None of this is biology. This is just some limiting bullshit narrative your mind concocted because you are insecure.
I know a 5'4" black dude who's my wing in Vegas who gets threesomes and white girls sucking his dick in the bathroom within 20 minutes of meeting him.
My other wing is Mexican and he gets laid no problem.

Look, every finite avatar of God is selfish as fuck. It's just a matter of degree.

Around 8 months ago I broke up with my first serious girlfriend.
After 1,5-2 years of a mixed back of beauty, connection, growth, suffering and dissatisfaction, it became clear that we were not compatible. Different values, life paths, desires, lifestyles. Bridging the gap through settling became increasingly painful. And so things ended.
Ever since the relationship ended, it has been a path of discovery of what I truly want.
Starting off with the vision to surround myself with five girls to experience abundance and gain confidence/healing in sexuality.. turned out to be exhausting.
Dropping that idea and kind of letting happen what happen…
To now having made the decision to open myself up to a deeper connection with a partner.
Throughout this journey, one thing has stayed the same. I’ve been acting from a way higher standard of integrity then before. Integrity with my inner wisdom. Integrity with my standards. Integrity with honesty and truth. Integrity with what I know is right.
For example:
One girl who I had a short casual relationship with started to indicate she was looking for something monogamous. At that point I did not want to be monogamous with her. There was honest and open communication and I encouraged her to let our relationship go.
A few dates in with a smoking hot girl, I started to see that if we were to enter any further, it would be the same dynamic as with my ex. It was basically the same situation as with my ex. Attraction, connection, but different values, mindset, life path. I decided not to text her again and delete her contact.
One girl I saw met up with for two times, but found out a guy I semi knew had been dating her for a while. Long story short, I had the opportunity to go for it, but decided after communicating with him openly to not pursue it and give their situation a chance.
There are a few more examples, but these illustrate the point well.
All good, great, nice, good stuff. This was all good for a while, taking it slow and all that.
However, now I’ve gotten to the point where I’m getting seriously thirsty. My body and soul are craving for connection. It’s becoming increasingly painful not to act on those desires.
On top of this, I’ve been investing a lot of time and energy in my life purpose. Therefore it has been challenging to even create the space to pursue my desires.
What triggered this post, is the fact that yesterday I went to an ecstatic dance. Great place to meet some stage green/yellow girls btw. Anyhow, there was this ridiculously beautiful girl who I ended up dancing and connecting with. Looking into her eyes was breathtaking… the presence, the radiance, the confidence. After we connected, I literally had to go lay down for 10 minutes to let my body process the energy. Now, 24 hours later, I can still feel her presence.
So yeah.. here I am, young man thirsty for connection.
Part of me believes that if I keep acting with integrity it will ‘pay off’.
Then again, the cravings are getting stronger and they are starting to manifest also in moments of being down and lonely in a way they were not before.
Just felt like writing about this, but am open to any advice.

Hehe, yeah, getting lots of sex requires low integrity. People with high integrity don't have lots of sex.
Now you know why integrity is so rare.
Integrity ain't free.

My life is infinitely better with no interaction with my narcissistic, belligerent, abusive father, who brings misery to everyone he spends time with.

My life is infinitely sadder with no or less interaction with my caring, kind mother, who never deserved the end she got, stuck indoors in a bed or chair after decades of helping everyone around her.

My grandfather had a dry, sarcastic humor and we argued sometimes, but he was somewhat of a father figure to me and someone I miss having in my life.
My brother does opiates; he's a charismatic, kind person unless he needs his dose, then he'll manipulate anyone and everyone to get it. So I see him but don't go out of my way to get entangled in his life.
There is no answer to your question, other than it is what it is to you.

The only reason I spoke to him is because he lied to me that he was going to kill himself. I spoke to him to save his life.

These kinda videos are exactly what Connor wants. He's just an online attention whore who will do anything for clicks.
Once you understand that, then there's no more puzzlement about his odd and ridiculous behavior.
The real story here is how social media culture enables this kind behavior with sick incentives.
The solution is to stop giving attention to people who do things purely for online attention. Not to give them more attention. But the social media sickness goes so deep that the people who cover Connor's antics are also fishing for clicks by milking drama. So here we are.
While all this is happening no one is actually realizing they are God. Such are the workings of Maya.

That's a very tricky issue. There cannot a guarantee of correctness. There is no formula for being right.
Criticism is often wrong or partial or misguided. And I am guilty of that if I'm not super careful.
With Trump it's just so obvious he is pure corruption. With most people it's less obvious.
The more epistemology and consciousness work you do, the better you will become at judging character and seeing corruption accurately.
You have to be careful that your criticism is fair and doesn't strawman or come from ego.
You will notice that I am pretty good at steelmanning perspectives before criticizing them. I can steelman almost any perspective. I can steelman Hitler. That is because I actually care about understanding others. I don't just demonize Trump, I actually care about understanding his state of mind.
A commitment to genuine understanding of perspective is the key to avoiding the criticism trap. Understand before you criticize.

This is really not about philosophy so much as raw history. If you want to know why Hitler was bad you just need to read a good history of Nazi Germany.
As for Trump, well, you also need to read about his actual life and things he has done like rape women, scam customers, racism, crime, etc.
The best way to see the "evil" is to just look at the raw acts of evil these people do. Look at the note Trump wrote Epstein. Etc.
You don't need advanced epistemology to understand that raping women and gassing Jews is wrong.
I suggest you read raw history just to get raw facts about evil people.

We have Oregon. Which shows you that leftist ideas are delusion. Oregon is the most leftist state in America. And they devolved into a drug den.
You can wax philosophical all you want but in Oregon your kid will end up a druggie.
Face the facts. Leftists done fucked it up. Stop blaming others and take responsibility for it.

There is a point because psychdelic states don't last. Meditation can raise your baseline state. But just because meditation raises baseline does not mean it can give you those insane peaks. The insane peaks are necessary to deeply understand God. Raising baseline is good for everyday life.
Well, I am not saying it's literally impossible. People with rare genetics can achieve amazing states just doing nothing. But this is very rare and not to be relied upon.
From my POV, I have experienced states of consciousness which no spiritual teacher who I've ever read about has spoken about. So that's why I say what I say. Does that mean no one has done it? No. It just means it's insanely rare and you will not achieve it using typical means.
Genetics.
Or just low dose

Scamming is a mindset more than a legal category. Owen certainly has the mind of a scammer.
One of the dimensions of clinical narcissism is exploitation of others. That's why all these PUAs are scammers. It really means they are narcissists with the exploitation dimension. They see no problem exploiting women or men as long as they can get away with it.
Pickup is the exploitation of women for personal gain. So of course.
You guys are lucky that my exploitation score is zero. Otherwise you would be so fucked.

LOVE is happening.
BEAUTY is happening.
GOD is happening.
INFINITY is happening.
MAGIC is happening.
GENIUS is happening. 
Go outside and look at the sun, the birds, the trees. Stop sitting in your basement like a troll.

No one dislikes Christians more than me. They are so dumb it physically pains me.

You are emotional and playful AND you don't care about any material outcome like sex or being approved of.
Play is an attitude of not caring about outcome. Play is for fun, not for an outcome.
You play with the girl without needing anything from her like sex, date, phone number, approval, etc.
Think of playing with a dog. You have no attachment to outcome.
You will attract more women being emotional feminine than aloof masculine. Women love drama and play. Aloofness is terrible for game.

Just make sure you're actually conscious of the truth of that and not just parroting me.

Useless without ambition.
You're gonna be disciplined flipping burgers at McDonalds.
No. Ambition is a personality trait. It doesn't change.
Ambition is the #1 factor in all success. Nothing can replace it.
The one thing all mega-successful humans have is ambition baked into their bones. You can't even imagine this level of ambition.

Of course.
There's no reason to be poor. Become a massive value provider.
Buddhists are lazy bastards.

Ambition is a beautiful thing. Don't poo-poo it.
Everything great requires ambition.
Unambitious people deserve no respect. Rats!

Tai Lopez's biggest scam was convincing the internet that he actually reads those books.
Bro, RSD is built on scamming mentality. Pickup is scamming women. Birds of a feather flock together. Pickup mentality is scam women for sex, scam men for money.

RSD Derrick is also an epic scammer.
People who work in RSD are traumatized hustlers, starting with Owen. The fish rots from the head down.
Why do you think Owen supports Trump? Hustler respects hustler.

When it comes to learning pickup, you need to learn the core principles of inner and outer game, but you reject the unethical scammer mentality and misogyny.
Just cut out the corruption.

Of course!
He will not leave office peacefully. He will attempt to hijack the whole government. They are working on it every day.
He will not hold back. And as the left pushes back more, he will double-down in his power-grab.
America is going full MAGA dictatorship. MAGA is too stupid not to try it.
Key insight: MAGA is too stupid to not create a dictatorship. They cannot help themselves.

This is the core problem with leftists. They are so utopian they need everything to be perfect for their plans to work out. And politics is never perfect. Which is what makes leftists stupid.
Leftist thinking; "But if only socialism was implemented perfectly, then it would have worked."
Yeah, well, nothing will ever be implemented perfectly and you are a fool for expecting otherwise. You should know that in America social and medical programs are not a thing and will not be our lifetime for complex political reasons.
Whenever socialism fails the leftist always says, "But it wasn't socialist enough and those damned capitalist ruined it."
You should be smart enough to understand that a capitalist will fuck up all your silly plans. A capitalist will rape and enslave your children. If you don't understand that, that's the problem.

It is myopic when you consider the realities and imperfection of politics.
Reality is, you decriminalize drugs and your child will start shooting up heroin. And none of your leftist ideals will help him.