often is.
A fool understands nothing but suffering.
The wise awaken by seeking out Truth directly, for its own sake.

Ralston's awakening came from intense self-inquiry retreats where me contemplated "Who am I?" for 3 weeks non-stop.
And Ralston is a freak of nature. None of you here have his contemplation or focus abilities.
If you only knew how much work Ralston has done, your jaw would drop.
He's done over 10,000 hours of retreats.

@ivankiss I honestly think what you need is #1. You're way too insecure for #2.
You have that boundary, so you should communicate it to her properly. There is no need to deny that you have this boundary if you have it.
And if she said she has a history of cheating, then she actually needs you to set that boundary for her. She might even be thankful. Don't expect a girl to take charge on such matters. You are the man, you set the rules. Lead her. It will be easier for her if you are strict. Teacher her how to block flirting. Don't expect her to figure it out.

Here are two ways to handle:
1) Sit her down and tell her this: If I am dating a girl, I am not okay with her flirting with other guys. So if a guy comes up to you and starts to flirt with you, you need to shut him down within the first 30 seconds. You tell him, "Sorry, but I have a boyfriend." If I see that you are flirting with guys beyond this, we are breaking up. This is what I require from my girlfriend. If you are not comfortable with this then no hard feelings but we are not going to work out. So take some time to think about it and let me know your decision. I will be okay with whatever decision you make. I have no desire to control you, but if you are want to be my girlfriend then I expect it to be exclusive.
2) Just stop caring. Surrender your desire to control her. Let her do whatever she wants and you work on being a stronger man who isn't needy but detached. This should make her even more attracted to you.

Just cause you love a girl does not mean you gotta have her in your house every day. This is not healthy.
I love ice cream but I don't eat it every morning. And if I did I would get sick of it.
If you like a girl, create space for the chemistry to recharge. It's like you're draining a battery and never giving it time to recharge.
Not to mention that as a man you got other things to be doing than babysitting your girl. You need space to work on your life purpose and she should have something she's working on too, not just middling around your house.
Obviously do whatever you want, but I would urge you to think about how you might be shooting yourself in the foot by unconsciously following the "normal" path without thinking it through. Why do you need a girl living in your house? Think about it. Is that really wise?