This is very different from craving it and not being able to get it.
If you don't want it then there is no problem. But don't kid yourself about not wanting it.
Also, as you get older you might want companshionship more, not less. Depends. It's hard to predict.

It is harder in that too many people live online and don't know how to socialize. That is a real obstacle.
But if you are out socializing it is not harder. The things that attract women have not changed and will not change.

Thousands, if you do pickup.
Your problem is not that you failed to hit on her. Your problem is deeper: that you interact with so few women that you care even a bit about losing that one.
The solution is to change your lifestyle so that you meet 20 new girls like her every week.
Do you think she cares about losing you? No. Why? Because she meets 20 guys like you every week.
The reason you care so much is because your lifestyle puts you in deep scarcity. You should be meeting hundreds of new girls each month.
BTW, this scarcity also makes you very unattractive because you are going to be so needy and clingy even if she dates you.

There is no hate.
Your view on this topic has been compromised from day one.
I have no dog in this race. Never have. I'm just a neutral observer.
If Hitler was still alive he would be taking notes from Netanyahu.

You have to socialize with many other girls.
Never place your hope is some girl who barely even cares you exist.
This is your wake-up call to change your lifestyle to a more social one.
I know the pain, but it comes from a fantasy. You don't need a girl to enjoy life. In fact, you will get sick of that girl and crave freedom. You can be at peace without that girl, but you built up such a potent fantasy of her in your mind that what I say doesn't seem true.
The mind is very powerful at spinning these illusions. The sooner you realize that the happier you will be.
There are a thousand other girls you can have intimacy with. Don't get hung up on her.

Of course the point of true spirituality is to obstruct your survival.
Spirituality makes survival harder. Yes, spirituality makes you not care about living or dying. That is the point.
Humans are survival zombies. Most of the stuff humans do they would not do if they were conscious, including having children, starting businesses, making money, and making art.
You are like Elon Musk asking, "But if I do meditation then why would I need to go to Mars?" The answer is: your idea of going to Mars is stupid. You just don't realize it yet. "But I really need to go to Mars!" Yes, you are stupid enough that perhaps only death can cure you.
The point of meditation is that nothing in life matters but meditation because everything else is a silly dream.
Do normies need meditation? No. It won't work anyway because it is being done too shallowly.

For me going to univerity/buying a course is the perfect blend of being surrounded by people mastering what you want to master, plus being held accountable to some degree.
But more fundamental than that is your inner game. Like, can you get satisfaction out of learning? Can you push away short-term gratifications to make space for a more mature way of appreciating life through learning? Going or not to the university is just part of your own plan. Maybe you need to learn other things before getting the most out of university.

Don't buy the hype.
AI cannot do real programming work. Not even close.
All this AI stuff is shallow and surface level. It doesn't do serious work.
I employ full-time programmers. No AI can replace them. The very idea of replacing a programmer with AI is a joke.

Programming requires such a different mind and personality from rapping that you will probably fail at one or the other if you try to do both.
Do not pursue programming unless you have a very technical mind and love to code.
If you are serious about making music you can major in various kinds of music theory.

This woman is an ex-escort and Madam. She has some unique perspectives on escorting and dating in general, definitely recommend her channel:
In some ways, I feel like seeing a sex worker can actually be more ethical. If you just want sex, now you can get it without having to play many of the manipulative games guys often resort to playing. Just pay and be done.
Also, some of these women make an insane amount of money as an escort. In just a short period of time, they can basically set themselves up for life if they are smart about it. They would likely never make that kind of money otherwise except for marrying into it. So they are securing not only their long-term survival, but also their independence since the money is hers.
But of course, I imagine such work has to take a toll on women as well. To be able to separate sex and intimacy that easily requires a certain kind of mind. Exploitation is also a concern, though there do seem to be some brothels that are run relatively ethically. 
I think the biggest concern for guys is that it just becomes a substitute for non-transactional relationships. In which case you are going to miss out on a lot of real intimacy. These women are essentially professional actresses. They do not have feelings for you.

Easiest predictions ever.
The worst is yet to come.
Trump is an absolute monster.

Destiny is pretty bog-standard pro-American and doesn't seem to have a deep empathy for oppressed people. If he did, he would be more like a typical TYT leftist. Destiny's views are pretty centrist. He's not a radical in challenging power structures. He's not a revolutionary thinker. He mostly speaks out against the lunatic extremes of the right and left. He's not going to do the work to really empathize with and understand the origins of terrorism.

Every major city has nightlife. That's where you meet girls.
You have been talking about this same issue dozens of times now for years. It's time to move on. I can't keep answering the same question year after year. You are asking the same question and not taking action on the answer.

@Natasha Tori Maru I wouldn't call it knowing. It goes beyond knowing.
You don't just know walking or tying shoe laces. It is wired into your brain without massive training and experience. It has become trained to the point of instinct.
Knowing is far too theoretical. You can know things intellectually but still be insecure about them.
Knowing alone doesn't resolve insecurity. Training does.

There are 2 kinds of worry: useless and useful worry.
Useful worry is when there is actions you can take that will change the outcome of events, like studying for an exam.
Useless worry is when there is no reasonable action you can take to change the outcome. For example, worrying about the exam on the day of the exam. This useless worrying needs to be eliminated by just stopping thinking about that topic.
Identify whether the topics you're worrying about are under your influence or not.
By stopping thinking about that subject.
Notice when you are thinking about that subject and just stop yourself.
Yes, it is helpful to reflect on your accomplishments.
But the very serious kind of confidence comes from way more experience, to the point where you don't even need to think about it any more.
For example, notice how confident you are with tying your shoelaces or with walking. You don't even doubt your ability to do these things. Because you are so experienced in them.
Your experience with girls is still very low. Which is why you are insecure about it. You have a lot of experience with exams, but a PhD is a pretty unique task so stress and doubt is expected there. Not everyone is suited to earn a PhD.

Imagine honestly believing that racists are caused by those who denounce racism.
That's right-wing logic.
Lolz
Sexism, racism, xenophobia, homophobia, transphobia, and domination are such primodial forces, they have existed caveman days.

This is an obsessive and mentally unstable person who was given many opportunities to correct their forum behavior and arrogantly refused to do so and even asked to be banned.
I will engage with this person and topic no further.
If you call yourself Jesus, this forum and Actualized.org is not for you, and I will not engage with such people.

It is the case that women want and need commitment. However, that doesn't mean you can't find women for casual sex. Many women will do casual sex for a while. But not forever.

Even if you go with the perfect player frame, eventually she will want more.

I tend to agree.
I lived in Innsbruck for about a year, and it was generally the most beautiful and welcoming place I’ve ever had the privilege of calling home.
I would assume Austria to be a rather hostile place for foreigners, though. I used to work there as a waiter, and even I was given a hard time by locals at times for being German. I can’t imagine an Asian person (or whatever OP’s ethnicity is) enjoying themselves all that much down there.

I am propably biased, but Austria is fucking amazing!

if i enter programming field at age 30 , how bad is it ?

I have not. But it is hard for me to imagine a pleasure higher than Infinity.
I have experienced suicidal levels of pleasure. It cannot get better than that. The highest pleasure is not physical, it is metaphysical.
The human mind cannot handle such levels of pleasure. It's not just pleasure, it's spiritual ecstasy, it's Absolute Love. There is nothing higher.
But that's still not why I do it. I do it purely for self-understanding.
The highest ecstasy is just a byproduct of pure infinite understanding.

I don't imply that. I simply mean it is not a good cost/return ratio for beginners. Perhaps for advanced practioners it is useful. But as a beginner focus must go on pranayama and mahamudra. You can always add stuff later once you are feeling some core effects from your practice.

@gengar Sorry to hear of your situation, man. That's very tough. 
You would benefit greatly from seeing a quality therapist to work out all that trauma and anger.
If you have a way to afford it, please do it.