Humans don't kill themselves because humans are survival zombies and know nothing else.
Survival zombies gonna survive. That's the one thing they can be counted on. 

If plenty of women sleep with a man that definitionally means he is attractive.
Great? No.
Many women do not sleep with unattractive men. This is a fantasy.
Just because you don't find a man attractive based on your high consciousness values does not mean most women agree with you.

Everything gets better except your health and energy goes to shit.

@Emne There are tons of programs and courses available which teach you how to get good at dating and flirting with girls.
It's like learning a programming language. You just commit to learning it and follow the tutorials.

A ONS is not about using a body for sex. This is an absurd framing. A ONS can be two people having fun, having an adventure, having a fling with no strings attached. You can relate with a person for the night without having to do something serious afterwards.
Often a ONS happens because two people are traveling and simply won't be able to see each other again afterwards. Or they just aren't a good match for a relationship. You can sleep with a person and then not like them as much as you thought. The sex can be bad, her body might not be up to par, maybe she snores like a pig, or whatever. You don't really know a person till you sleep with them.
Mostly it happens because both sides want to have fun and blow off some steam. Then the mood changes the next day.
And don't forget, girls will use guys for sex too. I've had girls I wanted to see again never even text me back the next day. It's not just guys who do that.

Hell, I regret not giving them a try when I was living in Amsterdam. But, I can understand how you feel. Don’t worry too much about it.
Ive had lots of sex. You don’t need to worry about it. When you do it and have the emotional connection it will be great. 

I'm not here trying to convince you of anything nor trying to tell you how to feel, but just remember, just about everybody have skeletons in their closet. Don't listen to people about moral issues. They have probably done worse things than you paying someone for sex. 
We tend to look at society's standards for what we think morality should be when the people making the rules are committing worse crimes and being more immoral. This is all relative stuff and at the end of the day, if you were really aware of the things you were unknowlingly contributing to by using your dollars, you would puke. 
Ever consider that everything in life has a cost and just because you're paying a stranger for sex, it doesn't mean someone who doesn't, is more caring or loving or less manipulative. A guy who lies to a girl just to get laid is no more or less any worse than someone paying for it. In, fact, to me it's worse. People use sex for their own pleasure all the time without regard for the other's feelings. At least, it was consensual, and both didn't expect any more or any less from each other. 
Don't be ashamed of anything you have done in life. Own up to it, admit it was wrong and you made a mistake, and try your very best to not repeat it, and in this case,.only if you feel it was wrong,.but not because some other person says so. 

Personality is genetic. It doesn't change. What changes is your confusion about your personality.
Personality is not just MBTI, personality is more fundamental and unique.
MBTI is to personality as IQ is to intelligence.

Introverts live in their minds.
My mind is more interesting than a nightclub.

@KoryKat Since you're an extrovert you probably won't be satisfied being alone.
Being alone comes naturally to introverts.
But of course there is an existential issue here with facing boredom and aloneness. At the deepest level they are not easy to face, even for introverts. I easily get bored. That's something spiritual work helps address.
Basically an introvert keeps himself entertained by creating a rich inner world that is way more interesting than the outer world. As an extrovert you probably haven't built such an inner world. Your inner world is lame so you turn to the outer world to titillate you.

@Emerald
Unconscious behaviour attracts unconscious people. Conscious behaviour works as a mirror and no person wants to see how much of a devil they are. Having integrous and truthful conversations with women is the surest way to lose them. The more you feed them fantasies, the better.
Trust me, you aint gettig laid a lot if you behave very consciously and mature, even if you are physically attractive. I am speaking from a ton of personal experience.
Also, there’s a lot of good looking extroverts teaching dating out there. I find that more common (and more of a true issue), unless you are talking about behavioural attractiveness in which case toxic unconscious behaviour is a turn off for a conscious woman like you but a big turn on for majority of women.
That’s the black pill reality of dating.
I get almost proportionally better results with women, the more unconscious I behave. It is sickening, and heart breaking. And probably not something I am willing to put up with for long anymore. 

I was never good buddies with him.
I knew him and I knew he was a sociopath. His friends are in prison for rape and he was banned from the city of Las Vegas.
Do you understand how bad you gotta be to be banned from the entire city of Vegas?

Absolutely, necessitating nasal breathing by way of mouth taping has honestly been one of the highest impact decisions I've ever made on my day to day quality of life (I was a habitual mouth breather as well).
3M micropore tape effectively tops everything on the market in my opinion, and it's the most cost-effective.

Looks are pretty important. Average guys can get laid with high frequency with average women by learning game. But to really date women significantly more attractive than you is hard, and usually requires some categorical difference in status (being a celebrity; being from a very rich country and going to a very poor country). 
You can engineer situations to increase perceived value temporarily through game, but to really make it stick and date out of your league, you need more than just game. 

Not in the internet way.

Correct

I actually wanted to avoid watching the full interview because I didn't want it to impact my mental health negatively, but then I've changed my mind.
I have to say, it takes real mental effort to not get depressed when hearing all this.

Steroid Mike is correct.
The interviewer is clueless.

Of course. That's why society lies to you about it.
And why I held back my blackpill episode.

But it is even worse than Steroid Mike says because he is wrong, you cannot improve your looks with surgery very much. He makes it sound like a 4 can become an 8 with a bit of surgery. No. That is fantasy.

He probably became one later in life. People can have their downfalls.
There are also functional alcoholics.

Desperate people need desperate measures.
An addict is not in any position to do serious philosophical work. They just need rescuing from their inner demons. This is good and proper, but it is not the advanced work we do here.
This is the difference between therapy and philosophy. There is nothing wrong with therapy but it is not philosophy.

No. It is a group for dysfunction people who can barely keep their shit together.
Such people are clueless about God. They are too psychologically broken to do serious existential work.
They are useful in the sense that if you are a dysfunctional addict then these groups can help you reform your ways, so you stop being a total degenerate. And then there is a chance that you can do some serious spiritual work.

Well, could be either, but there's less point in doing it later on once she is already yours.
Waiting 4-5 dates or a month is a long time.
She could definitely take that as a sign that you are uncertain or don't like her very much. She could even turn to another guy because she is probably horny during that month.
2-3 dates is more than enough.
But the best way is to read her mood and receptivity. You should easily tell just from how she reacts to you touching her how open and ready she is for sex.
Start groping her and see how far she lets you go. It's as simple as that. You should be groping her from day 1.

Why don't you focus on getting a girlfriend?
Go on dates and if you don't feel a chemistry then don't sleep with her. And if you feel a chemistry, sleep with her and make her your girlfriend.
What is confusing about this?